My God is so awesome. He answers my prayers and it amazes me when he does. I am totally unworthy. Why does he answer my prayers? I do not have the answer. I do know I pray faithfully every night. Sometimes I think I am too tired, but you see I also have a healthy fear of God so no matter how tired I am I say my prayers. Deuteronomy 4:10 especially concerning the day you stood before the Lord your God in Horeb, when the Lord said to me, "Gather the people to Me, and I will let them hear My words, that they may learn to fear Me all the days they live on the earth, and that they may teach their children."

I hope my web site will be a blessing to you. . Let me tell a little bit about myself. Why am I doing this? I am a baby Christian. I have been a Christian since 1997. I cannot tell you the exact day it happened. It happened at church at the altar. I thought I had been saved as a child. I had been baptized as a child. This time I knew I was saved. It changed my whole life. I was baptized again. I wanted to do it right this time. I think when I was a child  you got baptized because other friends did. We never really knew what it meant or how we should feel.

I am sixty four now. It is the beginning of the year 2009. The above was written about many years ago. It seems a lifetime ago. I am still learning and will continue to learn until it is time for me to leave this world. It is never too late to start living for Jesus. I wish I had not let the devil steal my joy for so many years.

I have recently separated from my husband. This is not what I wanted and have fought tooth and nail the last 13 years to save. My husband is an alcoholic. Yes I have prayed and prayed for him to change. God will not change someone who does not want to change. He quit drinking for six years while he was on probation for a DUI. He went to church all of those years. He played the part. He talked the talk, but in private he did not walk the walk. I kept praying. First he stopped taking his bible to church. Then he eventually stopped going to church. When his probation was over he was drinking within two weeks. He drank with a vengeance. It was like he had to make up for the six years he didn’t drink. He stayed out half the night or all night. Wanted to sleep all day. Women were calling the house. I didn’t know what to do. I had no money and no job. I had been sending out resumes with no luck. I saw an ad in the paper for a security job. I decided I could do that. I waited a week because I really did not want to go to work. Things were getting worse at home. I had to go into town. On the way back I decided to drop off the application. God was in this all the way. The girl asked me to have a seat. I did. In a few minutes the owner walked out and headed for the door. He spoke and I smiled. He got to the door and looked back. I said you do not know who I am, do you? He said no. He walked over and I told him who I was. He hugged me. We talked a few minutes and then he asked what I was doing there. I told him I was looking for a job. He looked funny. He said “Wait here”. He left. In a couple of minutes he came back and said come talk to Sandy (his wife). She had my resume’. She told me she had a job that she had not advertised for because she wanted someone she knew. She looked at the calendar and said can you start the 14^th. She hired me on the spot, not for a security officer, but for accounting in the office 8 to 5 five days a week at twice the salary. Now I did not know for a couple of weeks after I went to work that they are only in town two days a week. If I had not been there on that day at that time I would never have known about that job. What I haven’t told you yet is that I went to school with both of them. We also double dated when we were in school. They are wonderful to work for. No one will ever convince me that God did not direct me there. He made a way for me to get out of the situation I was in. The weekend before I went to work I had my son come over and change all of the locks and I packed my husbands clothes. He stayed out all night the day we changed the locks. When he came home I gave him his clothes and he left. I am not recommending divorce. The bible tells us God hates divorce. I do believe I gave this marriage every chance for 12 ½ years. The circumstances just became unbearable. I believe God wanted me to get out or He would not have made a way for me to get out. My husband chose a life that is way below the way he was living. He would rather be with his drunken friends than at home with me.  

When you are young you feel indestructible. You do not think of what might happen. Grownups just do not understand you. Why can’t they understand that times have changed? The world is different than when they were young. Everybody does it, it must be okay. All of this can refer to a number of things, sex, drugs, alcohol, and smoking. You name it.

Something happened a few years ago that reminds me that most of us were or are rebellious, especially when we are young. You do not believe that your parents know anything. You think you are smarted than the ones who have years of experience. My fifteen-year-old granddaughter ran away. If she had the good sense to listen to those of us who are older and wiser, she would see that we have all wanted to run away at one time or another. She would never believe that I totally understand. I never thought of running away from home, but I married at fifteen. In essence, that was one way to run away. I hated school. That was a way to quit. I know now that without an education you can never get anywhere in this world. You see it is not just reading, writing, math, history, science, etc. It is all learning. It is using your brain. You have heard the expression use it or lose it? That works for your brain also. You also learn how to socialize with people who are different from you. You learn how to take instructions from people who have authority over you. You must learn this are you will never be able to hold a job. There will always be someone else telling you what to do. Not just your parents. We all have likes and dislikes. Just because you like something doesn’t mean I have to. It also does not make me wrong. It does not make you wrong either. We are just different.

Anyway, back to my granddaughter. I caught her mother trying to run away once. She was thirteen. I ask her why? She said she had to get her head on straight. I could not imagine such a thing. I never dreamed that a child could have a problem. I was dealing with my own problems of being a single mother. I knew what problems were. Well I learned that night that children do have problems. They may not have to worry about paying bills or anything like a grownup worries about, but their problems are very real to them. We have children that want to commit suicide. Unimaginable for me. Probably for you too, but it happens everyday. Sometimes because there is no one to listen to them. (Of course if they knew Jesus, they would know that he is always there to listen and He will never fail them.) Parents, when your children need to tell you something, listen to them. Do not tell them to go on, I’m busy. Do not think that your phone call is more important. Next to living a Godly life, and your spouse, your children are the most important in your life. When you are telling them you do not have time for them, you are saying I do not love you. That is how it sounds to them. Our children are the future of this world. If we do not teach them about God, then our world does not have a future. There are too many children that are lost to us because they were not raised in church or taught about God.

An update on my granddaughter…..She is now 22. Her life is a mess. She has three babies with the guy she ran away with when she was 15. She did not finish high school. She has been on drugs for a while now. CPS took her children away this week. She does not listen to anyone except the father of her children. Excuses, excuses there has never been a right time for them to get married. Addicts always make excuses for everything. She says they have a Common Law marriage. He is on drugs, does not work much. Gets jobs quickly and loses them just as quick. They live like vagrants. You cannot help them because they only want money or something they can sell. They steal from their family. We just pray for God’s will in their lives. The children are the ones are hearts are broken for. I hope some young person will read this and see that they need to finish school and they never, never do drugs. We will never give up on her. She was raised in church and God promises us that when they are old they will not depart from it.

Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not depart from it.

I thought my mother was old fashioned. I look back now and I see all of the things she tried to tell me were right and she did it out of love. But at the time I felt like I hated her and she could not have been more wrong. I know now that she did not know how to approach me and was embarrassed to talk to me about certain things, so when she tried it always came out as preaching to me. I always resented everything she said and grew up doing everything just the opposite of what I thought she would do. Needless to say that caused me a lot of problems and heartaches.

The devil must have loved me. I thought you should change with the times. I had a lot of people that listened to me and I thought I gave good advice. I think I must have said all the right things (for the devil). I was fighting for his cause. He did not bother me. Why should he? I was living for him. Someone needed to update the bible. It was archaic.

Thank God it is archaic. The bible will never change. The bible can answer any question about life. It is God’s instruction book for life. You cannot go wrong if you just study it and live by His truth.

Some people think that if they become a Christian, life will be great. I am here to tell you it doesn’t work that way. When you become a Christian the devil steps in. It is a constant battle with the devil. The devil wants you back. The devil will tell you anything give you anything just to get your soul back. If you return to your old ways the devil will be laughing at you and you will have eternal life in hell.

Jesus promises you eternal life in Heaven. Jesus died on the cross to save your soul. It doesn’t matter what you have done God will forgive you. God loves you unconditionally.

All you have to do is ask God to forgive you. Pray everyday. Try to live your life like Jesus is coming back today. Where would Jesus find you if He came right now? What would you be doing if He came right now? God sees everything we do. Would you be embarrassed if your parents could see everything you do? Your parents may not be there to see you, but God is. Remember that when you think about committing a sin. God is watching and it hurts Him to see you sinning.

If you will always think before you say or do anything,

WHAT WOULD JESUS DO?

I hope that you will read some of the stories. Some are heartwarming, some are funny, and some are true. All are meant to bring glory and honor to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.