Phil - the raven

A friend living so far away, in an environment so different from what I know.
And yet looking at him is so often like looking into a mirror
I dont know what to tell about him really
Exept ...*G* good thing maybe that we werent born on the same continent.
That would have been scary I think

This page is for you Raven Cloud, child of faith, fate and destiny
Remember that we are the sum of our experiences

I recall the time when we sat and talked
For days I had watched you, almost stalked
I had been in love with you since first sight
Oh how I wished to hold you tight
On the bus, green eyes a blaze
It was you that caught my gaze
I knew it was my heart to blame
For all the sorrow and the shame
Now I look back at the times I had wished for more
And I know it would only lead to a freindship scorned
As my heart bleeds in the dark
A tree can be seen, dying, losing it's bark
It was you that I had wanted then
Oh the memories that might have been
I gladly forgett those thoughts of old
To bring me back into this cold
It was you that helped me through that pain
Struggled to keep me sane
You were a friend and saw me through
helped me to see the beautiful skys of blue
To I bestow my last part
For it is another that stole my heart
It was you that help me see
That this other woman would only hurt me
I should have listened, but I did not
Now my heart lies in the gutter, awaiting to rot,
It was you that has restored me
To my youthful glee
To you I give my trust
All my thoughts turn from lust
It was you that was a friend
Even an ear & shoulder did you lend
I lie on my bed
Writing frantically to keep pace with my head
It is all I can do to resist a cry
I hold back, then release a sigh
To forgett you would be hard
But to keep track of you with a single card
The queen of hearts, a card that is close to you
I hope you know, that this is all true
More or less a letter in poem form
And yes, my heart is torn
But to no fault of yours, or your friends
Because, my love, like a river, bends
It was you I wanted so bad
But it was her I had
It was her that hurt me
It was you that could see

On the beach in the moon light night
All the stars and heavens I give unto you this night
You are the angel that stole my heart
It is you I give, of me, every part

My soul is yours to own
throughout this life and the next I shall make your home
I love you Nicole , this I swear
In my mind, you are always there

You do things to me, for me, that no one has ever done
Most, if not all, fun
You are my love
One who's heart is as pure as a dove

Without you my life is incomplete
But togather, our love is no easy defeat
You make everything feal so great
Turned me to a lover, from a man full of hate

I owe so much to you
For all the time you have loved me true
So tonight I give you all I can give
And for eternity togather, you and I shall live

I lay in darkness on my bed
Pictures of you and I dancing in head
Your beauty, oh so easy to see
This whole night has been like a dream to me
Once again, my chance, but it won't slip by
I kiss your soft lips, and in happiness I sigh
I love to love, and you are my love
Your soft skin reminds me of the purist dove
He hurt you bad
If only he knew what he had
He is, was, and will be a jerk
But c'mon, lets make US work
You and I on a beach
The words to express how I feel far out of reach
I would put my arms around you
And whisper those words that are all so true
I love you~~~

Songs running through my mind
A broken heart of another kind
All those women I hurt in my past
How I told them it would last
But they didn't know about the others
Never listened to those regarded as brothers
Just for me, oh how they bled
If I had my way I would be dead
Jennifer was my first lie
When I broke it to her she almost died
Then I went on to countless others, taking their hearts
Why did I do this, did I have no heart?
Nikki then, oh how she wept
Cried all night while I just slept
What kind of creature would do this?
Was it truly me who did this?
I cannot forget them now
Too many hearts burned, I wonder how!
How could this callus heart beat in my chest?
I finally gave up, my heart worn this, maybe it turns for the best…..

Light of deseat burning my heart
Falling down through my every part
Burning a hole through my very soul
Come, pear through this fleshy hole

Why do I fall such easy prey?
Why should I bring out into this frey?
Oh lies are fleeting
My mind is bleeding

Take me from this pain
Give me a coat to protect me from the rain
I need love to shield me now
But with my past...how?

I lived to hurt, to lie
And so many wish I would die
But I sit here and listen to it all
It is my punnishmeant, I deserve the black ball

Jaggad poem of my life
Brought to an end by my jagged knife
Or prolonged by my need for love For my last waking moment to rise above

Crystal, your heart held true
Please know, I do love you
When I look into your eyes, Blissful crusade
Forever my way is made

I love you
And there's nothing I can do
But lay here in your arms
Loving your very charms

I think of you every day
Hoping, wishing, just once you'd stay
Here in my life
Keeping far from me this knife

I hope one day we may wed
For this my whole life, my heart, will have blead
Oh beautiful treasures are your eyes
Holding far more beauty than even the night skys

Beautiful treasures of my mind
Your kisses, all so kind
Nothing this pure could be wrong
Nor another love this strong

So kiss me, and love me
In the morning you will see
That I am still here
And forever I am near~~