EnsTren: *wiggles*

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EnsTren: *wiggle?*
Edmondia: hi honey
EnsTren: amahoney?
Edmondia: sure
EnsTren: yayamahoney
Edmondia: ayup
Edmondia: how be?
EnsTren: okkie
Edmondia: how be our setotes?
EnsTren: sheseth's seto is still....yeah
Edmondia: being snoozed on and trying to hide?
EnsTren: yeah
Edmondia: aha
Edmondia: and the others?
EnsTren: dunno
Edmondia: ah
Edmondia: SheSeto's been musing at me
EnsTren: oh?
Edmondia: just lounging about and thinking about how her life has changed
Edmondia: I have no idea what brought it about
EnsTren: hmn
EnsTren: sheseth is sad cause even after sleeping on him he's still not talking
Edmondia: aww
Edmondia: she's gonna be suction-cupped to his side, I think
Edmondia: and keep nagging at him until he starts talking
Edmondia: however long that may take
EnsTren: seto=stubborn=notalikes
Edmondia: seth=equally stubborn
EnsTren: but also other people to get sujestions from
Edmondia: mmhmm
EnsTren: so seto options are give in or shut up
EnsTren: her options are forget again, stay by him, or go and talk to someone else for advice and reasssurances
Edmondia: READ THIS OMFG TOO FUNNY
Edmondia: I think she's going to stay by him
EnsTren: *pats*
EnsTren: he's not going to talk though
EnsTren: cry, hesitently touch and hug, but be mute to her
Edmondia: she's going to cuddle him and shower him with kisses and try to nudge him into talking
Edmondia: (did you read it? XD)
EnsTren: (yes)
EnsTren: he's not going to
Edmondia: I think she might wind up sitting on him and demanding he talk
EnsTren: and he won't
Edmondia: she
Edmondia: she's going to wear him down eventually, I think
EnsTren: yes
EnsTren: but not if he runs first
Edmondia: she'll catch him
Edmondia: probably in a very disturbingly predatory way
EnsTren: *watches him go to alaska*
Edmondia: *watches her pounce on him when he gets to his hotel room*
EnsTren: *watches him run aagin*
Edmondia: how can he run when she's pinning him to the floor?
EnsTren: squirm
Edmondia: ...I think she might kiss him.
Edmondia: to get him to stop wriggling
EnsTren: that would upset him a great deal
EnsTren: he doesn't want her to stop being his "mommy"
EnsTren: but he feels bad that he frightens her so that's the only thing she can be to him as a yami
Edmondia: I think she might kiss him anyway
EnsTren: it would really upset him
Edmondia: "Well what else am I supposed to do?!"
EnsTren: get help to get to him
Edmondia: "How?"
EnsTren: get atemu and yugi to sit on him and talkies
Edmondia: "Okay!"
Edmondia: Atemu and Yugi: *blinksu as they are uncerimoniously shoved onto Seto*
EnsTren: *pets and hugs seto*
EnsTren: Seto: *tries to shove them off*
Edmondia: Atemu and Yugi: *don't budge*
EnsTren: Seto: *upset hikari and still and stares at wall*
Edmondia: Seth: *crouches down in front of him* Sweetie?
EnsTren: Seto: *stubborn nottalkies shielded brain*
EnsTren: Seto: *though quite shiney from having yugi sit on him*
Edmondia: Seth: *tweaks his nose* Talk to us, honey.
EnsTren: Seto: *not going to talk while she's there*
Edmondia: Seth tilted her head down and idly fluffed his hair. "Do you want to talk to Atemu-chan and Yugi-chan instead of me, honey?"
EnsTren: Seto: *closes eyes and fixes his expression into neutral*
Edmondia: "You can just nod or shake your head, baby."
EnsTren: Yes will hurt her feelings, no means she'll stay.
Edmondia: "Sweetie? Tell me yes or no, okay? I promise I'll come back when you're through."
EnsTren: No, he'd hurt her feelings.
Edmondia: She kissed his forehead. "I'll make the decision for you, then. I
Edmondia: I'll go and come back soon, okay?"
EnsTren: Slow blink.
Edmondia: "I'll be back soon, baby, and in the meantime you talk to Atemu and Yugi, okay?" She kissed his nose lightly. "Is that all right, sweetie?"
EnsTren: Another blink and an almost timid tiny little nod.
Edmondia: "Okay. I love you sweetie." She kissed his cheek and his forehead, petted his hair, and stood up and left, flashing him a sweet smile. "Bye, baby. I'll be back soon."
EnsTren: He blinked after her as she left and slowly unlocked his jaw.
Edmondia: Yugi lightly stroked his hair. "Better?"
EnsTren: Seto twitched.
Edmondia: "You can talk to us, you know," Yugi said mildly, still stroking his hair.
EnsTren: Pretty blue eye flicked up to him. Why are you even bothering? His emotions still tightly sheilded
Edmondia: "Bothering?" Yami asked quietly, leaning around his other shoulder. "Why wouldn't we?"
EnsTren: You have no direct connection to me, only though her.
Edmondia: "You're our friend, Seto," Yugi said gently. "We care about you."
EnsTren: Your friend? Hah. Rival, evenmy, irritant, alibi, strange pseduo inlaw. Friend? I have no friends.
Edmondia: "You have us," Yami said softly, idly drawing his fingers down his cheek. "Whatever you want to call us."
EnsTren: No. You have her.
Edmondia: Yugi kissed his cheek. "And we have you."
EnsTren: He turned his head and looked up at them frankly. "But I don't have her."
Edmondia: Slim fingers threaded through his bangs. "Do you want her?"
EnsTren: "No, I make her sad."
Edmondia: "Do you know why you make her sad?" Atemu asked gently.
EnsTren: "It doesn't matter, she looks at me and she's sad. So I kept my mouth shut and she was the happiest she's ever been when she forgot me. She's afraid of me because I'm taller than her and male. And I make her sad. She's more Mokuba's than she is mine."
Edmondia: "But it does matter," Yugi said quietly, "Because it's not because of you that she's sad."
EnsTren: "Doesn't change the fact that when she forgot about me she was happier."
Edmondia: Atemu shook his head. "No, she wasn't. She felt terrible, and she still does, but Seth is a very proud woman, and she doesn't want to admit when she's wrong - or when she's wronged someone."
EnsTren: "But there was not active reminder."
Edmondia: "You should be the one to take up the vast majority of her attention, Seto."
EnsTren: "No."
Edmondia: "Yes."
Edmondia: "She belongs to you more than she belongs to anyone else - or at least she should."
EnsTren: "NO," he said firmly and he looked directly at Atemu with strange light and firecness in his eyes. "She belongs to HIM as much as anyone can possess her."
Edmondia: "We're not married anymore," Atemu said softly. "We haven't been for a very long time."
EnsTren: "Formalities have little effect on functionality."
Edmondia: "You've been too far apart from each other," Yugi said quietly, "How long has it been since you've been wrapped up in each other?"
EnsTren: "A few days ago because she felt she had an obligation, which she does. We are each other's batteries and if we were as such she would not be as meloncholy as she is."
Edmondia: Yugi stroked his hair. "You've been far too passive with her, Seto," he said gently, "You've let her get away with too much."
EnsTren: Seto looked at him for a while then turned his head away.
Edmondia: "You know," Yugi said quietly, "They haven't slept together since that time by the bleachers."
EnsTren: "You mean they haven't had sex since then. If you're going to say something Yugi say it plainly without dancing around it. They had sex. Something that she won't allow herself to consider with me because I frighten her."
Edmondia: "I know perfectly well what happened, thank you. And I'm not letting them do that again. I know she's frightened of you, but you two need to work on that together."
EnsTren: "I don't WANT to have her that way. And you're at least as attracted to her as your Yami."
Edmondia: "She's pretty, yes, but my Yami is MINE. And Seto, are you really so sure about that?"
EnsTren: "Yes I am."
Edmondia: "Why?"
EnsTren: "Why does love have to be as deep or as shallow as sex? Eros is so shallow."
EnsTren: "What we're supposed to have has two halfs of a soul is Agape. Or perhaps Storge."
EnsTren: He glanced up at them to gage their comprehension.
Edmondia: Yugi looked at him mildly. "True, but she belongs to you and you're not doing your part to take care of her."
EnsTren: "I refuse to burden her with me."
Edmondia: "You're not a burden, she's your other half."
EnsTren: "No."
Edmondia: "You deny that she's your other half?"
EnsTren: "I deny that I am not a burden. I make her sad."
Edmondia: "She's sad because of how badly she's mistreated you."
EnsTren: "I was fine, she was sad before that."
EnsTren: He deliberetely misunderstood
Edmondia: "Seto," Atemu chided, "You know perfectly well what we mean."
EnsTren: "If I am truely so important then why did she forget? WHy did she not notice that I didn't touch her darkness?"
EnsTren: "That I didn't speak, that I was all but invisible? She happily pranced down to the game shop withotu realizing anything."
Edmondia: "Willful ignorance," Atemu said quietly, "She's very very good at hiding things from herself."
EnsTren: "She was happier."
Edmondia: "Deluding herself."
EnsTren: "Happier."
Edmondia: "Unhealthy."
EnsTren: "Delude yourself."
Edmondia: Yugi tweaked his nose. "Dammit, Seto, we're trying to help you here."
EnsTren: He jerked his head away and bared his teeth, "Don't touch me!"
Edmondia: Atemu raised an eyebrow. "We're sitting on you, Seto."
EnsTren: "Which I don't have a choice about but I can damn wel keep you from doing anything else I don't want."
Edmondia: Yugi kissed him.
EnsTren: Seto bit him.
Edmondia: Slim fingers dug into his throat. "Don't do that again," Yami hissed, voice little more than a throaty growl.
EnsTren: Seto had a very long neck which he could twist and turn and very strong teeth, both he trained to use because they could be dead useful in iuntiing hands, unlocking handcufs if you had the key--and situations like this
EnsTren: Seto bit again and locked his jaw.
Edmondia: "Seto..." Yugi sighed gently, "Don't be so childish."
EnsTren: Seto tighted his grip a bit more on what ever portion of Yami he managed to get in between his teeth. Don't touch me!
Edmondia: Then let go of my darkness.
EnsTren: You touched me fist, you kissed me, and then he tried to strangle me. He relaxes his vile fingers and I'll let go.
Edmondia: Yami gently released him, eyes narrowed.
EnsTren: Seto released the Pharaoh and then turned his head and spat.
Edmondia: "Are we two?" Yugi questioned archly, coolly.
EnsTren: I can and will spit in your face Yugi.
Edmondia: A delicately arched eyebrow. "We are."
EnsTren: Seto did.
Edmondia: Yugi blinked, wiped his face, and slapped him harder than he would've thought him capable.
EnsTren: Are you quite done? I have work to do unlike you two.
Edmondia: "We're not done until you get some sense knocked into your head. Both of you."
EnsTren: Seto sneered.
Edmondia: "She wants this, Seto."
EnsTren: "She feels obligated to want it."
Edmondia: "Are you going to deny her desire?"
EnsTren: "She wants to feel better, so let her forget."
Edmondia: "She doesn't want to forget."
EnsTren: He shrugged.
Edmondia: "You can't get away from her, Seto."
EnsTren: "I just want to get away from you"
Edmondia: "Fine." And they stood up and walked away.
EnsTren: Seto was quickly on his feet and brushing himself off
Edmondia: They stood quietly in a corner, nuzzling one another delicately.
EnsTren: "Get your own room."
Edmondia: They left, and Seth came in, eyes narrowed.
Edmondia: "What did you do?"
EnsTren: But Seto would not speak.
EnsTren: Infact if she wasn't looking right at him she wouldn't know he was even in the room
Edmondia: She stalked over to him and rested her hands on his chest. "Seto, what did you do?"
EnsTren: Nothing, just cold void.
Edmondia: She pulled his chin down to look into his eyes. "Talk to me, Seto?"
EnsTren: "Forget me."
Edmondia: "Why would I want to do that, my pretty one?"
EnsTren: "Don't say that, you don't think of me that way. Just...forget and be happy"
Edmondia: "How could I be happy without you, my pretty light?"
EnsTren: "You were.\"
Edmondia: "I wasn't."
EnsTren: "You were, you smiled brighter"
Edmondia: She brushed her fingertips over his lips. "You didn't smile at all. You still don't, pretty sweetling."
Edmondia: (mew?)
Edmondia: (mew mew?)
EnsTren: (got called away)
Edmondia: (everything ok?)
EnsTren: (yeah, just scratch my grandma's back)
EnsTren: "I never really did so it doesn't matter much now does it?"
Edmondia: "It matters to me, pretty sweetling." Her fingers were very soft. "What did you do?"
EnsTren: But he was quiet again.
Edmondia: She pulled his head down and kissed his nose. "Why don't you talk to me, Seto?"
Edmondia: "I wish you would talk to me."
EnsTren: Because I want you to forget
Edmondia: "Forget what?"
EnsTren: Me.
Edmondia: "How could I forget my shy little savior?" she asked gently, sliding her arms around his neck.
EnsTren: You did.
Edmondia: "I never forgot you, precious one. I abused you, but I didn't forget you."
Edmondia: ...actually, at moment, in box.
Edmondia: (whoops, wrong window)
EnsTren: (sokay...but what was it refering to?)
Edmondia: (my kitten)
EnsTren: You were happier.
Edmondia: "That does not make it right."
EnsTren: Yes it does.
Edmondia: "You think it is right for me to abuse the one I am to protect?"
EnsTren: "I was fine. You were happy"
Edmondia: "And how do you know that, sweetling?"
EnsTren: Your smiles... And there was somethign in that, dawn after a cold night, waves breaking upon a shore. Memory of her smiles, smiles to Mokuba, smiles to Yugi, and her fake watery smiles to him--more emphemral, more fragile than a sandcastle.
Edmondia: Her eyes were very sad. "I love you, pretty one."
EnsTren: But he was so very silent.
Edmondia: She cupped his cheek with a hand and pressed herself up against him. "Do you believe me, lovely one?"
EnsTren: He shrugged, it was better than completely ignoring her.
Edmondia: She tugged his head down and brushed a kiss against the corner of his mouth. "Don't you know how precious you are?"
EnsTren: He twitched and shook his head in a stiff jerking motion.
Edmondia: She blinked up at him, a little puzzled. "What's wrong, honey...?"
EnsTren: Don't do that.
Edmondia: "Do what?"
EnsTren: Act like my mother and then kiss me, sleep ontop of me...just don't
EnsTren: His shoulder muccles tenced and pulled together
Edmondia: She blinked up at him. "I don't understand, Seto. What do you mean?"
EnsTren: What do you think I mean?
EnsTren: You're supposed to be as smart as I am.
Edmondia: "Don't you want me to touch you?" She sounded deeply upset.
EnsTren: Not like THAT
Edmondia: She blinked slowly, a stunned expression sliding into her eyes. "You... you don't... want me?"
EnsTren: Inncorrect, you don't want ME. So you acted like a mother surrogate.
Edmondia: She glared at him. "Idiot. I do want you."
EnsTren: "NO." He shook his head and tucked his elbows intowards his body with his hand, or perhaps he was shaking and holding himself.
Edmondia: "I think I should know what I want, Seto," she said crisply, "And what I want is you."
EnsTren: He growled, "They I refuse you!" I lost my mother once and you come into my life and make yourself her surrogate and then carefor mer, I won't loose my mother again and espically not like that!
Edmondia: She looked ready to slap him.
EnsTren: But Yugi or husband already slapped him, she could see the dark mark on his neck and face. And he was shaking so badly.
Edmondia: She took his hands and gently twined their fingers together and drew him to his bed. "Sit down, pretty darling."
EnsTren: He would have prefered to stand, but he was shaking too much so he sat.
Edmondia: She sat on his lap and trailed her fingertips down his cheek.
EnsTren: He tried to push her off.
Edmondia: She growled warningly at him.
EnsTren: He didn't care, he still tried to shove her off to the side.
Edmondia: She bit him on the nose. Stoppit.
EnsTren: Leggo! don't sit on me!
Edmondia: Why not?
EnsTren: Because.
Edmondia: Because why?
EnsTren: I don't want you to
Edmondia: She slid off his lap, but pulled him into hers.
EnsTren: He settled, draw his long legs up onto the bed and layed his head down on her shoulder.
Edmondia: She wrapped her arms around his waist. "So... you don't want to have sex with me?"
EnsTren: He nodded into her breast with closed eyes.
Edmondia: "...I think you're the first male to ever feel that way about me." She sounded confused.
EnsTren: "If you had sons they would feel the same way"
Edmondia: "You're not my child." Her voice was startlingly cold.
EnsTren: You treat both Mokuba and I as your children.
Edmondia: "I do not because I cannot," she said, still chilled, "Because I died before the oldest of my children turned nine."
EnsTren: I was a father to Mokuba before I turned nine.
Edmondia: "I am not your mother."
EnsTren: For some reason that statement made him very very sad deep down like his heart was shrinking and sinking at the same time. But he hid it from her though his eyes pricked with tears. My mother is dead.
EnsTren: I dont' have a mother.
Edmondia: Oh, sweetheart... she sighed, pressing her lips to his cheek, Just because your mother is dead doesn't mean you don't have one.
EnsTren: I don't have one, I have a brother.
Edmondia: Who was a gift from your mother.
EnsTren: It made him hurt so very badly. Mama gave birth in the afternoon, I had just come home from school when her water broke. Papa couldn't leave me home alone we rushed to the hospital.
Edmondia: She rocked him gently, pressing soft kisses against his cheek. What happened?
EnsTren: T-there was something wrong. People were rushing around and whiteblue and green... I heard Mokuba's first cry I think and I saw them lift him up because I peeked around the curtain. There was blood and...her legs just went...limp.
EnsTren: She was dead with a big hole in her tummy and I heard the nurse apologize to papa as they handed Mokuba to him that she was sorry and she said she didn't want to die and love papa very much.
Edmondia: She pressed her cheek against his. I am sorry for you, pretty light.
EnsTren: Papa wasn't the same after that. I--I was in the car when he crashed and there was blood and he had a big hole in him too. But he was smiling. My hair used to be lighter though, before that...
Edmondia: She kissed his cheek and nuzzled him. And you survived, my precious sweetling.
EnsTren: I don't have a ma-mother and I don't have a father, but I'm both and a big brother to Mokuba.
Edmondia: I don't have anyone except you.
EnsTren: Bullshit. You have Yugi and you have Atemu and you have Mokuba.
Edmondia: Yugi won't let me have Atemu anymore. And I can't be Mokuba's mother, either.
EnsTren: He probably would if you agreed to a threesom, Amazing how Seto could sound morose yet sneer at the same time. You already are.
Edmondia: I can't be anyone's mother because all of my children are dead. And then she was crying.
EnsTren: You have us.
Edmondia: YOU DON'T WANT ME!
EnsTren: I don't want to have sex with you. He said with cold bluntness. I don't want to be remembered by you because this is what I do to you.
Edmondia: She had let go of him and was curled up around a pillow, sobbing fitfully. You don't love me, nobody loves me!
EnsTren: He put his hand on her shoulder. That's my line. And how can you say that?
Edmondia: MY CHILDREN ARE DEAD!
EnsTren: And we're living proof that that's not the end.
Edmondia: They died because of ME!
Edmondia: My father tried to kill my husband because of ME!
Edmondia: You're miserable because of ME!
EnsTren: I'm misrable because of me, not you. I've been a misrable man for a very long time.
Edmondia: I can't even make you happy! I'm supposed to make you happy!
EnsTren: You make me happy, but I want you to be happy more.
Edmondia: You don't want me, how can I be happy?!
EnsTren: I want you, but I don't want you that way.
Edmondia: Atemu doesn't want me either, she was sobbing fitfully now, I'll never have my babies back!
EnsTren: Shhh...you don't know that for sure.
Edmondia: I CAN'T HAVE CHILDREN WITHOUT A HUSBAND!
EnsTren: Shhh..We have ways now, we do. Don't worry.
Edmondia: You don't love me!
EnsTren: I do, I do, that is why I want you to be happy, why I curled away out of sight from you so you could be happy.
Edmondia: I can't be happy without you!
EnsTren: I'm here then.
Edmondia: But you don't want me!
EnsTren: I don't want to have sex with you.
Edmondia: WHY NOT?!
Edmondia: Am I not pretty enough? Do you want me to be a boy again? I can be, I
Edmondia: I'll be one for you!
EnsTren: I should be a girl for you.
EnsTren: Because...You didn't want to have sex with me, because it frightened you to think of it.
EnsTren: So you treated me as a child. And now all of a sudden you want in my pants? Yamimine...
Edmondia: I want my husband, she was sobbing again, so hard her whole body shook, I want my husband and I want my children and I want you and I can't have any of you!
EnsTren: You should talk to yugi. And yamimine, how do you want me? I promise I love you but, I don't think that way. I never thought about anybody like that.
EnsTren: (sexual baby machine seth, meet mr. asexual)
Edmondia: Yugi won't give him back to me, and even if he did, Atemu doesn't want me anymore. He doesn't love me anymore, I know he doesn't. He promised me he wouldn't but he doesn't and I won't be able to touch him again or have our babies again. And - and you scare me but you're so pretty and I love you and I need you but you don't want me and I don't know what to do!
EnsTren: "Calm down," he said, voice all silky.
EnsTren: "Calm down, we all love you, never ever ever doubt that."
Edmondia: She shook her head fiercely, face still buried in the pillow. "Nobody loves me - not anymore, nobody loves me. Y-you think I'm disgusting."
EnsTren: "Why would I think of you as a mother if I thought you were disgusting?" Seto's wayy around other people's depression, knock down the reasons with logic
Edmondia: "Isn't it disgusting for a mother to want her son?" she hissed spitefully. "I am no one's mother."
EnsTren: "That's part of the reason why I don't want you that way."
Edmondia: "You hate me!" she wailed, and curled into a tighter ball, "My babies hate me and my husband hates me and you hate me!"
EnsTren: "I don't hate you, I was willing to give up what I needed for what I thought would make you happy. I was able to not blame Mokuba for my mother's death and love him, your children will love you too. Your husband is an idiot."
Edmondia: "My babies died because of me," she whimpered, "Atemu doesn't love me anymore because I killed them."
EnsTren: "Do you want me to bash his head in?"
EnsTren: "Or at least release some police reports back to the police?"
Edmondia: "NO! You can't hurt him!"
EnsTren: He jerkedstartled and a bit frightened, "...okkie."
Edmondia: "Don't you DARE ever ever EVER HURT HIM!"
EnsTren: He pulled away from her and ducked his chin down to his chest, "O-okay..."
Edmondia: She grabbed his hands and dragged him back to her, eyes wild and dilated. "Swear it," she hissed.
EnsTren: He whimpered and squirmed and pushed on the bed with his feet and he had just been making a joke and just trying to be helpful! Her nails were hurting his hands and he worried about them because he needed his hands to make things and to draw and she was scaring him so much.
EnsTren: And...and Atemu ment more to her than he did! He suspected it the whole time but, proof.
EnsTren: He started to cry.
Edmondia: Swear it! she shrieked, seizing his shoulders and shaking him, Swear to me you won't hurt him!
EnsTren: But he was crying and he couldn't stop. He hated to admit it to himself but he'd probably save Seth instead of his own brother, but he didn't deny it even though it hurt--he just ignored it.
EnsTren: But she...
EnsTren: He choaked and cried.
Edmondia: She pounded tiny fists against his chest and cried, hiding her face in his shoulder.
EnsTren: He was so cold.
Edmondia: She snuggled into him, seeking his warmth and light, wailing miserably.
Edmondia: Please? Pleasepleaseplease? Pleasewillyouloveme? Please?
EnsTren: Iwanttodie.
EnsTren: He cried and hurt so much in his chest.
Edmondia: No! Mine! Prettysweetsoftbemine? PleasepleasePLEASE?
EnsTren: wasnttodiewanttodiewanttodiiiieeee....
Edmondia: Nonono? Mine? Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasebemine? CanIloveyou? Letmeloveyou?!
EnsTren: His face contorted and he sucked in a breath of air loudly, cryign and crying and so horrible alone.
EnsTren: YOU DON'T LOVE ME!
EnsTren: YouLovehim. Youlovehim, notme!
Edmondia: ILOVEYOU!
EnsTren: I want to dieIwanttodieyoulovehimIwanttodie!
Edmondia: Nononono! Mine, pretty-mine, prettypleasebemine?
EnsTren: Iwanttodieandmakeitgoallaway.
Edmondia: NonononoNOPLEASE! WANT YOU!
EnsTren: NO! YOu want HIM!
EnsTren: wanttodiediediediewantit so much....
Edmondia: Nonononono, she was crying and crying and so horribly confused, Pretty-mine, precious-mine, Iloveyou, ILOVEYOU!
EnsTren: Gotohim!GotohimleavemealonehatemeIhamemeIwa nttodieee...
EnsTren: Ithoughtyoulovedme...
Edmondia: ILOVEYOU! she wailed, ILOVEYOU!
Edmondia: I'll kill him if you want me too, I willIwillIwill!
EnsTren: nononoNOYOUDON'T! GoawaygoawayIwanttodieimakeitstop...
Edmondia: ILOVEYOU! she shrieked, and wrapped herself around him and shoved her adoration at him, IloveyouIloveyouIloveyou!
EnsTren: NO! YOU! DON'T! YOU! LOVE! HIM! YOU LOVE HIM MORE!
Edmondia: ILOVEYOU! I LOVE YOU MORE!
EnsTren: NO YOU DON'T!
EnsTren: I SEE THE GODSDAMNED TRUTH AND PROOF WHERE IT IS TO LOOK! YOU LOVE HIM MORE! YOU'RE NOT EVEN MI-IINEe....
Edmondia: I WANT TO BE YOURS BUT YOU WON'T LET ME!
Edmondia: I'll be good, I can be good, I'll be good for you, will you love me then?! I can be good!
EnsTren: goawaygoawaygoawayandbewithihm!
Edmondia: IWANTYOU!
EnsTren: Stop lying to me...please stop because it hurts too much...
Edmondia: Please? Pleaseplease? She nuzzled him desperately, crawling into his arms. Marry me? PLEASE?! No? I - I'll be your mother, I promise I'll be good! I can be your mother! I'll learn!
EnsTren: You were, you were my mother to me and now you don't want to beeeeee!
EnsTren: And that just made him cry even harder
Edmondia: I'MSORRY! she wailed, and pulled him tight against her and rocked him, I'MSORRY! I'll be better, I'll be better, I'll stop wanting you! I'll learn! I'll learn, I promise I'll learn!
EnsTren: He was shaking and rocking with her, Everything hurts, he wailed. Everything hurts and I'm sorry so sorry but I don't know for what. I'm sorry I can't be what you want.
Edmondia: Iloveyou, she whimpered, Iloveyousomuch, Iloveyousomuch, I don't know what to do, ohgodsIloveyou...
EnsTren: youdon'tyoudon'tyoudon'tYOUCAN'Tyoudon'tyoudo n't.
Edmondia: But I do. And she smiled at him, so wide and brilliant and beautiful that it hurt.
EnsTren: But he was crying and it only hurt and hurt and hurt and wasn't beautiful at all.
Edmondia: She kissed him then, soft and sweet and not at all sexual, gentle and light and brimming with shadows and desperate, aching adoration.
EnsTren: And he fell into her shaking and cracked and broken from pushing everything into such a tight ball to hide from her.
Edmondia: She wrapped her arms and legs and Shadows and love around him, thick and rich and deep, tucking him warm and close and safe, wrapping him in up in her.
EnsTren: He cried in his sleep, she realized. But he was quieter and stopped saying he wanted to be dead.
Edmondia: She cradled him tightightight against her and kissed his lashes.
EnsTren: He was still hurting so much.
Edmondia: She was still hurting so much.
EnsTren: Neither of them really knew what to do with each other.
Edmondia: Except hold on.
EnsTren: She needed Yugi here, he'd know something.
Edmondia: ...she was jealous of Yugi.
EnsTren: Yugi had her husband.
Edmondia: Yugi had taken her husband from her.
EnsTren: Had taken her chance of getting her babies back.
Edmondia: And her own sweet savior did not want to give her children.
EnsTren: She knew, intelectually at least, that it was in part her own fault. She hadn't wanted him in a way that would have resulted in children at first. And then she treated him as a child--specifically her own.
Edmondia: But he wasn't a child, not really, and certainly not her own. Her own had been toddlers and babies when she died, not young men.
EnsTren: His shell was a young man (a very pretty tall atractive young man), and his mind was leaps and bounds beyond his age, but even within that, his emotions he was so young.
Edmondia: Was she wrong to want him so much?
EnsTren: Was it wrong to want her own husband?
Edmondia: Was she being too selfish?