:+:POLARIS:+: [Prologue] The saddest thing in the world.... Hmmmm.... Maybe it's when you lose somebody.... forever... Nah, you'll meet somebody else... Then....it's being lonely....being alone in the world.. I don't think so....I could think of a better one.... ...................................................................... I know it already... I knew it all along....in my heart.... The saddest thing in the world is..... Knowing you can't make the person you love the most... To show even a one small smile... When all you can bring them is a tear.... That's the saddest thing in the world...... Why???? Does that star look so bright? Why??? When my heart is darkest as it can be... When your heart is darkest as it can be.... ...................................................... Maybe.....it's brighter.....when it's Darker.... And it can brighten your heart...when I can't.... Why........??? Am I longing to be that star?? [Chapter 1] *First Meeting* “Hyung! Minwoo Hyung!!! Please wake up!!! Come on!!!! Hyung!!!” Hwanhee was standing in the streets with Minwoo, who was unconscious, by his side. Hwanhee waved his arms in the rain for a car to stop for them…. But no car seemed to care… No one seemed to care when Minwoo had temperature of 102 degrees from overworking and was in desperate in need to go to the hospital. “Hyung….Wake up…Please…” finally, a taxi stopped in front of them. The driver opened the window slightly so the rain wouldn’t get in the car. “Where are you going.” “Hospital!” “Get in!” Then Hwanhee hesistated… “I don’t have….money….” Hwanhee mumbled, and the next moment, he noticed the taxi was out of sight. He was too much in shock to remember money… Even he did remember it, they were not financially supportive to waste money on taxi. And Minwoo would have yelled at him….for taking the money he earned from working day and night at a construction. Hwanhee felt tears rolling down his eyes…. The tears ran down his face along with the rain……. As he thought to himself, if mom and dad were here, they would have taken much better care of this situation. “Where would you like to go Mr. Joo?” “It’s a little late, but let’s go to Dani’s house.” “Yes. Sir.” “Wait, what is that?” Brian looked outside the car window. “I think he wants a ride sir.” “Hmm.” Brian looked at the guy. The guy had someone who seemed to be unconscious beside him and he had tears dripping down his face that were even clear in the rain. Calling for someone….with a desperate voice….. Just like when I was calling Hyesung Hyung….when he was dying….. “Should I stop for them?” “Yes.” Then when the car stopped, Brian got out of the car, in the rain, and helped Hwanhee carry Minwoo in the car. “Than…Thank you.” Hwanhee said to Brian with a little shaky voice. Then Hwanhee looked at Minwoo who lied across. Minwoo looked so pale. That’s how Hyesung Hyung looked…..but I never thought he would die…. Brian tried to shake away the image of Hyesung in his head. “He’ll be ok.” Brian tried to comfort Hwanhee. “………” “I think he overworked himself. This usually happens when somebody works too much all of the sudden.” The doctor explained. Basically telling Hwanhee what he already knew. Minwoo had weak body from when he was borned. When their parents left them couple month ago because of a car accident, all the money they had went to paying for the hospital fee even though all the surgeries were not a success. So now, Minwoo dropped out of college to work. But it was too much for his body to bare to work at a construction site. Hwanhee knew it. “I think it will be best for him to get treatments and rest in the hospital for several days.” “I see….” But….even at a time like this…Hwanhee started worrying about the hospital fee. “Um…..how mush would it cost….” “Let’s see….it will cost around…” “Excuse me Dr. Kim. The hospital fee is already paid.” The nurse said interrupting the doctor. “What? who?” Hwanhee asked. “The gentleman that you came in with…” Someone I came in with…….. Then……. “Dani ya…” Brian was sighed after he got the answering machine again. “Sorry, I was gonna go…..But something came up….But….you wouldn’t have cared if I was there….” He sighed again. “Sweet dreams…” He hung up the phone. “Mr. Joo, let’s go home.” “OK.” The driver opened the car door for Brian. “Hold on~!!! Wait!!!” Hwanhee was running toward them from some distance, yelling. “Wait!!!!” The Brian didn’t hear and the car drove away. “I just wanted to say…..thank you.” Hwanhee whispered to himself standing in the spot the car once stood. ----But….you wouldn’t have cared if I was there….sweet dreams---- Dani listened to the message then turned the machine off…. Her face carried no expression as she moved towards the window in her dark room. She watched as rain fell nonstop. I hate days like this…. It looks exactly like the day…..Hyesung oppa left…. I hate days like this…. ___several days later___ “Minwoo Hyung, don’t ever go work there again.” “……….” “Hyung…!!” “If I don’t work there, what are you gonna live on?!!!” “Then do something else.” “I don’t know how to do anything else.” “Then do you want to lie in the hospital again, sick??!!!” “………….” “I could work.” “What are YOU gonna do?” “That stuff, going around the house. tutoring people. I draw pretty good, a lot of people wanna learn art.” “…………” ~Ding dong~ “Who is it?” The speaker came on. “I’m Lee Hwanhee.” “Hold on.” Hwanhee never saw a bigger house. He couldn’t close his mouth staring at the garden and the riches in just the way to get to the door. “Thank you for coming Mr. Lee.” “No problem.” “This way. you’ll be teaching my younger girl.” “Ok.” Hwanhee looked around the house in awe. Everything in the house looked so expensive….he couldn’t dare to touch anything. “DaSo ya….your tutor’s here.” Then Hwanhee saw a girl about 7 or 8 in pretty ponytale with a big and round brown eyes. “This is my tutor?? He’s hot as HELL~!” Daso exclaimed. Hwanhee thought to himself, the saying that children can’t lie, is true. “Yoon Daso!! Watch your mouth.” “It…it’s ok.” Hwanhee told Mrs. Yoon. “All the supplies are on her desk…1 hour a day will be enough teaching…3 days a weak…and I’ll pay you every month.” “Yes. Mame.” “Can you start today?” “yes.” “Then I’ll be out of the way.” Mrs.Yoon closed the door of Daso’s room as she went out. “Cham na….What kind of old lady puts on a 3 layers of make up? That won’t turn a pig to a swan.” Daso whispered to herself. She talked a language that you can’t imagine a 8 year girl would say. “Did you say your name is Daso?” “Yeah, what’s your name?” “Lee Hwanhee.” “Then I’ll call you Hwanhee my darling.” “ >.< Just call me Mr.Lee!!!” “First, practice drawing lines.” As he said this, he drew a straight line with the pencil at the left side of the white paper. “Draw 100 more on the right side while I go to the bathroom.” “Fine.” “Where’s the bathroom?” “You go out of this room then it’s the next door on the right.” “Thanks.” Hwanhee walked out of the room as he wiped the sweat on his forehead. I wanted a normal student…. He sighes and walked in to the bathroom…. BUT…. It wasn’t a bathroom. “AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!” A girl about 18 or 19 just got of the shower and her body was covered in white towel. “AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!!!” Hwanhee yelled along and hurried out of the room and closed the door. He felt his heart jumping up and down 100 beats an min. He ran in Daso’s room. “So you met my sister?” “YOU!!!” “Well, by the sounds of it, you guys didn’t have time to introduce yourselves.” “YOU!!!!” “My sister name is Dani and she’s 19 years old. “YOON DA SO!!!” “Calm down….doggie…-_-;; and just see my drawing.” On the white paper next to the one long line, Hwanhee saw a 100 of Ddong (poop)…. >.< [Chapter 2] *Memories of Rain* “Dani ya….” Brian was leaving a message again…. “Do you get my calls? Can’t you just give me a call back once in awhile??” Brian was frustrated. He just sighed. “Today is….1 nyun choo mo jae (a memorial 1 year after someone died)….” “Mr. Joo, your car is ready.” Eric told him. Brian nodded to tell him Ok and then he shook his hand for Eric to go away… “I’ll see you there….” Brian mouthed the words ‘please forget about him now’ then he hung up. “Mr.Lee, I’ll appreciate it if you come the day after tomorrow, because tomorrow, the whole family is going somewhere.” “Yes, ma’am.” Hwanhee nodded. Then he saw Dani come down the stairs. For some reason, she was dressed completely in black. He didn’t wonder for long when he suddenly felt his face getting red. “Where are you going?” Mrs.Yoon asked Dani. Dani took notice of Hwanhee’s presence….but she didn’t really seem to care as much as Hwanhee. “Just out.” “You are going to that memorial huh?” “I’m gonna go now.” Dani walked towards the door, past Hwanhee…when she suddenly stopped hearing her mom’s cold words. “I don’t see the point. It’s not like dead person is coming back.” Dani felt the tears in her eyes. She blinked lightly trying not to let it drip. Dani didn’t want anyone to know….anyone…..that she was hurting inside….still after 1 year. But Hwanhee saw it…. Dani stomped out the door…. After bowing at Mrs.Yoon, Hwanhee followed. “Um….Excuse me.” Hwanhee called Dani. She stopped and turned around. As he saw her face, he felt his face getting red again. Dani just stared at him…. Now his face was on fire. He looked down as he mumbled the words… “Uh….I’m….so…uh…sorrie about…10 minutes ago….I thought it was the…bathroom…Which I still should have knocked…where was my common sense…It’s just your sister…she..” “It..it’s ok.” Dani interrupted…as she smiled… Then there was an awkward silence. Hwanhee kept staring at the floor and Dani just looked around the garden. “I..” “I..” They both spoke up at the same time… “You go ahead.” “ok…I think I’m gonna go now.” “Yeah, me too.” Dani took a step down the stairs. But as she took a step, she stepped on her skirt causing her to fall backwards… Into Hwanhee’s arms, who put his arms around her waste so she wouldn’t fall. After a moment of realizing what position she was in, Dani quickly stood up, but Hwanhee still had his arm around his waste. “Uh….my watch is stuck…on your shirt.” A little string was tied to Hwanhee’s watch. “I’ll get it out.” As Dani tried to pull them apart, she put her head down to see it better. But at the same time Hwanhee kneeled to…causing them to bump each other’s head. “AH!” They both yelled. Hwanhee pulled his arm up to rub his head, pulling his watch out of Dani’s shirt. Then smile started to blossom on their faces which eventually broke out into a laughter. “Man, you got a rock in your head.” “Same for you.” They walked down the stairs, out of the garden. “So, you are 19?” “Yeah. how did you know?” “Your sister told me.” “She’s a real pain isn’t she?” “The biggest pain I’ll ever see.” “Haha…” “I guess the person was really important to you..right?” “……???……..” “Your face expressions told me.” “……………” “Cheer up. You know what my favorite saying is?” “…..what is it??……” “It has to be fairly dark to see the shining stars….You can’t see the light and joy…without some bad times.” Surprised, Dani looked at Hwanhee. “What? was that too corny?” Dani stared at Hwanhee….seemed to be trying to look through his eyes….and all of the sudden…tears formed in her eyes. “What….what did I do?” Panicked, Hwanhee asked. “Na….Nothing…..It’s just the wind.” “There is no wind.” Hwanhee said, bewildered. Then Minwoo appeared in his motorcycle, the only valuable possesion of his. “Hwanhee!!” “Hyung~finally.” “Get on!” “Ok. Bye.” He waved at Dani as he put on his helmet. Dani watched as the motorcycle disappeared. Soon after, Brian’s car came. Dani silently got in the car, still thinking about what Hwanhee said…. ---- It has to be fairly dark to see the shining stars----- Hyesung oppa…… ~Memories~ “It has to be fairly dark to see the shining stars.” “Why?” Dani didn’t undestand…. Hyesung smiled at Dani and began explaning. “Can you see the stars when there is light?” “I guess not.” “See, if there’s only joy and happiness in your life…..you will never know it’s joy and happiness. You’ll take it for granted. Without some pain and hard times….then you realize what happiness is.” He loved the saying… He repeated it to everyone he knew…. He was smart. Not the kind of smart in terms of geometry or chemistry. He knew a lot of stuffs… about life… There was so much you could learn from him. My only dream was to stay by his side for lifetime, and learn everything about him. The way he talked, walked and how he smiled…. I loved the smile…. Smile that angels would be jealous of… It was so pretty…you just couldn’t help smiling along. But he never knew…I felt this way… He probably wouldn’t have cared….because he always said he’s waiting for that special someone. And never thought that I could be the one. How do I know? Because he specifically told me. “Dani, you are such a cute dong sang. you are like a sister to me.” But my dream was too great….to give up… “Hyung! Dani ya” Brian called them as he ran towards us. “Hi Brian.” “Is anyone hungry? cause I’m mad hungry, let’s go eat please~” “Dani, you wanna eat?” “Why not.” “Ok then, You are buying!!” Brian pointed at Hyesung as he ran away from him. But then he stopped in front of the door. He turned around with a puppy doll face. “It’s raining. T.T” “I don’t have an umbrella.” Dani said. “oh, who cares. It’s just rain… don’t tell me you never ran in a rain before.” Three of us exchanged looks. All at once, they ran out of the school in the rain. And to tell you the truth….Hyesung oppa looked mighty HOT in the rain with his hair wet. Can’t say the same for the body, but hey, I never did like buff guys. “Hey guys, let’s race, to that McDonalds!” Brian suggested. “Ok.” Me and Brian oppa started running and so did Hyesung oppa….he ran behind us… But the next time I turned around…. I heard a big squeak as a bus stopped. Someone lied on the floor, in the rain…. The rain around the person was red…. And there was a little girl…really little….to be seen by the bus… But she was Ok…because the person on the floor was not.... the girl ran to the person and started to cry next to him…. And I just stood there….praying that wasn’t Hyesung oppa….lying in the red rain… That it wasn’t the face of the angel…demolished…. I guess God didn’t answer my prayers… Because Brian oppa yelled ‘Hyung’ and ran to him crying….. I still stood there… Hoping I could have been dead with him…. ~Memory end~ one...by two…. Rain drops fell on the windows of the car. “It’s raining.” Brian mumbled who sat next to Dani in the car…. It’s been raining….for a year now….in my heart….. It’s too sick now…..too much in pain….. ************************************************