04/04/01 - I've been thinking about the self help stuff on Oprah. I keep notes. What's weird though is how happy I actually feel. I'm not sure it has anything to do with self help, awareness maybe. Although if I get any help it usually does come from my self. I think it has a lot to do with disposition, and for me ... The avoidance of conflict. And then I've got that attitude thing. Dr. Phil tries to teach attitude on Oprah. Doesn't seem like everybody listens though. There were a bunch of women on Oprah last night trying to tell Dr. Phil to go to hell. They missed the point. They were being defensive. When you get defensive you promote conflict. If you think first, you can get clear instead of conflict. You need conflict for a good story though. So, I just let the us and them's do their thing as I observe.
Sometimes I think we get hung up on our "me." It's easy to take everything personally. Your "me" is important, but it's always going to be there, it's not going anywhere. So, why defend it? We're all different. And, that's how I keep a good disposition ... I appreciate the differences. I don't place myself above or below. I'm me. Yikes, you think I got this philosophy from Barney?
Like I said, I'm pretty darn happy right now. My confidence is building. It sure took it's own sweet time though. I can see now how gradual this has all happened. It hasn't been an overnight occurrence. Heaven forbid that this is something that happens with age. But then again, who cares if that's why it's happening ... It's happening. |
