** [Chapter 1]

~~~~~~Eunbee's House~~~~~~~

" Mom!!!! wake up!! Mom!! come on...Mom...you couldn't have...gosh wake up dammit!!!!"

The funeral was over...hard to even call it a funeral....cause nobody came..it was only Eunbee there...but it was ok. It was always just her mom and Eunbee...they needed nobody else...nobody....Even the one person you missed so much to kill yourself, mom.

Eunbee couln't even feel the tears dripping down her face..she was in her own world now...separated from the world of reality to the world of darkness, again..
What do i do now mom? you should be at least able to tell me...You were fine for 17 years...gave up?? You knew the promises that Dad made was a lie..a lie.you knew it and so did i. But the difference between you and me was you had wished...you had dreamed that maybe ...maybe he wasn't the true monster that he was and he will come back to you....
He was a horrible man , mom. You were just his toy..he was already married...he was rich..how could you have thought that he was the love you were looking for...Look at you now
What about me?? I know that I only caused you headaches..then you should have taught me to love someone else other than you..you are the only one i loved... Oh mom....
All through her life, only things she learned other than to love her mother was to hate, to fear, and to cry.... she hated the father that abandoned them....and she feared the future....and she cried to sleep in the graveyard...



" Eunbee, Eunbee!!"

Somebody was waking her up... It was a man...about in the mid 40s...and in a suit...looked pretty rich.In fear...Eunbee slowly backed up to keep a safe distance between them...

" do I know you??"
Eunbee carefully asked.

There was a silence for a minute there..
" I'm your Dad"

My dad? this was the man that my mom died for. oh, why do you come now....couldn't you have come earlier..
Eunbee couldn't help the tears.
Eunbee's dad took out a hankerchief and handed it to her.. and he just watched her..and there were tears in his eyes too.




" You want me to go with you??"
" It doesn't seem you have a choice."
"....."
he was right. Eunbee had no one else..
" I know it will be hard..but we will make it work it wii be ok. Come on, pack your stuffs."

Eunbee got up....17 years abandoned from this man..i must hate him... despise him. but eunbee had no more power to hate or despise... She was somewhere else..although she was there...
All the stuff that she had packed was not anymore than that would fit in a small bag. She held tightly in her hand the picture of her mom and her together. She looked in the picture and kissed her mom. So far away now..mom huh? Now it's not you and me right? It's only me.




Eunbee got dizzy looking at the house... Never seen a house so big. Probably 100, no 1000 times bigger than her old house. She walked in with her Dad. Still was uncomfortable with him...she couldn't even imagine her calling him dad.
She wlaked in to the biggest door she had ever seen...and then she saw a woman and a guy.

" This is Park Min Sook yu sa" ( yu sa is a proper way to call a marriedd woman, mostly a woman married to a rich man)

So... this is the wife. Eunbee could tell by the disgusted look on her face. No wonder. Eunbee was a result of her husband's secret affair. Don't worry, lady. I was abandoned for 17 years with my mom. I went through enough crisis already so are you satisfied???

" and this is Minwoo."

the son,,Eunbee thought, and also my stepbrother.

" Minwoo, why don't you show your stepsister her room."

Eunbee saw that discusted look on his face when her dad said your "stepsister" i don't have a problem understanding that either.
The house was bigger than how it looked outside. Eunbee was sure she would get lost. definitely.
Minwoo wasn't happy of this at all about Eunbee coming in.

Man, what is this crap, Minwoo thought, old people..they are just the same. A secret affair, dad? are you sure you are the same man runnig for the Senate??

They finally got into the room. It was big. much much bigger than the room that her and her mom shared.
mom, i still miss you, you should have taught me what to say in the times like this.
It was very awkward between them. Well, it wasn't. Minwoo didn't like her that was all there was to it.

" thanks"

Eunbee told minwoo. What else could she say.
But Minwoo just gave her a cold stare....
And he went out.
So this is my new life. Eunbee thought. She stared at the ceiling for a while. Then again, Eunbee couldn't stop the tears that drifted to the silk cotton of her bed.

Take me out of here...mom....

I'll go anywhere....

I'll even go where you are....

Just away from here





[Chapter 2]

“Wake up!!!”

Eunbee slowly opened her eyes. When she did…. She expected to see the old and rusty room, but instead she saw was a silk pink curtains and Minwoo’s face trying to wake her up. Then it all came back to her…Death of her mom, and moving with her Dad that had abandoned her and her mom for 17 years.

Eunbee sat up and then realized that she had to get ready for school. New school. New students are not always welcomed. Especially if you have a brother in that school that despises you. Correction, stepbrother.

“Gosh, you have 10 minutes.”
Minwoo said furiously.
"I’ll be in the car..if you don’t come out by then..I don’t care if you walk or whatever.”
Minwoo slammed the door on his way out.

“Whew….”
Eunbee sighed…Why is he so mean to me..I did nothing to him. Minwoo, I am as unhappy about this as much as you are. She kept murmuring to herself as she got ready for school.



Minwoo kept honking outside. I can’t afford to have another tardy. Dammit, do I tell Dongwan and Andy that she is my stepsister, Why is she here man. God, she’s just gonna ruin everything. I can’t stand her little innocent face as she have done nothing wrong. Tell you what little Mrs.innocent. I don’t think you belong here. So get lost.

Then Eunbee came out of the door. She was not ugly, Minwoo noticed. What am I thinking, Minwoo shook his head trying to get back to his old thoughts.
Eunbee got in the car. “ Sorry I’m late oppa.” Eunbee apolozied. “whatever” Minwoo said coldly.

Eunbee went through the halls. She felt as if everybody was looking at her. Maybe because she was walking with Minwoo. Minwoo dropped her off at the office. This was the new day starting at a new school.




~~~~~~~In the Gym~~~~~~~`
This was 2nd period. Eunbee was talking to her new friend, J, who was a year older than her. J was very nice. She had a kind of orangish brown hair. She had the cutest smile, and she was very friendly. Time flied by as she talked to J…It seemed like they were best friends forever.

Then a basketball came out of nowhere and hit Eunbee pretty hard on her head.

“ Oh my gosh Eunbee, are you ok???”

J shouted as Minwoo and his friends, Dongwan, and Andy was coming towards them.

“ oh no” J thought. “It’s those ggang pae deul”

Them again. I hate those ggang pae deul just going around doing whatever they want just trusting their parents will deal with everything.

“ Hey are you gonna throw the ball or are you just gonna stare.”
Minwoo told Eunbee.
Eunbee looked at Minwoo sharply.
“ Gosh, does word sorry ever come out of your mouth?”
J yelled at him, Minwoo just ignored her.

Then Eunbee stood up with the ball and then threw it at Minwoo’s face. Donwan and J and Andy gave a little gasp as Minwoo’s face quickly turned red with anger.

“Ssa ga ji up neun nyun a ( you little b**ch)!!!” Minwoo yelled.
Eunbee just glared at him.
Minwoo looked as if he might hit her.

So Dongwan and Andy backed him up a little bit to calm him down.
“ Get lost, Eunbee”
Minwoo yelled as they walked away...
Eunbee wanted to cry so bad… but she didn’t wanna look weak front of them. He bit her bottom lip to calm herself down. I can handle this, I;m not as weak as Minwoo think I am.
“ Eunbee, are you ok?” J asked worrily.
“ I’m ok unni.” Eunbee said.
But Eunbee was not ok. If she was alone, she would have cried her heart out.
“How can Minwoo be so mean to you.”
“It’s just how he is to me….”
“Why you?”
“ Don’t tell anybody else unni, ok?”
“ OK”
“ He’s my stepbrother.”
“REALLY?”
“yea, he’s not happy with me being here.”
And Eunbee wasn’t happy being here.
Only if she had somewhere to run to….or at least someone.



“Man, Minwoo, you were maybe just a bit overeacting.”

Dongwan told Minwoo.
Minwoo just kept playing basketball crazily. He was sweating a lot…

“Yea..hyung maybe you were…”
“Shut up” Minwoo yelled.

Dongwan and Andy closed their mouth firmly.
Long silence……~~~~~~~~~~~

“Hyung, I’m just curious. It’s just a new student, it seems like you are paying a lot of attention to her…in a mean kinda way?”Andy asked.

Minwoo kept silent. Just wishing Eunbee would disappear.





~~~~In Lunch~~~~`
“ Is your head ok eunbee?” J asked
“ I’m really ok unni don’t worry.”
“OK. You have to live with that ggang pae everyday?”
Eunbee just smiled.
“I’m sorry you have to.”
“ Yea me too.”
Then Dongwan and Andy came by and sat next to J and Eunbee having that evil grin on their faces.
“ You know, you are kind of pretty for a dumb person that would actually get Minwoo mad.” Dongwan said to eunbee.
“And you are kind of cute to be a jjol byung that only follows Minwoo around and can’t do nothing himself.”
Eunbee told Donwan as Dongwan’s face quickly got red.
“Hey watch it!” Andy yelled, “ He is older than you.”
Eunbee still didn’t stop glaring at him.
“Why don’t you guys just go away, leave us alone,” J yelled at them.
“ Who are you to yell at us, J.” Dongwan said teasingly….. “ You know why Eric dumped you? Cause you were a sorry a$$ @#$%^.”
Eunbee clearly saw the tears in J ‘s eyes as Dongwan mentioned a guy named Eric.
That cute smile, Eunbee could no longer see.
“ Unni, why are you crying?”
“ Come on, let’s go,” J said…
Dongwan started laughing. Eunbee helped J out of the cafeteria Andy watched them with a worried look on his face....

Don't cry..noona....

It kills me to see you cry....





~~~~~The Hospital~~~~~

Stupid volunteer work, Eunbee thought.

First place she went to was a hospital by the school to fill up her 3 hours of volunteer work. This is not fun at all. Going from one room to another and seeing the same depressed look on everybody’s face. She helped them eat and try to make them happy, but she couldn’t see a single smile.
But she worked hard trying to forget about what had happened today in school. Who’s this guy Eric? Why did he dump J unni? It was clear that J unni still loved him. Eunbee couldn’t ask anything because J unni was too heartbroken to say anything. She got more depressed thinking about J and seeing the gloomy faces of people. She thought the day would never end until she met him.

She went into a room with tray full of food. And when she went in, she saw a guy, reading a book. He was very pale. His skin was so light and he looked very skinny. She didn’t want to disturb his reading do she thought she’ll come later and she turned away then she heard his voice to the back of her head.

“ Hey, where are you going?”

It was very tender voice. She could feel something inside her, never felt it before, this was kinda like when she first went in the house, no, when she walked in to the new school, no, it wasn’t like that. Just few words drived Eunbee’s head crazy and made her heart hop around like anything.

“um…I thought you wouldn’t want to be disturbed while you were reading.”
“No,no,no,no, there is no time to read when there’s food.”

Eunbee laughed a little and the guy smiled too.
She went closer to his bed and put the tray down on the table that was front of him.

“Here you go”
“ are you gonna feed me?”
“huh?”
“never mind, I was just kidding”

He laughed aloud. Somehow it made Eunbee happy that he was laughing.
He started eating and asked her some questions.

“So what’s your name?”
“ It’s Eunbee.”

She didn’t say her last name because she didn’t know whether to use her old last name, Lim or her dad’s name, Lee.

“My name’s Hyesung Shin.”
“How old are you?”
“18”
“I’m 17."

Hyesung just smiled….It meant so much to Eunbee.
Eunbee smiled back and Hyesung could feel his heart melting. Although it was his diseased heart.

“SO why are you in here?” Eunbee asked
“I have a heart disorder.”
“Is it serious?”
“No.” Hyesung lied.
“You are doing volunteer work I suppose?”
“Yea, it’s actually fun.” Now it was that she met Hyesung.

Every second they talked they could feel something, they Both can feel something growing in their heart. Like a tree, growing by the water and the sun. A tree called Love.

~~~Later~~~~
“Ugh…it’s late oppa, I need to go.”
“’OK”
Eunbee stood up and kissed Hyesung lightly on his chin.
Hyesung’s pale white face suddenly turned red in bashfulness.
Just when Eunbee was about to leave out of the door…
“Are you coming back?” Hyesung asked carefully.
Eunbee nodded and smiled.







[Chapter 3]


~~~~~~In school~~~~~~~

“ He used to go to this school. He is a year older than me.” J explained.
“ So he went to college?” Eunbee asked.
“I don’t know, I haven’t seen him since he broke up with me…”
Eunbee could see that J was in a verge of breaking down in tears…
“ But I can’t forget him…. I can’t, it’s too hard.”
“ Unni, did he tell you why.”
“No……”
“ It’s ok unni,” Eunbee hugged J.
Right then, here comes the ggang pae sam chong sa.
“ AWWW….our little J had been crying…” Minwoo said teasingly.
“ Come on, hyung, let’s go…” Andy said defensively. Andy just didn’t like seeing J cry for some reason.
“ Hey, why are you sticking up for her?” Dongwan asked Andy.
“ Let’s go hyung.” Andy said and pushed them a little so they could be on their way.




~~~~~in the hospital~~~~~~~

“Hey oppa~!, I’m back!!”
Eunbee walked into Hyesung’s room.
Hyesung smiled. …… how could just a one smile mean so much to Eunbee……..
Eunbee sat in a chair near by Hyesung’s bed.

“Oppa, where are your family members….I’ve never seen any one else in this room.”
“Um…my parents passed away a year ago in a car accident.”

Dead parents……I know how that feels….at least a part of it……..

“Oh my Gosh….I’m so sorry.”
“It’s ok, I got over it anyway.” Hyesung lied to her again.
Hyesung just didn’t want her to be worried. Besides, how could anyone get over their parents death.

“Then who takes care of you???”
“ My brother does…., Hey what about your family??”

I knew it would come to this. Eunbee didn’t wanna talk about her dead mom, her ignorant father or her cruel stepbrother. But she wanted Hyesung to know everything about her….every single detail….she wanted him to love her for her…..and accept her as she was…….




~~~~~`Later~~~```

Eunbee just finished her whole story.
Hyesung saw her tears…..those heartbreaking tears…..
and he promised himself….
he will make her laugh and smile….but never cry….never…

“Eunbee….I wanna go outside..”
“Are you allowed?”
“Yea….It’s spring and I didn’t go outside yet.”
“Let’s go then oppa”

Eunbee got his wheelchair and carefully helped Hyesung get into it.
“Yay!!” yelled Hyeung as Eunbee pushed the wheelchair, through the doors of the hospital.
“Finally, I feel free.!!!! They shouldn’t lock their patients in that little rooms. Outside is so much better!!!!”
” Hold on , cause I’m gonna go fast.”

Eunbee pushed Hyesung’s wheelchair around the park…..
It seemed like it was so long ago they each of them had this fun.
They finally stopped and they sat on a grass. Of course, Eunbee had to help him getting out of the wheelchair.

“I don’t think I had this much fun in a long time.” Hyesung told her.
“Me neither.”
“Here.”

Hyesung got out a rose in his hand and gave it to Eunbee.

“ It is so pretty. Where did you get it?”

Eunbee never in her life got a flower before….and for once in her life….for once…..she felt love…..and she felt LOVED.

“ I had my brother get me one so I could give it to you.”
“Thank you oppa,” she gave him a hug.

She held him tight…..she didn’t let go….she never wanted to….ever….
Hyesung held her in his arms……and whispered…..

“I love you.”

How much bravery that took him to say…….

“I love you too…”

eunbee replied….she knew….her heart was telling her and his eyes….
his eyes told her….that they were in love…..

“Oppa,,,,you are not gonna leave like my mom did right? You are gonna be here with me right?”

Eunbee asked …..
Hyesung answered her with a sweet kiss……





~~~~~On the way home~~~~~

Eunbee just couldn’t stop smiling…..
She was loved ……..and that meant just so much to her…..
He loves me……and he said he’ll stay with me……forever…..





~~~~~Lee’s house~~~~~~~

Eunbee walked in and there were three people that she was unfamiliar of….then she recognized one….it was the vice president….

“Oh,,,,Eunbee you are finally here.” Her dad said..
“Come here and meet the vice president Park Chan Ho.”
“An nyung ha sae yo.” Eunbeee bowed.
“Nice to meet you ..what your name?”
“ It’s Eunbee…” she told the vice president.
“That’s a pretty name. “
“ And this is Kim Mi Sun yu sa.”
“Nice to meet you.”
“ And this is JunJin, he’s 20 years old so 3 years older than you.”

Eunbee’s dad introduced Eunbee to JunJin. JunJin had a short yellow hair and he was very handsome.

“Nice to meet you.”

JunJin put his hand out to shake Eunbee’s hand.
Eunbee could feel that he didn’t wanna let go of her hand.

“Nice to meet you too.”

JunJin just stared at her....
It's her.....she looks so much like her....
Maybe she sent Eunbee for me....
To see her in Eunbee's presence....
I'm not going to let you go anymore......
Never ever....





~~~~~~~Next day in the hospital~~~~~~~~

Eunbee walked into Hyesung’s room happy to be there as always…And she saw a guy sitting next to him. He was completely opposite of Hyesung. Short black hair, dark skin and muscular. Pretty hard to believe they were brothers..

“Eunbee, meet my brother, Eric.”

Eric? Could this be the same Eric that J was talking about???

“Hey!”

Why is she looking at me like that? Eric wiped around his mouth making sure he has nothing on his face. Man, she has that same eyes as J does. It was the same curious-looking, deep blue eyes that he missed so much.
How did I ever leave her…….




~~~~Later~~~~~

“Oppa, I gotta go…..” Eunbee told Hyesung.
“ Do you really have to?” Hyesung made a puppy face.
“I’ll come back tomorrow.”
Eunbee kissed lightly on Hyesung’s lips.
Hyesung’s face quickly got red……..^^;;

“Ok.”

Eunbee walked out the door and Eric followed her to see her off.
When Eric closed the door behind him. Eunbee asked carefully…

“ Um….Eric oppa….do you know someone named J???”

Eric looked at her surprisingly..

“You do, don’t you.”
“Yea……..I ….did…..”

Eunbee saw the tears in his eyes.
And then she knew that Eric still loved her too…..





[Chapter 4]

“I had to,”
Eric started explaining. “
"I couldn’t do 3 jobs to pay for Hyesung’s hospital fee and take care of J at the same time. She wouldn’t be happy with me.”

Eric said in the most painful voice as he wiped his tears that were hanging in his eyes.
He told himself, I’m not gonna cry

“Yes, she will, oppa, she loves you still. You could see it in her tears. She misses you.”
“Dammit,” Eric yelled out of frustration,
“Eunbee, I can’t do anything for her. She’s too good for me.”

This was his true feelings. He wanted J to be happy…even it meant he had to forget her and see her with another guy. But why was it that he couldn’t forget about her. It was too hard.

“But she doesn’t need anything from you other than your love and something tells me you still love her too.”
“…….”

Eric kept silent and then he soon, covered his face with his hands. Because he didn’t want Eunbee to see him crying. Eric didn’t want anyone to know that he could cry…But he didn't realize tears were dripping down his face for long time already..





~~~~~In JunJin’s house~~~~~

“What?” The vice president yelled out of surprise.
“I want to marry Eunbee.” JunJin said firmly.
“You mean that girl that we saw yesterday?”
By the looks in JunJin’s eyes, JunJin was sure about doing this.
“Yes, father.”
I want to..more than anything I’ve wanted………I want her…….
“Hmmmm…I’ll talk to her father.”
JunJin smiled happily. Now I have a chance again....
I’ll make her happy. …forever and ever………..





~~~~~J’s house~~~~

J and Eunbee’s talking on the phone. Eunbee sounds very excited.

“Unni, come out to the Jam #1 cafe ok?”
“Yea, but is it for any particular reason?”

J got curious. Eunbee wanted to tell her something……Eunbee was trying to hold it back so hard.

“No….I just wanna eat.”
“OK, I’ll be there at um…7?”
“yep! See ya there.”

J hung up the phone.
Eunbee just sounded too excited to be going only to the café. Oh well, maybe she just really likes that cafe's food……..



~~~~~Minwoo and eunbee’s house~~~~~~~~~

“ But Mr.An, she’s only 17.”
“Haha. It doesn’t mean they would get married just now.”
“But I’m not sure, Mr. An.”
“It could be a help on your elections. Mr.Lee.”
“….”
“As you know, in the people’s eyes, you don’t have that much of a good reputation. If you do nothing about it, you know you can’t win this time either.”
Mr.Lee thought about it. It was very true. He couldn’t win as it is right now. But give a way Eunbee? so young and so innocent. Could I sell her to win this election. No, it won’t be selling her. It will be rather good for her. Yeah, I’m doing this for her…….
“Ok, Mr.An. I agree.”

~~~~~~~~Jam #1 café~~~~~~~

J was waiting for Eunbee in the café.
She sipped her coke and looked at her watch.
Um…it’s 6:50. she still got 10 minutes.

Then Andy walked in. He looked around for Minwoo and Dongwan. Shit, what am I thinking…they are actually gonna come early for once? Yea right…they even have hard time coming on time.

That’s when he saw J. Suddenly he felt his cheeks getting red. And his heart was just jumping and hopping around. Uh-oh. I fell in love with J noona. Should I go talk to her? Should I?

J saw him staring at her. And she just smiled. That same cute smile that everybody, especially Eric loved…………or used to love.

The smile gave Andy the courage in himself and he went over to her.
“An nyung, noona.”
“ Hi, Andy.”
“Who are you waiting for?”
“Eunbee.”
“oh yea, her.”
“If you get a chance, could you tell Minwoo to stop bothering her?”
“I’ll try. I don’t get it either. It’s a mystery why Minwoo hyung hates her so much.”
“I know, how much bad could a half sister cause…”

OOPS!!!J quickly stopped herself covering her mouth….but it was already late.

“Wait, Eunbee was Minwoo hyung’s stepsister? Oh…”
“But you can’t tell anyone ok?”
“I swear.”
“Ok.”

There was a awkward silence...
J keeps looking at her watch and Andy keeps looking away, avoiding her eyes.

“Um, noona,” Andy started trying to brighten the mood, “ do you know the mook jji bba in wang dda version?” (If you don’t know about the mook jji bba thing or whatever..just email me and I’ll answer. Just don’t wanna go bladie bladie bladie now, okei?)
“No…what is it?”
“Ok.. mook jji bba mook jji bba…..”

And here’s our handsome Eric coming in. Whew…Eric gave a long sigh before he went through the door….. His palms were getting sweaty and his mind was going crazy. This was even worse than SATs. what would I say to her? Would she be happy to see me? Would she think I’m a loser when I start crying because I missed her so much? How did Eunbee ever convince me to do this.

Eric went in. Then she saw J……and another guy.

She was laughing out loud…she looked so happy. I don’t think I ever seen her laugh like that with me….She must be happy, really happy ……without me……I wanted to make her smile….I wanted to be the one to hold her and love her…..
But I can’t…….I don’t deserve……….

Eric went out the door. He ran…..trying to stop the tears….
but they will never stop. They never stopped.

J, was laughing by the mook ji bba joke Andy told her…..How happy she would have been if she saw Eric.






~~~~~~Minwoo and eunbee’s house~~~~~~~

“ Damn, I forgot, sorry guys….I’ll be right there.” Minwoo told Dongwan on his cellurphone.
“Minwoo? Are you going somewhere?” ParkMin suk yu sa, Minwoo’s mom asked.
“Yea, to meet Dongwan and Andy.”
“Ok.”
“Wait, Minwoo.” His dad called him.
“ Yea?”
“Why don’t you call your friends and tell them you can’t be there today?”
“Huh? Why?”
“We have some family business to talk about when Eunbee gets home.”

There’s that face again on Park Min Suk yu sa. She couldn’t help it. Eunbee was the reason that she cried every night when her backstabbing husband was not there.
Ugh…..is it gonna be about her. God…now I can’t even see my friends because of her man.

Eunbee walked in the door , she was happy. About what she did today. Now both of them don’t have to miss each other anymore.

“Eunbee why don’t you sit down here.” Her dad told her.

You mean with Park Min Suk yu sa and Minwoo? Uh-oh. She tried her hardest to avoid them as much as she can when she was in the house. She knew they didn’t want her and she didn’t wanna risk her chances of getting kicked out of the house.
She carefully sat down on the chair across from her father.

“Eunbee, what do you think about marrying junjin Park?”

Eunbee was too stunned by the question, she couldn’t say anything at all.
Huh? What in the world was he talking about? Marry somebody? Whoa….she still had a lot of years to go through before getting married.

What the hell? Her, get married. So I wasn't wrong about JunJin eyeing her. But isn't she a little young? Who the heck cares….and this could help on dad’s election.

“But….but….”
“I think it will be good for you. As soon as you graduate high school, you can marry JunJin.”
“But…..I don’t want to.”

Eunbee told him. Not only this idea of getting married was ridiculous, she already loved somebody, Hyesung. And he loved her back.
She couldn’t marry JunJin…….never…..ever. Hyesung promise eunebee that he’ll stay with me always and Eunbee was not gonna break it.





[Chapter 5]


“ I can’t marry him, dad.”
Eunbee told him.
“but it will be good for you.”
“I can’t Dad.”

Eunbee was in the verge of crying, so fruastrated that they don’t know anything.

“But Eunbee,”
Gosh, who cares who she marries. Minwoo thought. Bored of this conversation.
“But I love somebody else!!!!!!”

Whoa, did I just say that out loud? Eunbee thought. To this people who are just completely strangers to me??
So that’s what she been doing all this time. Minwoo was surprised. Going around getting guys. What a slut.

“What?”
“Yea I do., so please leave me alone.”

Eunbee said those words and ran up to her room.
Please just leave me alone. Just leave me alone with Hyesung.

“’Ring,,,,Ring,,,,,,,”
Eunbee gave out a little gasp scared by the telephone’s ringing which broke the silence.

“Hello?”
“Eunbee? What are you doing in your house?”
It was J. She wiped the little tears that was hanging on her eyes as she talked to J
“Oh, hi unni.”
“HI? Don’t you have anything else to say?”
“Huh?”
“Oh my god, you don’t remember a thing do ya?”
“Remember what? Sorry unni, my head is just messed up now.”
“You just ditched me leaving me waiting for you at the café.”
“What?”

Then Eunbee remembered. The whole set up she made. She was anxious to hear the result of an hour og begging and pleading to Eric to meet her.

“So how did it go?”
“How did what go?”
“You and Eric together.”
“huh? What are you talking about……then ….was Eric….there?”
“Yea, oh my god, you didn’t see him?”
“No…..”

oh my god…he came to see me…J thought…..he came to see me again.

“I’m sure he was there he promised.”
“where is he now, where is he?”

J was practically yelling. Eunbee understood that it was the excitement and anger mixed.
I’m so mad at myself…how did I ever miss him..
“He’s probably at the hospital to take care of his brother.”
“Click..”

Then…did Eric oppa went back on the way? Eunbee didn’t think he would do that..or did he see something.





~~~hospital~~~~~

It was in the hospital halls.
J ran in, not knowing where to go. Where is he….where….
Then she saw him. At the other end of the hall.
Eric saw her too. Staring. He would never get tired of staring at her. Never.
They stared, looking at each other’s face they missed …..even in dreams…they will miss each other.

I wanna run to her and hug her. Eric thought. No, she’s happier without me.
Then he begin to run.
The other way....

No….don’t go….don’t…..J ran after him. When she got to the other end of the hall. J was able to see Eric quickly in one of the hospital room.
J quickly ran to that room. And she beginned yelling and banging on the door.

“Eric oppa, please, open the door…..please….oppa….i missed you so much.”
J could feel the sourness of her tears alredy dripping down her face.
“Please oppa, I love you, I do…..i never stopped loving you and I never will. I swear.”

Eric, standing on the other side of the door, leaning his back helplessly against the door..
Please go J I beg you... this hurts me too but you have to go.
He covered his ears, not wanting to hear her voice. His heart will break. He was afraid it will weaken him and then he will open the door and hold her in his arms.
Hyesung…confused by what’s happening….just watched. not knowing how to help his brother.

“Please oppa….please.”

J started crying. Front of the door. People passing by……but J still cries.





~~~In Minwoo’s car~~~~~

minwoo’s talking on his cell phone with his dad.
“What? Why?” minwoo complained.
“You know I’m not the most popular person running for the senate. We need her to marry JunJin.”
“…….” Minwoo did want his dad to win the election. One thing in Minwoo’s heart was his parents.
“OK, I’ll find out who the guy is.”
“Thank You Minwoo. I’ll see you at home later.”
“OK bye dad.”
Whew….now I need to spy on her?
Dongwan asked, “ what was that about?”
“My dad wants me to find out the guy that Eunbee loves.”
“Your halfsister?” Minwoo had told Dongwan about Eunbee.
“Yea.”
“What do you do? Stalk her or something?” andy asked
“just follow her.”
“Yea, I’m curious to know why she goes to that hospital everyday.” Dongwan said
“There she is guys.” Andy shouted.
And they saw her going to the hospital, which was not suprising.
“Let’s go.” Minwoo started the car.






~~~~~The hospital~~~~~

Eunbee was talking to Hyesung and Eric.
“So that was what it was about hyung?”
Hyesung was surprised by the story of Eric and J
Eric kept silent.
I don’t wanna talk about this. Eric thought.What would I give to be the man that makes J happy.

“Uh? Oppa what is that?” Eunbee changed the topic. She was pointing at the paintings.
“That’s my drawings.” Hyesng told her.
Hyesung was happy to tell her about the one talent he had. Now Eunbee will think that I am good at something else other than just ripping off Eric’s money.

“Wow, these are really good. When did you start drawing. You should apply in a drawing contest.”
“I do, and I started when I was very young.”
“Well, you win every competition right?”
“No……..” hyesung’ happy look on his face quickly disappeared.

Dongwan Kim. Why was that he was always first and I was always second. If I beat him even once and I’ll be thrilled.

“Shoot, it’s late already. I’ll come back tomorrow.”
Hyesung didn’t hold her up this time because it was really late
“bye,”
“Bye, bye Eric oppa,”
“bye.” Eric said weakly.
Eunbee went out the door and the hyesung called out his brother’s name.

“Eric hyung?”
“what, hyesung.”

Eric looked at his brother. That look told him that Hyesung had something important to say.

“You know, love needs nothing but love.”

How those few words kept repeating in his head. Love needs nothing but love…..J needs nothing but the love I give her. And I have so much love for her. I do. Eric smiled. Hyesung was delighted to see the smile on his brother’s face.
My job is done. Hyesung started whistling the tune of “oh, happy Day”





~~~~~Outside of the room~~~~~~

“What’s taking her so long.”
“Minwoo, it’s been like 5 hours.” Dongwan started whining.
“Wait, there she goes.” Andy yelled. Eunbee passed by not noticing them.
“Let’s go in”




~~~~~~Hyesung’s hospital room~~~~

They walked in. As they walked in, they each saw differently.

Minwoo saw his old best friend, hyesung. The one he ditched when he was in 7th grade because Minwoo then figured out that Hyesun wasn’t rich, in fact, poor.
He didn’t change at all. Minwoo thought. That same pale white face. and same pale hazel eyes.

Dongwan saw his rival. Actually, Hyesung wasn’t a rival. He was much better than him.The one talent Dongwan had was a trash when it was with this guy. Only way that Dongwan won those competitions was when his dad paid the judges. But he knew in his heart that it was true, hyesung was better than him.

Andy, of course, saw Eric. The one person that broke J nooona’s heart. You broke her heart. You made her cry…….. You made her cry……….

Hyesung thinking, what is Minwoo and Dongwan doing in here. Again, confused by what was happening.




~~~~~Out side of hyesung’s room.~~~~`

“Don’t come near her.” Andy told Eric,“you are not right for her. You can’t give her everything she needs, but I will.”

Andy said holding his fist firmly in his hand to tell him I’m the strong one that will protect J.

“But all she needs is me.” Eric said. Strongly believe in what he’s saying.

"You don't deserve her....."

"That...doesn't matter.....What matters is who J wants....
And It's not you....not in million years..."




~~~~~~`in the hospital Room~~~~~

“Long time No see..”Minwoo told hyesung.
“Yea, it has been long.”
“So by the looks of it, you are not doing very well.”
“I’m fine, thank you.”
“I’m not saying Eunbee is better but I didn’t know she would be in love with this trash.”

Minwoo started offending Hyesung, knowing that it would hurt him deep inside the heart and stick in his mind when he’s trying to go to sleep.

“Get out.” Hyesung said quietly but strongly.
“Don’t worry, come on dongwan.”
“huh?”
Dongwan couldn’t help but stare at the paintings. They are beautiful. Mine are not half as good as that.
“Come on, let’s go.”
“Ok.”




~~~~~~~Later in the hospital room.~~~~`

“What is it, doctor?” Eric asked.

Eric was afraid something bad will come out of the doctor’s mouth. By the looks of it it was not gonna be good.

“What is it?”

hyesung asked anxiously.
Doctor kept avoiding to say it but he finally got it out.

“Hyesung, you only have 2 or 3 month to live.”






[Chapter 6]


~~~~~~~In the hospital halls.~~~~~~~``

“ Come on, let’s go Dongwan.”

Minwoo told him.
Dongwan hesitated. For some reason he couldn’t take another step.
Something held him back.

“Um…Minwoo, you go head, I think I left something in Hyesung’s room.”
“OK, See ya later.”
“Bye.”

Dongwan sat in a chair by and started thinking. That painting was so beautiful. I can never draw like that. I would always be second and he was always the best. Everybody can clearly see that there was money involved. But only Hyesung doesn’t know. He always had depressed look on his face all the time when they announced the results.
He doesn’t know. How much would he be torturing himself because of that………How much would he torturing himself……When he’s sick…..he will just get worse. I can’t stand this….I just can’t. Lying to him and myself cheating on only talent I have. I have to tell him, no, I want to tell him.

He slowly stood up. Started taking small steps to Hyesung’s room. Then he heard it too. He heard it.
“Hyesung, you only have 2 or 3 month to live.”
Then he heard nothing. Silent. And Dongwan didn’t dare to take a step, knock on the door or make a slightest sound breathing. Hyesung only has 2 or 3 month to live. Only 2 or 3 month. That is too short for someone who is only 18 years old.
He turned away. There was nothing he could do for them. No one could do anything
For Eric or Hysung…no one…….





~~~~~~~~IN Hyesung’s room.~~~~~~

Eric and Hyesung are just sitting there. They do not move, they do not talk. Nothing breaks the silence.

Eric’s thoughts were blank. He didn’t understand anything…..he didn’t want to…..
Hyesung smiles, thinking it’s not true, thinking it is all a prank. Nothing has happened when the doctor was here. He just gave me a shot. That was it. That was only it.

Hyesung, staring at the wall as he’s seeing through the wall, has tears coming straight down his face without any sound.





~~~~~~Minwoo and Eunbee’s house.~~~~~~`

Minwoo was there in a living room waiting for Eunbee. Eunbee tried to avoid him but he called her in the back of her head.

“SO that’s what you been doing all these times.” Minwoo told Eunbee.
“Huh?” Eunbee questioned.
“You been doing your little lovy-lovys with that loser Hyesung.”
“What? How did you know.”

How in the world did he find out? Spying on me or something?

“It doesn’t matter how I know. All it matters is you were happy and smiling all those times with Hyesung when my mom was crying alone every day and night cause of you.”
“………….” Eunbee was shocked to hear.

Minwoo’s mom always acted as if nothing mattered to her. As if she invisible. But all these time, she cried because of Eunbee.

Eunbee knew she would never understand how Minwoo’s mom would feel……..

“You know what that feels like? Hearing your mom cry everyday and not be a comfort to her because you know nothing will fix it?”

Eunbee was surprised when she was the tears in Minwoo’s eyes that he was trying so hard to hold.

“What do you want me to do? I have nowhere to go.” Eunbee yelled.
“I don’t care. I hate seeing your face. I just wished you would disappear.” Minwoo yelled back at Eunbee.
“I know you don’t want me here. I know.”
“ Then just get out!!!!!!!!JUST GET OUT!!!!!!”

Minwoo yelled out top of his lungs.
Eunbee looked with a reproachful face. Then she walked out of the living room. Taking loud steps as she walked up the stairs to show Minwoo that she was angry….and sad….

I’ll leave. I’ll leave here. I don’t wanna be where I’m not wanted. I don’t like it here anyways. I’ll just leave. I’ll go to Hyesung, I’ll stay there. I’ll figure something out there.

I will have nothing to regret. Nothing….nothing……right?
I said that to her. I did. Finally, I feel…….I feel……..not what I thought I would feel. Minwoo thought. But she’s gone now. Great. Now I could go to sleep peacefully without having to hear mom crying.





~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s room~~~~~~`
“Hyung?”
“Huh?”
“What about Eubee hyung.”
“……”

Hyesung started crying all over again.

“What about her….i need to tell her. But I can’t. I can’t keep seeing her right?”
“Hyesung ah….”

Eric’s heart breaks seeing his brothers tears that wouldn’t stop.

“But I need her…I can’t let her go…but I have to….I have to.”

Hyesung started thinking……..
How will I, how could I say such a thing to a person I love so much. Only person I have loved and only person I will love. But I can only love her for 2 month now right??




~~~~~~Still the Hospital Room.~~~~~
“oppa…..”
Eunbee walked in, noticing right away that something was not right. Something was just very wrong. Very.

“I’ll step outside.” Eric said.

Poor Eunbee, how will she ever take it. And how will hyesung, he’s too fragile…ever suffer through the pain that I had to go through. How will he ever suffer through that.

Eric’s heart started breaking apart at the thought of his little brother…..his baby brother who always followed him around since…he was born…..had to go through the worst pain of his life….and the thought of seeing him for only 2 month now.

“Oppa, something’s wrong….something is…..what is it oppa, what is it?”

Hyesung bit his bottom lips to hold the tears that were just about to burst out of his eyes. I can’t cry. Otherwise she will realize the truth…that I don’t want to…….

“Eunbee……you have to go…..”
“What are you talking about?”
“you just have to go.”
“…..”
“I can’t…I mean I don’t wanna see you anymore.”

Hyesung couldn’t meet Eunbee’s eyes. He knew then if he did he will break down in tears and tell her the truth. There is the wall. Just stare at it Hyesung. Just stare at the wall. Hyesung told himself.

“No…..”
Eunbee shook her head. Her hair got all over on her face because she was shaking her head so hard.
“No….you are lying…you are.”
“No I’m not.”

Hyesung….thought of the rose…..the rose…..he gave to her as a sign of promise….
And he thought of how he held her in his arms…..and kissed her gently…….
No…I can’t do this………….no……..please god ……no………

“Yes you are.”

I’m making her cry, I’m making her cry, she’s crying cause of me.
All I ever wanted to do in my life was make her happy. But I’m making her cry.

“Go, Eunbee!!!! Please just go.” He yelled.

"Why...?"
"Just....don't' wanna see you no more...."

Don't say that....Don't say what people say....
that means that you and i were just....a couple...nothing more....

And he met her eye. Those deep brown eyes. Behind the tears…….Hyesung quickly looked away. Couldn’t bear to see them.

“oppa, listen to me.”
“…”
“You said you’ll always be here with me. You promised. You did.”
“…….”

I can’t cry, I can’t. He bit his lips like it was about to bleed.

“oppa, I love you….”
“I ………can’t ....love you.”
“What are you talking about?”
“Please Eunbee, just go.”

She looked at him. This is not him…this can’t be the hyesung that I loved that loved me.

“Look me straight in my eye. And tell me that.”

Hyesung had to. If he didn’t, it will prove to her that Hyesung still loved her.
Eunbee prayed silently in her heart……over and over in her mind…..in that split second……Those pale hazel eyes. Please tell me you love me, Hyesung. Please.,……

“Just Go.”

No, he didn’t say that…..no…
Eunbee slowly stood up and staggered the way through out the door.
She' leaving.... I can't see her again.....
After Hyesung was sure Eunbee was far enough….
He cried out and screamed…

“AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!”




~~~~~Minwoo’s Car~~~~`

Minwoo’s talking to his dad on the phone.
“Fine Dad.”
“Minwoo, you shouldn’t feel….”
“I said FINE DAD.” Minwoo yelled.
“Minwoo, I’m sorry for all this. And I’m sorry to your mom too. But we can’t just abandone her. I feel too guilty. I can’t do that anymore.”
“……”
“Please find her Minwoo.”
“Ok. Dad…..”

She walks out the door and now I need to go find her. I bet Dad just wanted her
to live in the house because then he could make it in the Senate.
Then there was a phone call.

“minwoo? It’s Dongwan.”
“Wassup Dongwan.”
“you didn’t hear right?
“Hear what?”
“hyesung only has 2 or 3 month to live.”
“What? You serious.”
“I know…man your sister’s gonna be devastated.”
“…..”

This was not only gonna devastate her,, this was gonna kill her.

“That’s all I wanted to say. Bye.”

Then he saw her. She was just walking…..in the rain…….She didn’t try to avoid the rain. She just walked through the rain as the rain covered her tears.
Minwoo honked.
Eunbee looked back.
Minwoo told her to get in the car.
Eunbee did.
Nothing else happened.
They drived in silence.
Then Minwoo’s words, breaking the silence, hurted Eunbee so much.

“Hyesung finally saw through you and dumped you didn’t he?”

The words went inside……deepest part of her heart and it stabbed her there….
Hurted so much…..

“……”

Eunbee just kept looking out of the window….looking at the rain. It knew her heart perfectly. Rain was only companion.

“Spending the rest of his life with you is too wasted.”
“……..”
“Guy that has only 2 month to live has much more things to do other than spending time with you.”

Eunbee turned to see Minwoo’s face.

“What did you say?”
“You didn't know…….”

It can’t be….it can’t be……..







[Chapter 7]



~~~~~~~J’s house~~~~~~

“DING**Dong***”
“Who is it?” J answered the door thinking who could be here this late.
There was no answer.
“Who is it?” J opened the door.
Then she saw him.

Eric.

Drained in the rain.
Although the tears were covered by the rain….J could tell he was crying because of his red puffy eyes.

“oh my god, Eric Are you ok?”
“Hyesung…….”
“Is Something’s wrong with Hyesung?”

Eric cried all over again. And he thought………
She is here. In my sight. Right front of me….I can hold her in my arms…Eric pulled J and hugged her……he held her tight as if he was never gonna let her go….never again.

J saw it….his love in his eyes….I’m here with him again….Again…..
J replied to Eric’s love with a sweet kiss gently on the lips……
And ….That gave him all the comfort he needed in the world…





~~~~~~~Out in the road~~~~~`

Eunbee ran out of the car…And started running to the hospital. Her legs didn’t help because it was shaking…….very bad……And she was freezing cause of the rain. But her body wasn’t as much as cold as her heart was right now.

“Where are you going?!!!!”Minwoo yelled at her.

But nothing was heard in eunbee’s ears……
Maybe Minwoo’s lying…..Maybe he is..Maybe he is a really evil person to play jokes
On me like that……I’m not believing in him….why should I
Eunbee’s legs gave up…
She fell on the ground…….she let all her tears go……and let the rain wash away her tears….
He’s gonna be gone…….he is not gonna be here with me anymore….
Like mom……He is gonna leave like mom did……..
2 or 3 month?
That’s too short……..
He only lived 18 years……
That is too short for a guy like him…A sweet hearted…..the perfect guy….
The guy I love so much……the only guy I would ever love……






~~~~~~~`Hyesung’s Room~~~``

She’s gone…I made her go……I made her leave…..
I broke her promise…….
I also broke my promise to myself….
I wanted to protect her forever………
Never wanted to hurt her…ever………..
How…..how am I suppose to leave her in this world, God…..Tell me please…….
You made all this happen……..At least tell me how to live without her….
I love her Dammit…..I love her……..It doesn’t mean anything anymore…..
It doesn’t mean anything………..
Hyesung whispered to himself…….
Hyesung….put the pillow over his mouth and yelled……out loud….
Screamed as loud as he can…..cried out Eunbee’s name……and told her he loves her.
And started crying when he relized Eunbee couldn’t hear him say those three words anymore, He can’t say those simple three word that meant the world to Eunbee.





~~~~~~~~Front of Hyesung’s hospital room~~~~~`

“Please ….please open the door……”
Hyesung sat up right surprised by her voice……
“Oppa, I know everything…..please I wanna talk to you….oppa, please …..”

Hyesung couldn’t bear to listen to Eunbee’s muffled voices and her sniffs …….
Hyesung covered his ears with his hands and closed his eyes tightly to stop his tears.

I have to let you go….Eunbee…..You have to be happy without me…
Eunbee kicked…..screamed…….and banged on the door…..
But nothing worked………Eunbee wanted to see Hyesung but he wasn’t gonna let her.

“I swear…Hyesung……..I’ll make you live…I promise I’ll make everything ok again…..
And we could go back to the way it use to be……..I love you…and you love me…
That’s all I need……..”

Of course…..Hyesung couldn’t hear anything……..
Bye Eunbee…..this is how it’s gotta be…We can’t be back together anymore…..
Faith won’t let us……





~~~~~~~`J’s House~~~~~``

Andy walked over to J’s house. He wasn’t gonna let eric get her….
I’ll be the one she will ever need…..
I’ll be her everything…….I’ll give her my all………
Andy pushed the bell..

“Who is it?”

J’s angelic voice came to Andy’s ears which left him smiling…..
I’ll never get tired of her voice….

“oh, hi andy!”
“Hi, noona, can I come in?”
“Yea, of course.”

Andy walked in the door and saw Eric……
They glared at each other……. Anyone could clearly see that there were some tensions
Around them…..

“Hey do you guys know each other?”

J asked carefully, trying to make the mood lighter.

“What is he doing in here?” Andy asked.
“Um…….”
“Cause Im her boyfriend…..” Eric interrupted J and told Andy .

Andy lookes over to J..to check……her eyes told him yes…I still love him….
Andy couldn’t believe his ears……This is a joke….this gotta be a joke…
Andy started crying……..The tears he never cried……came out…….The tears for lost love……the tears for loneliness and the tears for the times he waited for J to get over Eric……I thought she was mine now……I thought she was mine….

“Noona………noona how could you……..?” Andy stammered…..
“I thought……I thought….you were smarter than that………How…..how …..could you……go …….back to him……….When……I was here for you…….”
“Andy……..”
“Please tell me noona………that you don’t love him…”

J put her head down……She felt guilty……she knew Andy had feelings….true feelings for her….and ignored him………for there were times that he had laughed at her…..with Minwoo and Dongwan……….but now…she thinks about it…..it was all because he didn’t know what to say to her……..He was too young to know what to say….he was too shy and ………………IN LOVE………….

“Please tell me noona……..Please…………”
“Andy…it’s not……” J started talking but andy interrupted….
“If you are mad at me because I made fun of you at school about you getting dumped by Eric……I’m sorry………..I truly am sorry….I never meant it to hurt you so much…..I followed the hyungs………You know I love you noona………….you …know…”

Andy ran out……..it was too hard to see them together…….
Inside they were happy…they were happy they both are back together……
And they wouldn’t care about me……The little 17 year old that ran out of the house crying like a puppy that lost his chew toy………..
They didn’t care…….
J didn’t care……………………





~~~~~`in Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~~

Hyesung was drawing….he put all his heart and soul into it…….
He concentrated on every little detail and kept his hand moving to get his mind busy….
It was a done now….
He held up the picture…..
The picture of Eunbee……….
Now this is only way I could see her now……….
His tears were dropping on her face…….





~~~~~~~out of the hospital~~~~~~

It is true…….everything Minwoo said is true…….including the part he said that 2 month is too short to spend on me…………no……no….no………He loves me……….that’s why he is doing this………but……oppa…….this only makes me hurt more…….
I miss you………I’ll be dying if I don’t see you……..

Then JunJin came by in his BMW……..JunJin saw Eunbee walking in the rain in that soaked clothes. I need to get her home…..JunJin thought….why is she walking in the rain anyway……..

“Hey!!!!!!!” JunJin yelled out…….
But eunbee didn’t hear………She was in a place………with nobody else…….just her all alone…..

“Eunbee!!!.”

Eunbee just kept walking…….thinking about Hyesung……she looked up in the sky……
And tried to picture him in the dark night sky……and imagined that the rain was his tears… and she cried more……..

But Eunbee didn’t see the truck coming at her way……Eunbee was coming right from another direction so driver couldn’t see her…….But JunJin saw the truck……

It was gonna hit her.....
It was gonna take away my love.....
Again.....



~~~~~Memories~~~~

"Bye~~ Junjin~~"

Yoori was waving.....at him.....
Junjin smiled back and waved as she crossed the road...
But she was facing JunJin....

And didn't see the speeding bus coming towards her...

"NOOO~~~~~!!!! Yoori!!!!!"

But it was too late....
Yoori's body....was now all covered by blood...

No more smiling...

Junjin stood there numb....




~~~~~~Memory End~~~~~



and Eunbee walking knowing nothing……….
Truck was coming closer and closer....

JunJin ran towards her...
He jumped in……front of the speeding truck and pushed Eunbee……..JunJin saw the truck right front of his eye……then everything went blank after Eunbee’s scream.

“Oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1” Eunbee yelled

She screamed at the sight of blood on JunJin…….all over his face…..and body……
Eunbee couldn’t think straight right now……She screamed and stared…
It was all because of her……..JunJin is lying there covered in blood all because of her….

She kept staring as people gather around yelling ‘ call the 911’






[Chapter 8]


~~~~~~~~`In Eunbee’s room~~~~~~~~``

It is simple room…..there is a bed, a desk a window, a closet and that’s pretty much it……And on her desk, has a rose on it……..
The red rose hyesung had given to her…..
As a sign of promise……….But the rose turned blackish
and the petal that was holding on with it’s last power
had given up and one last petal...fell off....




~~~~~~~`Dongwan’s Room~~~~~~~~~

Dongwan stared at the trophies…….his paintings……..and his picture that he had taken when they announced him as a first place winner…..There he was smiling……smiling….

But that was fake……..everything in this room is a fake, a lie and a trash……
Including me……Dongwan thought as he stared hard at the picture of him……
Dongwan…why are you like this……?

Why are you lying to yourself and all the others…….?
Why are you acting, never true to yourself……
You get nothing out of that………you get nothing out of that………
And you won’t realize it until it’s too late……….





~~~~~~~J’s house…~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“J, are you ok?” Eric asked as he saw a worried look on J’s face…..
“Yeah…..it’s just that……..”
“What?”
“I hurt him……..i did…….it might just sound like a word…..hurt……but that word is so painful…..and I know………..i know……..” She said covering her face with her hands….she didn’t wanna think of that pain again…….and the thought of her hurting somebody like that……..almost made her cry………
“So what are you gonna do? I love you……..I do…….”
“I know……..and I love you too………”

Eric put his arms around her……hugged her …and whispered……….

“I’m sorry………….I am truly sorry I left you like that……….”

Eric looked straight into J’s eyes and so that broken heart was still left in her……it was still there…….Right in her eyes….and he knew her heart was shattered to pieces …….Eric knew then…..he couldn’t put her heart together to a whole again…….…
.no one could........




~~~~~~~~~`Hospital~~~~~~~~~`

JunJin’s parents were so nervous…….they couldn’t stay put…..They walked around….talked to each other……….and cried………..but nothing helped them….
Nothing could……they didn’t know if they will see their son ever again……..

Eunbee sat in a chair………. There were no tears………. She didn’t want to cry….
Then she would make a noise………..Then JunJin’s parents will remember again her presence and start giving her bad looks and lot of blame……….

This is a torture……Eunbee thought as she slowly walked to the bathroom….trying not to make any noise……..She walked in the bathroom…….and locked the door…and started crying……She cried and cried…….Nothing is going right…..
She lifted her head up and saw herself in her mirror……She resembled her mom so much……same deep brown eyes…….long black hair…….. and how they look absolutely terrible after they cried…………

I need to go back……..I need to go back…it’s all my fault………JunJin, why did you jump after me????

She walked back……….all that time spent on washing her face with cool water didn’t help……Her face was red…….. from her eyes to her nose………

“What happened, Is he Ok?”

JunJin’s mom quickly got up and asked the doctor who just came out of the surgery….
Eunbee quickly ran to hear the results………wait…..i don’t wanna hear…….what if he’s dead………..

“he is not going to die..”
“Thank god.” JunJin’s mom yelled out loud as she hugged her husband……This was even better news then being elected as a vice president……
“But……..”
Eunbee’s face expression quickly changed as JunJin’s parents’ also changed.
“What is it?”
Eunbee asked carefully…..I knew it..I knew he wasn’t going to be alright….
“He lost his sight….and his sense to hear…….”




~~~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s room (hospital)~~~~~


Hyesung looked up and saw Dongwan coming in………
Hyesung didn’t understand this guy…..Why would he want to see me?
I definitely have nothing to see him about.
Hyesung couldn’t find the words to say to him..it seemed like his ability to talk had gone blank.
So Dongwan started talking…but also had trouble finding words to say…..He brushed his hair up that were in his eyes with his hands and he got out a word.

“Hi.”
“Hey.”

What the hell…..They both thought at the same time….

“Um……Hyesung?”
“yea?”
“I wanted to tell you something.”
“I’m listening.”

Does he realize how hard it is for me to say this? How hard it is to be here….
To tell him the truth…….? But he had to………he didn’t want to live another day….
Faking himself …….and he thought if he told Hyesung about it..then he’ll feel better..

“I just wanted to say….Hyesung…..you won all those…..competitions…..all the art contests………I never won them…….you did………”
“What are you talking about…..?”
“I’m trying to tell you the truth Hyesung…….I never won the trophies and the glory….you always did and I stole them……..”

dongwan yelled out loud to finally get it all out of his heart……..

“Why are you telling me this?”
“Because it’s the truth……”
“no….” Hyesung said firmly staring down……
“?”
“NO………..!!!!!!you just feel sorry for me…..”

Hyesung started yelling…………. The pain came to him again……The pain of thinking about losing his future and his life…….

“no, hyesung it’s not like that.”
“Don’t lie to me!!!!!!!!!!!DON’T~~~~~~`”

I don’t want sympathy……….i can win those trophies without sympathy ……
I can draw without sympathy…..
But people can’t love me without sympathy…………………
There was a silence for about 5 minutes…….
Both traveling in their mind of their own……………

“That is beautiful.”

Dongwan pointed to the painting of eunbee, breaking the silence…….
Hyesung looked at the painting……the drawing was kind of messed up because of his tears……….Hyesung stared at it knowing she’s too far away now………

“You love her……….”
“Nothing matters anymore……”
“You love her………..that matters….”
“Not when you are like me…….not when you are somebody like me…..”
“You know………I heard this somewhere I can’t remember who………
It said love only needs love.”

Hyesung smiled bitterly…….Love only needs love……….heh….that’s what I said to Eric hyung……..i think it worked for him………wouldn’t know if it will work for me….
Wouldn’t know if eunbee only needs my love……..maybe….. Just maybe…it might be ..
It might be true………





~~~~~~~~~Eunbee and Minwoo’s house~~~~~~~``

Minwoo’s dad was talking to Junjin’s dad on the phone…… minwoo’s dad didn’t look that happy……in fact, he looked really…..really…….mad and worried.

“Ok……Yes sir……”
He hung up…..He covered his face with both of his hands and gave a long sigh……
“What’s wrong dad?” minwoo asked, a little frightened by the look on his dad’s face.

“junJin lost his sight and hearing…….because of Eunbee…….”
“What? Because of Eunbee? What did she do?”
“Junjin tried to save her from the truck that was running towards her and he did save her but he hurt himself…”
“So what’s gonna happen…”
“We need to find somebody to give up their sense of sight and hearing and transplant it to JunJin.”
“We need to?”
“We have to….the chances are already slim that I’ll make it in the senate…..If I don’t find someone..then I’ll never make it in….”

Eunbee…….Eunbee…Eunbee……she brings nothing but trouble…….minwoo thought.
I swear…….just one day, she will be kicked out of here…..

“But you know it’s hard to find someone that would give up their senses…”
“Wait…Dad, I think I know somebody……..”





~~~~~~~`Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~~~

“Hey wassup?” Minwoo said scornfully.

Hyesung was too tired to keep up with him…… so he said…

“just get out.”

But instead minwoo came and sat by Hyesung’s bed and said….

“So….. do you love Eunbee?”

Hyesung looked straight in his eyes and mouthed the words ‘get lost’
Minwoo ignored him, stood up and started talking again walking around…

“Do you love Eunbee? And I only want to hear the truth…..”

Then Minwoo saw a notebook…..It said all over it ‘I love eunbee’ ‘I love Eunbee’
Hyesung quickly took the notebook and hid it, although he couldn’t under his pillow.

“You do…….prove it to me…..”

Hyesung gave a disgusted look. Prove what?

“Prove to me you love her…..”

What the hell, what does he want?

“There’s this guy JunJin…..He’s the son of the vice president… well, he’s in love with Eunbee….and he just lost his sight and hearing cause of Eunbee.”
“What does this got to do with me?”
“If you really, really,, love Eunbee,”

Minwoo emphasized the word ‘really’

“Then you would want Eunbee to be happy…….And since you are gonna die in about….what? 2 month……..? you can’t make her happy…and so can’t JunJin without his sight and hearing. So you would volunteer to give up your sight and hearing for him.”

Hyesung stared at Minwoo….couldn’t believe what he said……..He would actually say something like this…….as if he doesn’t know already how much I hurt…….He wants me to give my eyes and ears to give to another guy.

“Get out.” Hyesung resolutely.
“Well, I’m not saying you just donate your ears and eyes….my dad will give you about…
um…….million bucks or so….”

“I said get out.”
“Think hard Hyesung…….Are you gonna die leaving Eunbee devastated with no one else to love her??”
“GET OUT!!!!!!!”

Hyesung yelled as loud as he could. Then the nurses ran in but Hyesung didn’t stop yelling at Minwoo, cussing at him and throwing stuffs at him.
After they finally left…….Hyesung cried….Put the pillows over his mouth so he didn’t have to hear himself cry. He cried cause he knew…
He knew everything minwoo had said was…….
True..






[Chapter 9]



~~~~~~~~~By the River~~~~~~~~~

Andy is lying on the grass by the river…….smelling the fresh grass….and the night air…. And looking at the stars…….
I used to think that there is one star out there for me……. And I thought I found it…..

He smiled weakly to himself……….
I did find it……. It is her . I know it…I just know it…..I do…
He just lied there and let the twilight pass by him. He didn’t even bother to wipe his tears that were dropping down on sides of his face…. It took too much to stop them.

And right now, he didn’t have anything left in him to stop it.

I don't wanna live like this anymore.....




~~~~~~~Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~~

“WHAT????”
Eric yelled loudly at Hyesung’s words…..
“No, Hyesung you are not doing that……….No you are not.”
“It will be quick……. It takes…”
Eric interrupts.
“No. you are not. I don’t care what you say.”
“It could be scheduled as soon as possible since….”
“NNNNNNOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!”

Eric yelled out from top of his lungs, his eyes looked fierce…..it looked as if there were fire coming out of his eyes…..no joke.

“BUT I HAVE TO!!!!!!!!”

Hyesung yelled back.

“I thought about it……I did. And everthing Minwoo said was true..
Every damn thing he said was all true. Hyung…..You know I only have,,,, what 2 month to live?
And you know how much it hurts to leave Eunbee behind. I did most horrible thing I could do…I lied and lied…… made her miserable……The least I could do is this.. This guy can give everything she needs….. She’ll be happy.. and I want her to be happy.”

Hyesung started crying….. it was horrible. Life was horrible. He had to do this. And he wanted to. But it was just horrible.

“You don’t need to do that for Eunbee. She will be more miserable to see what you did.”

Eric took hyesung’s hand in both of his hands and told him.

“It’s not only for her, Hyung..”

Hyesung stopped for a second to try to stop the tears.

“It’s for you ……and me……… Hyung, when mom and dad died…you sacrificed the money you saved for 5 years to go to college on me…… You spent those money you saved for 5 years working in the factory to keep me in the hospital and get me operations…. Now that’s not worth anything anymore. You just wasted all that money on me..”

Now, Eric couldn’t even stop his tears………. Why him. Why does he have to go through with this……. His heart is breaking apart…… MY little brother Hyesung…..He did nothing wrong to this world……. The world is unfair…..

“And it’s for me…… I want to be a help to someone. All I ever did in my life is rip off someone else’s money, break someone’s heart and nothing else….. I was no help to this world at all. I have to do something before I go… then I’ll know, then I’ll know that my life was worth something……”

“……………..”

Eric couldn’t say anything. Everything was said in Hyesung’s eyes……….
He wasn’t gonna let this idea go…………….
He was going to do this………..
But Eric wasn’t about to let him.

“No you are not. Whatever Minwoo said. Don’t believe that shit.”

Eric told him that and left.
Hyesung slowly picked up the phone and got connected to the doctor’s office. And he told the doctor,

“I’m going to do it.”

He slowly put down the receiver….. his hands shaking.

“Forgive me hyung.”






~~~~~~~JunJin’s Hospital Room~~~~~~~~

JunJin slowly opened his eyes………. Wait, he thought……I thought I opened my eyes. Why is everything black? I don’t see anything…..It’s dark……. What’s happening… Somebody here? He yelled out……Somebody….He felt someone shaking him…. Why don’t I hear anything……. Help…… help….. HELP!!!!!!!!

JunJin yelled out…..He kept screaming and going crazy…… it took 2 doctors and 1 nurse to hold him down……

Thank god his parents are not here, Eunbee thought as she cried watching Junjin, Thank God.
Are you ok junjin oppa? I’m sorry……I’m really really sorry….

Eunbee couldn’t stand watching him….. He cried out for his parents…… he was going crazy……. Called out names of everybody he knew…….. Trying to get someone to help him……But no one could….. He was trapped…….Eunbee didn’t know how that felt like but she did know that there was no more world for JunJin.

And there was no shine in his life anymore.
There was nothing.
All black...






~~~~~~Just outside of the Operation Room~~~~~~`

“Are you sure you wanna go through with this?”

Doctor asked….. hoping that Hyesung changed his mind……

“Yes….. you said yourself said transplant isn’t that painful. I’ll be ok.”

Hyesung said firmly trying not to cry again.

“Are you ready?”

doctor asked Hyesung.

“Yes” Hyesung lied.

No, everything in his body told him to say no………. but his heart told him to say yes.
He wasn’t ready.
He wasn’t ready to go to kindergarten.
He wasn’t ready to see his parents dead.
He wasn’t ready to see Eunbee cry because of him.

And he wasn’t ready to give his eyes and ears to JunJin.
No he wasn’t…
But he was going in the operation room.




~~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s hosptal room~~~~~

Hyesung was sleeping. He was soundless. Eric came in silently trying not to make any noise to wake him up.

Eric sat and watched his brother sleep. And then found out he wasn’t sleeping. He was crying, silently. He was whimpering ….. and he didn’t open his eyes……….. It was firmly closed…………

“Hyesung, what’s wrong.”

Eric asked anxiously. It was weird. Something was definitely wrong. Something was very… very wrong.
Hyesung didn’t answer. He didn’t stop crying.
He cried and cried….in fear. It was heartbreaking. Hyesung looked so…..painful.
Hyesung’s cry got louder and louder……soon, it became a yell……
Eric yelled……… he yelled but Hyesung didn’t respond.
Then Eric beginned shaking him.

“Hyung?? Is that you?”
“yes, Hyesung it’s me……..it’s me…..”
“Is it you??”
“Yes….. I said………..”

Then he realized……… Hyesung did it…….. He did it……..
I told him not to……. I told you………
Eric wanted to yell at him and tell him he was all wrong. What he did was stupid…
But it didn’t matter now. He couldn’t hear…….
Eric couldn’t even tell him he loves him anymore…………

“Hyung………..”

Hyesung started to cry…….. Eric hugged his little brother and cried too…..
The whole night passed……..






~~~~~~~JunJin’s Hopital Room~~~~~~`

Eunbee walked in the room happily with pink and yellow flowers for JunJin. Eunbee got a call saying he got a transplant and that he was OK. She was sooo happy to hear that.

“Oppa, I’m here.”
“Hey.” JunJin smiled………

He could see……. Even it was only for like a day……It was hell…….It truly was.
Eunbee hugged him….

“I’m so glad you are ok.”

And she looked up and stared at his eyes.
She felt her hair standing up on her back….. She felt her heart stopping…
It was weird…… Pale hazel………..pale hazel eyes………….








[Chapter 10]


~~~~~~~~Road~~~~~~~`

Eunbee was running……. And in the daylight, her tears were clearly seen. But she didn’t care about the people looking back at her or staring at her while she passed them and bumped in to them.
All she cared about was Hyesung……..
And she prayed, it would be better to say begged to God that the eyes that she saw in JunJin wasn’t Hyesung’s eyes…….
If it was……………..if it was…..
Then what would have happened to Hyesung???






~~~~~~~Dongwan’s house~~~~~~~`

“Andy!!! Come on……wake up!!!!!!!”
Dongwan was carrying Andy up to his room. He shook a little but finally he managed to lay Andy on his bed…..
“Andy!! Wake up…….!! Ewww your getting all of your drool on my bed!!!!!”
Dongwan yelled…….. but his real concern was why Andy was drunk and why was he lying by the river…….it seemed like he was there all night….. And by the marks left on his face…… Dongwan knew Andy had been crying…….

Then Andy opened his mouth…….. And he began to say something……
Very quietly………

Dongwan put his ears closer to hear what Andy was saying……

“ J……… J????”

What was he talking about? Dongwan thought……
He put his ears closer once again…….

“I ……. Love…… you???”

Dongwan looked at Andy with a puzzled look……. He had been hiding all along…
All those times……. He loved her…….
Tears dropped down on Andy’s face as he mouthed the words
......J I love you.............






~~~~~~~~Hospital~~~~~~~~~

Eunbee walked in crying……………
And she called out…

“ Hyesungie oppa??!!!”

But only silence answered her………
And Hyesung’s eyes were firmly closed…………
Eunbee fell to her knees.
With tears dripping down her face endlessly she began to say…

“ I missed you…..oppa……. so much….. can you hear me????”

Eunbee walked up to him…..
And caressed his face with her hands…….

“Eunbee? Is it you?”
“Yes…oppa it’s me………”
“Is it really you?”

Eunbee kissed him lightly on the lips………..
Hyesung felt the light in the darkness he was in……
Though he felt her tears……and his heart was torn to pieces…….

“Eunbee, don’t cry……”
As he said this, he began to cry……….
“ Why did you?? Why did you…….. ?”

Eunbee yelled at him until she finally realized it didn’t matter now….. He couldn’t hear her…….

“I love you…… I love you….”

Eunbee whispered…….
But reality stopped her from delivering her message.

“ I missed you….” Hyesung told her…..
“I…..” Eunbee was interrupted by hyesung……
“I wanna see you…… you are right front of me………. And I can’t see you.”
“Oppa…….”

Eunbee fell in his arms and started crying………
His heart broke as Eunbee’s tears soaked his shirt….
Eric came in……… And he was Eunbee and Hyesung crying……..

“ Eunbee ya…”

Eric called out…..
Eunbee slowly turned her head…….. And he ran to Eric and asked, actually yelled….

“Who did this..?/???/”
“It was his choice……. I swear I tried to stop him…..”
“How did he even know about JunJin?/??????”
“Minwoo told him…… Minwoo came here and told him that if he really loves you …then he would give his eyes and ears to junJin so you could be happy.”

Eunbee went numb for a second…..
Minwoo……. It was all him……..






~~~~~~`Minwoo’s House~~~~~

Minwoo was listening to music when Eunbee came in yelling and screaming.
“You BI**H!!!!!”
Eunbee just charged at him…..
HE was the guy that made Hyesung lose his eyes and ears
How could he……….. how could he……
Minwoo pushed her off and yelled….

“What the hell is wrong with you????”
“Hyesung………hyesung…….”

Eunbee started crying……….

“What did I ever do to you? How can you be so cruel……I …… He was only part of me left and you ……. You killed him…….”

Minwoo just stood there and listened………….
He saw her tears…… and realized this time, it wasn’t a game……
It was much much more……… something very serious……….
Eunbee broke down and and cried more.....







~~~~~~~Hospital~~~~~~~~

Minwoo walked in quietly in the room…….
And he saw hyesung crying in the dark………..
Hyesung’s tears seem to flow endlessly…………..
And his eyes were puffed up…….

“Hyesung?”

Minwoo carefully called out his name……….
And realized he wasn’t able to hear anymore……..

“Hyesung ah……. I’m sorry……. I am soooooo sorry……….”

This was his once best friend and Minwoo himself did this to him….

“ I don’t know how I changed like this…….. I changed……”

Minwoo’s tears started to drop soundlessly…..

“ Remember we used to play with dolls and other people teased us but we didn't care??”

Minwoo smiled faintly….

“Remember? And you played the mom and I played the dad……..
And remember? You told me I was the kindest person on the earth…..
I really wanted to live up to that expectation……… But I didn’t…….
Hyesung, you are the most caring person I’ve ever met………
And I’m so sorry………. I’m so sorry…….”

Minwoo kept crying soundlessly in the dark………
And Hyesung slowly drifted off to sleep……







[Chapter 11]



~~~~~~One Month Later~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~`

Hyesung sat alone in silence. Actually it was always silence. He wouldn’t know if someone’s around unless they would touch him or give him a sweet tender kiss on his lips like Eunbee always did.

It was hard to even know the date. He didn’t know exactly how many days passed until he was blinded and deafened. But it seemed like forever. It truly did.

He didn’t get better. It didn’t get better. There was so many things he wished to do but always it seemed impossible. Hyesung got weaker and weaker.

And he felt in his heart and soul and in his mind….
He was slowly dying away…….
It slowly killed him…..
And he knew there weren’t much time…






~~~~~~~Dongwan’s Room~~~~~~

Babo......My stupid dongsang....Andy.....
How could you......
You were too weak....
I should have known it.....
I guess I was stupid....
I miss you....


And next to him, there was a painting of Andy.....
Just like the night Dongwan saw him crying....
And next to it, was a trophy...
The first trophy dongwan won with his own talents....

Andy... I love you.....
You shouldn't have left...





~~~~~~Eunbee’s Room~~~~~~

Eunbee stared at the rose…..
The rose that hyesung had given to her a month ago, promising he will stay.
And a petal dropped. Her tears dropped with it.
Even though she prayed and prayed that it would be not true in her heart, she knew and she knew so clearly that Hyesung wouldn’t be able to keep that promise.
And the rose, so dryed, just lied there, not knowing it was breaking Eunbee’s heart in to tiny pieces that wouldn’t be able to be put back together.






~~~~~~Cafe~~~~~~~



"J.....Don't...please...don't do this...."

They sat together....

They didn't look at each other......

"I can't....i can't go on like this........"

"It's because of Andy isn't it???"

"I can't be with you....."






~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~~

JunJun visited again like he often did. JunJin couldn’t imagine being in Hyesung’s place right now. The day living without the sense of sight and hearing was hell. Being trapped in a dark world for a month? He didn’t even wanna think about it.

“I’m here, Hyesung.”
JunJin tapped Hyesung’s arm.
“Hey, JunJin.”

Crazy, JunJin thought. Why did he donate his ears and eyes. Obviously, it wasn’t the money….. maybe not only the money. But why did he? He wanted to ask every time that he had visited but he never could.



~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~`

Minwoo walked in with flowers…… and he layed the flowers down by the bed and tapped hyesung on his shoulders to let Hyesung know that he was there.

“Minwoo?”

Minwoo tapped Hyesung’s hand once to tell him ‘yes’
That was one way that Hyesung communicated with people.
And it was always the same. People who visited Hyesung would talk to themselves hoping hyesung would be able to hear. Those dear words that people wanted to say to hyesung only hung out in the air in the room. But sometimes, just sometimes, Hyesung would be able to hear in his heart. And he would tell them ‘it’s ok’ or ‘I love you too’

“How are you doing Hyesung?”

Minwoo paused for a moment thinking Hyesung is answering back,

“It’s been a month now and it doesn’t get better. Seeing you like this would never get better. Knowing it’s my words those simple words that killed you. Saying I’m sorry is not enough. Not enough for you and not enough for me.”




~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~~~

Minwoo had left and Eunbee came in. She noticed the flowers that layed beside the bed. She whispered to herself, ‘Minwoo had been here.’ Minwoo visited everyday now. She appreciated him doing that but it still didn’t mean that she had forgiven him. She would never, never.

Eunbee kissed him lightly on the lips…

“Eunbee, you are here.”
“Of course.”

Hyesung felt his heart breaking again. Every time that Eunbee was here, he hated himself for not being able to see her or hear her. He missed her so much, he needed her to keep on living. But I can’t see her, Hysung thought, I love her…..
“Oppa, let’s go to the ocean….”

She laughed quietly to herself for being silly enough to actually wait for an answer.

“Let’s go now. I asked the nurse and she said it was Ok.”

She slowly helped Hyesung stand up. First he was confused at first but he seemed delighted later on that they were going outside.
It had been so long since he breathed fresh air. When finally was outside, cold night air chilled him a little but he loved it. He almost forgot how good it felt.
But the best thing about this trip was that he was with Eunbee……
The only love in his life.




~~~~~~~~The ocean~~~~~~

Twilight was finding its way in, moon and the stars shined on Hyesung and Eunbee, who were sitting on the sand together.
Waves crashing, and sea gulls singing….. Only if Hyesung could hear them.

“Eunbee?”
Hyesung called out.
“I want to tell you something…..”

Hyesung paused trying not to get tears started.

“More then anything in the world, I want to be with you. In this place, in this life time. But I can’t…. I pray and pray it’s not true but I can’t stay here long…..”

Tears dripped down Eunbee’s eyes…….

“I learned so many things in this lifetime. Most from you….. I learned that only thing love requires is love…….. If you have love… you have everything. You give everything you got. I gave you everything I’ve got….. And I know it’s not enough……It kills me too that I have to leave behind….. But Eunbee, there is no love without good-byes…..It breaks everyone’s heart ……. It truly shatters mine into tiny pieces.
But it is one of obligations of life. You have to learn to say good-bye, but you never do, never can. And good-byes always leaves a shadow in your heart. It is left as depressing and bad memory. Eunbee, please promise me this.
This is all I ask. When we say good-bye…… Promise I won’t be a shadow…..promise me I’ll be a dream. A sweet and memorable dream that would last in your heart forever. Just something you could look back to and remember that you have loved and have been loved. Don’t hang on to me……
Please just think of me as a dream you had last night. A dream that was most dearest in your heart. Until we meet again. Until we see each other again.. And then, there will be no goodbyes….
I promise.”

Hyesung took out a sketch.
He gave it to Eunbee…….. It was hard to tell what it was….. hyesung explained.

“I drew it yesterday thinking of you…..you know it is so amazing I could see you clearly in my heart….. So I copied it…..it didn’t come out right, did it?”

It didn’t. Eunbee could see the eyes and nose, mouth but they were not in right places and sketch was a total mess up…… She told him…..

“It’s perfect, oppa . I love it.”

She did. She loved it. It was most precious gift she ever got.
They both held each other and cried……
Tears that were cried and words that were said slowly faded away as the night passed.
And the day came.
As they promised each other....they won't be too sad....to say goodbye...





~~~~~~~~Hospital Emergency Room~~~~~~

JunJin came down the hall running. He came as fast as he could after the call. That Hyesung is in a serious condition and was ran to the Emergency Room.

He found Minwoo leaning on the wall…. He looked as if nothing was on his mind. His mind was blank. Minwoo just stared at the other end of the hall. Then he gave a long sigh, “Hyesung…. You can’t, you can’t die.”

JunJin also saw Eric, who he had seen couple times when JunJin was visiting Hyesung. He wasn’t the handsome, muscular, dependable Eric right now. He was a wreck. And a girl, that JunJin guessed was Eric’s girlfriend tried to comfort him.

JunJin saw two guys that sat silently. Almost in tears.
And JunJin saw a familiar face. A girl was breaking down in tears…… It was Eunbee….

Hyesung seemed to be someone very dear to her. It must be.
Then the doctor came out.
All of them stood and asked the doctor,

“How is he?”
“I’m sorry…… he has few more minutes to live.”

They couldn’t believe what they were hearing. They stood numb for a second. And Eunbee slowly shook her head.

“No…no….no……NO!!!!!”
She ran at the doctor and started hitting him.

“He can’t go.. he has to live…. He has to….”
“Eunbee, Eunbee, stop!!”

Minwoo got her off the doctor and Eunbee started crying in Minwoo’s arms.
Eric who was just watching slowly walked in the room. Everyone else followed, all of them crying. Eric knelt beside hyesung and called him.

“Hyesung?”

Somehow, maybe Hyesung felt something, slowly turned his head and said,

“Hyung?”

Eric took hyesung’s hand in his and held it tight.
“Don’t go….Please…..don’t.”
Hyesung felt Eric’s tears on his hands….
“Hyung, don’t cry…….. is JunJin here?”

JunJin walked over to the other side and held his other hand to let him know that he was there.

“Can you do me a favor?” Hyesung started crying.
“Anything.” JunJin replied.
“Take good care of Eunbee for me.”

JunJin nodded. Then everything came to him. How Hyesung sacrificed his eyes and ears to give to me so Eunbee could be happy because Hyesung wouldn’t be able to stay long. JunJin cried the tears he never cried. And promised himself, he would fulfill his promise even though his love could not even measure up to half of Hyesung’s love for Eunbee.

“Minwoo? I forgive you. I do.”

How long Minwoo have waited to hear those words….
Minwoo felt his guilt washing away.

“And Eunbee…….. I love you.”

Eunbee went over and kissed him on the lips………. And whispered

“I love you.”

That was when Eric let go of Hyesung’s cold hand.
That was when Eunbee felt Hyesung’s heartbeat stop.
And that was when Hyesung took his final breath.
And one thing was certain.
You can never learn to say goodbye.




~~~~~~~~Hyesung’s Room~~~~~~~

Eric was cleaning out Hyesung’s room.
Funeral which was held a day ago went fine.
Even though no one could accept Hyesung’s death.
It didn’t seem real. It just didn’t.
Eric looked at hyesung’s stuff. His drawings and some things Eric never knew about. There was a poem that hyesung had written. Eric’s tears fell on the paper as he slowly read on. As if Hyesung was there, Eric whispered…..
“I know…….”



There isn’t enough time
To learn to say the words
Left in your heart unspoken

There isn’t enough time
To learn to show the world
The dreams that lies beneath your heart

There isn’t enough time
To learn the meanings
Of being sorry and to forgive

And there definitely isn’t enough time
To learn to love someone and understand good-byes
To love and understand

                                            END
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