November 12th 5:16pm
	When I came into school today a few people were talking about a car crash that happened over the weekend, involving 3 or 4 kids from my school. And then they said one guy died. People couldn't recall his name but the teacher looked it up and it was Ben Daniels. The name sounded familiar but I figured I had just heard it on the PA or something. Then my friend Amy came in and told me that Ben was the guitarist in a local band called Kaos 342 that Amy and I had seen only 2 weeks ago. Just two weeks. Ben Daniels was playing his guitar with excellent skill, having fun, laughing, and entertaining a large group of people only 2 weeks ago, exactly (as of today, not the day he died) I didn't know him, we never met I mean. But it's just terrible and my eyes stung whenever people talked about it. I was playing it all off but as the day went on I got worse at pretending. In 6th hour 2 guys in there knew him and they were also at the show 2 weeks ago. They talked a bit about it. Some people asked one of the guys, AJ, what Ben was like. Everyone that knew the guys in the car said that he was the last person that deserved to be taken. As AJ told them all that Ben was a good student with pretty good grades, fairly well-behaved, and never bothered a soul I felt my eyes sting. I wanted to just sit there and cry. I'm skipping a debate competition that I promised the 2 coordinators I'd go to tomorrow and also Drama club because Amy and I are going to the visitation. It's at the same place that Michael's mom's was at. Less than a week ago I was there. People don't understand why I'm so torn up, seeing as if you would have asked Benjamin Daniels if he'd known me, he'd have been clueless. After school when I was with my friend Christal, she was sort of surprised that I was still upset about it. I tried to just act okay once she mentioned it, I was saying that I didn't even really know him or anything but my eyes burned because I had been blankly staring without noticing (that's why Christal said something, I think) and they burned even more so because I wanted to cry again. She was real supportive saying that I didn't have to defend myself or anything, but that to her and others it was obvious that there ws an unexplainable difference with me today. *Rest In Peace Benjamin Daniels* *Your Talent and Kindness will be missed* *Why does God need to have all the sweetest ones?* *Why is it always the purest to go?*