| TWO PERSPECTIVES A hard-core determinist would say the thing became inevitable long before either of us were born, that any given moment is just "the fruit of forty-thousand years." An existentialist type would say that such thinking represents an evasion of personal responsibility, that both of us were free not to be at that place at that point in time. I don't know what the hell to think. I refuse to believe that I am merely the helpless marionette of history, yet I don't remember any real choice in the ultimate outcome. In the end, I guess, the point is academic. The fact remains that she was there when I emerged from the fog and, by then, it was too late to save her or prevent her from saving me. |
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