Edmondia: holy crap I just sketched Aliel o.o
EnsTren: eek?
Edmondia: ...he's kinda sexy
EnsTren: got it from daddy
Edmondia: got a strong resemblance to both daddy and his baby bro
EnsTren: hmn
Edmondia: hmn?
EnsTren: *nibbles*
Edmondia: I think he's rather like what King Robin will look like
EnsTren: hmn
Edmondia: he's got a... slightly odd espression on his face
Edmondia: very blank and chilly
EnsTren: like puck outta the mirror?
Edmondia: a bit
EnsTren: hmn
Edmondia: whyfor art thou hmn-ing?
EnsTren: nemichan feels like she's having her period but no cramps or bleeding
Edmondia: hmn
EnsTren: ...sheseth's seto is upset
Edmondia: oh?
EnsTren: I dunno why
Edmondia: hmn.
Edmondia: does he want a lolly?
EnsTren: yes, but that's not why
Edmondia: hmn.
Edmondia: *gives him a lolly*
EnsTren: *he sticks it in his mouth*
Edmondia: *pet him?*
EnsTren: Seto: ..I'm not a good hikari.
Edmondia: Why not?
EnsTren: Seto: I'm a boy
Edmondia: And?
EnsTren: Seto: she's a girl. I should be a girl for her.
Edmondia: That's a very random thought. And if you were a girl you two couldn't have babies.
EnsTren: Seto: we still can't, she doesn't want me like that
Edmondia: Now how do you know that?
EnsTren: Seto: she thinks of me as her kid, not her hikari
Edmondia: And she's married to her cousin. What does that tell you?
EnsTren: Seto: she likes short guys
Edmondia: ...besides that.
EnsTren: Seto: she won't like me because I'm taller
Edmondia: ...are you upset that she isn't sleeping with you/
Edmondia: ?
EnsTren: Sonic: No, I'm upset that I can't be the way so I wouldn't be disturbing to her
Edmondia: Sonic?
EnsTren: sorry many rps, too many S names
Edmondia: aha
Edmondia: Why don't you talk to Atemu? He knows what she likes.
EnsTren: Seto: I can't be shorter
EnsTren: Seto: and I don't think he'd apreciate me stealing his wife
Edmondia: She's your yami, and he's got Yugi.
EnsTren: Seto: ...He had her first
Edmondia: So?
EnsTren: Sonic: she loves him
Edmondia: And she loves you
EnsTren: (kicks right hand for doing ni in sted of th)
EnsTren: (to!)
EnsTren: Seto: but not like that
Edmondia: Do you want her to?
EnsTren: Seto: I want to be right for her
Edmondia: And what is right?
EnsTren: Seto: that she could like me the way all the other yamis like their hikaris and that..I get hurt when she sinks into the deepest parts of me
Edmondia: Aww.
EnsTren: Seto: She's perfect, I've proven that I'm terribly flawed
Edmondia: She's not perfect. She's a loony.
EnsTren: Seto: Yamis are supposed to be
Edmondia: She's got a horrible temper and a violent streak that puts Yami no Bakura to shame
EnsTren: Seto: but she's dark, like she's supposed to be
Edmondia: She's not perfect, Seto.
EnsTren: Seto: fine, but she's what she's supposed to be
Edmondia: You seem to be in working order.
EnsTren: Seto: Not up here *taps head*
Edmondia: Tried kissing her?
EnsTren: Seto: she'd hate that
Edmondia: How do you know?
EnsTren: Seto: I'm taller, possibly stronger, and a boy
Edmondia: And you're her hikari. She has issues, yes, but issues are meant to be worked on.
EnsTren: Seto: But I'm a fucked up hikari
Edmondia: So? She's a fucked up yami
EnsTren: Seto: But she's dark the way she's supposed to be, but I'm not light the way I'm supposed to be
Edmondia: Seto, just go for it. What's she going to do, reject you?
EnsTren: Seto: she hates me though.
Edmondia: Uh?
EnsTren: Seto: every time she looks at me she looks like she's about to cry. She may love me as a hikari but she hates being near me
Edmondia: She's feeling guilty for what she did to you.
EnsTren: Seto: she doesn't like me. She winces when I talk, so I stopped talking, and I don't make noise much so I won't inturupt her. I like seeing her smile. not the watery smiles she gives me, but the real ones she gives Mokuba or the ones she has when she thinks of Atemu or Yugi.
Edmondia: She likes you very much, Seto, she just feels horribly about what she did to you. She's upset because of herself, not because of you.
EnsTren: "She's happier when I'm not arround unless she needs my light. She's happier when she doesn't remember I'm arround."
Edmondia: She is not. That's crazy talk.
EnsTren: "She smiles better though, wider, I can feel her happy when she forgets. But when she looks at me I don't feel anything."
Edmondia: Argh. Where is she?
EnsTren: "...With Atemu and Yugi. She's very happy now, I can feel it."
Edmondia: Hang on.
Edmondia: *drags her into the room and sits her in front of her omote* You! Talk! Now!
EnsTren: Seto: *clams up vocally, emotionally, and mentally. Locking it all away from her, metaphysically making himself as small and unnoticable as he can manage*
Edmondia: Seto, TALK TO HER.
EnsTren: Seto: *stares at the blankets and morosely colors his picture*
Edmondia: Seth? I'm going to strangle your hikari now.
EnsTren: Seto: *colorcolorcolor*
Edmondia: Right, so, Seto thinks you don't like him and think of him as your kid and that you don't want to be around him.
EnsTren: it could be a nice rp
EnsTren: and it's why she's upset
EnsTren: he's not talking to her at all
Edmondia: shall we?
EnsTren: okay
EnsTren: He colored his picture, careful graceful lines with the prisma markers, carefully blending the colors together, overlaying them to create subtle shades.
Edmondia: She lay next to him, resting her chin on her folded arms, cinnamon hair curling softly over the edge of the paper.
EnsTren: And he closed in on himselff, quite mind, quiet heart, almost invisible but his bright light which he made no attempt to deminish.
Edmondia: Slowly, carefully, she reached out and took the marker from his fingertips, capping it and settling it to the side.
EnsTren: He bit his lip but was quiet quiet. Shhh....
Edmondia: She moved the picture away too, settling it to the side, long fingers brushing over his hands.
EnsTren: He was so very bright. Infact he was shining out like he did when giving or feeding her his light, intent and focused and oh so wonderful. But she couldn't feel him
Edmondia: She sat up slowly, lazily, moving in a way she knew he had to notice, eyes curious and intent upon him.
EnsTren: Hikarihers shivers and he watched a portion of her from under hooded eyes.
Edmondia: She shook her hair out over her shoulders and carefully settled her hands atop his, lacing their fingers together.
EnsTren: A spike of worry, it was the first thing she's felt from him in days.
Edmondia: She leaned forward, close enough to brush noses, eyes narrowed and searching.
EnsTren: Their eyes met all to breifly and his widened and imedetly fell to the ground in extream remincience of the commoners and lords who met her gaze, espically when she was angry
Edmondia: She didn't like it.
EnsTren: It wasn't right that her hikari lok at her, or rather not look at her, like that
Edmondia: She released one of his hands and tilted his chin up.
EnsTren: his eyes looked away from her.
EnsTren: (goes to boil eggs)
Edmondia: (k)
Edmondia: "Seto?" she said softly, but firmly, "I want you to look at me, hikari."
EnsTren: He weighed it carefully, and then looked up quickly instead of reminding her of his voice. After all their eyes were the same.
Edmondia: Slim, smooth fingers stroked his cheek, and her eyes were warm and puzzled. "Why don't you talk to me, Seto?"
EnsTren: His eyes dropped imdetely. In that vast gulf between them, untouched by light or dark she thought she heard a plaintive child's voice cry out "I'm sorry!" into the vastness.
EnsTren: She noticed him, he was upsetting her.
Edmondia: "Seto, look at me."
EnsTren: A twitched and he looked up again, carefully not meeting her eyes.
Edmondia: She leaned forward and kissed his nose.
EnsTren: He twitched again. Sweet Hikari, giving her all the light she needed but barely sampling of the darkness he needed just as much.
Edmondia: She tilted his chin down and kissed his forehead.
Edmondia: "Seto, why won't you talk to me?" she whispered against his hair, gently pulling him against her.
EnsTren: He was shiver, he was crying and she definetly heard it this time, /I'm sorry!/ More impression than thought or words, but there all the same.
Edmondia: She carefully took his arms and wrapped them around her waist, tucking his head under his chin and stroking his hair. "Sorry for what, honey? What's wrong?"
Edmondia: She shifted her weight, settling back and pulling him more snugly into her arms. "You have to talk to me, honey..."
EnsTren: No he didn't. And if he told her it would upset her or at least draw her attention to him.
Edmondia: Her fingers traced through his hair and down his back, light and delicate. "Seto, I want you to talk to me."
EnsTren: A stubborn purely seto shake of the head.
Edmondia: "Talk to me, honey," she whispered against his ear, voice pitched low and velvet.
EnsTren: He shivered and shook his head violently like a petulant child.
Edmondia: She dug her nails into his back, lightly massaging. "Talk to me," she murmured again, soft and commanding, "Tell me what's wrong."
EnsTren: He shook his head and hunkered down--despite himself he was enjoying the closeness. Oh how long had it been since they touched? Not since the last time he gave her a picture--which he had stopped because she smiled sadly.
Edmondia: "Why not, sweetling?" she asked gently, pressing her lips to his cheek. "Why won't you talk to me, pretty hikari?"
EnsTren: That was easy, because she didn't want him to, not really.
Edmondia: Her nose nudged his cheek. "Tell me, sweetling?"
EnsTren: He looked like he was about to break into sobs. It would be so easy, but he couldn't.. Don't cry, don't speak.
Edmondia: "Sweetling?" Her voice was soft silk, "I need you to tell me what's going on, I miss you, honey." Her lips brushed his cheek again.
EnsTren: No you don't.

She'll get upset eventually, leave and then forget. He'd just have to be strong.
Edmondia: She stroked his tummy with a delicate hand, her breath warm and light against his ear. "Don't you love me anymore, honey?" she asked softly, "Is that it?"
EnsTren: He twitched and such a welling of dispare came up in him that she could even think it. More light, practically shoved at her.
Edmondia: Carefully, slowly, she let her own darkness wrap around him. "...have you missed me as much as I've missed you, honey?" She was still rubbing his tummy, still trailing her fingers through his hair.
EnsTren: He whimpered in such a way she was worried he was going to launch into a crying fit that were somewhat common after...what happened, when he had been too weak to resist his own emotions
Edmondia: "Sweetie..." She squeezed him gently, holding him closer, "Sweetie, please talk to me? Please?"
EnsTren: She could see how she was wearing him down, how close he was to giving in and how terribly upsetting he found it.
Edmondia: Slowly, she let her shadows surround him, let them curl around him, warm and heavy. "Pretty hikari... please talk to me?"
EnsTren: He was weeping just a little. He never took from her shadows, still wasn't, but he could absorb it when it was given to him like this. When was the last time she did this for him?
Edmondia: "I'm sorry, pretty light... I've been neglecting you, haven't I, my sweet one?" She kissed his cheek and nuzzled him softly, letting her shadows sink into him. "I've missed you, pretty darling..."
EnsTren: He was shaking so badly but drinking up the shadows like she took in his light when first released. Had she forgotton about him for so long that he was brought to this level of need?
Edmondia: Lightly, carefully, she kissed away the few tears that escaped him. "I'm so sorry, my sweet precious darling... it's all right, honey, touch me, okay? Here, here, I'm all yours sweetie, take all the darkness you need..."
EnsTren: He was choaking a little but valiently held back the tears to only a few at a time.
Edmondia: "It's all right, sweetie, you can cry, don't hold it back, all right?" She kissed his forehead again, taking his arm and wrapping it firmly around her waist. "It's all right, baby, just let it all out..."
EnsTren: And he cried for her, leanign down and wraping his other arm snug about her waist and burring his face in her tummy.
Edmondia: She leaned over him and kissed the top of his head, gently stroking her hands down his back. "That's it, honey, just cry... that's it, baby, I love you, it's all right..."
EnsTren: Shaking hikari who was trying to be quiet even now
Edmondia: She leaned down and rested her cheek against his back, arms sliding loosely around him. "It's all right, honey, cry as much as you want... that's my sweet darling, remember to breathe, you're all right... be as loud as you want, pretty sweetling, just let it all out... I'm right here, baby, I'm not leaving you, my precious little light..."
EnsTren: But he was unnaturally quite. Holding back his tears and sobs despite how much he was doing now.
Edmondia: She rubbed her cheek against him, letting her shadows coil deep within him. "Don't hold back, pretty baby, please? Don't hold anything back..."
EnsTren: But he did, and she still didn't know why.
Edmondia: So she just held him close and let a few tears of her own fall.
EnsTren: Her hikari--she really wasn't taking care of him, was she?
Edmondia: She was being selfish.
EnsTren: But he was so quiet and she rarely felt him, so easy to forget he was even there.
Edmondia: She had to stay with him.
EnsTren: Until he stopped needing to cry.
Edmondia: No... no, she had to stay with him forever.
EnsTren: She wished he would talk to her.
Edmondia: He was much too quiet.
Edmondia: But she was a very persistant woman.
EnsTren: He was almost trying to hide from her.
Edmondia: She wouldn't allow that. He was hers.
EnsTren: Eventually his tears wore themselves off and all was quiet again.
Edmondia: Slowly, she sat up, stretching the kinks out of her back. "Seto...?"
EnsTren: He was quiet.
Edmondia: She nudged him a little. "Seto?"
EnsTren: He glanced up at her.
Edmondia: She leaned down and pressed a kiss against his nose. "Hi, sweetie."
EnsTren: His eyes lowered and drooped suddenly as if sleepy.
Edmondia: She kissed his forehead. "Are you sleepy, honey?"
EnsTren: He nodded mutely.
Edmondia: "Okay, honey," she said softly, and gently rolled him off of her, so that he was sprawled out on his back.
Edmondia: Hmn. He was so much taller than Atemu... but... all she would have to do would be... hmn. Just adjust how high she curled her leg.
EnsTren: Seto kept his breathing deep and even and waited to see if she would leave.
Edmondia: Carefully, slowly, she settled herself against his chest, one leg curling up to drape easily over his waist.
EnsTren: He kept himself from sighing and let himself drift off to sleep, hoping she would be gone eventually.
Edmondia: "I won't ever abandon you again," she promised him quietly, and laid her head against his chest and waited for sleep to come.
EnsTren: Seto woke up first, from a light doze into that thin drowsy space between sleep and wake.
Edmondia: It was very warm. Soft and velvet and all shadowy and gentle.
EnsTren: She was still present and he closed his eyes again and let himself drift back...If she left he could be so quiet she wouldn't notice him again.
Edmondia: Yes. That would be best.
EnsTren: Even though this was too nice.
Edmondia: So warm and soft and shadowed.