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Title: My Feelings
Artist: JBird
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the tears from my eyes mean nothing
but deep inside its been killing me
i never wanted to live through this pain
but everything has been so messed up for me
never had a true friend, never had anything
everyone despises, everyone hates me
everyone has nothing todo with me
as my hate,pain burns deep inside
thinking of the suicide, thinking of killing
these thoughts running through my mind
but i never have time to realize what i got
i got a normal life, but not really
its killing me slowly, everytime i think
its always tormenting everytime i dream
its tormenting me, this pain grows deep inside
i maybe strong to fight it off but it doesnt help
its deep inside its growed with me since childhood
noone ever likes me, always been despised
whats wrong with me, i am not evil, i am normal
why do i got to be treated this way
like a alien from a different planet
why does everyone have something against me
what i have i done, i am a normal person
i am just so lonely, cant never find my reality
everything slipping away slowly, i have lost it all
i never wanted to dream of my own torment
why must i have these visions of my torment inside
all i see is there faces, noone seems to like me
abandon like when you loose a friend, or when your lost
everything has to always be to messed up for me
cant i even find any hope, any grace, its not the same for me
wishing to die, wishing for hope, wishing for grace
turned to god, everyone turned the other face
its worser but the same, nothing seems to help me
i change still being the same, nothing really helps
its like my outer self stuck in a horror town
no where to run to, nothing to help me, its permantly
why cant i find any love for me today, hating everything
i am not lieing about these feelings these are true
sitting down, watching everyone go by, everything hating me
its like i am not even human, a ghostly being, not real
but i am really real, i can be hurted, i can be killed
so why doesnt anyone even remember me, they ignore me
like i am a evil being, a monster, but i am not truely
i just needed a friend, someone to be a friend too me
but its not gonna be that way my life is so messed up for me
everytime i dream of a dream, it seems to shift to my own torment inside
i never wanted to be this way, always trying to find someone
can never seem to find anyone, everyone hating me, ignoring
its like i am being worser then rejected, like i dont even exist
i am like a ghost walking around here, noone seems to see me
am i even invisible, have i lost my reflection of my own self
is it me, cant seem to find anyone, always hating everything
i am truely forgotten, a lost person in this world
i am feeling worser then suicide, feeling like i been forgotten
feeling like everyone has been living a happy life, hating it all
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me
wishing to be someone, and not forgotten, my dreams tell storys of my torment deep inside
but nooone can ever seem my dreams, locked inside of my sub concious
wishing i can be unforgotten, wishing to find love for me, hating myself for nothing
i look around, looks like my reality is stuck inside of a haunted town
nothing seems to help become unforgotten, sitting down, looking around
everyone has disappeared, or maybe they are at a party, uninvited so forgotten
as my reality is tormenting me, as everyone forgotten me, i know im sane im not insane
they have all forgotten me, why do they forget me, i havent been gone for years
i have been here, noone remembers, everyone forgets me, they all have forgot me...
wishing i can change the past, wishing to do things i wish i did, wishing to be a somebody
hating be a nobody, rejeceted, unexisting, forgotten nobody, hating to be this way
wishing to be remembered, wishing to exist, i am not dead, i am a living being
i am not a ghost, i know i am not insane, i know i am sane, why did they forget me
or is it them that dont exist, yes i know they exist everyone has forgotten me
feeling wishing i can be unforgotten, they dont even notice me, am i invisible i cant be
am i dieing so slowly, is it my reality shutting down on me, i am so alone, so alone...
noone hears me, noone is here for me, where is all my pride, drowned
im so nonexisting, wishing to be real, wishing for friends, wishing for love, hating myself
feeling like i am being rejected, feeling like i dont exist, feeling like i am not human
why does this torment me, all these feeling, my feelings, torment me in sleep and awake
why do i got to live this way, why do i got to be this way, its so hard to keep on living
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me
wishing to be someone, and not forgotten, my dreams tell storys of my torment deep inside
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me
wishing to be someone, and not forgotten, my dreams tell storys of my torment deep inside
looking up, i see the birds go by, am i non-existing, inside?, do i even have a soul
noone even trys to hate me, like me, its like a twisted reality in this life, so twisted
why doesnt even anybody, anybody care, doesnt anybody even care, noone cares i am not here
has my mind shifted, i dont think it has, i am worser then a rejected person, i am forgotten
i am like non-existing, i am real, i am sane, why doesnt anybody even see me, are they blind
all my dreams are so real, but noone even remembers me they reject me even inside of my dream
i am not some kind of freak, its like nature, reality has been messing with me, i dont know why
thinking of suicide, but it wont help, noone will even come to my funeral, i am trapped inside my torment
its controling me, i cant seem to think straight, hating it, i cant stand it, when do i live this way
noone hears me, noone is here for me, where is all my pride, drowned
im so nonexisting, wishing to be real, wishing for friends, wishing for love, hating myself
feeling like i am being rejected, feeling like i dont exist, feeling like i am not human
why does this torment me, all these feeling, my feelings, torment me in sleep and awake
why do i got to live this way, why do i got to be this way, its so hard to keep on living
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me
wishing to be someone, and not forgotten, my dreams tell storys of my torment deep inside
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me
wishing to be someone, and not forgotten, my dreams tell storys of my torment deep inside
remembering there faces, there happy, smiling faces, wishing to kill them that forget me, that reject me
thinking of killing them all, haha, i am so sick and tired of being this way, wish i can be a normal person
why does everyone treat me like i am non existing, i am being treated as a friend then being rejected
those are wicked cruel people, they will regert it, i will killing my torment with bloodly hands
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me
i wish i could be somebody for atleast one time, i wish i could be
why do i got to be this way, so forgotten, hating it all, so forgotten
why do i got to be treated this way, why cant i be a freakin normal person
why do i got to live this way, hating it, wishing to be the same as others
living through this torment, hoping someone will notice me, hoping they know me