EnsTren: (aww, kawaii image of the first time Seto sits in Seth's lap... and of course she has Mokuba in her lap)
EnsTren: (Atemu's sad, he's thinking back and all "Was I really that mean to him?")
Edmondia: (aww)
Edmondia: (methinks Seth needs to talk to our resident shrink as well)
EnsTren: (yeah, it's what she's there for)
Edmondia: (indeed)
Edmondia: (and methinks will take quite a long time for Seto to sit in Seth's lap)
EnsTren: (oh yes)
EnsTren: (image of her laying down with her head on his thigh)
EnsTren: (she's looking mildly uncomfortable, fearful, he's looking awed)
Edmondia: (and rather like he's afraid to breathe)
EnsTren: (and like a goddess fell into his lap)
Edmondia: (him being very, very hesitant and shyly asking if he may touch her hair)
EnsTren: (And she's so nervous, and doesn't want to nod her head or to speak)
EnsTren: (but by then they are close enough that she can say yes faintly into his mind)
Edmondia: (aww)
Edmondia: (v. v. shy in this relationship)
EnsTren: (yes)
EnsTren: (Seto's... Seto's been letting her hair grow out, because she hasn't been "out" as Seto Kaiba for a while)
Edmondia: (has Seth been playing the part?)
EnsTren: (Seto's been a girl very often so she's looking more feminine too, put on a few pounds)
EnsTren: (yeah)
EnsTren: (or Seto's been doing it from her computer)
Edmondia: (Seth going into school to take tests)
Edmondia: (hanging out with Mai a lot)
Edmondia: (slowly coming to the realization that her yami is, in fact, quite hot)
EnsTren: (a bit more angst there, because if she's just like him, how can she be pretty like a girl if she's pretty like a boy?)
Edmondia: (...Mai just told her to make him strip and parade around so she could note the differences between them)
EnsTren: (she's turning funny colors)
Edmondia: (Mai doesn't see what the problem is - after all, he's gorgeous)
EnsTren: (but the problem is Seto doesn't think she is)
Edmondia: (indeed)
Edmondia: (and she's very body-shy)
EnsTren: (but she's feeling better about herself, extra weight allows for better fem body shape)
Edmondia: (yes)
EnsTren: (and better at... keeping the body fem)
Edmondia: (fat makes curves)
EnsTren: (a lot of the problem was also despite the magic the long time as a boyness ya know)
Edmondia: (yes)
EnsTren: (problem: gets upset at gaining weight as a girl)
Edmondia: (oh dear)
EnsTren: (or rather, how it looks on her guy form)
Edmondia: (ah.)
EnsTren: (her pants don't fit!)
Edmondia: (heaven forbid she get them tailored!)
EnsTren: (and her butt's bigger)
Edmondia: (Seth doesn't mind)
EnsTren: (she does--too used to thinking of beauty as on a guy)
EnsTren: (and people tried to grab her butt enough already)
Edmondia: (yes)
Edmondia: (I see her spending a lot of time in front of the mirror)
EnsTren: (oh yes)
Edmondia: (spending a lot of time looking from her yami to herself)
EnsTren: (asking Mai for advice)
Edmondia: (surreptitiously watching the Yugis, I think)
EnsTren: (scared of them?)
Edmondia: (not so much scared as curious, I think)
Edmondia: (watching how they touch, interact, talk to one another)
EnsTren: (knowing she wants something, to know something as well, and she can learn it from them--but not knowing what)
EnsTren: (because she's--doesn't want that, the touching--she doesn't want it yet)
Edmondia: (but she does crave the intimacy - on a subconscious level, at least)
EnsTren: (oh definitely)
Edmondia: (so how much does she freak when she willingly and unconsciously starts to hang out with her yami more?)
EnsTren: (well she doesn't climb up a chimney again)
EnsTren: (she does lock herself in a room with a chimney she can climb up, however)
Edmondia: (...am seeing major adolescent fits of "I DON'T LIKE HIM!")
EnsTren: (and plushie hugging)
Edmondia: (and frantic phone calls to Mai)
EnsTren: (and fireplace eying)
Edmondia: ("Mai...! I thought - he was - morning prayers and - and no shirt and I thought he looked CCUTE!")
EnsTren: (Whimper, "I don't like it!")
Edmondia: ("Well, he is very good-looking - no shirt? View sounds nice...")
EnsTren: ("But... I... don't like feeling that way.")
Edmondia: ("It's perfectly normal to feel that way, Seto-chan. He's a pretty guy, you're a normal girl, he runs around with his shirt off, you look.")
EnsTren: ("But I'm not a normal girl...")
Edmondia: ("You're not a lesbian, either.")
EnsTren: ("I kinda wish I were.")
Edmondia: ("Make dating easier? You're stuck with him, he's hot, and he'll do whatever you tell him to. He's eye candy, pure and simple, with the upshot that he's absolutely devoted to you. There's nothing wrong with looking at him.")
EnsTren: ("But I hate men.")
Edmondia: ("Do you hate men, or the idea of what men could do to you?")
EnsTren: ("But I don't like men.")
Edmondia: ("Most men, maybe, but is he a man or a boy?"
EnsTren: ("He wants to fuck me, that makes him a man.")
Edmondia: ("Jounouchi wants to fuck me, and he's still a boy.")
EnsTren: ("He's almost as much as a man as a dog can be." There was something in her voice. Was she... frightened of Jounouchi?)
Edmondia: ("Seto-chan," she said gently, "This is a boy who I seriously think I'm falling in love with - and I know you know that. Why do you talk about him like that to me?")
EnsTren: ("I think I'm doing a very good job of keeping my mouth shut," especially considering the size of the mutt's police file, "about what you don't want to hear. I'm trying hard to... get better, and I hate it and I don't want to very often, but I still, oh god I want to throw up sometimes when Seth touches my shoulder, I still hate men.")
Edmondia: ("Seto-chan," she sighed, "It's not that it's not what I want to hear - I want you to be honest, but it does hurt me when you talk about him like that. And... even if he does sometimes make you sick, how would you feel if someone talked that way about him? I know you say you hate him - but how would you feel?")
EnsTren: ("He's mine," she snarled lowly, hissing, possessive and wild and about as human for an instant as she was when fully in her violent fright.)
Edmondia: ("...Seto-chan..." her voice was low, startled, "Listen to yourself... you sound like... like...")
EnsTren: ("Like what?" Curious now, surprised, and nothing like the vicious animal instictive possession.)
EnsTren: (She didn't even seem to remember it.)
Edmondia: ("...you sounded like Yugi...")
EnsTren: ("...Mew?")
Edmondia: ("...do you even know what you said?")
EnsTren: ("Eh?")
Edmondia: ("...Seto, I'm going to ask you a question, and I want you to focus on your answer, concentrate for me, okay?")
EnsTren: ("...Okay.")
Edmondia: ("What would you do if a girl from your class touched Seth?")
EnsTren: ("I wouldn't let him out of the house.")
Edmondia: ("Why?")
EnsTren: ("...Because," she said slowly, "He'd hide behind Yugi or Atemu, and it would mess with my reputation.")
EnsTren: (Quite logical actually.)
EnsTren: (Not a gut reaction though.)
Edmondia: ("...may I ask you another question?")
EnsTren: ("Sure Mai!")
Edmondia: ("May I sleep with Seth?")
EnsTren: ("I'll kill you you disgusting mongrel bitch!")
Edmondia: ("Seto!" she snapped, "That's exactly what I mean!")
EnsTren: ("Huh?")
Edmondia: ("Seto-chan... did you pay attention to what you said to me?")
EnsTren: ("Uh... I said no.")
Edmondia: ("No, Seto-chan, that is not what you said.")
EnsTren: ("..mew?")
Edmondia: ("...do you have a tape recorder around, honey?")
EnsTren: ("Uh, lemme rig my computer," tapping sounds followed faintly.)
Edmondia: ("Just tell me when you're ready, honey, and start the recording.")
EnsTren: "Okay Mai-chan," a final click, "I'm ready."
Edmondia: "And the tape's started?"
EnsTren: "Yes Mai-chan."
Edmondia: "So I can sleep with Seth, then?"
EnsTren: "Die you disease ridden whore!"
Edmondia: "...Seto-chan."
EnsTren: "Yes Mai-chan?"
Edmondia: "What did you say to me?"
EnsTren: "...I conveyed a negative?"
Edmondia: "...in a manner of speaking. Play back the tape, and listen to yourself."
EnsTren: She did so and Mai could hear the snip of their conversation very faintly.
EnsTren: Then, even over the phone she could hear the distinct brand of insanity trademarked by hikaris everywhere.
EnsTren: Seto whimpered into the receiver and hung up.
Edmondia: Mai stared at the phone in her hands for a long moment, then set it into its cradle.
Edmondia: Seto would have to come to terms with herself in her own time.
EnsTren: Seto was crying.
Edmondia: ...what was she supposed to do?
EnsTren: Besides crawl up inside a chimney.
Edmondia: That wouldn't help anything.
EnsTren: She'd feel safer. Oh, she knew what to do.
EnsTren: She threw her computer hard.
Edmondia: It smashed against the wall.
EnsTren: She felt marginally better.
Edmondia: ...she'd just broken her computer.
EnsTren: And destroyed that recording.
Edmondia: ...oh gods, what else had she said to Mai?
EnsTren: Mai-chan hated her now.
Edmondia: ...no, no, Mai-chan had still called her Seto-chan, she had, she still liked her, she'd wanted her to listen, she was trying to help her...
EnsTren: She cried. She was insane, that recording proved it.
Edmondia: ...wait, wait, no, no, she was normal, she was normal!
Edmondia: Mai-chan had said she'd sounded like Yugi - Yugi was a hikari, being like Yugi made her normal, didn't it?
EnsTren: She didn't like Yugi though.
Edmondia: ...what was she supposed to do?
EnsTren: She didn't... want to NEED him like that. It could make her weak. Open her to attacks from him.
Edmondia: ...he needed her too.
EnsTren: Then he wanted to control her like she wanted to control him.
Edmondia: ...then why was he so shy?
EnsTren: She didn't know.
Edmondia: She wasn't used to feeling this way.
Edmondia: She wanted to claw his eyes out - but his eyes were such a pretty shade of blue, and she liked the way he looked at her.
Edmondia: ...no she didn't!