Written in early '99

Lust

(subconsciousness opposition; Nature)

Beauty. You are beautiful. You stir my emotions. I want you. (me?) What have you done to my mind? (temptation) I can't resist you (don't look) Beauty is ugly to me when I turn away. Can I have you? (frank question. Do you consider yourself worthy of me?) What are your standards? (My standards are yours) Then I'm not worthy. I'm dirty.. (are you? or do you believe you are) This is wrong, it's sinful (pleasure is sin?) It must be. If I think this way, I'm dirty (so you are taught) ...so I am taught (why do you think you're dirty?) I felt lust (lust is sinful?) So I am taught (you deprive yourself of lust and pleasure because it makes you dirty) I have to, or I will suffer eternal pain (you will suffer eternal pain if you do not acknowledge your passions and emotions) but this is wrong, I cannot lust for you. It is selfish (is there another more important than yourself?) God (you value God above your own persona?) I must, He is my creator (and you are God's creator) What do you mean? (You created God in your mind. If you don't believe, then He does not exist) And then I am lost and damned (you are damned if you sell your soul to God) You suggest I follow myself as my God? (you are the center of All. You are the God of Yourself. You see God as Yourself in Perfection) When I become perfect, I become God. But perfection is impossible (it isn't possible in Reality. But God is envisioned in Imagination, where Perfection can exist) What of you? You are female. What part do you play in my existence? (I am your opposition, your contradiction, your soulmate) You are perfect in my eyes and mind (As are you in mine) Do you feel lust? (Do you accept your lust?) Yes, I accept my passions as my own (And I accept you as your own master. I feel lust and now love for you. You are a dream in my eyes and mind) What of pleasure? (Pleasure is a purpose of our living. Without pleasure, we are dead and lifeless. Without passion we are starved and tormented. Love cannot exist without Lust. Satisfaction cannot exist without pleasure) What of our joining? (We will become One, Male and Female will unite. Our Love shall ignite our passion and Earth shall become Heaven. God and Nature will be joined, and Yourself and Myself shall become Ourself. You shall become Me, and I shall become You) Are you willing? (I am) I am as well. I cast down obstacles of morality and doubt, and free my soul from society's terrible coercian. Let us join and triumph in each other's embrace. I am yours (You are mine), and You are mine (I am yours). We are together. We Are One. ...I Love You...