My Soul Pleads For You Chapter 4 -- “Ha, ha, ha did you see his face” I laughed as I stumbled drunkenly along the pavement laughing along with “Yeah it was a picture I can’t believe you just did that” she laughed “Or me it’s normallywho does that sort of thing” I chuckled then stopped as tears came to my eyes and burst out into tears “Why did I leave him I’m so stupid” I cried into “Awww come onstop it you left because you felt you had to” she replied helping me walk along to my apartment “I know but I lied to him twice” I said “What do you mean?”asked “Well I said I'd met someone else” I said “Maybe you said that because you thought it was easier” “That’s not the worst of it” I said “What then?” she asked “I told him, I told him that I'd lost our baby” I said “What? So you’re…” “Yes I’m still pregnant with his child” I said “That was wrongyou shouldn’t have said that to him”scolded me “I know I shouldn’t have it was wrong of my and I wish I hadn’t of left him or lied to him like that but I just can’t go back to him now and go heysorry I made a mistake I want you back and oh by-the-way I lied about me loosing our baby” I babbled on “Well you can’t really do that I suppose” she said sighing “I’m going to bed night” I said getting up and leaving for my room. -- I can’t believe she did that I thought as I made a up a bed for myself on the sofa I'd have this out with her in the morning when we’re both a bit more sober I thought settling down to sleep… “you’ve really got to get hold ofand tell him the truth” I said as she sat there staring at the coffee in her cup she nodded her head emotionless “I can’t” she said quietly “But it’s not fair on him and it’s not fair on the baby either” I said “I know its not but how could I stay and look ateveryday knowing I was staying with a false hope of him loving me” she said “Do you really know that though” I asked and she shrugged “Just because he never told you the three words doesn’t mean he didn’t love you” I said “How hard is it for him just to say I love you too when I said it to him” she replied “It’s harder for a bloke to say it don’t ask me why but it just is” I said “Maybe your right but I also know its too late now” she said an drank the rest of her coffee “Its never too late” I said getting up and leaving for my house I had to leave her with that thought maybe she’d come around and go back to England into the arms ofwhere she belongs… To Be Continued...