nov21

I have been meaning to do a journal entry for FOREVER! I did take a short break from them on pupose though. Since I had Ben Daniel's death on my mind a lot, my entries seemed to center around it. People were getting sick of it and I realized that people don't understand. To most, it must've seem like a Drama Queen going on about something she knew nothing about. It was a lot of things about the death that was causing my mind to work like that, but I can see that for someone that didn't know, it wouldn't make sense for me to be that upset over the passing of someone that didn't even know me. I did not mean to take that long of a break though! I can try to catch everything up though!
   The 2 Johns and that Shawn guy I mentioned in my last entry I actually did see again. In fact i see them daily, after school. Shawn is really the only one I'm friends with. The other two I only say a couple of words too. Shawn's a damn weirdo but a funny weirdo. He gets all upset if Christal and I do not hug him goodbye daily. I didn't today because I went to the car and he called my name and held out his arms and I just told him I owed him one.
   I finally got to hang out with some friends. Actually the date of my last entry (November 14th) I went to the mall (bleh, I hate the mall) with Breen, Zack, Taylor, and Andie. But Andie and I pretty much just went off on our own. It was boring. BUT I had Andie over for a long-overdue sleepover this past saturday (November 17th) We had some quality Andie-Rease time. We pretty much gathered around my fire place where I keep about 20 candles all the time. I stole an entire bag (that's about 100 candles or so) of this little white candles from my mum's closet...shhh! We made our famous wax formations on my fireplace and wrote stuff in them. Andie thinks that whatever we write in the wax comes true/gives good fortune. It's a load of bullshit though cuz it didn't work. But hey, fire and candle wax is cool. We also ordered our traditional pizza and ate it all and then got Chinese the next day (with our traditional lunches too) My fortune cookie said "A friend long absent will return to you" and how freaky is that because James and I are friends agan after like over a month of him not speaking to me. hmm.. Anyways, back to Andie and I -We watched movies and had a good time.
   My last 4-day weekend (I was off the 15th-18th) sucked. Wednesday night I went to the mall like I said earlier. Thursday I THOUGHT Marisa was picking me up at noon so she could take me out to Illinois for this overnight hotel thingy that I promised to go to 2 weeks ago. I waited forever and I found out later that I'd heard her wrong (even though i repeated everything back to her and she confirmed it, seems I was still wrong) and that we weren't leaving until Friday! Meaning I'd be gone Friday day, night, and most of Saturday day. Plus, I could have had Andie spend the night Wed. as it was originnaly planned! Earlier in the week my friend Kenny invited me to go to a party in Pattonville (that's about 20-30 minute drive) for his bandmate's b-day. I was unsure at first about going (I'd be the only freshamn no doubt. The guys were all 16 or older and I also wouldn't know anyone but Kenny. The other guys in his band I've never actually talked too) Well a couple of my friends (I love you Andie! I Love you Nikki!) said I should go so I talked my mum into letting me go if kenny picked me up and had me home by 1 am. So I told kenny I could go and he was all happy. Did I mention this party was planned for Friday night? About an hour or so after I told Kenny I could go, I found out that if I went with marisa, I'd be out of state when the party started. I didn't know who to cancel on. In the end I canceled on Kenny even though I knew the hotel would be a complete bore (I'd been there with Marisa before) but I did promise her 2 weeks b4, I couldn't bail on her, even if there was a misunderstanding. Well Kenny told me I missed a great party and that the guy I like was there too. That guy also said it was a great party. Gee, I'm so fucking glad I missed it to sit around in a lobby saying "so, what do you want to do?" "I dunno, what do you want to do?" Arg! Once Andie came over on Saturday it was better though and she stayed the whole day Sunday. WE ALSO MADE COOKIES! We made the dough and everything and then decided we really didn't want cooklies, just wanted to bake! So we baked 1 single cookie for the each of us in the mini-oven. The for breakfast on Sunday we ate some cookie sough and made some cookies.
   School was crap. Okay over the weekend I goofed around with a lot of stuff and put SOMETHING on my face that caused this hideous allergic reaction. It looked like a mix between a horrific rug burn and a huge, deep scratch. ON MY FACE. So this approx 2 inch long and 1.5 inch high red (with some nice brownish cut looking colors too) is on my face when I go to school. I got attacked but questions about what happened. Here's my fav: "Did you light your face on fire?"(Yes I poured gasoline on my face and held up a match! Next time I'm gonna pour some acid on it!) Here's some others I remember: Did you fall when you went to get your pencil? Did you get in a car accident? [asked 2 times](Yeah and i came out with just this patch of an injury on my left cheek) Did you get in a fight? [asked 3 times] (Yeah I got in a fight with someone that wears sandpaper on their knucklers which explains why my face looks like it does and oh they have terrible aim and got my cheekbone instead of my eye) Did you fall down the stairs and get rugburn? (Yes, but only on this spot on my face) Are you allergic to fists? (They were convinced I had been punched---moron, and this was a TEACHER) and Did you sleep on nickel? (this person knew I was allergic to nickel) That's just some I can remember. All week I had to watch people stare at my face as if I can't see them until I just go 'It's an allergic reaction okay?!" It was not a pleasant time. The week's over now (another 4 day weekend!) and it's going away. I'm gonna put some viatimin e on it so it doesn't leave a scar too.
   I've got plans to go to 3 local shows soon! One is this Saturday for Hot Seat Records (local label) band showcase.[That means like 7 bands!] Kenny told me about it because his band Sentiment is playing. The On the 15th there's a Jubilla show (they're awesome,can't wait to see them again) with Blessed October and Albino fly. Then the ultimate one! The Twisted Christmas show on Dec. 22! It's gonna kick so much ass! AJ told me about it cuz his band is playing along with so many others (Sentiment was just added) Trytophane will be there and I've been DYING to see them! It's gonna fucking rock!

well I think I wrote enough.

*Shitty Weekends*Allergic Reaction Hell*and*Just Fucking Rock On*
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