DISCIPLINED BREAKDOWN

PRECIOUS DECLARATION

Hitched a ride to the peaceful side of town
Then proceeded where thieves were no longer found
Can't crash now I've been waiting for this
Won't crash now I found some encouragement

Precious declaration reads
Yours is Yours and mine you leave alone now
Precious declaration says
I believe all hope is dead no longer

New meanings to the words I feed upon
Wake within my veins elements of freedom
Can't break now I've been living for this
Won't break now I'm cleansed with hopefulness

Precious declaration reads
Yours is yours and mine you leave alone now
Precious declaration says

I believe all hope is dead no longer
Once I jumped thru hoops of fire
High and far as you required
Once was Blind but now i see
Salvation has discovered me


LISTEN

Hey you're now thirsty
Walking in the desert all alone
Hey you're now searching
Lost in isolation from your soul
The bullets you bite
From the pain you request
You're finding them harder to digest
And the answers you seek
Are the ones you destroy
Your anger's well deployed

Hey why can't you listen
Hey why can't you hear
Hey why can't you listen
As love screams everywhere

Hey your now hunger
Feeding your mind with selfishness
Hey you now wander
Aimlessly around your conciousness
Your prophecies fail
And your thoughts become weak
And silence creates necessity
You're clothing yourself
In the shields of despair
Your courage now impaired

You crucify all honesty
No signs you see do you believe
And all your words just twist and turn
Reviving just to crash and burn
You're fighting till the bitter end
If only your heart could open up
And Listen


MAYBE

The sky now divides
To bring you back into the fold
Welcome home
Still my need to recognize
Any comfort you may show
Only grows
Guess I'll learn to accommodate
While my heart just sits and waits

Maybe God you found
Maybe is all that you can offer now

Where am I to take refuge
When the storms of pain release
Shelter me
This blessedness of life
Sometimes brings me to my knees
I call on thee
I have not the words to write
A farewell to you tonight

Maybe God you found
Maybe is all you can offer now

I know hearts are weeping
While your voice is now singing
On high, angel on high

(In memory of Kib Browning)


FULL CIRCLE

Drowning to discover
I'd swim but then why bother
Wrestled with decisions
And fools with their opinions
One fine morning I'll awake
To sleep some more
To define my premonitions
Last judgement and conditions
I'd have to dig in my emotions
Then relinquish my devotions
One fine morning I'll awake
Then hope to learn
One fine morning I'll awake
To love's return

Round and round and round
I believe love goes round and round
Round and round and round
I believe love comes round and round

Singing the rendition
Of hope in my condition
Caught up in defending
That truth is never ending
One fine morning I'll awake
Then reaffirm
One fine morning I'll awake
To love's return


BLAME

You pushed me down
For all the world to see
I guess that's your price
For my loyalty
So while you're tasting sin
And swallowing pain
Don't look at me
To take your blame

When you're willing to render
To the guilt you concede
When truth is your reason
Then lay that blame on me
When you unveil a conscience
And with peace you agree
When love is your constant
Then lay that Blame on me

You lay me out
In hopes that I'd wilt away
But strength rained down
And love provided shade
So while your pageant of lies
Stills glows from your tongue
Don't blame me for
Your Kingdom Come

Question your answers
Truth has no anger
Gather up your words
Redemption now offered


DISCIPLINED BREAKDOWN

I never ever can remember
All the things that go bump in the night
Quietness uncover
Betrayal now hovers
And my comfort levels not quite right
I'd love to stay and evaluate
But my torture can't wait

It seems I'm losing ground
Welcome all to my disciplined breakdown

I never ever can decipher
Who listens to the words I say
While I sense I'm searching
I never know who's lurking
To scare my sacred thoughts away
I'd love to hang and chat a while
But my mind's become vile

It seem I'm losing ground
Welcome all to my disciplined breakdown

I never ever can contribute
To finding all the thoughts that sustain
Never mind the answers
To how spreads the cancer
When the questioning of why remains
I'd love to sit and and rationalize
But my tounge's become dry

It seem I'm losing ground
Welcome all to my disciplined breakdown

Breakdown reality
Breakdown my ability to get back
Breakdown honestly
Beakdown now deliver me
From all this madness and all this agony


FORGIVENESS

In my silence I would love to forget
But restitution hasn't come quite yet
And with one accord I keep moving forth
I stretch my heart to heal some more

It used to all I want to learn
Was wisedom trust and truth
But now all I really want to learn
Is forgiveness for you

As my seasons change I've now grown to know
When one's heart creates, one's soul doesn't owe
So I wash away stains of yesterday
Then tempt my heart with love's display


LINK

I'm sleeping to encompass myself
I wake up then distribute what's left

With my anger well defused
The link to love I now may choose
With my heart no more abused
The link to love I now may use

I'm sleeping to develop myself
I wake up then relinquish what's left

With my anger well defused
The link to love I now may choose
With my heart no more abused
The link to love I now may use

I was caught by your lies spinning
Then was saved by truth's opinion
All's quiet now


GIVING

Giving me cause so I may yearn
Giving me words so I may learn
I want more I want more
Giving me thoughts that I may keep
Giving me dreams so I may sleep
I want more I want more

Still all I need is love
So give me more

Giving me calm to fall into
Giving me hopes to guide me thru
I want more I want more
Giving me light to see thru tears
Giving me strength to crush my fears
I want more I want more

Still all I need is love
So give me more

I won't break you down
I won't bring you down anymore

Giving me choice so I may seek
Giving me faith so I'll believe
I want more I want more
Giving me breath of your mercy
Giving yourself to comfort me
I want more I want more

Still all I need is love
So give me more


IN BETWEEN

In between us
Good and evil wait
To lie beside us
In our bed we make
In Between us
Caution never heeds
We prey on weakness
Then beg for sympathy

In Between words
Silence parades so confusion is heard
Our voices afarid
To speak up and ressure
So in Between words we remain
In Between

In Between us
Hope we've yet to see
We long for healings
But scars never leave

Silence fills the void
Of love and hate
An effective tool
When used to seperate
Now separate


CROWDED HEAD

All the words that I want to hear
Are distorted by your weakness and fear
And your lies that I push away
I might accept them on your good self pity day

All of your sadness is crowed in my head
All of your madness is crowded in my head

And the peace that I really need
You substitute it for your policy of greed
Still your pride always suffocates
Any truth that your heart might want to make

All of your sadness is crowed in my head
All of your madness is crowded in my head

With all your static
I can't distinguish between what's being said
I have no room for this
You see I'm living with a crowded head
And the path that I needed shown
You left me stranded in the darkness all alone
All the promises you fed to me
I'm now chocking from the taste of cruelty

All of your sadness is crowed in my head
All of your madness is crowded in my head


EVERYTHING

With the faces I now wear
It's only proof my thoughts
Have become impaired
And the courage I shall build
Stands at distance still

Everything is physical
Everything takes precedence
Everything is admissible
Everything is evident

And the comfort I've designed
Will only stay intact until
The truth I find
As some answers fly around
No cure have I found

Guide me, save me, teach me
I need to learn from this
Hold me, soothe me my love
The reflection I now see
Is always trying to blind
And discourage me
But my patience shall prevail
And myself as well

Everything is comfortable
Everything's a brighter shade
Everything is suitable
Everything is ?