The Drowned Girl's Songs
Lately, I've also been writing a few more songs. The recent additions to my collection have been "Old Feelings," "October 1st," and "Tell Me." The most recent as of late August is "Stronger Person."
Inside My Head
Old Feelings
October First
Talk to Me
Casualties
Pray
Stronger Person
Your Ways
Changed Image
All I Know
Hell
God
Got All He Can Make
The New Fashion Debut
Regret
Imagination
Suicide Society
Restless Form
(These Are the)Laws of Cryogenics
Annie Jones (Is Referred to as the Merchandise)
Hell on Earth
Hurricane Ditz
I'm beginning to believe it's all in vain
Do you wanna be free? I gotta be free
Float on your little cloud
I'll see you in the morning before detail
What a demented cloud it is
Teach me not to care
Are you gonna shed a tear for the lucky?
I'm insane, lock me up
You wish I was more honest like you
Picking up the broken pieces again
Maybe we can start anew
Looking at the wasteland
No one said it was going to be easy
Pick you head up and hold it high
Did we do enough to win?
Who thought it would come to this
Or did we lose again?
Can you smell the pain and fear
Are you hoping for a brain
Tear my heart to shreds
You do it so well
All the sweet things hate us now
What are you gonna do?
CHORUS:
Can a starving artist survive
In that perfect white room with no fun?
Be my watch dog and reap the rewards
Keep your eyes peeled for the cops
They plan to take me away
Can you do that for me?
The only answer is to call it a day
Resistance is futile
Scream and cry, the future still comes
Not many can say the same
Can you feel my desire and see the craze?
Can I use the last tie to the world?
Our lives have no purpose
Maybe I need to feel the beauty
At least I know I made my own choices
Perhaps we have some idea
Turn away from me, I am not myself
Straighten you ties to faith
There's still some left
I have slowly turned into a hermit
Maybe I'll be famous
Can you see my future of fortune?
I aspire to be one of the crowd
To blend is true bliss and sanity
You can break off a piece of my heart
I know not of what I speak
Maybe I can't feel pain or love anymore
But to serve our technology
Maybe I'll be on the street
CHORUS
The perfect scheme
And a goddess of passion so pure
Maybe it could all be simpler
Keep it straight in my haste
I feel your pain
Act on impulse, you'll never lose
Don't point your finger at me
I don't know where it's been
Psycho tidiness lifestyle
It's all decadence for madness
What a fantastic decadence
Keep control of each situation, if you can
You want to keep me all to yourself
Keep away from technology
It intends to enslave man
Don't think your next move
Pray to your new God
Go through the motions without emotion
Who needs freedom when I have you
Instill the fear I dread
Stalk this way, away from me
Make me worry and dread
About the contents of my head
INTERLUDE:
I am picture perfect happiness
There's enough maybes to go around
Tell me the two words I hate: stay away
I have feelings, I hurts when you crush
Perhaps we'll all move on
Why do you call when I bash you?
Are we doomed to die by AIDS?
Is there a cure we'll never know
Or is it only for the rich with money
In their tall, expensive castles
CHORUS
Broke down in my dorm room
After coming from my class
Thoughts of you danced in my head
I never felt quite like this
Old feelings reappearing
And I just want to go back to bed
CHORUS:
It's been three whole years
And two whole days
Since I last had the urge
It's so liberating
As I start to shaking
But I'll be great in a little while
Will I confess it all to you
Or let it all just slip away
Do I have to work so hard
For just a little of your attention?
Should I fight the old feelings
Or should I just make new scars
CHORUS
Cold steel on my hot wrist
Give me the strength, give me the strength
Help me to say no
Your gaze is so pure
What can I say to you?
Am I really second best?
CHORUS
I'm crying so hard now
That I can't see through the tears
But I know that I will survive
It's just one step at a time
I'm analyzing way too much
And I hope nothing else will fall
CHORUS
When I see your face
Staring back at mine
It makes me want to cry
They're tears of joy and tears of pain
'Cause nothing will be the same
Now that you're moving on
I can't deny how I feel
The whole world is too damn real
And it's scaring me to death
I can't face the facts
I can't beat the pack
Maybe I should just do some meth
Life is an illusion
That's just what crazy people say
I know you've got your perfect girl
So why can't I be that for you?
Maybe I'm not good enough
Just beat me into submission
I guess I should calm down
Wipe away that frown
'Cause everything'll be better when I wake up
Things will get better
So, so much better
When this all breaks up
What is going on with us?
My world is upside down
I'm crying into my pillow
But I don't know if I'm sad
I still have hope for us
Or is it just in my mind?
I've been hurt so many times before
I'm hoping this is different
CHORUS:
Talk to me, tell me what you feel
Talk to me, tell me that I'm real
Talk to me, fill me with your fears
Talk to me, I just want you near
She's not what you deserve
You're desperate, why not me?
I don't really know your true feelings
I know I made you feel bad
But don't be sad, 'cause I'm here for you
You know I'll always be around
I know it's all hopeless, these feelings
I've never wanted anyone more than you
CHORUS
You're my tall shoulder to cry on
You taught me how to live
You mean more to me than gold
Why do you insist on dating her?
What can you two say when you're alone
We've known eachother for a little while
But it feels like a lifetime
Hold me close and don't let me go
If you let me go, I just might fall (might fall)
I need your love and I need it all (need it all)
Don't be afraid, I'm by your side (by your side)
No need to run, no need to hide (don't hide)
I can't think straight and I can't sleep
I'm so selfish for feeling the way I do
You gave me hope that it might fall
I can't believe I want it to fail
If you knew how I felt, why...
Why did you ask her out, anyway?
She's no good for you
But I'd be so good to you
CHORUS
I've seen the abyss
I was almost sucked right in
But I survived
I broke the rules, and
I made them think about
The meaning of it all
CHORUS:
I made it though, to the otherside
No one said it could be done
But I proved them wrong
Now I'm a hero, and I made it through
I'm a hero, and I'm black and blue
But I made it through
I'm a survivor, I'm a saint
I took a few down, but I beat the odds
Please don't laugh, this is the truth
I went through hell and back
Just to prove it to you
CHORUS
Romeo was bleeding on the floor of my room
I tried ot keep him alive
But it was just no use
I poured my guts all over your floor
I wanted to tell my story
I wanted to be heard
CHORUS
To restore your sense of doubt
That was stolen by England
They'll screw you all your life
Fifty times over
Kick out your mother
And she'll get you in the end
The mumble jumble that I speak
Is the grace of your faith
CHORUS:
You give up your rights
For a glimpse of me
I don't sound too self-centered
Now do I?
Get down on your knees
And pray for a relvolution
The letter two, makes no sense for you
And you'll be spinning forever
Those skeletons in your closet
Have been exposed
Now you have to break them,br> With a sledgehammer to be free
You're not smart enough
To pretend to be smart
CHORUS
I'll make you wish you were never born
The social revolution is long overdue
I'll pray for him
But I won't pray for you
As the guns fire and bombs explode
You'll be burning like the rest
Comprehension is the key
If you'll ever leave
When you carve a cross into a tree
Does it mean all your sins will be forgiven?
It depends upon who you are
CHORUS
What do you want me to do?
I'm not gonna drop my life
To be with you
I'm not gonna stress about
About your fears
Of what people will think
When we're near
I'm not gonna be
You little girl
That you can bring over
For a little whirl
I'm not gonna sit around
And cry all night
I'm gonna stand up
And try to fight
CHORUS:
Oh well...one more thing
I'm strong and I can deal
And come out of the wreckage
As a stronger, stronger person
Hey, hey, hey, stronger person
I see the looks you give me
With your cold blue eyes
You can seem to take them off
My younger girl thighs
Why are you ashamed
Of my age
Time is like a book
You can't turn the page
You're not morally responsible
For my reasons
I thought we had it made
For all seasons
I don't care about
The age difference we share
All that really matters
Do you care?
CHORUS
What do we do now?
No paintings we haven't marred
There's nothing in the sky
There's nothing in the stars
There's nothing I can see
Nothing so far
I'm waiting so patiently for some sign
Anything at all
Something to see
Soemthing to fall
I'm outside in the rain
Just waiting for your call
And who could forget you
You and your strange ways
Your many paintings
Have all been defaced
All of our droogies
That take what they may
You've lived your life of crime
And have taken what you wanted
You left me to die
And made sure I was taunted
You life, I hope, is miserable
And I hope you're haunted
Brad had the plan
To create the perfect man
Although he was banned
He was still a fan
Of the band
That gave him a tan
CHORUS:
I was there, when he dyed his hair
He changed his look, and wrote the book
Of life, and his strife
They were called the "Shit"
And it fit
They played the whole bit
They were wearing a slit
Reporters called it the pits
But they were just a ditz
CHORUS
I put a gun to my head
And prayed to be dead
I hadn't been fed
By my close friend, Ted
I was mislead
And put to bed
CHORUS
I raise my head, to the sun
I know not where I'm coming from
But all I see is, nothing I can do
So I walk, to get some air
I can feel the wind, in my hair
All I feel is, like a fool
I see a man, his eyes are blue, then they're brown
I see a lake, I'm afraid I might drown
But all I know is, who I could be
I walk on, soon I have to run with all my might
I don't want to stop, then I'll have to fight
But all I know is, I have to be free
I really wish that I wasn't here
There's a lot I fear
All I know is, I feel so low
I ran so hard, I feel like I'm bleeding
This has lost all meaning
All I feel, that's all I know
(All I know)
I was terrified, I could be dying (dying)
There's no truth anymore in this craziness
It's almost as if God was lying (lying)
I cna't get out of this place
But everyone knows that I'm trying (trying)
I feel so weightless, I'm on the ground
But it feels like I could be flying(flying)
CHORUS:
But it's been a hard long road out of hell
And I can't stop 'cause Rome had just fell
I am so tired, I'll be in a cell
Am I still alive, 'cause I can no longer tell
The Devil's in here, there's a lot of souls
I'm sure he could be buying
Everyone's nervous, I can hear a lot of them crying (crying)
UNFINNISHED
People love you or they hate you
As you pray to your God
With spiked red hair
He speaks of peace and
Men from Mars
He has catchy tunes
That sometimes rhymes
Don't you see what's been done?
CHORUS:
You cake the make up on
And roll up your jeans
To see a man you call God
What is God? Is he a man you can't see?
Or is he the man on TV?
It's a mystery to me
Once you tired of your
Rock 'n' Roll Suicide
You turn to your Starman
With his Spiders from Mars
How could Ziggy survive
Without your support?
You have your temple
You have your church
Now you have Ziggy's
And that's all that counts
CHORUS
When you find out he's just a man
LIke every other man
You feel kinda betrayed
As your God takes a stand
And creates his perfect band
Ziggy dies a painful death
As you cry and mourn
You God has gone
What are you to do?
CHORUS
They dim the lights so low
And no know one should know
So you sit in your little seat
As you watch the madmen defeat
All the poor that are dull
As you slip into your lull
You can see yourself in it
But you kow you just can't quit
CHORUS:
You can't see what you're doing
As you watch two men dueling
You're engrossed in the sotry
But what's the story, morning glory?
You're acting kinda funny
Handing over all of your money
To a fraud and a fake
He's got all he can make
Now you're in your own strange world
And you've tried as hard as you could
To realize your dream
You want to be on the screen
Once you see it's much too late
You'll have yourself to hate
So you walk down the street
And yell at everyone you meet
CHORUS
You see others with love and joy
Don't you see, its' one big ploy
They're not real, they're plastic
You suck it up, you're exstatic
As the beast is feeding
Romeo is bleeding
But you can't seem to hear
What is there that you've got to fear?
CHORUS
I walk down that catwalk
Not knowing what is to be found
They roll out the red carpet
I can't help but feel special
All the others have been preaching
That this won't last long
This business is really fickle
There's no way of telling how long this will last
CHORUS:
Buy me a chance
Buy me a deal
Buy me the perfect life
It's no longer real
Give me a fortune
I'll take it all
Treat me like gold or
I just might fall (fall from grace)
Up on the stage, seeing the fans
I can hear them screaming my name
Have just I changed or am I just dead
I'm so hollow and show no emotion
I can't believe, this happened to me
I'm just a girl from a suburb
It's too late, I can't look back
I no longer have the ability to reason
CHORUS
'Cause I'm, I'm fallin' from grace
CHORUS
I've been a jerk
I've been a jackass
I've been everything
But first class
How could I forget
Your strange ways
You were great for me
In my Golden Days
CHORUS:
You were my Ziggy
I was your lady
Things went to hell
When you left, lately
Things were great
Things were swell
I can't move on
And I just dwell
What could have been
What never was
Leave me here
If you must
You're the Prettiest Star
You're a shining jewel
For all I've done
I've been a complete fool
You want your family
To be like a hole in your head
Your eyes are so hollow
Speaking like a treaturous moron
Lying dead like a dog
What is, is not
Not your reality
Reality is a figment of your imagination
CHORUS:
Imagination, creativity
Are two things the
Government can't take
Away from you.
Relinquish your rights
And be a happy drone
Happy clone like me
UNFINNISHED
CHORUS:
Suicide Society
Don't you wanna be like me
Don't you wanna be perfect too?
Suicide Society
Don't you wanna be so free
'Cause I can't be unlike you
You can't read, you can't write
You've only learned how to fight
Don't know when the clock will chime
I've been born before my time
Is this the dream you want?
Or the great life you flaunt?
My heart has been broken
That was your small token
CHORUS
In time you will see
I was you and you were me
I cut myself for you
Maybe we'll pull on through
Nothing to be done
Am I the one to shun?
A Goddess on my knees
Only you will hold the keys
CHORUS
I feel like a visitor
Or maybe just a prisoner
Every waking hour
Held by your power
I know you've been lying
Waiting just to be dying
Through these tears I can see
I am the one who is free
CHORUS
My luck is running out
And I'm tired all the time
I'm analyzing way too much
I have to study at least once
I'm screaming my lungs out
It's too much pressure in my life
Nothing's going right today
Can anything go right?
CHORUS:
Let me smoke to release the stress
And calm my restless form
Nothing's going right for me
I could end it all
But I guess I won't
When will it be my turn?
Maybe in another life
I put my head in my hands
And hope nothing else will fall
I just want to get away
You've changed so much since yesterday
I don't like the new you
You're in too far with self-image
CHORUS
(These Are the) Laws of Cryogenics
Having a free-form, never really happens
Living in true peace, never truly attained
Seeing a strange face, never really seen
Being in this lifetime, never truly exists
CHORUS:
These are the Laws of Cryogenics
You can never leave, baby
These are the Laws of Cryogenics
Morbid faces stare at you now
These are the Laws of Cryogenics
You put the gun to your head, love
These are the Laws of Cryogenics
You're hoping you can come back and live your dream
UNFINNISHED
Annie Jones (Is Referred to as the Merchandise)
He's living in a loan check
And doing it day by day
She's scaring all the field mice
And they can't get away
CHORUS:
Oh, Annie
Annie Jones is referred to as the Merchandise
Oh, Jimmy
And he's willing to pay any price, for the merchandise
Oh, they'll be history
They can never, ever leave
The ATM transaction
Has given her all the fill
He' lays his head down to sleep
'Cause he just took his seventh pill
CHORUS
They had a small rondevue
Sitting in the Eight Motel
They haven't learned their lesson
And they're headed straight to hell
CHORUS
Freeman eyed the girl in silence
What blood that makes a stone-cold thriller
The Zen has been tainted green
Just like the eyes of the killer
His psychotic mind is done
Out of mayhem and revelation
Children and decapitation
Are the perfect combination
CHORUS:
You haven't seen
You haven't heard
What's going on in our world
There is not heaven
There is a hearth
Did you know that, there's hell on earth?
His shadow danced upon the floor
As he murdered them four by four
All his tears, they did pour
As he huddled at the door
CHORUS
Annie Jones can help them no more
He pulled a knife from the small drawer
People outside got their drug score
Now they find it a complete bore
CHORUS
'Cause it's no game
I was blind
I never saw
You came on like a hurricane
And broke my jaw
Life was simple
Life was sane
I took you in and now
I've got pain
CHORUS:
You took me over (took me over)
And made me weak
I was left motionless (motionless)
And unable to speak
You're addictive (got me hooked)
I cna't call it quits
Cna you listen? (Listen good)
That's the sound of the Hurricane Ditz
I know your style
I know your ways
You got your blinders
That just can't fase
After a while
I got used to you
Then out of nowhere
You were cruel
CHORUS
I'd give anything
To be by your side
I try to run, but
I just can't hide
I realize now
That just can't be
Like a bird
You gotta be free
CHORUS TWICE
That's the sound of the Hurricane Ditz