Getting ready for a night on the town,
Put on the make up but I can't hide the frown,
"Quit punishing yourself" - I try to convince.
But nothing will change - nothing will shift.
I deserve every stab I get,
Don't make a fuss & Don't fake a fret,
This 'punishment' comes natural to me,
There's no pain at all & I don't bleed - Look, see!
Just a few scars, they'll go away.
Trust me - I know - Give it a couple of days.
Don't listen to them, they don't really care.
They're lying when they say they'd wish you were here.
They want you gone! Oh Gab, can't you see?
You're such a hassle - even to me!
Do you really want to go through anymore pain?
You can't ignore it all with your stupid mind game.
You know what happened to you was supposedly bad,
But you enjoyed it so that makes you feel sad.
Sad cuz you won't admit to the truth,
Sad cuz you lost all of your youth.
But who really cares? You had no potential!
I mean, with your family? They had their hands full!
All you are now i a pain in the arse,
Believing otherwise is such a farce.
End it all - 'Make the world a better place'
Give it up - You don't need to save face.
You know it's true - Don't bitch and moan.
Quit it now - You're already alone!
What do you mean you've still got your friends?
Friends who want to see your life end!
What do you mean you won't give it up?
After your life story? Holy Fuck!

G - 5th Sep 03

This poem... after I wrote it (around 3am) I fucking hated it... Just annoys me I spose. *shrug*