Just Because

You try to change me, but you can't
You try to hurt me, but you won't
Yes, your words peirce me, make me wanna die
But I promised I won't give up
There are people who believe in me
More than you do
I promised not to let them down
I love them
They won't hurt me
You make me hate life
You make me hate myself
Like I'm so wrong
Like I should die
I try to tell myself better
That I don't have to be who you want
That I don't have to meet your standards
Because I am me
I am in love
With someone who won't hurt me
Always love me, always care
I can't wait to be with him
There will be no more problems
No more tears
No more spending long nights wide awake
Cursing the sky
For I have found myself
And in him, no longer do I die
He gives me life
Gives me advice
He gives me things that will suffice
I cry in vain
No one knows my pain
This morbid dream
Never ends it seems
Just a road
No light
No tunnel
Just pain, no gain
no love, no hurt, no soul worth waiting for
No happiness, no glee
Nothing for you to remember me
One day I'll be gone, there will be nothing you can do
Nothing to stop me, until my task is through
I hate who I am
I hate my life
The only reason I am living
Is to give you back your life
Give you back your essence
The other half of you I own
I never want to lose you
But until I do, I can't move on
I'll always be a part of you
You'll always have my love
I just want to end this all
I'm so sorry, just because.
-Amanda Cassidy
June 27, 2001

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