Maybe I'm just crazy.
I've spent most of my day today looking up webrings that I might want to join. I know you're thinking, why would that drive anyone to complete distraction? Have you ever tried to join a webring? First of all, there are bunches of them that you can't really join unless you are "goth" these websites actually USE the word goth in the description. I remember goth. Goth was Morrissey, and the Smiths, and Bauhaus with Peter Murphy. Now I don't even know what goth is supposed to be. What do you wear to be terminally depressed? Is there a new fashion code? Maybe you're supposed to wear "off-black" now. Maybe they're the same people as before and there are a bunch of 20something goths running around and I've just never noticed them .... I mean, who notices how old you are if you have a blue mohawk sticking up three feet from your head? You sure as hell don't get carded, I'll wager.
Another thing about the webrings ... the few that don't insist on you having poetry, short stories, or *cringe* unicorns is the absolute hauteur of the people running them. I mean, what is a journal supposed to look like? I am on the queue for one that is for "experimental journals" **insert short interpretave dance here** that are supposed to be more than just an everyday accounting of your day. How the heck is someone supposed to know if they qualify for that? I think this is a good piece of work I've got here, and who knows, maybe I will make it into an autobiography someday. At least my life is interesting. Which is more than I can say for bunches of other people (lucky them). But ultimately I'm wondering why I'm setting myself up for this kind of rejection.
There was another one that said you couldn't join if you had "a million other webring links on your page" I thought that was funny ... What does the author of that page consider "a million" and why is having a bunch of webrings a bad thing? I mean, if you're joining a webring it's so you'll get traffic to your website, right? So wouldn't it follow that more webrings will get you more links? Why would you have two if eight fit the description of what that website is looking for? Maybe that person just should have said "Only the haughty loner need apply" Which decribes many of us who sit around writing journal entries instead of going out and making scads of friends.
Ah....friends....there's a subject....What makes a friend? Is it the person who calls you up to do stuff and then basically doesn't let you say 'no' so that when you don't show up you've done a bad thing by not saying you weren't coming? I hate making people feel bad. But when people go around slinging out the term "best friend" like I'm still in High School trying to make the popularity cut (never did, thanks) and wanting to be best friend to anyone who would have me. Now I'm older, and I don't have a "best friend" per se. What I have is 11 years of memories with some people, and 2 years of memory with others. I think the people I know understand where they lay due to the intimacy level we share. I don't know when all my friends are menstruating, but there are a few.....*laughs*
That reminds me. Kathy is supposed to be moving back out here at some point pretty soon...this time is supposed to be "fer sure, missuer" (that is spelled incorrectly on purpose) I really hope she can make it. I need her here. There are other people who live far away I would like to have...but they are planning on staying put in their respective places *sigh* I want all of my friends to come home. We could buy a big house and....oops...drifting again, sorry.
Marija is getting married. The wedding date is set for February (you guessed it) 14, 2002. She has started picking out wedding/bridesmaid's dresses - I get to be her Maid of Honor *sniff* She decided last week, I think, to go with a Renaissance themed wedding. My jaw almost hit the damn floor. She is the LAST one of my friends I thought would do this. Not that it's a horribly bad thing, don't get me wrong. I like cleavage as much as the next person...I'm just wondering if that will look...hmmm...what's the word...Ah! I wonder if that will be proper in a Catholic Church. She is Catholic, and I thought she told me she was getting married in the church, so who knows what's really happening. All I know for sure is that I, for one, have never EVER seen Rennaissance gear in a church, just in funky garden pagan weddings, but to each their own.
Of course, since she is getting married in Arizona (she lives there) it won't be bitterly cold in February, which is good. I'm just wondering how I'm going to get fitted for the dang thing. It's not like I can go to House of Brides in Schamburg and say "Oh yes...it's blah blah serial number from blah blah manufacturer" These dresses look like they come from a specialty designer. But she said she might have Chuckie's (her fiancees) sister sew them. That would make it even harder. That woman TRULY has no way of knowing what I look like, even if I took a tape measure and sent her some numbers for hips, butt, breasts, whatever. I have a feeling I will be crazy as a loon by then anyway tho....
I've been very non-social lately. I missed two parties (one a birthday) and something else I don't even remember. I got a computer game and just don't care about anything else right now. It's a great release and evasion for reality. The game, you ask? The Sims...they even have a website you can go to. Or, if you already have the game and are looking to razzle dazzle it up a bit you can visit the Sims Mall and get all kinds of stuff for your sims. I have to remember to go back to the site and get wall lights for the houses. Oops!! That was part of a "to-do" list! I'll never get on those webrings now...*sob*
Two weeks until I go to Las Vegas to possibly see one of my good friends get married. Okay, they don't call it a marriage, but a "committment ceremony" since they are both guys. Unfortunately, they are fighting right now so who knows what's really going to happen by then. At any rate, at least I will be able to see my mother, brother, and sister while I'm out there. I really miss Steven. I wish I had a picture scanned so you could see him. He's such a DOLL! So handsome. Oh, to see my soon to be married friends jump on over to Brian's page and you can see what they look like. I'd want to know if I were you *grin*
Other than that, the only two points of news I have are that Roxanne has come home from surgery to get that thing out of the base of her skull, but no one knows what it is yet ... and my boyfriend is now my next door neighbor. He has moved from "The Dungeon" to the ground floor apartment next to me. At least I won't have to walk through his mother's backyard to go to his place anymore...but I'm supposed to be moving within a month to my buddy Gus' place. He broke up with is girlfriend and now he has a mortgage to pay all by himself. That won't do. So I told him I'd move in after he got rid of the cats and cleaned up all the old cat-poo that they left around everywhere. I told him if I wanted to clean poo all day and night I'd have a kid.
Speaking of which my period is two days late. I hate that cause you get stressed which makes it even MORE late and then you're in a panic stricken frenzy by the time you start actually bleeding. Then again, taking five birth control pills while you're half asleep and have forgotten that you didn't skip any....well...that might have something to do with the wacked out menstrual cycle, no?
If you have any ideas for how I could make this site better, please drop me a line or go back home and sign my guestbook. I'm looking for ideas to spruce up the layout....
Thanks!