In Memory of Connor
The inscription on the headstone reads:

     Such tremendous spirit
    in somebody so small.
    My inspiration and my light,
    so truly loved by all.
    God keep you little angel,
    life will never be the same,
    until at last I join you,
    hold you in my arms again.

       Goodnight, love Mummy
       
The following is a poem I wrote to Connor, shortly after he went to heaven:
   Hello Little Angel

Hello Little Angel,
How are you today?
You know I always think of you,
Although you're far away.
I look for you in flowers,
I look for you in trees
You are there in every moonbeam
In all the good things that I see.

Every happy moment
Every thing that makes me be
Why do they have to keep you
So very far away from me?

I know that you are happy
I know I should be pleased
That you are safe in heaven,
but I feel Im being teased.
I know that you are near me,
I feel you cant be far
It doesnt stop me wondering
and asking how you are.

Sometimes I know you're happy
I feel it deep inside
Sometimes you know I just cant tell
As Im hurting so inside.

I feel your strenght inside of me,
I'll try to make you proud
And days I think I need your help
I'll ask for it out loud.
Your strength is shining through me
In everything I do
And when people ask me how I cope
I tell them its through you.

So think of me in heaven
when you havent much to do,
And rest assured that I'll be here
thinking so of you.

You will never be forgotten
and though my heart may be quite sore,
Im so happy that you are my son
For now and evermore.
You will live on Earth forever
in our hearts, our strength, our love
And forever live in heaven
Safe and warm with God above.

God keep you little angel
Life will never be the same,
Until at last I join you,
hold you in my arms again.

To ickle angel Connor Adam, from his loving Mummy
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