| **I Love You (short Eric fic) finished *contact me at: Shinhwa_jjang@hotmail.com It was the first day of high school. You were a junior, taking freshman classes. I saw you, and at once, I knew you were the one. The one that would fulfill my life. The one that would fill the empty spaces in my heart. I was shy… I was scared. I didn’t know you, and yet, I loved you. Sure, I’ve had boyfriends in the past. But every one of them broke up with me, and took a piece of my heart. I was hurt; I was lonely; I was desperate. I needed someone to love me… and someone I could love. And when I saw you, I knew you were the one. So, one day, I decided to confess my love to you. I walked up to you, during your conversation with the most popular girl in the school. I said, “Eric oppa… Hi, I'm…” The girl that you were talking to turned her back on me and I couldn’t see your face any longer. But you pushed her away and faced me. You said, “Aren’t you the really smart one? Hey, I need to keep my place on the basketball team. Do you think you could tutor me?” I was mad… But I was happy. I was mad that you only recognized me as the smart one. The genius that answered every question in class. But I was happy just to know the fact that you noticed me. And that you asked for my help. Tutor? Of course I would do it. You said you’d pay me 40 dollars for three times a week. But I refused. I didn’t want money. I simply wanted the time with you. Unforgettable moments with you. So one day, during our lesson, I put my pencil down. You looked at me with curious eyes. I said, “Eric oppa… The moment I saw you, I loved you. You were the one to fulfill all my life. Oppa, I love you.” You stared blankly at me as if I were some animal. I was hurt, because from that day on, you never asked for lessons from me. You took on another tutor and got to stay on the basketball team. In class, you avoided my gaze. I was hurt by you. All night, I cried because of you. Because of the mere fact that I couldn’t be with you. I could never be with you. I knew it was hopeless. And I couldn’t do anything about it. So for a year, I’ve been holding that thought… Still, I hold it. The thought that you are the one. You’re the only one for me… and I will make you love me. I want you to love me… I need you to love me. I look at you… even a class picture of you, and my heart flips inside out. I can feel you next to me, the comfort you gave me. But now, I know I could never feel the warmth again. I’ve told my friends that I’ve loved a person named Eric Mun. But they just laugh at me and turn away. I became more hurt. I love you, and no one believes me. I guess it’s better to keep the feelings to myself. Right now, as I sit here, looking out my window, I could see your face. It’s as clear as the morning sunshine… the rays of the sun falling on my skin. I could see your face… your smiling face… But I could also see you with another girl… I don’t know who she is, but she will be YOUR happiness. My happiness will always be you, Eric Mun. Because I love you… While you are with another girl, smiling into her eyes, I will always be forever smiling into your eyes… looking at a picture. Because I love you… While you are dancing with another girl, I’ll be dancing alone… dancing away the lonesome night. Because I love you… While you are with another girl, playing with your children, I’ll be alone, like an old maid, for I don’t think I’ll ever get married. Because I love you… While you are with your happy family, I’ll be alone, staring into the loneliness of night… and my heart. Because I love you… While you are happily leading your life on, I’ll be petrified, still waiting for you. Because I don’t think I could ever let you go… for I love you. I feel like nothing can ever match the feelings I have for you. The loneliness kills me, but I don’t want to die. I want to make sure you’re in heaven first… waiting for me. Like I’ve been waiting for you… Because I love you. So forever, I will wait for you, Eric Mun. Until you get a chance to know me… until you start to like me. I will wait right here… on this spot. I will be here… holding your picture tightly… just because I love you. End **************************************** |