I want you to remember.

A love so full it could send us all ways.





I stared out my window. It had been raining outside for the last few hours and I was bored. Not only that, I was also quarantined to my room, because I was sick with the new epidemic that was flying around Japan like birds.

I sighed deeply, rubbing my eyes harshly, getting rid of the sleep, that I was slowly succumbing to. I just wanted to sleep, but there was something about the night, that was telling me to stay awake. And I had no other choice but to listen.

So I grabbed a book, and began to flip aimlessly through the pages, wondering how Mimi was doing. Everything reminded me of her now. Absolutely everything.

Ever since that day she told me she was moving to America, my whole world had been turned upside down. Shattered beyond repair.

I threw the book at my wall angrily, because I had so many thoughts piled a mile high in my head, and I was sure that's why I was so sick.

The book hit the wall, after what seemed like an eternity, and smacked the ground with a lifeless thud. A small picture dropped out of it, and floated over to me.

My undying curiosity got the best of me, and I picked it up. It was as if fate was punishing me, for a wrong, I had no clue I committed.

It was a picture of us together, a few days before she left. God we were so happy. So carefree. So in love with each other, it could make you nauseous.



I want you to surrender .

All my feelings rose today.





But I knew I had to tell her my true feelings. Even though we knew we loved one another, we never got around too actually admitting it to each other.

I just couldn't go on with everything all bottled up inside of me anymore. It was killing me, having so much to tell her, but I had no courage to go along with it. And I knew that if I didn't tell her how much I loved her, I would just die.

I remembered every moment of that day. I reminisced at how beautiful she looked, with her long chestnut hair flowing over her shoulders, lightly swaying in the wind. The way her amber eyes shimmered with tears.

I almost exploded seeing her so sad. And I only hoped and prayed that what I had to tell her, would make her happy. I begged God that my news would put a smile back on her lovely face.





And I want you to remain.

The power of children can amaze.





Now that she was gone, I was only left with the memories we shared. Mimi was the first, and only person I will ever truly love. She showed me the meaning of friendship and compassion. Love and honor.

And to me that was the greatest gift I could ever receive. But she just never stopped giving, and I stood transfixed on the small gift she had given me before she left. A small picture frame, which held a picture of us.

It seemed that today, everything I touched brought back some haunting memory or another. Every reminder of our childhood flooded back to my head, almost drowning me in a river of confusion.





I'll try not to complain.

I know that's a pisser baby.





I could barely take everything that was happening to me. Everything I held dear to me, started to spin around in my head. The fever was finally getting to my mind, scrambling and confusing all my logic.

But still, only one thing was crystal clear to me. Mimi's face. I was positive she was the one keeping me sane through all this, even though she wasn't even on the same continent.

But Mimi had that bewitching effect on everyone. Once you met her, you would never forget her. And I, would never, in a million years forget her.



The chemicals between us .

The walls that lie between us.

Lying in this bed.



I found myself staring at her gift again. 'Why Mimi?' I thought. 'Why did you have to leave me? I need you so much.'

The clock beside me started to buzz, sending a horrific screeching through my mind, which only combined with all the other strange, yet familiar noises swarming through my skull.

I reached out to slam it off, but missed, and hit the wall, causing my hand to ache. Just one more feeling to put into the melding pot. Pain.

'There's a wall between us also Mimi.' I realized seriously for a moment. 'It's the boarder that divides the land we live in. You're no longer with me, in Japan, and I can't be with you in America.'





The chemicals displaced.

There is no lonelier place.

Than lying in this bed.





"God I miss you so much." I spoke, gazing at the photo, and kissing it softly. "I miss you more than anything in this world." I said, as a tear escaped his eye. "I'm so lonely without you."





I want you to remember.

Everything you said.



"I just hope you always remember that I love you. Just remember that I always will."

I sighed, and squeezed my eyes shut, trying to clear my head of everything that was flying through it, but it was no use. So I just gave up trying to fight.

But something kept nudging at me, making my will, keep on going. It was Mimi's voice. That day, she told me she loved me. She told me, she loved me, and I told her, I was helpless in love with her.



Every driven word.

Like a hammer, hell, to my head.





"I love you Izzy." she stated me. "And I'm sorry that I'm hurting you, but I have to go."

"Please just stay here." I begged her. I had no clue someone could be so happy, and so sad all at the same time. "Mimi I need you."

"And I need you too, but this can't happen. Not now anyway." she said softly, as a batch of tears streaked down her beautiful cheeks.

"Mimi," I started, trying to find words that would express what I feeling. I can't remember a time other than that, where I was at a lose of words.

So I didn't speak. I just went with my instincts, and kissed her passionately.



The chemicals between us.

There is no lonelier place.

Then lying in this bed.





I remembered that kiss, more clearly than anything in this world. Everything just seemed to fit together for us, in that one moment, but it was then shattered a second later, as the flight attendant announced her plain was leaving.

She held my hand, and I hugged her tightly. I never wanted to let her out of my arms, but we both knew she would have to go. As much as I hated to admit it, she would be moving away.





Mimi's POV





The chemicals displaced.

There is no lonelier place.

Than lying in this bed.





God. Ever since I moved to this place, I've been miserable. I left my whole life back in Japan, and I know that I will never call this place home. Hell, home is where the heart is, and my heart is with Izzy.

I just wanted to scream at how much I miss and needed him. He always brightened my day, right now, I could use a little sunshine.





The chemicals between us.

The chemicals between us.

Lying in this bed.



Even though it's only been a week, I feel as if I've lost total connection to my friends. I'm just so lonely without them. Oh corse I can make more friends. Live the exact same life I did in Japan, but it would never be the same.

Each one of them was unique, and special to me. One made me laugh. One made me cry. One made me feel loved. Izzy.

I walked around my newly painted, light-pink room wondering what was going on with each of them. Sure there's email, but it's not the same.

I want to hear Izzy's voice again. I want to hold him in my arms again. I want him to whisper, the three words that make my heart beat faster, until the point of combustion.





We're of the hollow men.

We are the naked ones.



Ever since I hoped on that plane, I've been so empty inside. Nothing can

make me feel better. No matter how many stuffed animals my parents buy me, no matter how many gifts they shower we with, they can never fill the void they created when they took me away from the man I love.





We never meant you harm.

Never meant you wrong.





But I can only imagine what Izzy's going through. I just left him. Packed up, and bye. I never meant to hurt you Izzy. I would never do anything to hurt you on purpose.

You've protected me from so many wrongs. You've shielded me from all the evil around us, and then I repay you, by crushing your heart.





I'd like to thank.

All of my lovers, lovers, lovers.



Izzy, I just wish you could forgive me. I love you so much, and I'll thank my lucky stars, if you don't hate me after what I did.





Izzy's POV





The chemicals between us.

The army of achievers.

Lying in this bed.



I guess I could say I was lucky. After all, it's better to have loved, and lost. Then never to have loved at all. But I can't help but feel envious of the people that are loved, and have never had to feel the almost unbearable nature of a broken heart.





The chemicals displaced.

There is no lonelier face.

Than lying in this bed.





But I also can't help but wonder what if? What if she didn't have to leave me? Would we still be happy? What if I had never told her my feelings? Would she know how much I love her?

A thousand other questions like this, popped back and forth in my mind. But I was feeling so sick, I could barely think straight.





Mimi's POV





The chemicals between us.

The chemicals between us.

The chemicals.





Izzy, please remember, that no matter how far away I am from you, I will always love you; till the day I die.

I just wish I could tell you that.





Izzy's POV





The chemicals between us.





"Don't worry Mimi." Izzy said reassuringly. "I can hear you."

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