THE EVIL I SEE

I am awake now. I awake and look upon the world through open eyes. And I see evil, but the evil I see is only in me. In all the memories. Why am I so blind? Is everything fate? Does it all happen for a reason? Perhaps, but then this is fate as well. Rage, Anger, Hate, Vengence, I need it not. I have the pain, this pain, why increase it? Should I loosen my hold on the world? Should I let go of my friends? Perhaps, but that isn't me. To stop caring enough to not warn them, to stop enough to not discipline them, to not protect them. The evil I see is all within me. In all the memories. I've lost. In the war with myself I've lost. None are victorious, I've lost. I'm done. I'm done fighting. Those close I shall love, and the rest I shall push away. To the back of my mind and they shall remain there. Let them feel the pain, the regret, the realization. All those feelings that enter me now in this moment. Who am I to say what you can and can't do? Who am I to say with whom you can be and with whom you cannot? Who am I to say? I'm evil. What do I know? Only a world of intelegence and intuition.