Approaching the end of 2006 I experienced a rare moments of having to watch some kind of "parade of reminders" related to my consent to move to the eternity. Due to limited space in this page, no photos were included here. In the next pages there would be some photos related to this page.

On November 24, 2006, the sign is in the name of the shop owner where my friend Herry later on bought the new computer. The owner of the Sky computer is Rico, as he mentioned it when Herry and I were about to leave his shop on the first time we got there. It immediately reminded me with the sibling Nara and Rico, the friends of my sister in the junior high school, whereas later on Nara the older brother died. Among thousands of computer shops in Mangga Dua, Herry and I chose to have a strong interest to buy the PC at Sky Computer owned by Mr. Rico. It was like a reminder to me that I would also caused my older brother to die, unless I would soon move out of this world.

The nature signs came up on Saturday December 2, 2006 when I was having a conversation with Herry in is brother’s house. We were sitting close to a swimming pool in the yard of the house, approaching the dusk. When the conversation turned hot with Herry insisted me to join the business, all of the sudden the wind blew rather strong from above the swimming pool, like reminding about the Katrina hurricane of 2005 that caused New Orleans to sink under water. Like a caution that I need to be more concern about my consent to move to the eternity for the good of this world. Later on when I was carrying my paintings to show it to Herry and his wife, by the time I was just going to step to the praying area of the house, a flash of lightning shimmering in the sky. It was like reminding me to give way to Herry’s nephew who was joining the conversation that day, to let him join the business rather than my self, so I could concentrate on my consent to move to the eternity. Like in 1983 when I was beginning to join the printing business of my friend Ferry but later on I quit to give way to his nephew.

December 6, 2006, I was busy preparing the new computer bought by my friend Herry. Among which was by testing the mouse in the nearby Internet shop, because when I tried it at home it could not work properly. And it appeared that in the Internet shop it could work fine, so there could be the problem of the connection. On my way home, at Jawa Street there was a car accident, two cars were collided, an old Mitsubishi pick-up carrying some pipes for advertising billboard, collided with a Ford Escape. Since I live in my sister's house from around the year 2000, it was the first time I saw a car accident in that street. Because actually the street is just a simple straight street, with good vision for any car driver. And in some part there are bumps on the asphalt, or in Indonesian known as "sleeping policeman", to reduce the speed of the cars went on top of it, so it rarely happened that cars could collided on that street. The collision happened in front of the house number 54, while the license plate of the Ford was B 2416 OF. It was like reminding me to become "zero Firman". And the Ford is like "Firman Die" because my name Firman contains the syllable "fir" which in Dutch or German has the meaning of "four".

December 9, 2006, I was on the way to meet Herry to sign an agreement of my business with him. In front of the gas station, the engine of the angkot that I was riding all of a sudden stopped. After several times failed to start it again, the driver immediately took an empty bottle of mineral water to buy gasoline. The car could move again later on, but only a few meters away the driver asked me to move to another car with route number 102, while saying "....better go home....". Like reminding me to go home, in accordance with my consent to go home to the eternity.

December 10, 2006, I brought the computer to the house of Ryan, little brother of Herry. A few hours later in the evening, at new sticker of Fox News there was the news about ".....Saudi Arabia executes Nigerian man for drug smuggling....."

On that same day of December 10, 2006, there was also the news about the death of Augusto Pinochet, former dictator of Chili. It was like reminding me with the story that my brother Faisal often told me in the seventies, about a movie located in Chile. Among the dialogue in that movie was that whenever a person is hindering the interest of the U.S. then the CIA would not hesitate to diminish such person. And among other days of year 2006, Augusto Pinochet was chosen to die on December 10, 2006, like to add to those reminders toward myself approaching the end of 2006. Since my existence in this world has the tendency of triggering disasters, so I think I should also has the willingness to be diminished, for the good of this world.

December 14, 2006, US Democratic senator Tim Johnson was hospitalized and underwent emergency brain surgery. My friend Herry has a son, his first child, whose name is Timmy. So it was like reminding me that if I failed to concentrate to move to the eternity, it would endanger others including the son of my friend Herry.

December 19, 2006, a concert held by a popular Indonesian band Ungu, turned to a stampede killing ten teenagers and injured some others. It happened in the city called Pekalongan. In Indonesian, the word "kalong" has the meaning of "bat", that sounds like “bad”, like related to myself whom in searching for a match often called as a "bad man". Moreover, there is a song of this group band Ungu that contains the words "......if I only knew, when would be the end of my life, I would pray to God to prolong my life......" The words "prolong my life" is contradicted with my consent to move out of this world soon, so the accident in the concert that took the life of ten people was like reminding me not to ask for a prolong of my life.

Mid December 2006, three climbers disappeared at Mount Hood, the snowy mountain in Oregon. Those three climbers were Kelly James, Brian Hall, and Jerry "Nikko" Cooke. Later on the body of Kelly James was found and the funeral took place on December 27, 2006. This also became like a reminder to me, because the snowy in Indonesian is "bersalju" with the syllable "sal" like in my brother's name Faisal. Like reminding me with my concern that I prefer to let my self die rather than to let others, including my brother, to die.

December 12, 2006, an Indonesian young singer Alda passed away after some over dose of drugs and narcotics done by someone else. She was known as the girl friend of some one name Ferry. On December 19, 2006, in the evening when I was at an internet shop in Pondok Labu, two university students got in and took a sit in front of a computer on my right. They were signing up for a new e-mail account at Yahoo, using the name of Arief Firmansyah. It was like reminding me that I should be better match with the late Alda. Because previously in 1982, when my girl friend turned to my friend Ferry, a few years later she married someone name Arief. I also wrote about this on December 23, 2006, in my ex-senior high school friends’ mailing list.

December 23, 2006, a few hours after I wrote to my ex-senior high school friends mailing list, there was a motorcycle accident involving a young TV actor Adi Firansyah. It was a collision of two motorcycles. The other motorcycle rider died instantly, while Adi Firansyah died in the hospital a few hours later. His last name Firansyah was similar with my name Firmansyah, with the difference of the letter "M". This difference of letter "M" reminds me with my aunt "Emma" who still alive after her husband died a few years ago. It was like to remind me that I should be better die after getting married with someone who would keep alive when I died.

December 25, 2006, in the afternoon when I walked in the living room I took time to take a look at a small plastic container of some cookies on top of a round table. It was chocolate cookies, rounded shape, around 4 cm diameters, with chocolate cream in the middle, made it look like the number "zero". I took one to taste it and walked to my bedroom. At the moment when I just entered my bedroom, CNN announced the death of king of soul James Brown. Does the word "brown" is the color of "chocolate", like the rounded chocolate cookies I just tasted one, with the shape of "zero"?

December 27, 2006, in the afternoon I was preparing to make a new painting. After cutting the canvas, because I used to buy the canvas in a 155 x 300 cm wide, I placed it in my bedroom to take time for a while before attaching it on the wall to work it. At that very moment, CNN announced the death of former president Gerald Ford. He was having a special in the history of US presidents, since he was the only president who was never been elected for the position. He became vice president of Richard Nixon after the previous VP Spiro Agnew stepped down by a bribery case in the highway development. Then when Richard Nixon also had to step down after the Water Gate scandal, Gerald Ford took the presidential office, without any election for both position of president and VP, the first in US history. His first name Gerald was like containing "ald" like in the name of "Alda" who died a few days earlier. While his last name "Ford" was like to remind me about "Firman Die" because my name Firman contains the syllable "fir" which in Deutch or German has the meaning of "four".

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