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I NEVER MET THE DOCTOR THAT PERFORMED IT. I WAS SEDATED AND AS SOON AS IT WAS OVER, I WAS PUT BACK INTO THE AMBULANCE AND SENT BACK TO THE OTHER HOSPITAL. I HAD ASKED TO SEE DWAYNE BEFORE LEAVING AND THE NURSE SAID HE WOULD GO GET HIM. HE CAME BACK AND SAID HE COULDN'T FIND HIM. I LATER FOUND OUT THAT THEY NEVER TRIED. DWAYNE DIDN'T EVEN KNOW I WAS GONE UNTIL 30 MINUTES AFTER I HAD LEFT. HE HAD FINALLY WENT UP AND ASKED IF I HAD COME OUT YET AND THEY TOLD HIM I HAD LEFT 30 MINUTES AGO. IN THE AMBULANCE BETWEEN HOSPITALS, I CRIED ALL THE WAY BACK. I WAS UPSET FOR NOT GETTING TO SEE DWAYNE AND I WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN. I WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE A NURSE RIDE BACK WITH ME; BUT THAT DIDN'T HAPPEN EITHER. WHEN I ARRIVED BACK AT THE FIRST HOSPITAL, THEY COULD SEE I WAS UPSET AND ASKED THE EMT WHAT WAS WRONG. SHE TOLD THEM SHE THOUGHT MY PAIN MEDICATION HAD WORE OFF. AS SOON AS I WAS PUT BACK INTO MY BED, MY WATER BROKE. AT FIRST I WASN'T SURE WHAT HAD HAPPEND. I THOUGHT I HAD GONE TO THE BATHROOM AND THAT IS WHAT I TOLD THE NURSE I DID. SHE SAID IT WAS OKAY AND LEFT TO GO GET SOME FRESH LINENS. SOMETHING HIT ME THEN AND I ASKED HER WHEN SHE GOT BACK IF SHE THOUGHT IT COULD HAVE BEEN MY WATER. SHE SAID IT COULD OF AND TOOK A TEST OF IT. THEY COULDN'T DETERMINE BY THE TEST THEY DID IF IT WAS MY WATER THAT BROKE, SO THEY CALLED MY DOCTER. HE CAME OVER AND TOOK ANOTHER TEST AND IT WAS MY WATER THAT HAD BROKE. WE WERE IMMEDIATLY TOLD THE CHANCED OF SURVIVAL AT 23 1/2 WEEKS. THEY WANTED TO TRANSFER ME BACK TO THE HOSPITAL THAT I JUST CAME FROM BECAUSE IT HAD A BETTER NEONATAL UNIT. I WASN'T HAPPY ABOUT THIS; BUT I SAID OKAY, ANYTHING TO SAVE THE BABY. THEY STARTED UNHOOKING ME FROM EVERYTHING. RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT, DWAYNE ARRIVED. HE WAS UPSET AND FELT EVEN WORSE WHEN HE REALIZED WHAT WAS GOING ON. HE STARTED CRYING IMMEDIATLY. I DIDN'T CRY AT FIRST. I DON'T KNOW WHY. I THINK THAT I THOUGHT EVERYTHING WAS STILL GOING TO BE OKAY. DWAYNE WENT TO CALL MY MOM AND HAVE HER ARRANGE TO COME FROM TEXAS. DWAYNES PARENTS ARRIVED JUST AS EVERYTHING HAPPENED. I KEPT FEELING LIKE I HAD TO GO TO THE BATHROOM AND MY DOCTOR SAW THAT MOVING ME WAS NOT GOING TO BE AN OPTION. WHEN MY LITTLE ANGEL DECIDED TO COME INTO THE WORLD, HE DECIDED VERY QUICKLY. MICHAEL DWAYNE ROGERS WAS BORN INTO THE WORLD AT 1:45 PM ON OCTOBER 29, 1998. HE WAS RUSHED TO THE NEONATAL IMMEDIATLY. ALL I KNEW WAS THAT I HAD A BOY. SO I LAYED THERE FOR ETERNITY IT SEEMED, WAITING. WE WERE NOTIFIED ABOUT AN HOUR LATER HIS LUNGS WERE NOT DEVELOPED ENOUGH AND HE DIDN'T MAKE IT. MY MOM WAS ALREADY ON HER WAY, MY DAD WAS CALLED AND THEY ALL CAME UP RIGHT AWAY. I HAD TO HAVE A DNC BECAUSE SOME OF THE AFTERBIRTH WOULD NOT COME OUT. I ASKED FOR IT TO BE DONE IMMEDIATLY. DURING THIS TIME, THE CYST CAME OUT AND IT HAD GROWN TO THE SIZE OF A LARGE GRAPEFRUIT. IT WAS DETERMINED THE CAUSE OF MY PREMATURE LABOR. MY FIRST REACTIONS WERE THAT I DID NOT WANT TO SEE THE BABY; BUT THEN I JUST KNEW I HAD TOO. HE WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN. I NEVER KNEW HOW BEAUTIFUL LIFE WAS UNTIL THAT POINT. EVERYONE GOT TO HOLD AND SEE HIM AND LOVE HIM FOR THE TIME THAT WE HAD. WE BURIED MICHAEL ON NOVEMBER 2, 1998. THE CEMETARY IS WITHIN WALKING DISTANCE OF MY HOUSE, SO I AM ABLE TO VISIT HIM ANYTIME I WANT. WE ALL LOVE AND MISS YOU MICHAEL. |
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