- Autor:
Glamac
E-Mail Adresse: glamacsg@freenet.de
Titel: The way we were
Altersfreigabe: Ab 13
Teil: 1/1
Spoiler: Season 7, Nach Get it done
Inhalt: Willow und Spike unterhalten sich
Hauptcharakter(e)/Paar(e): Willow/Spike
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters in this story, nor
do I own any rights to the television show "Buffy the Vampire Slayer".
They were created by Joss Whedon and belong to him, Mutant Enemy, Sandollar
Television, Kuzui Enterprises, 20th Century Fox Television and the WB
Television Network.
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- The way we were
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- Spike
was sitting on the kitchen table and was drinking his blood when Willow came
in. It was unusual quiet in the house and it seemed that besides the both of
them nobody was awake anymore.
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- Willow
sat down beside Spike and poured some water out of the bottle that stood on
the table in a glass
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- „Tough
day, today, he Red?” Spike was asking her looking at her from the side.
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- „You
can definitively say so,“ answered Willow, before she started to drink.
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- „Have
you been with Buffy? How is she, is she alright?” Spike asked without
looking at Willow.
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- „She’s
been on a really hard trip, but now she back here with us,“ Willow
answered while putting the empty glass back on the table.
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- „Because
of you and the mojo you did.“ He took one last gulp out of the mug and
also replaced it back on the table.
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- „And
because of the demon you drag back here.“ While saying this she gave the
Vampire sitting beside her on the table a better look and noticed the black
leather coat he was still wearing. “You took her words serious”, she
said to him, indicating with her head to his coat.
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- „Looks
like I did, isn’t it. I’m always doing what she asks from me. I once
told Angel, that it made me sick to my
stomach seeing him being the Slayer's lapdog and today I am the same.
And she has to remind me, what I should be.
- He
let the mug slide over the table from one hand in to the other, when he
continued emotionless.
- „Did
you know, that I offered her to go. But that’s not what she wants. She
wants me to stay here. But I should go. I may have an soul and no chip now,
but still I’m not free. And I don’t mean Buffy, my feeling for her.
There are a lot of people who have to live with unreturned love and they
still make it. But I’m a threat, for Buffy and for all the other people in
this house. If I hear that song again? The First can still control me, has
power over me.” In his voice the enragement grew with every sentence he
spoke.
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- „I
thought I earned me my freedom. But like some wise men sad, the freedom lies
not in the things we can do, it lies in the things we don’t have to do, if
we don’t wont to do them. That kind of freedom The First is still denying
me. Therefore I should go. But I cant, because she wants me to stay.” He
held the mug still tight in his right hand.
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- „You
should stay. If she believes, that you are no danger, you should have
confidence in her. Surely there is a reason, why she wants you here”
answered Willow a little confused.
- „I
don’ t know, what she is aiming to. At first I thought I was because of
me, but now I think it is only my strength she needs. She wants all strength
and powers around her she can get. But I am a much greater danger, then my
strength is a profit.”
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- „This
whole discussion is useless. She needs you and you are no greater danger
than for example Andrew or me. Vampire or Human, soul or conscience
doesn’t matter. We all here are sources of danger, because humans can kill
also. You just have to open the newspaper to read about it. And all I have
to do is remember my last year. What I did back then.” Willow hesitated to
go on talking. She felt a cold shower running down her spine whenever she
remembered the events of the last year. With just a small voice she
continued.
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- „And
still I’m here. If we can hold together we can defend us, only then. She
has taken me back. After everything I did. She wants us both to overcome our
greatest fears and present ourselves to them. That’s what we both did last
night. We know, what we are capable of. We know our dark sides in us.
Because in us they are stronger than in the others and therefore we
have to use them. These dark sides in us are a to big part of us, for we
could successfully repress them. We have to accept them and learn to use
them for doing the right things. No matter what other people may think about
them.” She tried to speak courage into him and her at the same time, but
he could sense, that she wasn’t quite sure about it herself.
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- „Kennedy?,
he asked soft. “She is scared about the power that really lies inside you,
isn’t she. Despite her little speech about the strong Willow in the living
room. She had no idea.”
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- His
eyes where so soft when he looked at her while he spoke. It is always
amazing, how he could read the people around him so easily she thought. She
could fess up with it.
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- „Yeah,
she is really confused right now,” Willow admitted. “I don’t know if
it wasn’t to much for her and how our whole thing is going to continue
over this or if it will continue at all. But that’s how it is, that’s
also me. Tara knew it and she accepted it.”
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- He
sensed how she got sad while saying this and he could comprehend it so good.
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- „We
both keep shocking the people, being what we are. It is a tightrope walk,
isn’t it pet. It is hard to find people who can accept both parts of our
character.”
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- She
looked at him with big eyes, astonished about the truth in his words and
gave him her encouraging smile. “And therefore we have to start with us.
That’s what we’ve done today, how hard it have may been at the
beginning, it is a good start. That’s what she wanted from us, to accept
our fears and conquer them.
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- „Do
you think she is facing her fears to conquer them? Is she willing to give
everything for that. Her feelings for me are a part of her fears and she
doesn’t even admit them.”
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- “I
frightened Kennedy. She didn’t know me like this. The whole me. Buffy
knows you, your whole you and doesn’t want you to go. That’s something.
And you know her to, completely. Why do you think did she let them remove
your chip? She accepts you how you are and she needs you. That’s why she
wants you to stay here. She needs your darkness to be whole, that’s why
she could refuse the offer of the demon. The strength out of the darkness,
which she needs, for her, that’s coming from you. And you need the light,
that shines trough her. It guided you to the good, when you didn’t
have a soul, just a chip. You two completed each other always. She is
doing now, what you did all the past years. You showed her things about her,
she didn’t want to see, but still were a part of her and she had to accept
them. Do you remember. You told her, she likes the fight, when she was still
years away from admitting it. Like you, love to fight. You and Buffy are two
peas in a pod.” She smiled at herself about that expression, but it was
the first thing that came to her mind. She saw him smile at this one too.
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- „Maybe
your right, Red, but that part of me made her always made her go off.”
Spike admitted with a smirk.
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- He
remembered how he always liked the
„Open-the-slayers-eyes-to-herself-game“ they were playing. Watching her
inner demons battle the battle of admitting the truth in his words and
trying to covering the realization from him.
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- Willows
continued. “This is also a part of the old Spike she wants back. And the
one Angel told us about. He said: Once he starts something he doesn't stop
until everything in his path is dead.”
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- „You
think she really believes the old Spike could prevent anything about the
catastrophe that is awaiting us. I couldn’t do it with Glory, why should
old Spike be more successful this time then the new one?”
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- „Maybe
not in the battle, but before and afterwards. When Buffy died, you had more
heart and soul in your decisions than I did. That’s what today counts more
then ever.”
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- Then
suddenly her thoughts drifted away and she wasn’t talking to him any more.
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- “I
couldn’t accept the death. Not with Buffy, who I rised from the dead, nor
with Tara, whose death made me the biggest Bad. Pure Evil. And here I stand
now, on a path from which I know will lead to death and she wants from me to
use magic again. There is an imminent danger in that.
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- Then
her glance came back to him and a small smile spread around her lips as she
continued. “But we all made our experiences in the last years and maybe
they will be enough for a happy end.”
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- Since
he got back, he never had such a serious and important conversation with
someone other then Buffy and he was sorry about it now. He should have
talked to Willow earlier. He could feel, that they could have helped each
other, because they had a lot in common. He wanted to show her that he
understood her and put his hands slowly on her both, which she had folded on
the table. He squeezed them tight one short moment and said: “We’ve both
been trough a lot, have hurt people we love. It isn’t easy, isn’t it,
luv.”
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- She
felt the connection too and gave him a smile full of friendship and love.
„And we found people who loved us, no matter how bad we’ve been. They
love and trust us. And if in the end it is love that can save us, you have
to be here. To save her and let her save you. Maybe she knows all of that
already. We have to stand to what we are, to give the people around us the
chance to accept us as that and love us nevertheless and save us through it.
That’s how it has been with Xander back then. His love had saved me and
the whole world. He knew my failures and what I’ve done and still loved
me. If he hadn’t the world would not be anymore.”
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- „So,
we can engage in our dark sides. It is the love that will save us, maybe?
Both of us?,” he asked, looking up from his hands. He was watching them
the whole time while she spoke, like he was hoping to find there some
answers.
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- „Yeah,
that’s what I think. And its not like I don’t now what I’m talking
about. After all I’ve been through his whole stuff already.” She
answered with a smile.
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- He
let go of her hands and leaned back in the chair, lifting an eyebrow while
looking her direct in the face:
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- „I’m
really sorry I missed „Dark Willow“, who tied Giles into knots. Such a
pity I wasn’t there, when you started to end the world. Bet, that was an
great act. On the other hand, I should thank Xander for stopping you. Can
you imagine this? The whole tortures I’ve been through, to become my soul
back. Just to se to world go down with it. Didn’t like the world ending
stories even without a soul.”
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- “I
remember. Apocalypse was never your thing”, she said now really laughing.
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- „That’s
something that didn’t change till today. Despite everything, I still like
this world. And this whole IMMORTALATY-Thing would end as a big joke, then,
wouldn’t’t it.”
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- „Thank
god, there still things that wont ever change,“ she said while standing up
from the table and still laughing. “I’m going to go to sleep now. Magic
is exhausting and makes tired.”
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- „Magic?
What should I say then; I fought a Demon, twice my size. You just had to
open a door.“ he said, both arms crossing behind his neck and stretching
on the chair. He was now the old Spike, full of Humor.
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- „Good
night Spike”, she said smiling while she turned towards the stairs.
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- „She’s
gonna see it,“ he called softy after her.
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- „Who,
what“, she asked once more turning to face him.
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- „Kennedy.
She’ll see the light in you, that shines much brighter then any magic,
good or bad, could ever make it possible. And that’s what counts.” He
said, still sitting arms crossed on the chair.
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- „Thank
you“, she smiled at him once more and went to the stairs.
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- „Good
night, Red“, he said as he heard her going up the stairs.
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