Title: 'Til Death
Author: Flynn
Date: 8/17/02
Website: www.geocities.com/cratkinsonflynn/
E-mail: flyn121@yahoo.com
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Rating: NC-17
Classification: Post-Ep, Vignette
Keywords: MSR, SMUT
Spoiler warning: The Truth.
Disclaimer: I invented neither Mulder, Scully,
nor the concept of sex.
Scribbler's note: Speaking for myself, the ending
was sort of .... incomplete. This just fills in
around the edges a little.
Summary: Two lovers, reunited.
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'Til Death
by Flynn
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He slept the sleep of the dead and dreamed of better days.
Genies. Crop circles. Fake teeth on very real vampires.
302s. Expense reports. Arguing with his partner.
Good days.
What could be better, though, than waking to the sight before
him? Even with eyes stinging in protest against the cool
morning air, he couldn't help but stare at her. At the
glorious red hair, now subdued in the half-light of dawn.
The long, arcing lashes. The fair skin, which would burn
so easily in the brutal desert sun. She was going to
suffer if they weren't very careful. A rush of protectiveness
stabbed through him. Sunscreen, he thought. Strong stuff,
and lots of it. A hat. Long sleeves, even on the hottest of
days.
His heart throbbed in his chest as he studied her. It was
real. They were on the run again, true .... but she was
here. She was with him, and this time she wasn't going
anywhere.
How he loved her.
Carefully he turned his head for a look at the window. The
shades were closed, but he could see the sun was just
beginning to make its entrance in the east. Rain still
pelted the window. They hadn't moved much during the
night - neither willing even in sleep to lose this precious
contact after so long apart - but she'd pulled her arm free
some time ago, allowing him to cradle her close. He sighed,
and his arms tightened around her just a little. She
accepted it without protest. Closer. Always just a little
closer.
And why not? They could afford to rest for a while. The
mineral in the hills would protect them. Besides, they were
already dead, at least as far as the pilots of those black
helicopters were concerned. Mission accomplished.
Ironic, he mused. Only now that they were dead could they
really begin to live.
A soft sound reached him as she sighed and moved just a
little in his arms. His breath caught and he stared at her,
rapt, as her eyes fluttered and slowly opened.
His world existed in those eyes. Jesus, how he'd missed them.
Her blink was languid, her breath slow and deep. "Hey."
It wasn't even a whisper. A breath, no more.
He actually found himself smiling a little. "Sorry I woke
you."
She gave her head the barest of shakes. Her eyes held his,
effortless. He saw many things in them. Relief. Gratitude.
Love.
Voiceless sorrow.
he told himself, trying not
to give in to the stab of self-loathing, trying not to think
about where she could be right now if not for him. After all,
if they'd never met, she would be practicing medicine right
now, or teaching at the Academy, or running the Pathology
department at any of the best medical schools in the country.
She might even be married, and a mother. Colonization would
still take place, but at least she'd have *had* something of
a life. Not like this. Stripped of family, of her child, of
her very identity, now consigned to living life as a fugitive;
forever looking back over her shoulder, the future itself
hanging over their heads like an execution. The date was set.
There was no going back.
An inner voice silenced those thoughts. She was with him. If
they were to die in colonization, then they would die together.
Until then, that was how they would live.
It was the most natural thing in the world to kiss her. He meant
it as a greeting, a salute, nothing more; but it grew with a
life and a will of its own, and before he could even think to
pull away, it was warm and deep and tender and hungry. She
tilted her head, angling her mouth beneath his, and when their
lips opened he felt a sigh escape her.
How long he'd wanted this. Not just sex, he reasoned; sex was
the strongest drive in the human's arsenal of instincts, true,
but almost as strong was the need for love and comfort and
acceptance. That connection was what he'd truly missed, and
he told her so. Their kiss was communication which needed no
words.
His free hand slipped down her side to her hip, drawing her
close, molding her to him. Hers stroked up the bare skin of
his arm and curled itself around his neck, her fingers
sliding through his hair as her thumb traced the whorls of
his ear. The kiss ended only to begin again, just a little
deeper, a little more insistent. His fingers traced the
contours of her ribs - how thin she'd gotten! - then found
their way up inside her robe and followed the curve of her
spine. His nerves were singing, those in his fingertips and
.... other places.
And *her* fingers .... no longer content with teasing
through the short hair at the nape of his neck, they instead
were insinuating themselves up under *his* shirt, and he
shivered as gooseflesh sprang to life under her touch.
Time ceased to exist in a sequence of seconds. They measured
it instead in movements. His shirt bunching up under his arms
so she could touch and caress him. Her robe falling slack off
her shoulder. The long slide of denim.
he mused as he explored with lips and
tongue the soft warmth of her throat, her neck, the sweep
of her collarbone. He knew her breasts, though they seemed
different now. He knew them even though he could count on
one hand the times he'd been intimate with her .... before.
Events from another lifetime now. Her breasts were a little
fuller now, a little more pliant, the nipples larger and a
darker shade of pink. He recalled that first night out of
the hospital last May, and her shy uncertainty as she opened
her robe before him for the first time so she could feed their
son. He remembered how he'd felt, watching them. The awe and
pride and blinding love.
A long-familiar ache of regret and loss threatened to reduce
him to tears. he told himself.
Gently he bit and licked the curve of her reed-thin clavicle.
She caught his head in her hands, guiding his ministrations
instead to a breast, and a gasp escaped her as he obligingly
suckled. Her fingers tightened in his hair and her head slowly
rolled from side to side. *Good,* he wanted to say. *Good.
Good. So good.*
Hands eventually tightened in his hair, drawing his head back.
He winced in protest. "What -?"
"Shh." She touched a soft finger to his lips, silencing him.
The rigid length of his erection pressed impatiently through
the thin jersey of his shorts, and he flinched when her
fingers deftly found their way in through the front opening.
She looked up at him, her eyes luminous in the pre-dawn light,
and he had no trouble seeing the emotions in them. God, it had
been a long time. How many months he'd had to suffice with
memories and his own familiar touch ....
Anxiety plucked at him as she shimmied out of her satin
underwear. "Wait ...." he whispered. She stopped, uncertainty
quickly supplanting the determination in her eyes. He glanced
down at his turgid penis and back at her again. "Do we .... I
don't .... have any condoms. Shouldn't we, uh ...."
Her chin quivered as her eyes clouded with tears. For once,
she didn't try to hide them from him. "It's okay," she murmured,
touching a fingertip to his lower lip. "I've had one miracle baby.
There won't be any others."
Those simple words filled him with cold dread. He caught her hand
and gave it a squeeze. "What do you mean? What aren't you telling
me?" Fear splintered his heart and just about stop its beating.
"You aren't .... "
"No, I'm okay." Her free hand rose and brushed the tears from her
cheeks. "I'm perfectly healthy. You see, after .... I needed help
regulating my cycle." The faintest blush of a smile warmed her
eyes. "Well, I'm regular." She gave him a gentle squeeze that
chased most of the thoughts from his head. Then a glow appeared
in her eyes again, one that made him thank God all over again
that he could call this woman his own. Skeptic? Hardly. "He *is*
a miracle .... but lightning isn't going to strike twice." A sad
little smile quirked the corner of her mouth. "Besides, I haven't
taken a road trip with any strange men lately."
He allowed himself an answering smile. *Good to know,* he thought
to himself, rolling up onto his elbow and kicking his shorts off.
His hand splayed wide over her belly, which still bore the telltale
filigree of pale stretch marks. She caught his wrist, squeezing hard
for a moment before guiding his hand downward. He traced the lines
of her pelvis, and when she lifted her legs, he slipped two fingers
inside her. Her eyes rolled back and closed for a moment, and he
heard his name escape her on a sigh.
he thought again, gently gathering and
spreadingher moisture. Her warm hand was an anchor on his cock,
sliding down and then up again in a slow, languid caress. A
pearl of clear liquid appeared on the head, and he watched her
smile grow as she gently spread it around.
He kissed her, long and deep, then rolled over her and gathered her
up in one careful movement. She edged a hand between their bodies,
helping him find the way. The first contact robbed them both of
breath, and he drew back and held himself above her, determined
not to let it end with a half-dozen plunges and an ignoble groan.
Her body was soft and pale and receptive beneath him, her eyes
burning and alive as they sought his. Carefully he nudged his way
into her again, pressing little by little and then withdrawing,
his dark length slowly appearing and disappearing into the white
V of her thighs. Each time he emerged a little harder, a little
slicker.
Time slowed to a heartbeat. He could see the flutter of her pulse
in her throat, in the minute dilations of her pupils, now enormous
in the laser-blue irises. Sweat was pearling on her upper lip. A
pale hand slid up to toy with a rosy pink nipple, and he groaned
in frustration. Oh, to be just a little shorter, just enough that
he could suckle those pink blossoms as he buried himself in the
hot, wet crevice of her body. Withdrawals were becoming quicker,
returns more staccato. Her fingers fluttered and strummed her
breast, though her eyes never once left his.
Tenderness competed with masculine ferocity as he drove into her.
Her eyes remained locked with his even when he kissed her. Oh
heavens above, the warmth of her body where it received his vied
with thewet warmth of her open mouth, her tongue a perfect
counterpoint to his stroking penis. This act, the meeting of
opposites, transmuted her to hot, wet velvet. It was wizardry.
It was alchemy.
Talk about miracles.
Her arms slid around his torso, her fingers lacing behind his back
as her legs rose and she linked her ankles behind him. He felt
himself balloon inside her with the change in position, felt his
testicles draw up tight and hot, and he knew if something didn't
change fast, the show going to hit the metaphorical high note very
soon. "You," he grunted, curling the fingers of one hand through
her hair. The other gripped the flimsy wooden plank of the headboard
so hard, his knuckles had gone white. Her only response was a long,
low cry, a tightening of the muscles the length of her body, and he
knew without doubt that she was flying.
Time. He counted it in breaths, in strokes, one growing rapid as
the other slowed. She was a bowstring beneath him, taut and
quivering. Physics was conspiring with nature to create the
ultimate vacuum, and he groaned softly as he fought the inevitable.
Slow, hard thrust .... her body gripped him, sucking and squeezing
and milking him with that hot, sweet nethermouth. He was so close,
close to exploding, close to spilling everything he had into her,
but even more so he was close to *her*, as close as they could ever
get to sharing one body, one consciousness, to being one soul, and
he loved her he loved her he loved her so much his heart was going
to split ....
At the last instant he threw his head back, baring his throat to
her as he let go, purging with a long, harsh cry all the loneliness
and despair that had plagued him for the past year. Together they
were together they were one ....
Stars exploded behind his eyes as his body liquefied and then
ignited.
Reality was slow to return. He could feel his heart galloping
in his chest, could feel the familiar tingle in all his
extremities that she once explained was the result of
hyperventilation. His nose was pressed against the side of her
neck; all he could see was the burnished red of her hair. Shit,
he'd collapsed on her. He hated it when he did that. It was
so selfish, and yet she seemed to relish it. Slowly he gathered
himself, drawing up an arm and a leg, and with a tortured groan
pushed himself up and away. She gasped as he pulled free, and
he could tell just from the state of his own body that there was
going to be one hell of a wet spot.
"C'mere," he mumbled, using the arm still pinned beneath her to
drag her close. She immediately complied, twining her legs with
his and effectively sealing herself to him again. A wonderful
smell permeated the room, sweat and sex and something that was
indefinable yet undeniably *her*, and he couldn't help but smile
as he crossed his arms possessively around her. She followed suit
without hesitation, linking her arms around him and pressing her
face into the hollow of his throat. They didn't move, didn't
speak, and it wasn't long before he realized she was asleep.
Out in the parking lot, a car radio was playing a little too
loud for the early hour. Someone was singing.
<.... Oh, but don't you believe it ....>
He found himself smiling again.
It wouldn't last for long, and they both knew it. This was a
stolen moment, and while they might be safe for a day or a
week, it wouldn't be long before they'd be looking over their
shoulders again. He'd take her to the Ranch, one of the places
he'd hidden out with Gibson .... a place that just happened to
have one of the highest concentrations of that mineral in the
state .... and there they would think, and plan. The next week,
the next month, the next year .... the next decade. He didn't
know if there was anything anyone could do to prevent
colonization. But he was sure as hell going to try. And she
would be with him.
Nothing would change that now.
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end
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