As I sit here in my room, staring at the bright colored walls I think back to a time when I was with Brian. We would spend all day together, just talking. Or sometimes when we would go out somewhere, and just the feel of his arm around me as we walked made me feel like I was the luckiest girl in the world. I can still feel his arms, the way he would wrap one arm around my waist when we walked, or he would come up behind me and wrap his arms tight around my waist and we would walk in step. That was a long time ago. It all changed though, I like change, but not all change is good. We had been together for what seemed like forever, but really were only about two years. We loved each other so much. So much it hurt. Although we never got to see each other, him being on tours all the time. Brian Littrell the famous Backstreet Boy, it always seemed funny to think of him like that. To me he was just Brian Littrell the funny, goofy, amazing person whom I fell in live with the minute I saw him. He had moved to my hometown because that was where his management was based, there in Orlando where the other four members of BSB awaited for him to complete the group. I was good friends with A.J., we had gone to school together when we where kids. A.J.'s the one who introduced Brian and I; I will always love bone for that.

          Everything was perfect until a certain video had to be shot, As Long as You Love Me was the song. A Backstreet Boys song, which I loved; They needed about six girls to play different rolls in the video, they had additions, Brian wanted me to try out for them, I didn't. There was a girl that got a part, Brian told me all the details when I asked why he was breaking my heart. The day he broke up with me, he said he was in love with someone else. He said He saw her picture and instantly knew he had to meet her. He fell head over heals; sure he tried to avoid it, but he couldn't.

          They're married now, happily married since September 2, 2000. Brian and Leighanne, soul mates for eternity. But I'm not really depressed, or angered, I'm actually happy for them. When I see them together I know its right. They're meant for each other, and there's someone out there meant for me. I just haven't found him yet; but I will. And Ill be happy for them as long as he loves her.