Looking around, I see

people holding hands,

arms around each other,

lips and eyes

smiling into the others.

And dammit, I want that!

I look at all those people,

and I envy them.

But whenever I think of

how much I want what they have,

something inside me pushes it down.

But whether it's Something telling me to wait,

or whether it's me just ignoring it...

well, that's hard to say.