Author's Note:I wanted to write a story where they relived parts of their lives together. Some parts are from the show while others are my own creation. I hope that you enjoy.

Michaela and Sully sat by the fireplace.Each deep in thought about what had happened through the years.They had lived through happiness and sorrow, but they made it through the hard times and enjoyed the happy ones.Both of them had experienced the loss of loved ones and the miracles of new life.

"Sully what are you thinking?"

"I was thinking about what we have been through the last couple of years,and how it shaped our character into what we are today"

"I was thinking the same thing"

"We had so many sorrows in the last few years, I sometimes can't believe that we made it through them"

"Sully I think that God put us through it all to make us better people in the end"

Michaela you can't leave me. I need you. You are everything to me. I am sorry I wasn't there when it happened. I am sorry I left when you told me, I just needed to think about what had happened and come to grips with it. I love you.

Sully remembered telling Michaela that the night that she had fallen off her horse.He felt so helpless that night. All he could do was hold her and whisper words of hope into her ear.

Michaela looked into Sully's blue eyes that she loved so much.She could tell he was deep in thought. She kissed his lips tenderly. When he felt her touch he kissed her lips with more passion. Michaela undid the buttons to his shirt and moved her hands on his bare chest. Sully's desire for her grew. He did the same with her blouse and touched her breasts. Michaela went further and undid his buckskins. When all clothing was gone they joined together as one sharing their passion and desire for one another.

Michaela felt his strong loving arms around her. She starts to cry. Sully pulls back and can see the pain in her eyes. They have both lost a piece of their hearts as they say goodbye to their child.

Michaela awakens the next morning realizing that she had been dreaming about the funeral again. Even though it was months ago she still could still feel the tears rolling down her face. She could still smell the fresh ground dug up, and she could still feel Sully's loving hand holding hers.

Michaela knew that there was nothing to be sad about because Katie was fast asleep up stairs, but she would never forget that day that she had to say goodbye to her youngest child. She was lucky God had given her another chance to see Katie grow up and marry. It was a blessing she thanked God every day for.

Sully woke up to find Michaela deep in thought. He gently wiped away a tear that came down her face. Michaela turned to face her husband. She tenderly touched his face and then gave him a long loving kiss on his soft lips.

"Sully I love you so much",Michaela said after breaking off the long kiss.

"I love you too", Sully replied then gently kissing her hand.

After they spent a few moments laying around they got up to start a new day.After breakfast was eaten they all got in the wagon and headed into town.

A few hours later Michaela sat at her desk catching up on some work. She had been so tired and not feeling well lately that she had been cutting back her hours at the clinic. So she needed to get the work that she had planned to do done today.Soon there was a knock on the door.Michaela got up and answered it.It was Andrew.

"Would you please come in?"

"Yes", he said walking in."You said you needed to see me right away"

Michaela replied,"Yes, I am not feeling very well and I was wondering if you could examine me?"

"Alright", he replied opening his medical bag.

After Andrew finished his examination he took his time cleaning up. Michaela began to get nervous.She sat on the examining table waiting for an answer.Finally Andrew turned around and spoke:

"Well there is nothing physically wrong with you, but you will have to take it easy for the next seven months"

"Michaela looked at him in puzzlement.Then she started to put everything together and she finally understood what he had said.A huge grin came upon her face.Then she jumped down from the table and hugged her son-in-law.

She asked excitedly,"The baby is alright?"

"Yes very healthy,and I'd say it's due in about July"

"Thank you Andrew so much"

"Your welcome, and don't worry I won't say a word", and with that Andrew grabbed his medical bag and left.

Michaela began to think of how everyone would react.Being so close to christmas she thought maybe she should wait to tell everyone.That would only be a week and a half to wait.

A few minutes later Sully came to pick her up.He saw the huge smile on her face and wondered what was on her mind but decided not to say anything until later that night.

When dinner was finished and Brian and Katie went to bed.Michaela and Sully sat in the wingback chairs.Michaela got up from her chair and went over to where Sully was sitting and sat in his lap.He wrapped his arms around her lovingly.They sat their like that for a few minutes.

Michaela then turned to face Sully,"I had a visit from Andrew this afternoon right before you came"

Sully replied,"What did he say?"

"He said Santa gave us a little present this year, but we won't get it until july"

Sully looked at her with the same puzzlment she had with Andrew.Then he understood what she was saying.He grinned from ear to ear.He hugged her with love and hope.

"Oh Michaela I love you so much"

Michaela replies,"I want it to remain a secret between you and me until Christmas morning"

"I like it being only you and me knowing",Suly said.

They spent the night in each others arms.Sully smiling to himself.It was what he wanted and had hoped for.Now his prayers were answered.

Sully don't leave me.I love you so much. Please just stay with me. If you leave I don't know what I would do. You won't get to see Katie grow up, and I would have to raise the children alone. You are half of my soul.

Michaela woke up. She couldn't believe that is still haunted her dreams that Sully had fallen off the cliff and then they found him half dead. She couldn't ever let go of the fear that night when she thought had lost him.

Sully is walking and what he sees makes him want to scream in agony.His family the Cheyenne.He stood helpless and feeling guilty about not being able to help it.His dear Michaela stand beside him holding his hand.He pulled her into his arms and shed the tears of pain and suffering that lay all around.

Michaela could feel his tears like sharp knives into her heart.Sully knew that Michaela felt the same guilt as him.She was a doctor unable to help her friends who lay dying before her very eyes.All the pain was wrapped into two people as they fought to save their friends, their family.

Michaela watched Sully sleep.She wondered what he was thinking about.She stroked his cheek absent mindedly.She never dreamed that her life would end up this way.But she was glad that God had sent her down the right path, the path to Sully.

Sully began to wake up.He felt his whole body limp.He tried to move, but he couldn't.He felt like he was trapped and he needed to breathe.Finally he awoke.He stared over at Michaela who was smiling at him.He smiled back but he felt awful inside.He needed to get away.

Sully pulled himself up into a sitting position,"Michaela I have been thinking and I need to leave for a few days"

"Sully the weather is terrible and it's almost Christmas"

"I will be back before then, I promise", then he lent down and kissed her lips and then whispered something into her ear.

Michaela sat holding Katie a while later.She didn't want Sully to feel this way not so close to christmas.She kissed her daughter on the forehead.Shortly later she fell asleep.

Michaela ran as fast as she could.She wanted the pain to stop. She didn't want to feel the hurting anymore.She wanted Sully to hold her and tell her everything would be alright.How could the pain fill her whole heart.She felt like she had lost everything.Why would God punish her by taking away her daughter.

Michaela woke up and hugged her daughter tighter.She remembered that day so clearly right after the funeral.The pain still fresh in her mind.The fear still clear in her mind.She didn't want to remember any of it.It hurt to much to remember and feel it.She wished Sully were here so that she could tell him her feelings and thoughts.

Sully rode hard.It was daylight.He needed to find the answers he sook.Why was he being reminded of all the pain in his life.He wanted to forget and just remember the happy times.He continued to ride.He was beginning to become cold.

Michaela woke up a little after daylight.She dressed for the day.She prayed that Sully was safe and that everything would go right with this pregnancy.She felt so much love in her heart.She only wished Sully were here to share it with her.

Michaela sat beside Sully sharing their first christmas dinner.Sully stayed all night.He ate with them and read the children a bedtime story.After they went to bed Sully and her sat up and talked about all kinds of things.It was one of her favorite memories.From then on she felt a connection with him that opened a window into her heart.

Michaela woke up after napping at her desk.She couldn't help but smile at her dream.It seemed like only yesterday.She felt so much love ever since Sully and the children had come into her life.She never knew she could be this happy.It was a dream come true.

Sully lay on the ground thinkinh about the last few years of his life.He had lost so much but then he gained what he had lost as well.He never knew that lfe could be this wonderful.He had so many memories from the past and hoped to have many more.His favorite memory was when it was thanksgiving and Michaela had just found out she was expecting.

Sully pulls her into his arms and expresses his love to her.He showed her more of his gentle side.She couldn't believe that life could ever be this fulfilling.She finally had a family with the man that she loved.

Oh how much Sully longed to hold his wife in his arms.To touch her smooth skin and feel her warmth beside him.He wanted to always protect her from all harm.To sooth her when she is sad.But Sully had to put his soul to rest.Something inside of him had awakened from it's sleep and it was taking him far away from his loved ones.

Michaela could feel his pain so close.She wanted to be able to reach out and sooth the wound.But something told her it was not her time and he must deal with this alone.

Sully did what the spirits told him.He listened to the sounds around him.He could feel the wind saying something.The mountains echoed their years of untold wonders.He could feel the life all around him telling him the way.He let the spirits of the earth guide him to the right way.Unsure of what lay ahead.

Michaela breathed the fresh air in.She loved when it was quiet at night and the stars glistened.There were so many of them she could hardly count.She could feel the earth trying to tell her something, but she didn't understand.Michaela closed her eyes.

"Just listen what do you hear?"

Michaela closed her eyes and listened to the wind holler and the streams steady rythm.She could hear the movement of animals nearby.

"I feel nature",She told him.

"Listen to what's behind the sounds, and they will tell you a message"

Michaela closed her eyes once more and listened.She could hear a beating sound and the wind blowing through her hair.She could feel the mountains echo their wonders.She could hear the beating of the drum.It was a steady rythem.

Michaela could feel the wind on her face. She felt that all hope had gone out of her. It was if she had just given up and didn't now how to go on.She had seen so much pain and suffering. Her good friend Snowbird had been killed along with many of her tribe. Michaela had watched as Snowbird had taken her last breath.

Sully was the one who had given her the hope and courage to go on. He had shown her that there were people who cared about other people no matter what it cost them. Michaela remembered how much pain she had endured but she had never thought of Sully's pain and how he had dealt with it.

Sully could feel Michaela's presence with him. He knew that she was there with him in his heart and would be there no matter what. After his first wife had died he wanted to die himself, but he never tried to take his life. When Cloud Dancing had found him out in the woods alone he had lost his place his this world. It took him many moons to find his place in the circle of life.

Sully felt as if his heart had been ripped out.He wanted to cry out to the heavens and say why.How could God take away his only family. He felt angry with himself and he didn't want to feel the pain anymore he just wanted it to stop. He thought that if he had gone into the war he would parish.That was his plan. Once he faced death knocking at his door all the terrible pain would all stop.

Michaela and Sully has shared deep secrets with one another, but Sully didn't talk much about his past. About his parents and his wife and daughter.The subject was very sensitve to him. She never would approach it either. She just would tell Sully he could tell her anything and she would always be there to listen no matter what.

Sully could hear Michaela's thoughts and he knew he didn't talk much about his past. That was part of himself that he at times wanted to forget. Michaela was so understanding that he felt he didn't deserve her after everything he had done in his life.

Michaela felt tired and after getting Katie into bed she headed for own. She missed Sully laying next to her.When he was gone the bed felt so much bigger.She missed talking about their days at night.She missed his gentle touch.But something was bothering him even with the new baby he still didn't feel complete.

Sully watched the stars in the sky.He thought about all the times he and Michaela had spent watching them. He was happy with his life. He had a beautiful wife and four great children and one more yet to come but something was still missing that he couldn't ignore any longer.He had to face so he could get on with his life.

A week later as Christmas Eve approach the following evening Michaela sat in front of the fire in the living room.She wondered about Sully. What was he doing and when would he be home.She hoped he would be home by now but he had not come.She wondered if he grew restless living in a house with a family. She knew that he loved her and she loved him with all her heart, but was it enough.

Sully held her hand as they watched the fire burn. He wanted to give Michaela a special gift. After weeks of thinking he finally had found what he wanted to give her.He thought that now would be a good time to give it to her.So he pulled the small box out of his pocket and showed it to her.She gently touched it and took it into her hands.

He looked at her with love in his eyes,"Open it"

Michaela opened the box and looked into it. Her eyes filled with tears when she saw what it contained.It was a gold locket. On the front of it was an M for Michaela.She looked into his eyes and she hugged him.Oh how much she loved him.She took it out and opened it. There were two pictures. One of her and Sully and one with the whole family.

"Turn it over and look at the back"

Michaela gently turned it over and there she found an inscription.She read it to herself:All My Love Forever, Sully.She felt so blessed to have him in her life.She would always treasure it.

"When ever I am away I want you to hold this close to your heart and remember that this is a piece of me that will always be with you"

Michaela embraced him and planted a loving kiss on his lips. Sully kissed her as well.He could look into her eyes and see a window into her heart and soul.

Michaela held the locket in her hands. She wanted Sully with her so much. Sometimes she thought that she loved Sully more than life itself. She wanted to tell him all of her thoughts and feelings.All of a sudden she heard foot steps out on the porch.She began to be alarmed. She ran to the fireplace and pulled the rifle down.She quickly pointed it at the door.She saw the doorknob turn.She saw the door open and a man walked in.It was dark so she couldn't see who it was.

"Don't move or I'll shoot"

"Michaela it's me"

Michaela heard the voice from the man she loved so much.She set the rifle down an ran into his arms.She held him tightly. She missed him so much.He pulled back a bit to gaze into her loving eyes then moved forward and kissed her.She missed his touch and warmth so much.

"Sully I missed you so much, and I am sorry about the gun I thought you were an intruder"

"Michaela I would protect you from all harm"

"I know you would"

For the next half hour they talked about everything that had happened to them. Michaela loved he shared things about himself. She loved him with all her heart. She would always share her love, her heart, and her soul with him.

The next evening they had friends and family over for dinner. It was a time for love and happiness.They gathered and shared their hopes and dreams with one another. It would be a time that Michaela would hold close to her heart.She loved her family and she always tried to show them her love.

Sully loved to see his family happy. He hoped to always have them come home for the holidays even if they lived far away.He and his beloved wife Michaela had loved and lost, but they always had their love to guide them through the hard times. He only wished they could have found each other sooner. It was if before they met that they were lost souls searching for the other half of themselves.They were lucky they had found each other and they would forever be connected in heart, body, and soul.He knew that this was what he had needed. This was the night that his love grew to include the new life they had created. He knew that he was blessed and that love was all around him. A spirit was watching over him and guiding him through his life. A spirit that was connected to Michaela and himself.They were soulmates and nothing could ever change how much he loved his Michaela.