Why are you everything I want to be?
I always feel there's something missing in me.
Yet you don't see all that you are.

But if you're not perfect, what does that make me?
I don't believe in perfection, but what do i see?
I see you being all I want to be.

You don't believe in yourself, but I believe in you.
There is so much talent and skill in everything you do.
Yet you don't see all that you are.

What is it that you see in me?
Do you see the worthless girl I always see?
I see you being all I want to be.

G Brown - Feb 2002

This poem was written about a friend of mine, who I was immensely jealous of. Its crazy but true. She has had probably more crap go on in her life than I have, yet she has the personality of what I wish I had...Unfortunately, I found after awhile that it was a facade, so I wrote this next one in reply to it...

Reply to Pep Talk©

I've woken up to the you inside
woken up and seen the things you hide.

The fact that you love and you really do care.
How you like to pretend that there's something there.

You act all tough but inside you're a fake.
I wanted to be you - that was my mistake.

G Brown - 2002

This was in reponse to P.T. after it occurred to me that a lot of what i admired in her was not real. She managed to cut herself off from the world, something i admired, yet she got attached to a guy, something i despise in females. After observing her, it occurred to me that she was just like me, and that I simply needed to stay true to myself, instead of wishing i had someone else's problems.