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The delerium of missed sleep
Or rather missed dreams
Makes one miss the comforts of home
Saturday morning's pancakes served with extra syrup
Eaten by children in fuzzy pajamas
Mother's hair in curlers
She stands there in her bra an blue slcks
Applying make up
Her sagging breasts
Sacrificed to feed hungry babies
Children always think their mothers are beautiful
And their fathers could save the world
Save me now
Bills to pay
Down to the last cigarette creates the overwheling
Desperation for just one more drag
Cup after cup after cup of coffee
Eyes still closing
Vision blurring
Sunsets of childhood
The colors
Red. Orange. Purple.
Effects of smog - 7 year olds illusion ruined
Round and Round
Pettling faster to catch the sun before it finally sets
Behind the green house
My first kiss was awkward
My first love clumsy
Confused by matters of the heart
The wind is my love
Standing on the play ground in torn jeans
Goosebumps cover my legs
I felt freer as that 8 year old
I had wings on that playground
Danced with the wind
Standing still
Sometimes I dream of changing endings
To life's scenes
Goodbyes, final words
Breathing deeply reminds me of a yawn
So tired
So so tired
Can't sleep

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