Prism Notebook: Noriel -- Fall 1994


Here is another Prism Notebook, but this one was started in the Fall of 1994. There is some sadness and anger in this one, because it was written after a failed relationship. It's great to write when you're sad or angry. The blood flows faster when the heart is pumping, you know.

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There are things one can never forget.

An act out of thoughtlessness destroys trust and hope.

The betrayal of the heart by the mind destroys any love.

Distance means nothing.

They only difference is the strength of one's heart.

A weak heart makes the mind useless and only invites

carelessness and hatred.

One must always think before acting for once initiated,

a deliberate action can never be corrected nor retracted.

Instead, it lays out for all to remember.

Love does not last forever,

only hatred burns eternal.

.....

 

I sit back and enjoy what could have been while I lie here in

fear of what has transpired. A chance not taken,

an unending bond broken -- not once, but twice.

Convenience over conscience resulted in a pain

that never left, but festered into torture and anguish.

Now only emptiness resides in my soul.

At one time love was all that mattered.

Now, hatred has replaced that happy feeling.

I am now changed,

but so are you.

.....

 

nothingness is the essence of all. it is the absence of

matter that defines the reality of what is present.

.....

 

Cling-- the zippo breaks the still fall night with its chime.

A flick of the thumb and a twitch of the wrist lights my

cigarette and starts a stream of memories. The smoke

rises and stings my eyes; it makes me tear for a moment,

but I easily regain my calm, cool composure. my mind

reminds me of the first time we met.

You looked so pretty in your red dress -- you made me

stop and notice the playful curls of ebony that turned dark

brown as it flowed down your head.

An image was burned into my heart.

Our first kiss was filled with nervous anticipation. Time

moved slowly between us before our lips finally met. When

they did, the second hand stopped -- not another grain of

sand fell. We froze time in the beginning of out unity.

When you left me, my heart crumbled. I watched you

walk away from me on the coldest night in the dying

summer. Those echoing footsteps extinguished the

remaining embers of out once glowing love.

All we have left is smoke. I inhale my last and look

closely at the spent cigarette in my hand. It glows softly,

offering a meager light to illuminate this darkened world.

I release and let it fall to the ground.

I put it out this time.

.....

 

Run little boy, while you still can.

You'll grow up all too soon.

So play, play as much as you like.

These days are numbered.

Morning shall become noon soon enough.

Run, run as fast as you can to the west. Do not escape

the sun's caring watch, for frightful things happen at night.

You will learn to use those feet to run over your playmates.

You'll be running a much bigger race. Your play toys will

become weapons. You will hurt.

So run little boy, run far, far away.

Play little boy, play, play away.

This is your day.

.....

 


Play time is over kids...

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