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at buffalo, all the sound bounces around off everything. today there was some lady on a megaphone for the radio station or something, and once you were around a corner, your mind went crazy trying to place where it was coming from. it flew down the pathways between the buildings and was echoed a bajillion times. plus, the buildings create this wind tunnel effect so all you hear is rushing against your ears and indistinct echoes of shouting and all you can do is watch the broken leaves scatter around like bats. where the hell am i? i hate this place sometimes.
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the space here swallows my mind, how can i view the world as an exciting new place where i can learn a million things if i can see past the godamn buildings? this university was created after riots and demonstrations were happening all over, so the layout of the campus chopped up the space here in order to prohibit congregation of students. in other words, this place is ugly and oppressive. its all pathways in straight lines, all the benches face the wall. the big spaces that exist would never be used because they're out of the way, or behind buildings so no one would go there, or there are hills and dips in the grass. they did all this so that people couldn't congregate anywhere. urgh. you can't see across campus to friends or see things going on, you're just walking down skinny paths between huge blocky buildings.
i think the space set-up of this place makes it like high school, because all you do is walk around to your classes, its very difficult to socialize when all you can see is the people in front of you. i hardly ever see people i know. there are so many ins and outs... you have no idea where anyone could be.
anyway. it'll feel less like high school when i get a little older, like when i'm an upperclassman. i'll be living in a nice new apartment. i'm so glad i don't live in governers. i walk around there and feel like i'm in an elementary school. the halls are skinny and short-ceilinged, there are cartoon drawings on the walls, its very quiet at night, the tables are clunky and dumb... it just looks really dorky, unhappy, and young. i get so repulsed by it everytime i go there, but no one who lives there seems to notice. they're all too busy studying with their doors shut. ellicott is more interesting, its always loud here, more cultured and exciting.
the buildings are just damn ugly, that's all.