November 1999

Fall once again.
I am once more on the move, physically more than mentally maybe?
The future is an unknown size,
with an abundance of promises and uncertainties.

I see you
in my head every day
and in my dreams at night
and in the never-never land
between dream and awake
you moved into my mind
sweet inconvenience

If you want to leave me
do it fast
cut the ties
with one swift chop
and move away in haste
before I realize
the pain
and the abyss

or leave me slowly
gently and with care
without sudden death
or violent blows
detangle my heart slowly
bit by bit
so I can learn
how

or take me with you
when you go

Some believe
in Buddha
Jahve or Allah
In gods or gurus
wichcraft
astrology
or mystery
I belive
in nothing
and everything
I dont believe specificly
but in the possibility
of everything

Love is
a tough buisness
love is
a rough road
you must take
things they way
they are
or not be
in the game

Fear does not want
to face itself
it is hidden
deep down
and far beyond

Why do you hide
from the light?
Come out
I am waiting here

hey Fear!
come here!!
look me in the eyes

What I say
isn't allways 100% correct
but I mean it

What I mean
doesnt allways fit
with what I think

What I think
isn't allways
what I say

A spirit
came to me last night
clad in silverlight and silk
an offered to me
"you can have life without pain!"
And I reached
eagerly at first
but then halted
paused
asked
"what is the price?"
"not much"
The spirit told me
"Only the joy!"