What's new with my life?? Not too much. My car was finally taken for repairs after sitting around for months. They just called today to let me know it's fixed and ready to be returned to me. In job news, those damn fools from the theater never called me back...I guess they didn't like the fact that I quit 5 years ago. Oh well. I was supposed to have orientation at Dorney yesterday and today but I didn't go. So I am going in 2 weeks. That is, unless I find another job before then, which is the plan. I was looking forward to working at the park again despite all of the crap I have had to deal with and all of the braindead, pathetic, selfish morons that work there who I've dealt with. But they put me at a ride I really didn't want to be at so whatever. I've now called Megan twice over the past few weeks only to be ignored. Left messages both times and she never returned my calls. I've emailed her and nothing back. Many people think that should be a sign...and yes it is. But I'm the type that just hates it when people play these childish games. It's so annoying. Just tell me why you are mad and work it out like an adult or tell me you don't want to talk to me and why...it's real simple. I'm now seeing that everything she ever said to me and did was apparently one big lie and act.

Lately, I've been rather down in the dumps. :o( Over the weekend, I was sick and didn't get much sleep at all. Now, I'm just grumpy and depressed. I really don't expect anyone to care because that would be asking too much and quite frankly, not too many people give a damn about anyone but themselves anyways. And I don't want people to feel bad for me....people can take their pity and shove it up their asses. It would just be nice once in a while for people to actually care about me whether I'm sad or happy...but very few do. Aside from some family and Jen, I really don't believe anyone genuinely cares. I hate being down. But it just can't be helped sometimes with the amount of crap I have taken from people I have trusted and cared about. Jen and I have been better lately. Well, we have our spats now and then but everyone does. She is the only person that has truly cared for me within the past few years so even though I don't show it sometimes, I really love her.