Unfaithful Story Of My Life Searching For The Right But It Keeps Avoiding Me Sorrow In My Soul Cos It Seems That Wrong Really Loves My Company… “I’m back babe” she called walking through the front door placing a small holdall on the floor along with her keys she walked into the living room where she thought he’d be and there he was “I missed you” she said sitting on his lap and kissing him passionately or trying as hard as she could to put passion within her kiss for him “Hmm Nice to see you again babe” he said placing his hands firmly on her hips “Yeah business trips are such a downfall to this job” she said trying to look deep into his eyes like she always could but instead she only saw through them “Yeah but it keeps our love going stronger” he said kissing her again passion within his kiss for her he loved this girl with all his heart but she no longer felt the same him heart had fell for another… He’s More Then A Man And This Is More Then Love The Reason That The Sky Is Blue But The Clouds Are Rolling In Because I’m Gone again And Too Him I just Can’t Be True… ~*~~*~ I missed her when she went away on her “Business trips” I knew where she really went she went to see him to spend a little time with her lover I knew so much about it and yet I still couldn’t let her go I couldn’t tell her we were over because I knew she was kissing another man I loved her way to much even though what she was doing made my heart die a little every time she stepped out the door knowing there was a possibility she would go to him “I’ve got a few weeks off babe” she said with a cheeky grin “Well I’m gonna do something special then” I said getting her to get up from lap and walking out the door I booked us both a holiday in Italy just the two of us that way she’ll be away from him all her love and attention will have to be on me she can’t just nip out the door and get in her car she’d have to get a plane back here… And I Know That He Knows I’m Unfaithful And It Kills Him Inside To Know That I Am Happy With Some Other Guy I Can See Him Dying… ~*~~*~ “I wonder what he’s doing” I thought with curiosity as he left the room my phone went off in my pocket I took it out and flipped it open “Missing you loads babe wish you were back here in my arms love you, you know who” I smiled to myself and flipped my phone back down putting in my pocket I smiled to myself as came back in the room “Pack your bags” he said and I got shocked what did he know “What?” I asked sitting up “We’re going on holiday I booked a flight to Tuscany in Italy for tomorrow” he said and I smiled and ran up to him hugging him “Thanks babe you’re the best” I said and kissed him before going up stairs to pack I can’t believe him booking a holiday to Italy like that its sweet of him I thought shutting the suitcases I got my phone out my pocket “You’ll never guessbooked a holiday for us in Tuscany this week I’ll be able to see you babe we’ll have to meet up somehow love you” I text him and put it back in my pocket a smile beamed from ear to ear I wouldn’t have to stay that far away from his love… I Don’t Wanna Do This Anymore I Don’t Wanna Be The Reason Why Every time I Walk Out The Door I See Him Die A Little More Inside I Don’t Wanna Hurt Him anymore I Don’t Wanna Take Away His Life I Don’t Wanna Be A Murderer… We’d been on holiday for two days now I just walked out of the apartment we were staying in to go for a walk while he was still sleeping and to get some things from the shop I found the nearest shop and went in picking up a basket on my way I filled it with the things we had ran out of before going to the check-out I loaded all the things onto the conveyer belt and waited when I felt someone tap my shoulder I turned around to face the culprit “Thought I recognised that ass” he said cheekily as I broke into a smile and hugged him “Missed you babe” he said “I’ve missed you too” I replied “Come back to my apartment for a bit” he whispered in my ear I smiled and nodded before turning back to sort my shopping out I waited for him to finish and walked with him back to his “You’re staying two apartments away from me” I said shocked “I am?” he asked and I nodded “Sneaking about won’t be that hard then” he said opening his door as we both walked in putting our bags down he grabbed me and kissed me with the passion that naturally sparked between us “I can’t be without you babe” he said stroking my cheek “I know but I can’t leave him” I replied “Why?” he asked “Because he’s madly in love with me even if I’m madly in love with you” I said looking into his eyes I started to drown into them “But you’ll be unhappy if you stay” he said and I nodded I knew he was right “I can make all you dreams come true and make you the happiest woman alive” he told me and I knew it was true “I’ll see you soon” I said and got out of his apartment back to mine I got in andhad only just come out of our room as I was putting the stuff in the fridge… That week went well to fast I’d been having too much fun sneaking away to notice the days were just passing my by and I hadn’t done much here in Italy I was now back in our house in England my phone was ringing I picked it up “Hello?” he asked “Fancy telling your man you’re hanging out with the girls tonight?” the males voice said down the phone “More then anything see you about 8.30” I said “See you then my sweet thang” he replied and hung up “Kyle babe I’m going out with the girls tonightjust called me ok” I said as he walked down the stairs “Oh alright” he said in a low tone as if he didn’t believe me that much “I better get ready then” I said running upstairs to take a shower something doesn’t feel right I know it I thought as I was drying my hair in the mirror and styling it… I Feel It In The Air As I’m Doing My Hair Preparing For another Date A Kiss Upon My Cheek As He Reluctantly Accepts I’m Gonna Be Out late I Say I Won’t Be Long Just Hanging With The Girls A Lie I didn’t Have To Tell Because We Both Know Where I’m About To Go And We Know It Very Well… “Won’t be long babe” I said kissing him and going out the door to my car I looked back through the window and saw him take a bottle of scotch we kept in the cupboard into his hands I shook the thought out of my head and drove to his place… And I Know That He Knows I’m Unfaithful And It Kills Him Inside To Know That I Am Happy With Some Other Guy I Can See Him Dying… “Good to have you in my arms once again” I said kissing passionately as I he let me into his house “Something’s wrong babe” he said breaking away from me and looking into my eyes “No its not” I replied “Yes it is I know you better then anyone ever could what is it” “I think he knows I’ve just got that feeling” I replied “Tell him let him know and be with me” he said between giving me kisses on my neck “I can’t babe I’d love to but I can’t and what we have is a fling how can I be so sure that if I leave him you’ll stay with me forever and stay faithful?” I asked “Because I love you more then anything it kills me inside every time you walk out the door back to him”said looking deeply into my eyes I drowned into his gorgeous eyes the ones that always stayed true to me he broke our eye contact by kissing my before taking me into his arms and to the bedroom where we made passionate love for hours expressing our love as much as we could to each other “I hope to see you soon babe and I hope to keep you” he said as I left his house at the early hours of the morning “We’ll see” I said before getting into my car and driving off… I Don’t Wanna Do This Anymore I Don’t Wanna Be The Reason Why Every time I Walk Out The Door I See Him Die A Little More Inside I Don’t Wanna Hurt Him anymore I Don’t Wanna Take Away His Life I Don’t Wanna Be A Murderer… I crept into bed next toand fell asleep thinking about’s words “Babe” I felt someone rocking me awake I flickered my eyes open and sawthere with a tray “Breakfast in bed for my sleepy head” he said and I smiled “Awww babe thanks you didn’t have to go to so much trouble” I replied “It’s nothing yet I’m taking you our to dinner tonight” he said “Oooh lucky me” I said eating some food “You sure are” he said and left the room… “Ready babe?” he asked popping his head round the door “Yeah” I replied and went to walk out “Wow your looking stunning babe” he said and kissed me quickly “Look pretty fly yourself” I replied as we got into his car and he drove us to the restaurant we enjoyed a lovely meal together talking like old times and laughing “I really would love it if you would become my wife” he said suddenly bending down on one knee I was shocked and smiled at first then it faded as I remember who really had a hold of my heart Our Love His trust I Might As Well Take A Gun And Put it Too His Head Get It Over With I Don’t Wanna Do This Anymore…Anymore Here comes the bullet I thought as I sighed to myself “No” I came out with and his smile dropped “Why not I love you, you love me is perfect come on baby” he said trying to put the ring on my finger “NO” I yelled snapping my hand away “Why not please babe” he said “I can’t because I’m in love with someone else” I said and ran off I kept on running till I’d managed to run all the way back to my house “are you home cos I’m coming to yours” I said down the phone to him trying to catch my breath “What’s the matter babe you sound out of breath” “I’ll explain later” I said and hung up I threw all my possessions into a few bags and took them out to my car I put the last one in when ’s car pulled up he got out and walked straight past me “I hope your happy” he said and went inside I sped over to's and knocked on the door holding the bag I normal take when I stay with him “Can you help me with my stuff?” I asked and a huge smile crept across his face as he swept me up into his arms I dropped the bag I was holding and kissed him “Finally you came to your senses” he said and I nodded “And of course I’ll help you” he said and walked to my car I explained the whole story to him and he smiled through it “I’m glad I can call you mine now” he said as we cuddled in bed that night “I’m happy I don’t have to be unfaithful anymore” I said and kissed him goodnight this was the way it was always meant to be… I Don’t Wanna Do This Anymore I Don’t Wanna Be The Reason Why Every time I Walk Out The Door I See Him Die A Little More Inside I Don’t Wanna Hurt Him anymore I Don’t Wanna Take Away His Life I Don’t Wanna Be A Murderer… Police found a bullet through’s head the next morning when a neighbour had heard a gun shot a note led beside him saying “I’d die without your love” I don’t wanna be a murderer… The End