My Testimony

Well what is more fitting to have in this section than my own personal testimony of how I came to God through his son Jesus Christ. It is not an "exciting" testimony like I know some are but I do feel that I should share this because it's easy to seperate someone else from our own situation and one must realize that believers come from different walks of life.

As I have said I have no "exciting" testimony. Nor am I one who can expound about how horrible my life was before coming to God was. Not saying that coming to God did not change me but I was always a quiet, nice, shy kid. I wasn't one that parents hid their kids from and told to stay away from. I was from a regular family that is still together (even thought that's not too regular now) and really never had any connection to religion, church, or God during my years. Now that didn't mean that I had no belief in God, it just was about as far from the truth as you could get. I was one who thought God should give me what I wanted just because I asked for it. I also had never read the Bible or anything like that and actually at one point said I didn't care about what the Bible said. I don't know if I actually believed myself in saying that I didn't believe what the Bible said but I was tired of my one friend pushing me to come to church and become a Christian, etc..

God's calling to follow Him came in the latter parts of 1999. My life was falling apart very rapidly at this point. Friends, family, and school were going downhill at a very alarming rate. It felt as if everything I had tried to hold onto would give way and I'd fall deeper and deeper into a black hole of despair and depression. In the end my true need for God was not from a friend or anyone else but from God Himself. At a point where I felt if I had fallen any farther I would have been beyond hope, something entered my mind. This something was the fact that I had always "believed" in God, now why not find out about Him.

Not long after that, I asked my parent's if they could buy me a Bible for Christmas and even though they didn't believe then and still don't I got a Bible that year. After receiving it I began to read it a bit, I really don't know if I got a whole lot out of it then, but shortly after I began to go to church. Luckily the first church I tried out welcomed me very well and over the couple of years I have grown more active in the church and have hungered for God more. As of this last year for some reason that truely only He knows, He has called me into His service for ministry. I do struggle with the idea that I know so little yet God has called me. I guess one can only look to the apostles and say these men had little formal education as well but God led them to lead and that they did. God is faithful, and He will do what is in His plan, I shall let Him do what He needs and if that includes using me in this way I shall obey.

While I must admit this is just an overview of the story it gets the idea across enough that allows me to leave it at that. I know I have not the most "exciting" story to all of you out there, to me though it has been an exciting "trip". While it has had it's ups and downs, I know that God is faithful and that God is in control. This gives me the hope I need to press on to tomarrow. So that's all of my testimony thank you for taking the time to read.