My mood has been stuck in a rut lately... a sort of mix of sad, anxious, and worried. To think, the future can grip a person like that. But I guess it does. In such horrible ways, that it makes you doubt yourself... the brief peace of mind that I found on the trip has slipped away. I left the trip thinking that I could do what was needed, but I don't know now. I guess that's why I'm sad, anxious and worried. I wish I could get that peace of mind back... wonder if I just took a step in the right direction, say if mum wanted to go out and would let me drive. ::sigh:: Too bad she's on call right now and can't really leave. Damn work...
Wish Hikaru-chan were on... that way I could least find a small reprieve from this mood I'm in... even HAX would be nice to talk to... Because frankly the only person on who I'd consider talking too is Sherry and I don't want to... at all... O.o... Or I could go watch some anime... anime is a good for that..
Speaking of anime, I got another of the sampler discs from Animeworks. This one is different then the last. It has a list of all the anime's they have out currently (well, I think it's all of them but I can't be entirely sure) With them are their trailers and a brief plot summary type thing that I couldn't read from across the room. O.o... Then they had a 2 whole episodes on the disc for Samurai Deeper Kyo and Twelve Kingdoms... I just watched the opening for Kyo... :) I tried watching the Twelve Kingdoms one, but it didn't seem all that great...
I spent most of the night last night working on the new anime DVD list. I'd say I'm about half way through... but I would like to bang my head against a wall... O.o... I also tried to figure out what exactly to order with the money I have... With the Book of Air coming out, that drastically changed how my money is going to be spent... O.o... I still haven't figured it all out yet, but I will eventually. Not like I can do much until dad gets paid anyway... Which I'm worried at that aspect. He started another job for the guy and he didn't get paid for the last one yet... But frankly, I don't like any of the guys my dad works for..
Let's see... there's Larry... I hate him a lot... mostly because of his annoying phone calls and the fact that he keeps nearly stepping on my cat... Asshole. Juan.... now I don't think dad's done anything for him in awhile but he used to have an office with him and I hate his stupid ass. He was such a jerk to my dad and I don't accept that at all... ::plots his death, a very painful death:: Then there's those people that Doug works for now... They owe dad money and seem to be avoiding it... Just because you hire someone in the family you owe money to, doesn't mean that that debt doesn't have to be paid. Then there's the creepy guy that stares at people. O.o! Ugh... I need to stop thinking about these people, they all piss me off. O.o...
I'm going to stop now... this doesn't seem to be helping much and I have other things that need to be done before I get kicked off or something...
You look through me, you really knew me… ::sings along with Hellsing ending:: Err… stop staring at me! I'm not doing anything!