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| Dream A Little Dream ... |
08/30/01 - I thought I just washed $15 down the drain. There I was fishing out soggy dollars one at a time. They were hiding in the clothes. I had to search for each bill, 2 five's and 5 one's. I knew exactly how much I had. I had had to rescue my money once earlier today. The puppy had found my hiding place in my tote bag and I discovered her trying to munch it. I put it in my jeans pocket after that. Then I washed my jeans. For the first time I had second thoughts about the puppy. Here it was my first day without kids and the puppy wasn't going to leave me alone. I did as much as I could to amuse it. I took it outside two times, each time ending up chasing after it into the front yard. Not my kind of fun. Then, to my delight, she had enough. She crawled onto The Kid's bed and took a good long nap. We will be fine. You give me my space and I'll give you yours. That's the way it has to be. As long as that's understood, we will be fine. I enjoyed my alone time today. I wasn't sure if I would. As much as I always look forward to it, I don't get much. And I'm still not used to it, not like I want. It seems I've had more alone time lately than I've had in the last few years. I wasn't handling it well. My company disappeared on me after one night. You just can't get good comfort these days. I handled it though. The kids and their last hurrah and getting ready for school to start ... I kept busy. Last night I went out for coffee which is sort of a Wednesday night ritual. For the first time in over a year I ran into someone I knew there. It was the only woman from work that I haven't gotten to know. We work different shifts. It was really great to sit there and gab, especially since we had a little bit in common. The rest of my day was used to get back to some projects that had just not looked too enticing the last couple of weeks. My heart had not been into doing much but feeling, healing. But today, the energy started to come back. I didn't get all that I wanted to accomplished, but I still have an hour or two when I get home from work. It will be a while before I run out of things to keep me busy. I can't guarantee that it will be enough to keep me out of trouble though. Remember, there are no guarantees. |