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“Susie”, my mum called out to me. “Would you unpack the dishwasher and put the washing out for me please?”
“Fine.” I said. What a drag, I hated doing jobs and things like that. They all just seem so pointless. You only have one childhood and I believe you should make the most of it while you’ve got it because before you know it your childhood will be nothing but memories.

My mum only gave me $5 pocket money a week and I was in desperate search of money. I needed $30 because it was Valentine’s Day in a weeks time and I felt that I should buy my boyfriend, John, something. I didn’t know if he’d get me anything but if he did give me something and I didn’t have something for him I would be absolutely humiliated.

I did my jobs and told mum that I was going to the shops and I would arrive home within a few hours. I had no intention of buying anything, I had no money!! But, I was going to look for ideas of what I could buy John. I walked past the windows and saw flowers, chocolates, teddy bears, and jewellery and photo frames. I walked into one of the shops and saw something that really caught my eye, it was gorgeous. It was a teddy bear and it had a card attached to it saying “Whenever I’m not around, remember I’ll always be thinking of you. Hug this teddy bear and in a way you’ll be hugging me too”. It was so sweet. I could buy John something like that I thought to myself but as soon as I looked at the price tag which read $45. I knew I would never be able to find such a large amount of money in such a short period of time.

Without even knowing what I was doing I quickly picked up the teddy bear and put it underneath my jumped. I couldn’t believe what I was doing. I was not a shoplifter. I tried to tell myself to put it back but I simply couldn’t bring myself to do it. I walked out of the shop, feeling heavy with guilt, feelings that I had never felt before. Why did I do such a terrible thing? I asked to myself. Was it because I wanted to change and rebel in life? All my life I’d been a good child, I always went great in school and I was overall a genuinely nice person. It wasn’t like me to do something like this. I wanted to go back into the shop and put the teddy bear back but there was something deep within me telling me to keep it. After all, what was $45?

  I found myself standing inside another shop and taking any item that took my fancy. The next shop. The next and the next until there were no shops left and simply no more room to put things under my jumped. Suddenly I found myself all along in a park with nothing interesting around me but a few ducks here and there and a park bench or 2. That was simply too easy. Really, they should get better security at those places. What am I talking about??!! I am not a criminal, I could get into deep trouble for doing this!! But on the upper hand I would prove everyone wrong. I would change my reputation and it would never go back to what it was. I absolutely hated what I was.

Everyone said I was the “perfect one” and to be honest with you I absolutely hated it and despised everyone for saying such absurd thoughts. I do believe in my saying “Something’s not an insult if it’s the truth” but surely it wasn’t true? It couldn’t possible be. I had many faults. There was. Ah..um..gee. where do I start?? Well.. Yeh.. Ok!! Fine!! I’m flawless. I was what everyone thought to be the perfect teenage girl. But inside I was screaming. Outside I was smiling and laughing whilst inside I was kicking and screaming. Maybe, infact, I was so perfect that I wasn’t perfect. Oh I am so superficial. Why do I have to overanalyse even the simple things? “But this is NOT a simple thing!!” I say to myself and realise this old man is looking at me. Oh well, let him think what he wants. Chances are I’ll never see him again! So what gives!

But really it wasn’t a simple thing, I had just changed the rest of my life. What was I to do with myself now? Oh what the hell, I couldn’t go home with all this stuff, everyone would know and my secret would be revealed. I was in a generous mood so why not make the old man’s day? I walk over to him and unload all of the things and place them on the seat next to him saying, without even realising it, “Here, you keep all of this. Have a nice life”. That was more like me! And I ran off and head home before he even got a word in. I turn around and look at the carpark behind the man. The only car I see in it is a police car. But where is the policeman? The only person in sight was the man. He couldn’t possibly be? “OH NO, WHAT HAVE I DONE?” I scream in sheer stupidity.