How Do I? ~*~~*~ Why did I lie? I asked myself as I led back on my bed restless I hadn’t fallen out of love with at all its been nearly a whole year and I haven’t seen her much either but every time I do the strongest feeling hits me and I wish I could stop this pain I want to hold her in my arms again I wondered if she felt the same I sighed heavily as I got up grabbing my jacket I went for a walk but every where I looked was a memory… There she goes once again The ghost of our love, its making me shiver It’s only small drops of pain But even the rain turns onto rivers I skimmed stones across the lake I was close to the edge I waited for the ripples to cease but when they did another one started I looked around nothing was around that would’ve have made them ripples there was no wind I saw it happen again I rubbed my eyes that were becoming sore and realised it was me making them ripples it were my tears that had fallen from my eyes and I had no control over them as I let the fall and watched the ripples on the lake grow wide then cease…Thought I’d be safe, living behind this wall But the pressures too much. And it’s starting to fall Sighing again to myself which I had been doing a lot lately I left that memory behind me as I walked away from the memory of whereand I used to have romantic picnics beside the lake I walked through the park and saw couples kissing some watching over children how I wished that to beand I one day but it wouldn’t ever be would it? A cute black Labrador ran up to me barking and panting I bent down to stroke the dog that seemed friendly “I’m so sorry he doesn’t usually do this” a familiar voice was heard I looked up as I slowly stood back up and saw her I was stood face to face with her as she clipped the dogs lead back on “I have to go” she said quietly and walked away she looked back at me as a tear escaped my eye and I saw one escape from hers two…So how do I get over you How do I survive living half the life that I knew? Oh how do I get over you? When you take away Everything I held to be true I wonder if you feel it to, do you? I hadn’t imagined it had I? No I hadn’t I really had seen that tear fall from her eye I didn’t know she had gotten a dog but why did he run up to me? Was it something to do with pet’s instinct? ~*~~*~ “Why run to him of all people Scooby?” I asked him with anger in my voice I never usually spoke to him that way but he had hurt me deeply I got in the front door and let him off of his lead before slumping down in a chair Scooby came up to me realising I was upset “I’m ok” I said hugging him “You don’t understand what happened withthat man you ran up to but why did you run up to him do you know something I don’t?” I asked smoothing his ears I saw the red light flashing on my answering machine “HelloitsI hope your doing ok are you? It’s lovely living in Spain the whether is amazing you should come and visit I’ll send you a plane ticket and everything sometime next week I’ve already paid for it just show up it’ll help you keep your mind off ofI know you still think so much about him all my love” I picked up the phone and dialled the international number that she had given me “I was hoping you’d call me back”said picking up the phone “I had to” I said as a lump formed in my throat making my voice sound slightly different “What’s wrong?”asked “Well I took Scooby for a walk as usual and I let him off of his lead for a while so he could run around in the park a bit and you know he doesn’t usually run up to strangers” I said “Yeah”responded “Well he did today and it was none other thanand he didn’t look good either well obviously he still looked hot but he seemed still so upset like I do” “You know if you ask me you have one clever dog” said making me laugh slightly “I most do maybe he senses something bothand I don’t anyway I need that break to Spain so are you sure?” I asked her “Of course I’m sure I’ll send the stuff over right away”said “Thanks so much” I said “Your welcome anyway I’d love to stay and chat but if you want that stuff as soon as possible I better go sort some things out you just go and pack love ya Hun bye” “Bye” I replied and hung up you see afterandsplit she moved to Spain to start a new life but I couldn’t do that I had so much to do in England first… “It’s so good to see you”said as I met her in Spain at the airport “And you I’ve missed you so much” I said hugging her “well come on its nearly sunset and the sunset here is beautiful you’ve got to go down to the beach after we’ve got your stuff back at mine and see it ok” said I laughed “Yeah ok” I said and followed her “Wow nice Villa” I said looking around “Look around later come on” she said grabbing my hand and running down to the beach near-by we chatted about what had happened since she’d been gone as we watched the sunset which was indeed beautiful and waves in the ocean lapped over each other it was the only sound to be heard right now I walked nearer the ocean and let a tear drop in the sea “The day you find the tear I dropped in the ocean is the day I’ll stop loving you” I whispered even being in a foreign country didn’t help at all everything was still a memory “I’m tired now mind if we go back to the Villa I need to get some sleep” I said yawning “Sure”said and we walked back to her Villa “Night Hun” she said “Night” I replied going into my room…Every time that I turn there’s something there Something to remind me When I sleep its alone, still I reach out As if you beside me Thought I’d be safe, I tried to find somewhere new But everything I did Is something we used to do ~*~~*~ I’ve had enough I’ve got to get her back I don’t care what she says I need her in my life I can’t move on without her in it, its impossible the best days of my life we with her I got out of my house and went to hers and banged on the door “Sorry mate if you’re looking forshe’s in Spain on holiday” her neighbour said “When will she be back?” I asked “Two weeks” he replied that’s two weeks to long I’m going over there “Thanks” I said and walked off back home I booked a ticket and a room in a hotel and before I knew it was sat back in a plane…So how do I get over you How do I survive living half the life that I knew? Oh how do I get over you? When you take away Everything I held to be true I wonder if you feel it to, do you? By the time I got to Spain it was morning there I hadn’t a clue where to look first I’d search the whole of Spain until I found her I thought as I checked into the hotel I thoughtwhere would she be then it clicked how much she loved to go to the beach I put on some more appropriate clothes and headed down to the beach I looked everywhere until I heard the heavenly familiar laughter… ~*~~*~ “No way” I said listening to some of’s stories of the guys here in Spain “There chat up lines are worse then the ones in England”said as we both giggled “Do you hear that?"asked I listened carefully I could hear somethingSeems like every place, every person we knew Every sound every taste, reminds me of you I turned around and saw the one person I’d least expected to see I couldn’t move or say anything as he came up to me and took my hands as he carried on singingI thought this would be gone, But it’s still so strong I keep holding on What else could I do? So how do I get over you? How do I survive living half the life that I knew? Oh how do I get over you? When you take away Everything I held to be true I wonder if you feel it to, do you? “And don’t tell me you don’t because I know you do”said as I stared at him “I can’t lie” I said and fell into his arms crying “Told you, your dog was clever”said smiling “What?” I said “I knew you two being apart wouldn’t last even when I lived here I knew you two wouldn’t be able to go on without each other by your sides so I took you away from,and now you’ve both realised”said “You’re so sneaky you know that I bet you trained Scooby when he was a puppy to run up toif he saw him” I replied “You’ll never know now are you two going to kiss and piece your hearts back together or am I going to have to bang your heads together”said putting her hands on her hips making and I laugh slightly I turned back toLee and looked deep into his eyes drowning in them before I felt his lips dance with mine.I Wonder if you feel it to, do you? The End!