Thursday, November 23, 2000

dear world....


i'm feeling very fortunate today. i'm lucky. i know it certainly doesn't feel that way all the time, but i know it to be truth. this is my first thanksgiving away from my family.....i've spent 25 wonderful november days with cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, my mom, my dad, and my brother. they are my biggest fans and most trusted allies. i love them...and i have never had to doubt their love for me. therein lies the beauty.


this year i'm missing thanksgiving...and most likely christmas (another first). and to some degree it feels awkward. ....not overly sad, just strange.....foreign. tomorrow 6 of us are gathering for growlers and turkey. i'm thankful for friends who choose to make the best of time away from family. we're playing surrogate to each other....and covering all of the turkey day food groups...and washing it all down with a little brew.


the world on cnn is lying...and cheating...and screaming...yelling....accusing....whining...and conniving, but here in the real world turkeys are basted while pies spice up the room. and we can't help but hum an old familiar tune.....


"hurray for the fun is the pudding done

hurray for the pumpkin pie"
posted by April Fraze 1:30 AM

Sunday, November 19, 2000

dear world...



it's not supposed to be this hard to get back into this. i feel guilty neglecting my website....maybe because i have so many friends on-line, maybe because i enjoy the quiet murmur of my mind while sitting at the keyboard.


there was a time when the internet meant so much to me. i felt alone and somehow talking from the corner to a lot of maybes was somewhat comforting. i had a voice....and soon there were names appearing in my inbox that i recognized. that's still the best part.


the move has been great. colorado is great. my new job feels great, and the people i work with are great. being with friends is great. having friends far away is great. it's hard to keep up.....especially from where i came. my energy level dropped measurably in minnesota, so i have a hard time keeping up with myself. i love it. i'm hoping to put myself into better shape physically and mentally and i'm off to a great start.


thanks to those of you who have returned. i enjoy your company. i realize it's easy to give up on people and i can never promise to be predictable...those who love me have to be tolerant........and those who simply kind of like me have to be incredibly tolerant. i have started and stopped this new design repeatedly and i just don't have a style sense now, plus i'm no web guru. i've come to figure that the most important thing was to start small and build. small doses. i have ideas about how i want to evolve this space. they will be forthcoming (fingers crossed).



word on the election: what is there to hide? i did not vote for either bush or gore, but please, governor bush! your cronies are acting like a bunch of children who didn't get their way on the playground. lets get these votes counted and end the bullshit. i can't say it will be fair, but it seems so shady the way your people have fought it. what are you worried about? it's a done deal as far as you're concerned, right? readers, bitch at me if you wish. i doubt i'll change my mind. i say give it to 3rd place anyway.



until next time.



posted by April Fraze 7:42 PM