*my shower curtain*

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it’s time for a new shower curtain. today when i got out of the shower i took one look at the clear packing tape i used to patch the tears by the rings and just knew that there had to be an end to the havoc this one has had to endure. so i went out to make some other purchases with the intention of replacing this spectacle that has been in residence with me at 3 previous homes. it really is the perfect curtain for me……stars, moons, deep blues and purples. it has seen a lot of things i’ve only dreamed about……i don’t care to elaborate on that, but i’m sure you can guess. there are memories from beyond that curtain's cover that i will fondly carry with me, and there are also things that probably occurred that i hope never to know (having roommates can be scary).

i bought the shower curtain right after ron and i broke up, the end of the dark ages. it was a time of personal freedom and growth that really marks a pivotal point in what i’ve become to date. i had just moved into a studio apartment with casey, my cat and everything i bought was to make a statement. at k-mart one night i found it, on sale even. it just seemed perfect. during my tenure at sagamore apartment there was the whole P.T. affair that lasted 2 solid weeks. the curtain was there when he showered before moving on to bigger, better mountain views. then it was there again for the next love of my life, which lasted longer and developed into more than i care to explain. the curtain, sworn to secrecy hides the rest.

now my confidant has reached a point in its legacy where it just can’t keep hiding my secrets, my insecurities and my grooming methods from the world. it hangs sagging from the rod begging for mercy, and like an old friend i must be strong enough to allow it to move on as i must move on…to my new life in minnesota, behind another shade. i don’t know about the rest of my encounters here, but i can honestly say that i doubt i find a shower curtain that will measure up to my old friend…the moon, the stars and me.