What am I saying?

What I want to communicate to the reader is the futility of trying to prove or disprove the existence of a being whose only real evidence of existence resides in the person who believes. Your emotions, the "oceanic feeling" of oneness, the I-Thou relationship you have with god, these are inaccessible to me, and explainable in other ways. My emotions have not been accessed by a god so I am skeptical. I have no thing to compare god with, so the idea makes no sense to me. I am explaining why evangelical Christianity makes no sense to me.

What am I not saying?

I am not saying there is no god, or god's Christ. I am not trying to take your right to worship or believe this.