Where can I run to?
Where can I hide?
Who will I turn to?
Now I'm in a virgin state of mind.

K's Choice -- Virgin State Of Mind

Mimi's POV

"So Mimi, are you going to the dance?" Sora asked me, as she dangled her head off my bedside. Her fiery red hair was spewed out everywhere.

"Don't think so. What's the use?"' I sighed. I lightly jumped on the edge, causing her to shift slightly, as I lied down next to her, letting my head lob over the side in the same manner.

"Are you sure?" she giggled happily. "Matt Ishida is going to be there..." she taunted, as she watched my face flush beat red.

"Why would I care?" I trembled slightly, knowing perfectly well she revealed my one weakness.

"Come on Mimi! You do such a bad job at hiding the way you look at him! It's so obvious you like him!" Sora, gasped mockingly.

"Well come on Sora! Have you seen him?" I blurted out, instantly going maroon.

"He is hot. I'll give him that. But come on! Have you seen Izzy Izumi?! He is hot!" Sora squealed, as she went all dreamy.

"So Izzy's your flavor of the month. I pity him." I joked, as she hit my arm.

"As if you're one to speak." she said, rolling her eyes. "You're even worse than I am!"

"Liar." I retorted flatly, rolling off my bed and falling gracefully to the floor. "But I might just go. What is it?"

"Christmas dance. Dancing... music... mistletoe... how perfect is that?" she shrieked.

"It'll be fun. I bet really unpredictable... romantic maybe."

"Don't you know it?!" she shouted loudly. "Now, all we have to do is find you an outfit that'll make him roll over!"

"Sora! Please!" I cried, really shocked.

"Spare me Mimi. You knew this was coming!" she yelled, as she darted into my closet and began searching for clothing.

"Ah! This dress! This is it! It's so the one! Mimi, it's perfect!" she hollered, almost having a heart attack. She practically threw it at me and I had to duck so it didn't whip me in the face. But I picked it up from the floor, examining it thoroughly.

It was a pale lavender, with a splash of ice green. Small flowers were embroidered in a light pink tinted glass and it had a certain air of elegance to it. It was strapless and had almost no back, only a thin strip of lavender materiel that fastened it around the neck.

"It is so you Mimi. Matt will be drooling over you!" Sora said, as she clapped her hands together excitedly.

"I hope so." I sighed. I mean, after all, this was Matt Ishida we were talking about. He was absolutely perfect. Sweet, handsome and kind. But I knew that it would be near impossible for him to notice me.

We were in two different social backgrounds. He was a dashingly gorgeous rule breaker, while I was the ever so popular head cheerleader. People like us didn't clash. Hell, we didn't even speak, all simply because his friends were considered the losers. The punks.

But I wish that our groups would work out. God, he was just so cute and there was this hint of danger in the way he talked. And his eyes. Oh my God his eyes. They would glow every time he spoke. Every time he moved. You could tell the mood he was in that day by his eyes. And I can't even recall how many times I had gotten lost in those pools of azure blue.

Then there was his hair. Golden like the sun and it would shine just like it too. I could go on for days on end about how much I loved him. How much he meant to me. But I was scared of him rejecting me and just brushing me off as a silly, little girl with a crush. He was the 'I'll only date those who have been in jail twenty times' type of guy.

I was the school spirit, while he was the one person who wanted to school to burn in a heated blaze. But the more and more I thought about it, the more I realized that it wasn't just a crush. It was so much more than that. It had gotten to the point, where my thoughts were only of him.

And I wanted to tell him so much. Almost every day. But I was way too shy to actually admit it. You wouldn't expect that out of me though. I was always speaking my mind. I never kept any of my opinions or feelings bottled up. Except for this.

Sora had now gone home and I was sitting all alone in my room, gazing into my mirror, gazing at my complexion. Small pictures of all the guys I dated littered the edges and most of my wall. But I always kept a space open for Matt's picture.

And I was wondering if he could really like me. Even just a little. I mean, it wasn't as if I was ugly or anything and I had a great personality. I was popular and smart and everyone wanted me! But why not him?

I mindlessly grabbed a brush and began to comb my hair. The golden brown strands gently fell over my shoulders, as the teeth of the pink plastic brush lightly tugged away at the tangles.

"Mimi." my father said happily as he knocked on my door and gently pushed it open. His smiling face always seemed to brighten my oh-so feminine room.

"Yeah." I replied casually as I flung away my hair. I spun around on the small swivel chair and looked directly at him.

"Supper is almost ready."

"Thank you. I'll be there in a minute." I promised, as he shut the door and walked away.

I always thanked my lucky stars that he was my dad. He was the greatest. Honestly. He had been raising me since I was four years old. Ever since my mom left us. I silently hated her for doing that and leaving me without a mother all this time. I was a teenager! 16 years old! I needed a mother right now!

But my dad made up for everything. He played mom and dad to me. He worked hard so I could be where I am and have what I have. He did practically everything, except teach me how to wear makeup!

I quickly placed my hair in a loose bun and ran out the door, jumping down the stairs into our kitchen. Pictures of both of us were hung at every corner. A constant reminder of how happy and peaceful we were. "Smells great." I complimented, as I sat down in my seat and grabbed a piece of bread.


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"So, have you made up your mind yet?" Sora sighed, as she flattened out her black skirt. "As in the dance?"

School had just ended and we were on our way to the mall. Our little after school tradition. Every Thursday, we would gather up our allowance and shop till we dropped. How cliché is that? Cheerleaders at a mall. Who would have thought?

"I don't know. Maybe. Maybe not. It's still all up in the air." I replied, as I collected my History book and shut my locker. Sora groaned loudly. "Please. I beg you. I seriously beg you. You need to get out more!" she cried, throwing her hands up in the air frustrated. "Ever since you broke up with Jake, you've been so dull!"

"Well when you put it that way..." I muttered sarcastically. "I would love to go but..."

"Then it's settled. We're going. And if you try to back out, I'll tell Matt that you like him! And so help me God I will!" Sora threatened.

"You wouldn't!" I snapped, suddenly becoming very red at the face. Even though she was my best friend, I regretted telling her some things.

"Don't tempt me. And come on. The dance is tomorrow. We have a lot of shopping ahead of us!" she cheered.

"I can hardly wait." I sighed again. But it was no use talking to her when she was like this. She just grabbed my hand and pulled me away.

On the way to the bus stop, as we were joking around making huge idiots of ourselves, we saw a group of kids. All surrounding one person. My heart instantly lurched in my chest and I could have sworn someone punched my in stomach. "Matt..." I gasped, as I looked out to the bustling kids. And there he was, looking as handsome as ever. I felt like such a fool, for just staring at him, not uttering a single word.

But then, something wonderful happened. His head looked up and he spotted me. And he smiled. He smiled, right at me. I wanted to just pass out, but Sora kept pulling me away, onto the bus that had just arrived. As I stumbled up the steps and clumsily held out my bus-pass, he waved slightly, unsure of himself. He slightly chewed his lip, as he slowly pulled his arm back down, next to his side. The boy next to him punched his shoulder and began to yell at him, as Matt looked down at his shoes.

'He's embarrassed!' I realized, as I sat down. But as he looked back up, I waved back at him. A smile pulled at his lips as his eyes began to twinkle. The whole moment was perfect. And I wish that it could have lasted a bit longer.


**********


"You see! This is great!" Sora screamed at me, over the blaring music. Bright multicolored lights danced around, onto of the crowds as the partying students moved to the beat of the music.

At least ten kids were running around in Santa Claus hats, holding mistletoe over students' heads. Part of the annual Christmas dance bash. "What?" I hollered at her. The DJ had decided to play Rob Zombie's Dragula and I couldn't even hear my own voice over the bellowing singer.

Sora just gave up and gestured for us to move to the dance floor. I followed happily, as I gave a quick smile to a bunch of guys that were staring at us. I felt so natural just flirting, not having any intention of really dancing with them. Well, maybe one or two of them. The really cute ones anyway. As Sora and I made it to the dance floor, we were instantly bumped into by excited dance couples, that were just lost in each other's arms.

Almost at once, the punk rock music turned into a sappy, soft song. Oasis' Wonderful. That had to be one of my most favorite songs in the world. The lyrics just meant so much to me and I could relate to them perfectly. It was almost as if Noel Gallagher had written to song just for me. At once, someone tapped at my shoulder. I spun around flirtingly, as a member of the football team asked me to dance. And I was never one to disappoint.

He lightly guided me to an area, where there was nobody dancing. There, he took me in his muscular arms and held me tight. I completely relaxed into his arms, as we danced slowly. Once the song was over, we parted our ways, then grooving to Korn's Freak On A Leash. I found it funny how the only songs they played that night, were either heavy metal/punk style, or mellow love songs. But I had to applaud the DJ. He did a fantastic job at making them all flow together.

"Okay you love birds." the DJ announced. "This is the last dance. So I suggest you get that special someone you have and hold them close, because this is for you."

Instantly, Dido's Here With Me swam around the room. My heart almost broke, because this was defiantly to most heartwarming song of the year. At once, I saw a boy walking right at me. I recognized him as the guy who hit Matt's arm yesterday. He smirked at me, as I moaned slightly, God how I wished it were Matt walking up to me, asking me to dance. That would have been perfect.

But something happened, that I totally wasn't expecting. I was just pulled onto the dance floor. Before I could yell at the freak who had pulled me, I stopped dead in my tracks. It was Matt and he had casually slipped his arm around my waist, pressing me against his warm body. I thought I was going to melt.

"Care to dance?" he joked, as he gentle voice rang through my ears.

"Doesn't look like I have much of a choice." I jested back, as he slowly tilted my chin up to meet his face.

"No. I'm not giving you one." he muttered, gazing softly into my eyes. I was literally on cloud nine. I was actually getting to stare at his beautiful eyes up close. And they were even more magical and mystifying that I had ever imagined.

"Matt." I uttered lightly, as he squeezed me closer to him. It was as if he was protecting me from something. Like he was taking care of me and that I belonged to him and only him. "My God you're gorgeous." he stated, brushing away my bangs. As soon as his skin touched mine, my face began to burn. "Sorry..." he muttered, averting his eyes away from mine.

"No!" I shouted lightly. "You don't have to apologize for anything." I could just tell my face must have been maroon by now, but I really didn't care. And as luck would have it, one of the hated kids with mistletoe headed straight for us and held a piece above our heads.

"Kiss up you two! And make it a good one!" he laughed, before taking off again to find his next victims.

"With pleasure." Matt smirked mysteriously, as he leaned down and pressed his lips against mine. I couldn't help but respond and the kiss was extraordinary! It was at least a hundred times more special, meaningful and passionate than any other kiss I had ever shared over the years.

Neither of us wanted to pull away and when the music stopped, we were still kissing. Just the knowledge that he was kissing me, made my stomach turn into a mass of butterflies.

But finally, I pulled away, as Matt stared at my face. "Wow..." he sighed, as he held me closer. I didn't want to move a muscle. "That was amazing. And I had always wondered what it would be like to kiss you and now I know." he breathed, turning a little red himself.

"I had always wondered what it would be like to kiss you too Matt." I told him truthfully. "And let me tell you, I wasn't disappointed."

Without wasting another second, Matt pulled me into another earth shattering kiss. This time I wouldn't be pulling back. This was beyond all kisses. Passionate and tender all at the same moment. It would have been better if Sora had not come along to ruin it.

"Hey Matt, give her a chance to breathe already!" she giggled, "or are you giving her a tonsil check up?" Matt pulled away and threw Sora a dirty look, though he was blush just as much as I was.

I looked over at Sora and she shrugged, "Time to go, your dad will be here any minute to pick us up."

I nodded to her and sighed, "Ok, I'll meet you by the door in a minute." Thankfully she took the hint and left. I looked back up to Matt's eyes and he smiled.

"So?" he said hesitantly. "What are you doing this weekend?" The butterflies that had been in my stomach decided at that moment to hold a derby, I was so excited. Matt Ishida was standing here holding me and wanting to know my plans for the weekend!

"Um, I actually don't have any plans. Why?" I said smiling my best smile. "Well." he grinned, "I thought maybe you and I could hook up and do something tomorrow, that is if you want?"

"I would love to!" I burst out and regretted my overly eager attitude immediately. Though it didn't look like Matt minded too much at all. He chuckled huskily and once again leaned down bringing his lips to mine, tracing my lips with his tongue asking, not demanding entrance which I granted.

His tongue glided into my mouth and began to slowly caress my tongue, engaging it in a friendly sparring match. We finally broke apart for air. "Good, I'll call you in the morning then." he said while he continued.

"Ok, sounds great." I said quickly and gave him another quick kiss. "I have to run, talk to you tomorrow."

I left Matt standing there as I made my way outside to meet Sora and my dad. I had a grin on my face that probably looked like I was a cat who had just had the cream and eaten it too, but I didn't care. All that mattered to me at that moment was the fact that Matt liked me as much as I liked him. I was in heaven and I didn't care who knew it!


**********


The next day after Sora left I waited by the phone. I was actually happy when she left, she had a million questions about Matt and although I enjoyed talking about him I was getting tired of 20 questions.

I sat on my bed brushing my hair while staring at the phone. I thought that if I looked at it hard enough it would ring. No such luck. With an exasperated sigh I fell back on to my bed covering my eyes with my arm. Waiting, I have no patience for it. I let out another sigh for good measure. I was just about to say to hell with it and find something to do when the phone began to ring.

"I'll get it!" I screamed, so my father wouldn't pick it up. I looked at the phone and waited for the second ring, I wouldn't want to appear too anxious.

"Hello?" I answered, trying to sound calm and collected.

"Is Mimi there?" the voice on the other end replied, which of course I knew instantly to be Matt's voice. But just the same I decided to play dumb.

"This is she."

"Hi Mimi, it's Matt."

"Oh. Hi Matt."

"Hey do you still want to go out today?"

"Sure. What did you have in mind Matt?" Like I would have to ask, for all I would care he could say let's go see women's mud wrestling and as long as I was with him it wouldn't have mattered. "Well, there's a romantic movie fest at the Cineplex today. But if that is too lame we could hang out at the mall or something?"

I think I am in love, romantic movies with Matt Ishida, I have definitely died and gone to heaven! "Matt, that sounds great. When does it start?"

"In about an hour, I could pick you up in 20 minutes?"

"Sounds great, see you in 20 minutes then."


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The entire day I spent with Matt, latched onto his arm as we made our way to the movie fest. Snuggled next to him as the first movie began. And by the end of the second movie we were engaged in a permanent lip lock.

By dinnertime the movie fest was over and Matt and I slowly exited the theater in a semi-embrace. "So, could I interest you in dinner?" Matt asked slyly grinning at me. "Or would you rather call it a night?"

I smirked and mock rolled my eyes. "Well I would hardly call this a night." I said and smiled at him softly. "I would love dinner that sounds perfect. Besides with all the candy and popcorn I have consumed today, I think eating something a little more substantial would be a very good thing." Matt started to laugh and soon his laughter had him almost doubled over. I had to step back, confusion written all over my face.

"What's so funny?" I ask admonished.

Matt tried to suck some air into his lungs while wiping the tears out of his eyes. "Sorry Mimi, I was just think about all that candy. I have never seen a girl put away so many milk duds in my life in one sitting!" His laughter soon erupted again after he finished. Needless to say my jaw dropped fast and hard, I didn't know whether to join Matt in his laughter or be insulted. I opted to smack his arm instead. "Ow!" Matt said while rubbing his arm and smiling back at me. "Jeez, I didn't mean that as a bad thing. I think?" He grinned wildly as he tried to bait me again.

"Uh huh. Well that's fine Matt, because who was the one who put away three jumbo popcorns all by himself." I leered.

Matt started to laugh again and raise his hands in defeat. "Alright, you win. So how about that dinner gorgeous, popcorn or no I am starved!" He smiled gently at me extending his hand to me in invitation that I happily accepted. We spent the rest of the weekend together, save the evenings of course.


The next weeks flew by like nothing. I was in a complete and utter bliss. Nothing existed to me except Matt and our fledgling relationship. He would pick me up at my house every morning before school, we would see each other in the hallways in between classes, have lunch together and then he would drive me home after school. He was at every game cheering me on, not the teams playing, but me.

We would have study dates at least twice a week and would be on the phone with each other every night. To put it bluntly we were inseparable. It didn't take long before the rest of our classmates caught on and soon one name was always said with the other. Mimi and Matt or Matt and Mimi. It all just felt so right.

And Matt? Well he was perfect. The perfect boyfriend, attentive and supportive, protective and even a bit possessive, but I can't complain about the last part because I was very possessive myself.


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After six months with Matt I figured life was just about as good as it could get. It was fast approaching our six-month anniversary and Matt had made it clear that he had special plans for us that night and not to plan for anything but to be with him. So of course I did just that.

However, that only left me with another problem. What to get Matt for an anniversary gift? Being the person I am, my first stop was at the mall where I roamed from store to store in hopes of finding that perfect gift. Needless to say I wasn't having the luck that I had been hoping for.

By the time I was closing in on the last few stores in the mall I was completely zapped and in definite need of recharging, so I decided to make a beeline for the concession court and grab something to eat and take a few minutes to regroup.

Standing in line for Auntie Ann's pretzels I started to rummage through my purse for a few dollars when I accidentally bumped into the person behind me. "Oh my! I am so so sorry." I said quickly as I turned to face the person I bumped into only to be faced with the manic grin of Tai Kamiya.

"Hey there Mimi, fancy bumping into you here." Tai smiled I had to blow out a sigh of relief. "Oh hey Tai."

Tai's eyebrows popped up to his hairline. "Geez, now that you know it's me, guess I don't get that apology."

"Oh I'm sorry Tai." I said between giggles.

"Hey, it's alright Mimi. So what brings you here?"

"Well!" I started to grin and flush. "It's Matt and my six-month anniversary and I am looking for the perfect gift for him."

"Uh cool Mimi," Tai said as he began to fidget. "So, um what did you find?" I frowned seriously. "Not a thing." I exclaimed as I threw my hands up into the air. I sighed, "I have looked at almost every single store in this mall and I have not found a single thing that would make a good gift for Matt."

Tai looked down and shoulder began to shake, soon his rumbling laughter could be heard. "Tai! What is so funny!?"

Tai looked up at me with tears streaming down his face, "sorry Mimi, just who would have thought!" he choked out as he began laughing uncontrollably again. I quickly crossed my arms over my chest and did my very best Heero Yuy Death Glare. Yes I have watch one or two episodes of Gundam Wing, but that is my secret. Besides, how could I not watch with such bishonen as Heero, Duo, Trowa and Quatre! But as I said, my secret. Tai abruptly stopped laughing. "Uh Mimi?"

I looked at Tai innocently. "Yes?"

"Uh...Erm... You ok? You had this weird look, for a minute it reminded me of that dude from that cartoon show, you know, with the five guys that fight with big machines."

"You mean Gundam Wing." I said and bit back a laugh at Tai's expression. It was priceless, Tai captain of the soccer team and one of the hottest guys in school, next to my Matt, left speechless by lil' ol' me. SHIT! Matt! I quickly looked at Tai with a frantic expression. "Tai I have to run I have got to find a killer gift for Matt and I have gotta find it NOW!"

"Hey ya want some help?" Tai yelled as I started to make a mad dash towards the last few stores that I had not already covered.

I stopped mid-step and turned back to Tai astonished at his offer. "Really? You would do that?" I said incredulously.

"Course Mimi, I would do anything for you...Um to help you I mean." Tai said quickly recovering verbally but blushing a bright crimson.

I smiled gently, "I would really love some help if you have the time."

"Cool." Tai said as he walked up to me. Tai and I spent the next hour searching the remainder of the mall to no avail, when finally I came up with a brilliant idea and Tai being the wonderful gentleman that he was, was kind enough to transport me to the music store.


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A little eyeliner, a quick squirt of my favorite perfume and I have to admit I look completely drop dead gorgeous! I have to laugh at that slightly. Like there would ever be any question to that. I look at my alarm clock in anticipation, just a few more minutes and Matt should be here for our anniversary date. I sigh to myself and smile. Tonight is going to be special, no, that's not right, tonight is going to be mind blowing, amazing, incredible, amazing, out of this world and a night to never be forgotten!

"Mimi! Your date is here!" My father bellowed up the stairs.

"Ok daddy be right down!"

I jumped up and surveyed myself one more time in the mirror before placing Matt's gift in my purse and casually walking down the stairs. I soft whistle stops me in my tracks as I caught Matt standing at the bottom of the stairs looking up at me with his mouth hanging wide open. I giggle softly and blush. He has never stopped making me feel special. "You look pretty handsome there yourself Matt."

Matt smiled slyly looking at me from underneath his blonde locks. "I have to look good, it would be an injustice for someone as beautiful as you to be seen with someone who didn't look like me."

I did a quick double take, "Hey! A bit conceded are we Mr. Ishida?" Matt smiled taking my hand in his and gently raising it to his lips where I could feel his hot breath caressing my skin as he placed a soft kiss upon it.

"I can be with you by my side."

A faint blush crept up on my cheeks and for once I was left speechless. Matt smiled that of a man who had won, "Are you ready? I have a special night planned for you Mimi."

I nodded and took his arm. "Bye dad! See you later!" I yelled as Matt and I left my house and made our way to his...limo?? I stopped and looked at Matt and then back at the black limo parked out in front of my house. "Matt" I gasped. "You didn't?"

"No. My car is behind that limo." He said in mock seriousness. "Kidding babe! Only the best for you." I could just smile and let Matt lead me to the limo where a tall handsome man stood with the door open.

"Miss Mimi." He said in a low British accent as he bowed to me.

"Hello." I said softly as I stepped into the luxurious limo and sat while Matt took his seat next to me. "Matt this is... this is too much." I said, still amazed.

"Anything for you Mimi." he said taking me gently in his arms leaning down to capture my mouth in a soul searing kiss. I lost myself in that kiss as he slowly, teasingly traced my lips with his tongue requesting, not demanding entrance which I happily granted. His tongue slowly slid into my mouth exploring leaving my lungs burning for oxygen that I was all to happy to deny them. Fortunately or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it Matt must have been thinking along the same lines and broke our kiss smiling. Pulling me so that our foreheads were touching I looked deep into his azure eyes.

"Matt." I breathed.

Matt smiled leaning in once more to capture my lips. We continued to kiss until the limo came to a stop and the driver came back and opened the door. "Mr. Ishida, we have reached our destination." Matt took my hand entwining our fingers and gently pulled me with him. I got out of the limo and looked up to see the most exclusive French restaurant in Tokyo. Matt saw the look in my eyes and smiled leading me to the entrance.

Once inside we were lead to a quiet candle lit table in the back of the restaurant where we spent two hours eating the most wonderful food, talking and just enjoying each other. After dinner we were back in the limo driving around the city. Matt sat next to me with his arms securely around me. I sighed happily to myself, if I died tomorrow I would die happy. "Matt thank you so much for tonight, it has been so beautiful." I said snuggling a bit closer to Matt. "And I have something for you too." I slipped my hand into my purse and retrieved a small gift wrapped box adorned with a gold ribbon. "Happy anniversary Matt."

Matt smiled and took the box from me wasting no time in shedding the wrapping paper and opening the small box. He stopped when he opened the box and looked at the gift with an expression that I couldn't read.

"Don't you like it?" I said frowning.

"Like it?" Matt repeated "Mimi, it's the most beautiful thing that has ever been given to me, I love it!" He said as his finger stroked the gold chain down to the small gold guitar at the end of it. "Thank you so much Mimi."

I smiled, relieved and pleased. "Then let's put it on shall we?" I said reaching into the box and taking the necklace and placing it around his neck. As I finished clasping the necklace to around his neck Matt took my hand in his and brought it up to his mouth where he placed a soft kiss.

I looked deep into Matt's eyes and saw such love and tenderness that I felt myself melt. I leaned into and started kiss Matt gently tracing his lips with my tongue. Soon our tongues were joined together sparing, not for dominance but almost in a dance. Our kiss continued heatedly and soon our hands began to slowly caress each other, taking time to glide over the planes of our bodies. Matt left my lips and began to lazily trail down kisses along my jaw stopping when he reached my neck to suckle along my jugular. I was completely lost in sensations, I felt like a quivering mass of putty for him to do with what he wanted. We had been close to this point many times before, but never had gone beyond it. But now I wanted more, I wanted it all, to feel Matt inside me and to know what that was like.

"Matt." I breathed. "Do you think we could go back to you house?" Matt stopped from his ministrations to look at me and then he nodded quickly, pushing a button to allow him to speak to the driver and direct him to his house.

After he finished speaking he turned his attention back to my neck where once again I was lost in pleasure that I couldn't even begin to put into words. I ran my hands up his back and into his hair bringing his head closer to me as I started to moan softly.

I thought for sure that any minute I would explode and wondered what was taking so long for us to get back to Matt's house. Soon enough though the car stopped and the engine shut off as the driver got out and came around to let us out. I breathed a quivering breath trying to compose myself long enough to make into Matt's room. No small feet when you are so horny that the right look could make your knees give out, which is exactly what I was at that.

"My God I love you." he muttered, kissing me with a fire that I thought would light up the whole house.

"I love you to Matt." I whispered back, allowing a small tear to roll down my cheek. It was beautiful. The whole night. It was all about us, expressing our love for each other in the most beautiful way possible. He was almost magical, so loving and gentle. Perfect, my Lord he was perfect.

His body and mine just melted into each other. I wanted to just get closer and closer to him, until I though that we would merge. And that still wasn't good enough for me. And I can honestly say it was the best night of my life. Just the knowledge that I was with him made me go dizzy. I loved him so much. And he loved me back. And that's why I knew my life would be perfect from that moment on. Too bad I'm a horrible psychic...


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Everything was absolutely beautiful the next day. Matt really was the most perfect boyfriend on the planet. I mean, you hear these horror stories about guys that will do or say anything just to get their girlfriends in bed. And I was so proud to say Matt wasn't like that at all. In fact, every time we saw each other we could barely keep off one another. Sora even threatened to hose us down if we didn't tone it down. But come on! Could you blame me?!

"I'll see you after class okay?" he muttered, kissing me once again before getting dragged off by Kyle. But he fought his way back, planting one more kiss on me before Kyle regained his grip and yanked him across the hallway.

"Damn! You two are almost disgustingly cute!" Sora chuckled. "But come on! You guys swap anymore spit I'm gonna have you tested for mono!"

"Grow up Sora." I lipped, sighing deeply. "Just look at how amazing he is! So sweet and caring, sexy…"

"And he must be good in bed!" she added in effortlessly. I almost chocked. "And do not even bother denying it, because it's written all over your faces."

"Can't hide anything from you can I?" I sighed, looking right at her.

"Nope. Especially sex. And especially not sex with him!" she giggled. "But why didn't you tell me!? I thought I was your best friend!"

"You are!" I exclaimed. "This was just something that I really didn't want to tell the whole world!"

"Understandable." she stated. "But spill, how nice is his body?"

"Better than you could ever imagine and then-some!" I chirped. I could have gone on for hours about Matt, but the bell to our next class stopped me dead in my tracks.

"Damn, Nurse Betty is coming to visit us." Sora mocked, making a face. Everyone in the school hated our nurses little visits. She once lectured us on Drug Ed when we were supposed to be learning CPR. She's such a fossil!

"Ten bucks and a strawberry smoothie says we get the 'your bodies are changing everyday' speech instead of the 'stay in school' speech." Sora challenged.

"I see your ten buck and a strawberry smoothie and raise you facial that we get the 'divorce is a horrible thing' speech instead of the 'talk to your parents' speech." I smirked.

"Lame. I'm so going to win this one." Sora smiled.

"Not." I grinned, walking into the economics classroom and sitting down near Sora.

"Hey there!" Tai suddenly smiled, slipping gracefully into the seat near me. He was wearing his soccer uniform and I had to admit that red really suited him. Hell, any color suited him just fine.

"Hey." I replied, smiling widely. "What's up?"

"Oh, I just came by to say hello. No biggie." he stated, dropping his bag with a thud. Since the zipper was slightly opened, a movie slipped out and slid over, hitting my foot.

"What's this?" I asked, picking it up. My eyes almost exploded from their sockets. "Since when do you have this movie?!"

"Since I bought it." he smirked, pulling it from my hand.

"Tai, I have searched everywhere to find the Endless Waltz and I have come up with nothing! You have to let me see it!"

"And what if I refuse?" he smirked cutely, flaunting the video cassette in front of my eyes.

"I will kill you Tai! I'm serious!" I hissed, making a swipe for it.

"We'll have none of that now." he laughed, tucking it back safely in his bag. "But I'll tell you what. Why don't you come over to my place and if you're lucky I might let you watch the opening theme."

"You're evil Kamiya." I pouted. "But Trowa and Heero better look damn good in this movie!"

"What! You don't like Duo! Come on! Tell me the resemblance isn't shocking!" he joked, making me laugh.

"It isn't!" I chuckled.

"Aw give me credit girl! We both have the hair, the charm, the personality..."

"The ego..." I added, smirking. "But I will admit. You would look amazing with a braid."

"Oh I'd look good in anything." he stated, totally self involved, but in a funny way.

"No arguments here." I accidentally spoke. I immediately shut my mouth and turned my attention to the blackboard as I felt my face flush bright red. Through the corner of my eye I could see Tai's confused face, as he debated whether he heard me right. But thankfully the teacher walked in and the class started. Nurse Betty slowly made her way over to us, as everyone prepared for slumber.

"I'm here to talk to you all about sex." she boomed rather loudly. That caught all the attention for everyone in the room.

"Oops. We were wrong." Sora whispered giggling slightly. I grinned back to, but I could have sworn that through the whole lecture, she was staring straight at me. As if she was directing everything in the speech to me and only me.

"Are you okay?" I read from Tai's note. He slipped it to me as Betty began to write the stats of teenage pregnancy on the board.

"Fine." I wrote back. "Just wondering what Quatre and my children would look like."

When he read the slip of paper, he burst out laughing. "Mr. Kamiya!" the nurse boomed. "Do you find something amusing about the word sex?" she demanded.

"No Miss, I can assure you that I was barely paying attention!" he stated proudly, making the whole class erupt into laughter." I wouldn't be so smug if I were you!" she snapped. Her face relaxed, as she almost smiled. "Well, we'll use you as an example Tai."

"Fine. Whatever." he replied casually.

"You're a handsome young man, popular, star athlete and your grades aren't that bad."

"True, it's all true." he joked, pretending to cry. "I'm a babe magnet!" that set the class off even more.

"Let's try this scenario now. You're happily dating, oh, you." she said pointing to me. "You're into each other. You love each other. You plan on marrying her and living the white picked fenced life."

"That's a future to look forward to." he smiled at me, making me blush again.

"Well." Betty hissed. "One day you sleep together and she gets pregnant. What do you do? Quit school? Take up a job to support her?" That made both of us really uncomfortable and Tai's tell-a-tale shifting indicated he was just as blown away as me.

"For starters, I wouldn't sleep with her until we're married. I don't believe in premarital sex."

"You get drunk let's say." she opted.

"If I loved her the way you're describing, then I wouldn't ever put her life in danger by drinking so much that I don't know what I'm doing." he replied icily.

"Out of pure passion then." she smirked.

"Please, give us men some credit. Unlike what you're implying, most guys think with their heads, not their pants." Tai retorted bitterly.

"And this ladies and gentlemen, is the very route of teenage naivety." she proclaimed, clapping to herself. Most of the class was still in shock from the little verbal yelling match they just had. Hell, I knew I was.

"You're just assuming though!" Tai defended himself. "You're assuming that just because we're teenagers, we don't know when to draw the line! You're assuming that all of us here go to parties every weekend, get hammered and sleep with as many people possible!"

"But am I wrong to assume that? Think about it Tai. You're sticking up for your fellow classmates, claiming that if they haven't slept with someone, that they were grown up, responsible and took means of protection. This generation of children have had the image that sleeping with your partner, will automatically gain them some type of popularity."

"I have no idea which generation you're thinking of, but it's not ours. And what the hell kind of lecture is this?" he snapped disgusted. He crossed his arms with a distinctive look of repulsion in his eyes as he turned away from her. She just looked at him, smirked and she continued on as if nothing had just happened. When the class finally ended, I thought my legs had been crazy glued to the ground. What she had told us just hit me like a ton of bricks. And it hurt.

Walking out, I caught a glimpse at the staggering stats etched on our blackboard. 'That's it!' I decided mentally. 'I'm so getting a pregnancy test!'

"Hey Mimi!" Tai screamed out after me, causing me to stop dead. I smiled to myself, letting the way he spoke my name replay in my head.

"What was that all about in class! Going all self-righteous on us are we?!" I joked walking next to him.

"It just pissed me off that's all. I stand behind my beliefs and when she just started to bash them..." he began.

"So you meant what you said?" I interrupted a little surprised.

"Yes and please don't sound so shocked." he smirked. I could feel my face turn a little maroon.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you."

"No problem. Oh and Mimi before I forget..."

"The movie!" I interrupted again. I think it was like a habit I was developing.

"Yeah, my place this Saturday. Come around 3 and we'll have a Gundam fest. Sound good to you?"

"Let's see. A date on Saturday with one of the hottest guys in school, watching some of the hottest Anime's ever drawn. I don't think I can think of anything better to do."

"Great!" he exclaimed happily. He turned around to walk away, but the halted suddenly and turned back around to face me again. "Oh Mimi I almost forgot." he suddenly got very close to my face. Hell, I could feel his breathe skimming my bare neck. "I think you'd have better looking children with Duo, not Quatre."

I stared at him slightly dazed as he finally walked away. His body slowly seared its way into my mind as he walked out into the school yard. Damn he was hot... I shook my head and grinned, what was I thinking? Yeah Tai was hot and sweet and a great friend, but I am with Matt and he is my prince charming.


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I browsed through the drug store in the mall glancing around as I went to the back where they kept the home pregnancy tests. It was so confusing, there were at least 10 different types.

"Excuse me miss, may I help you?" a gentle female voice asked. I whipped around to see a woman, probably all of 20 years old standing next to me. I smiled widely at her and nodded my head. "Yes actually maybe you can." I said trying to keep my voice steady. "My friend just missed her period and she is completely freaking out, I told her I would come down and pick up a pregnancy test for her, but there are so many to choose from that I have no clue which one would be better."

She smiled a knowing smile at me and reached out picking up a small blue box handing it to me. "This should work just fine for your 'friend'." she said as she walked over to the register. "Let me ring that up for you." I paled and handed the blue box back to her.


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"How many lines?" I said aloud as I looked at the small stick in my hand. I put the stick down picking up the instructions again.

"One line, not pregnant, two lines, pregnant." I picked up the stick again and began to shake it viscously. "There is now way this can be right!" I looked at the stick again, two perfect pink lines. "Ok Mimi, breathe, breathe, it's gonna be alright. Breathe." I started to pace back and forth in my room."Ok, alright, ok, ok, I should talk to Matt, that's what I need to do." I took a deep breath and dialed the phone.

"Hello." a tired voice answered the phone.

"Matt!"

"Mimi? What's up?"

"Matt! I need to talk to you right now!" I exclaimed over the phone, panic etching itself into my voice.

"Mimi, it's like 6 am on a Saturday morning."

"I know Matt, but this is really important."

"Ok, we'll talk." he said a bit grouchily.

"Not over the phone Matt, I need to see you." A soft growl was my answer and I was starting to get a bit irritated. I took a deep breath. "Matt." I said pleadingly. "Please, this is really important."

"Ok Mimi, you want me to come over?"

"No, can we meet? In the park next to your house?"

"Sure, half an hour sounds ok?"

"Yes, thank you Matt."

"No problem Mimi, love you."

"Love you too."


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I waited as patiently as possible at the park, 30 minutes and counting. Breathe! 31 minutes and counting. Breathe! And pace. Breathe! And sit. Breathe! 32 minutes and counting. Breathe!

"Hey there gorgeous!" Matt said as he wrapped his arms around me as I glomped on to him. "Geez, if I knew that this was going to be my greeting I would have been here 29 minutes ago! Mimi?"

"Matt." I sobbed with my face still buried in his shirt. Matt tightened his hold on me and lead me back over the bench.

"Ok Mimi, take a deep breath and let it out and tell me what's wrong." I did as I was instructed and took a deep breath letting it out slowly. Matt smiled and rubbed my back. "K? Now what is going on?"

"I took a pregnancy test." I spit out. Obviously this was not what Matt was expecting. He quickly put his face in his hands and sighed heavily. He looked back up at me, his expression completely unreadable.

"And?"

I looked down at my hands finding them very interesting all of a sudden. "I had two lines."

"And what does that mean?" he asked exasperated.

"It means I'm pregnant."

"Ok." Matt breathed. "What are you going to do about it?"

I gawked at him in pure astonishment. All of a sudden it felt as though the walls were closing in on me. "What do you mean?"

Matt looked at me, his eyes hard and cold. "I mean," he practically seethed. "What are you going to do about it?"

My jaw dropped open and I found it hard to catch my breath. "I...I... I was hoping...for you.." I stammered.

"For me what Mimi? What do you expect me to do?"

"I...I."

"Look Mimi, I can't deal with this right now, I have a practice in a couple of hours and this is just too much for me to think about. I have to go." He said as he got up and started to walk away. Tears that I had been fighting back welled up and spilled down my cheeks. I was speechless, betrayed and hurt beyond all reason. Matt stopped mid-step and looked back at me. "Look, I'll call you later Mimi."

I glared at him and stood up. "Don't bother yourself Matt Ishida." I said as I blindly stormed past him, leaving Matt standing there as I made my way away from. To where I had no idea, but anywhere where Matt Ishida wasn't.

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