Title: Loving You Artist: JBird ----------------- loving you as it seems to be a tradegy for me am i already bothering you cant see through you will you have fun now when i am dead just for you i think im just happy that i love you alot... my heart is already ripped apart just to be with you then you told me you hated me, ripping me apart as i feel so cheap feel so murdered feeling dead im not like what you said my mind is gone my day is lost am i truely happy now, i think i lost something good loosing myself already not knowning what todo anymore but why did i do to make you hate me, what did i do to make you hate me, whats the cost of happyness i am low lower as can be left alone here to rott as its meant to be leaving me to be alone in my own darkness rotting alone my head is already gone from me, i have the suicide within but when will my pain end until i take this nife to kill but will my life be better tomorrow or will it kill me slowly as i am falling to my own pit of dispair shall i cry alone in the darkness or hunt for my own happyness will i end up murdering my enemys or will i end up insane all the pain as i feel it inflict on me heavyer... as it twists my heart crushing my blood flow i see my own face, i can see myself in my dreams dying repeatly as the pain grows stronger will i reach for the nife tonight is meant for me to live on ignored and killed beaten within me, as it crush my reality i can see my own face mock myself as i try to scream it all out nothing is out all trapped within me noone there to hold on too lost inside of me, dying within me i suffer more and more each day feeling like i've lost something already throwing myself against the wall creating more pain for me to take will i start to believe i been rejected out of this world cant i ever be happy will i live with this pain will i or will i ignite all my pain and end up dead tomorrow how will i be released when my life is raped from me as i watch my enemys watch me suffer is it meant to be will i leave in peace or die like the rest of the forgotten watching you smile, why do i see your face in my mind time to ignite my pain in my mind will i die why is it me i dont have my strength to escape, leaving my ownself to die in my mind have the space for love but nothing found never found something for this life is it time for me to die noone listening to me i will die, i will murder my own pain you are alive i will die, you are alive i will die for you time for myself to die, time for myself to die, time to die as i see another die i always wanted to be what they are cant ever follow my own steps dying slowly nothing for me sometimes i wish i could be just like you something alive never hiding the truth that is killing me, im dying slowly the feelings you had never gave me thought of what i did to you constantly rejected from my reality im going to go fall down and beat myself now, no feelings came back too me falling down never was strong as i use to be reaching for my own insanity the truth you as i am watching everyone around me alive and happy but its all the same, i wanted some of that too cant get it ever, i feel myself never sleeping at nights i cant stand will i ever be with someone like you, this pain i feel within just to find some love always hated by people like you... i want something noone feels this pain just like i do.... lately my own nightmares wont go away, why wont i stop it can i ever i go ahead of my nightmares and make it reality feeling as i am not something special something unreal to be no anger for me just a lonely expression of pain and suffering will i always be the same did i ever prayed to hard for something will there ever be away for me to be loved, im suffering within as i see my own pain mock me, am i already way into far... everyday i just think about death, my fate is always messed up i can never be what i see but i am honest i lay down at night will i wake up tomorrow or should i just end it all today...the pain, everything i see i can never be i am such a tormented person so i see your face its so real i wish i could be real, never alive what is meant to be for me pain is my best friend for me made friends with death is it meant for me...
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