Edmondia: (where were we?)
EnsTren: (dunno)
EnsTren: (oh! explaining cute via the term adorable)
Edmondia: (hang on, will find the file - we were?)
Edmondia: Edmondia: "I guess... when I say cute, I mean... you're still pretty, but it's... more fun."
EnsTren: He thought about it for a bit. "Like adorable, but less childish."
EnsTren: "Ah." She wrote, and she had the cutest little "thinking frown" on.
Edmondia: He grinned. "You're doing it again."
EnsTren: "I am?" She went over to a mirror to examine herself.
Edmondia: He sweatdropped. "Yes, you are."
EnsTren: She pouted. Oh she would deny it to the end, he thought, but she was pouting at her reflection.
Edmondia: Pouty hikari. Purr.
EnsTren: She was pouting at him now, "I really don't see how," she said.
EnsTren: He had to resist kissing her.
Edmondia: "You're only making it worse," he purred, and he certainly hadn't meant to purr at her, but it slipped out that way before he could stop himself.
EnsTren: She twitched, because he really didn't want to think of her flinching from him, and took a small step away.
EnsTren: He could see her making a mental note to never do that again.
Edmondia: Damn.
EnsTren: He apologized to her, for his lack of control, and promised to try harder.
Edmondia: You make it hard for me to breathe...
EnsTren: Which one of them had thought that?
Edmondia: He bit his lip and looked into her eyes, wondering what lay beyond them.
Edmondia: ...pretty light?
EnsTren: ?
Edmondia: ...are you upset with me?
EnsTren: Why'd you purr? There was an after thought, not really sent, it was scary.
Edmondia: Should he answer?
EnsTren: She did ask.
Edmondia: Would she be frightened of his answer?
Edmondia: ...promise not to run away before I tell you?
EnsTren: She tensed and drew slightly into herself, but gave a very timid, very mute, nod.
Edmondia: He sighed and slowly sank to his knees before her, tilting his head respectfully to the ground.
EnsTren: Now she was even more nervous and slightly frightened. From his actions knowing that perhaps she wouldn't like what he was about to say. It was better than the blatent and complete fear she would have had... before.
Edmondia: ...I wanted to kiss you, mrwt, he whispered, and tensed, waiting for the blow that would inevitably come.
EnsTren: Her fingers dug into her arms and she whimpered. He could tell she wanted to flee from this place, to go as far from it as fast as possible.
EnsTren: But she made herself stay, staring at him, there was a welling of tears in her eyes.
EnsTren: So strong, hikari.
Edmondia: He dropped his palms and his forehead to the floor and cursed himself. I'm sorry, beloved - you can hit me now, I won't mind, I promise I won't mind!
EnsTren: She was... seeing where a kiss could lead, and having such a hard time breaking out of that spiral.
Edmondia: Hikari? Sweet, remember to breathe, will you breathe, pretty light?
EnsTren: All the touching that she had learned to accept so far had been non sexual. Kisses... kisses brought to mind the... the deal.
EnsTren: Gasping breath, a hiccup. Sparkling tears fell to the floor.
EnsTren: She had sold to him her first kiss.
Edmondia: Slowly, pretty light, slowly, you have to remember to take it slowly, that's it, gently, gently, I know you can do it, so sorry, pretty light, there, easy, just breathe, beloved, just breathe...
Edmondia: And inside, he was screaming.
EnsTren: She tried to, she tried really really hard to.
EnsTren: It was ironic, how he was the thing that caused it for her to be so hard to breathe, and also the one talking her through it.
Edmondia: That's it, sweet light, that's it, careful now, be gentle, focus yourself - you've got it, that's it, so brave, pretty light, so brave!
EnsTren: Her memories crashed against her mind and his. They both knew they were tainted by her outlook, her fears. But to her when he lightly kissed her cheek there were fangs hidden behind it. When he caressed her breasts it was painful. And when he laid atop her, he was crushing the life out of her and about to rape her.
EnsTren: The only thing saving both of them was that they knew, both of them, that it was just perception. That he had been gentle--no matter how scary it was.
Edmondia: So brave, sweet light, so strong... gently now, gently, careful and deep and even - that's it, beloved, there now, you're all right... nobody's going to hurt you, pretty light, you're at home and it's all right...
EnsTren: She was breathing, small trembling, hiccupping but breathing in something that resembled normal rythem.
Edmondia: That's it, pretty light, you've got it, you did it! Such a brave hikari, so strong, so bright... keep it up just a little longer now, all right? Gentle - that's it, pretty love, that's it...
EnsTren: It was good that Yugi hadn't been damaged like his hikari, not just for the sake of the world and cousin's sanity. But despite all his darkness Seth didn't think cousin really could understand such an insidous enemy that came from within. That was the fault of purity.
EnsTren: His hikari had all different tones and shades to her light. Bright and dim and colored, some parts, he was sure, were brighter than even cousin's hikari--like a cut leaving behind a white scar that would never darken under the sun.
EnsTren: Right now his hikari was struggling back into the light.
Edmondia: Gently, pretty beloved, he coaxed softly, That's it, easy now, slow and careful, slow and careful...
EnsTren: She breathed.
EnsTren: She didn't run.
Edmondia: He almost screamed his joy. There now, you've done it, you're all right... so strong, pretty light!
EnsTren: She concentrated on breathing, on not running.
Edmondia: So strong, pretty light...
EnsTren: Did he dare look up at her?
Edmondia: ...no, he musn't, she wouldn't be pleased... would she?
EnsTren: She was breathing. That's all he knew, she was breathing and he had helped her.
Edmondia: She had let him help her.
EnsTren: He wanted to see her. She would hit him, perhaps, but he wanted to see her.
Edmondia: So he opened his eyes and peered up through his lashes and the heavy fall of his bangs to look at her.
EnsTren: She was holding very tightly onto her clipboard at watching him with an inscrutable expression.
Edmondia: He stopped breathing and held very, very, very still.
EnsTren: Her eyes might have narrowed, she wasn't blinking--she wasn't writing.
Edmondia: He didn't dare make a sound.
EnsTren: She didn't seem frightened anymore. The nervous undercurrent was as always present.
EnsTren: But not fear--he didn't think.
Edmondia: The carpet was thick and rich under his fingertips, and he turned his eyes down again, slowly inhaling.
EnsTren: "Get up, lift your head," a very controlled, precise monotone.
EnsTren: He heard her hands moving, relaxing and tensing, squeezing the clipboard and crinking the paper.
Edmondia: He winced inwardly, but did so slowly, keeping his eyes down, trying to keep himself from throwing up.
EnsTren: She sobbed, control breaking, it was very hard for her, he realized, to put up that face near him. The clipboard impacted with the side of his skull and she ran out of the room though a swinging door.
Edmondia: Ow. Hikari hit hard, but then, he deserved it.
EnsTren: She was running away and crying.
Edmondia: He would hit himself, too, but that was only for her to do.
EnsTren: He slowly stood up.
Edmondia: Ground floor. No urge to throw himself out of those windows.
EnsTren: He heard her burst through a second door, further away from him, and then, very quickly, another door. Odd.
Edmondia: He frowned. There weren't that many doors to run through, were there?
EnsTren: At least not that close together.
EnsTren: A door, much closer, slammed open, and something flew into his arms, sobbing.
EnsTren: Two doors in a row swung open and shut. When they were open at the same time, he could see Mokuba.
EnsTren: Thumbs up.
Edmondia: He blinked and looked down.
EnsTren: Hikari.
Edmondia: Hikari?
EnsTren: Hikari... in his arms?
Edmondia: ...what was she doing there?
EnsTren: Crying.
Edmondia: Oh. Oh!
EnsTren: Thumbs up.
Edmondia: Um... hikari had hit him, run away, turned around, and run back into him.
Edmondia:EnsTren: Well, Mokuba obviously had a part in that.
EnsTren: Hikari was crying in his arms... he was holding hikari. Hikari was snuggling deeper and nuzzling his chest.
Edmondia: ...YAY!
EnsTren: Even if she was sobbing her heart out.
Edmondia: Was he allowed to hug her closer?
EnsTren: Thumbs up, right?
EnsTren: He tried it, very very very carefully. And still more carefully not letting his hands, or lips, wander.
Edmondia: He didn't grip too high, or too low, or too tightly, or let his fingers slide under her clothes. He didn't even nuzzle her hair.
EnsTren: But she nuzzled him.
Edmondia: ...did that mean he could do the same to her?
EnsTren: Nono... best not push that hard. Just...
EnsTren: He laid his cheek atop her head.
Edmondia: ...just breathe...
EnsTren: So hard to listen to your own advice.
Edmondia: She stole his breath away every time she moved.
EnsTren: She felt so warm and smelled so good.
Edmondia: It would be so easy, so easy to die for her...
EnsTren: He would, no matter what cousin thought belonged to him.
EnsTren: Cousin also thought that he could order Seth to play, but Seth showed him.
EnsTren: Seth belonged to hikari.
Edmondia: Forever and ever and ever.
EnsTren: Her light fluttered over and though him. Patterns shimmered in it, he said and always would say.
EnsTren: Some parts he thought would blind him, melt him as surely as cousin's hikari would.
EnsTren: He would melt gladly.
Edmondia: So happy to die for you...
EnsTren: But then who would help hikari to breathe when another boy, a man, wanted to kiss her?
EnsTren: Who would hold her like this?
Edmondia: No, he'd best stay alive for her.
EnsTren: And hold her.
Edmondia: ...why had she come to him?
EnsTren: Mokuba turned her around.
EnsTren: But she... stayed in his arms.
Edmondia: ...why was she doing that?
EnsTren: He looked into the light, she found comfort in him.
Edmondia: ...YAY!
EnsTren: That settled it, he couldn't die.
Edmondia: Definitely not.
EnsTren: He smiled for her.
Edmondia: And didn't purr.
EnsTren: Maybe they could work on that in the sessions.
EnsTren: He'd purr if her hand was in his hair.
Edmondia: ...mmm, hikari.
Edmondia: ...was hikari still crying?
EnsTren: Yes, gentle sobs, like... the rains or the swells at sea.
Edmondia: Maybe, maybe, he could... just... very gently... rub her back?
EnsTren: He tried it. She sighed.
Edmondia: Was that a good thing or a bad thing?
EnsTren: She was calming and not nuzzling him as much.
EnsTren: /I want to sit./
Edmondia: He looked around. They stood in a hallway, and he frowned. //No chairs, pretty light.//
EnsTren: Pretty light had such a well managed mind when not frightened. Blueprints popped up straight from her to him. Couch was... down the hall and two rooms over.
Edmondia: But... if they moved, she'd let go.
EnsTren: /I won't./
Edmondia: //?//
EnsTren: I won't let go--we can walk together.
Edmondia: He blinked down at her. Um... okay...
EnsTren: They walked together, in step, her so close and touching him and in his arms.
Edmondia: She wasn't running away.
EnsTren: She was walking with him.
Edmondia: She was letting him walk with his arm around her waist.
EnsTren: He was in awe.
Edmondia: And they sat down on the couch together.
EnsTren: She curled into him.
Edmondia: He couldn't resist the urge to nuzzle her hair this time.
EnsTren: She froze in his arms, whimpered and clung tightly to him. Please stop.
Edmondia: He froze for a heartbeat before drawing away, trying to slide out of her arms.
EnsTren: She was shaking like a leaf, but held onto him.
Edmondia: He hesitated. What should I...?
EnsTren: You say I'm pretty. I wish I were ugly.
Edmondia: ...why?
EnsTren: Because then no one would want me that way. You wouldn't want me that way. And you could just hold me without looking at my face.
Edmondia: ...no I couldn't.
EnsTren: ???
Edmondia: He bit his lip and dared to brush a finger along the curve of her cheek. I couldn't not look at you, hikari.
EnsTren: I wish I were ugly and then you wouldn't want me that way and...
Edmondia: I'm in love with you.
EnsTren: So?
EnsTren: If I were ugly you wouldn't want... to put that thing inside of me.
EnsTren: You would purr but it wouldn't scare me. You wouldn't want to nuzzle or kiss me like that.
Edmondia: ...Will I scare you more if I tell you that I would still want those things, even if you were ugly?
EnsTren: She was crying into his chest again.
EnsTren: She wanted very badly to escape sexual desire. To be untouchable.
EnsTren: But he had already touched her.
Edmondia: I'm sorry, he whispered, I'm so sorry, mry...
EnsTren: Poor hikari, strong and beautiful, and brave.
EnsTren: She was crying.
EnsTren: I don't want you to want me.
Edmondia: He hid his face in her hair. I'm sorry, beloved - if I could stop myself, I would, you know that, don't you?
EnsTren: No...
Edmondia: ...hikari... he sighed, I don't want to need you the way I do, not when it makes you so sad.
EnsTren: A stifled sob.
Edmondia: He tried rubbing her back again.
EnsTren: She allowed it.
Edmondia: ...you're very brave, pretty love, he murmured affectionately, inhaling the scent of her hair.
EnsTren: I wish...
Edmondia: Wish...?
EnsTren: I don't know how to put it...
Edmondia: Just... show?
EnsTren: Tumbled emotions, a deep sense of longing.
Edmondia: He nudged gently at them. For...?
EnsTren: That... people wouldn't forget the past, could... see that I did a good thing, remember that KaibaCorp used to kill people and now it makes children happy. That I could tell people... About HIM so they would stop remembering him as a "Great man."
EnsTren: She gripped his arm painfully tight and fiercely blinked back tears.
EnsTren: Wish... noticed... Two worlds, I'm not... respected in business--my age. Say, they say I should be more like... "my father."
EnsTren: Other world, scientists... My People. Respect.
Edmondia: He held his breath and touched her cheek again. They care for your creations?
EnsTren: They... respect I make them, that I can. Don't... ignore.
Edmondia: Like the others ignore you?
EnsTren: People... Think I don't invent... Think... Payroll, top scientists, ride on their shoulders.
Edmondia: But your people know better, do they not?
EnsTren: Know... I don't need them, not really. They... make it faster, help occasionally. Respect. Even though... So much younger.
Edmondia: The elders always hate the youth who has power.
EnsTren: They think I lie.
Edmondia: They are fools.
EnsTren: I don't know what's worse. Thinking I lie. I DON'T. Or... my supposed peers, just not caring where their toys come from.
EnsTren: I don't need it, I don't need them! She insisted.
EnsTren: But it would be... nice. I wish, sometimes, for respect.
EnsTren: I had that, you know, when I was duel monsters champion.
Edmondia: I think you have more respect than you know.
Edmondia: And... more friends than you realize.
EnsTren: I think you are blind.
Edmondia: Am I? he question, brow arched. How quickly you doubt them, dear heart.
EnsTren: Friends implies I like them.
Edmondia: Then allies, at the very least.
EnsTren: Only when Yugi is my ally.
EnsTren: That's "The enemy of my enemy is my friend."
Edmondia: And yet they're all so quick to defend you, he murmured, and dared to touch her hair.
EnsTren: She sighed.
EnsTren: Yugi.
Edmondia: He felt bold enough to twine his fingers into the silken strands. Mai-chan, Anzu...?
EnsTren: Nervous tremor.
EnsTren: Mai-chan, yes. Anzu... If she knew Siren was really Seto, hell no.
Edmondia: Why not?
EnsTren: Yugi's friend.
Edmondia: So?
EnsTren: She'll think Siren is a complete lie.
EnsTren: Hate me.
Edmondia: Or she'll think you're a girl who wants to be her friend. And then she'll take care of you.
EnsTren: She'll think I'm a freak.
Edmondia: Why?
EnsTren: She's Japanese, Yami, Mai is American, they are... more open about things like that.
EnsTren: If... if it became public knowledge that I was passing myself off as a boy... I'd be out on my ass very quickly.
EnsTren: Because now they think things like that are problems with the mind.
EnsTren: And "we" hate that here--Americans are more accepting.
Edmondia: Oh? he purred, but for a different reason than before. But, dear light... there are so many easy ways to change minds...
EnsTren: How man can you change? A hundred? A thousand? There's more than a million people in Tokyo alone.
Edmondia: And surely a few of them would have the sense to realize that none of this happened of your own volition.
Edmondia: And... the press exists for those in power to manipulate it.
EnsTren: So they would think that someone "gave" me a mental defect.
Edmondia: They would think you were forced into unfortunate and painful circumstances, beloved.
EnsTren: It wouldn't change the fact that I have a "mental defect"
Edmondia: And what "defect" would that be, beloved?
EnsTren: It's called "Gender Identity Disorder" or something.
EnsTren: That's what they would think I have
Edmondia: Why would they think that?
EnsTren: Because it's when a boy wishes to be a girl and says they hate their penis, or a girl wants to be a boy and refuses to act feminine.
EnsTren: And then the board and the shareholders would make me take a bunch of tests and they would find other things, or pay the test giver to fudge my scores...
Edmondia: Beloved. You were forced to live as a boy but are a girl. Where is the confusion?
EnsTren: I stayed looking like a boy, I dressed enough like a boy that I was mistaken for one as a child.
Edmondia: Beloved, many girl-children have done so - and you could well have bound your breasts and hidden your body from the view of others. There is no reason to accuse you of any mental 'defect.'
EnsTren: It is considered one now.
Edmondia: You are a woman, beloved.
EnsTren: They would go to the orphanage and talk to the people. "No Seto-chan never played with dolls" "Seto-chan always insisted on having a boy's hair cut, why sometimes she cut it herself when we refused to cut it short" "She liked playing chess and got into fights often"
Edmondia: So?
EnsTren: And then I continued to pass myself off as a boy.
EnsTren: They would think that I have this 'defect.'
EnsTren: Many people don't want me to head Kaiba Corp.
Edmondia: Because you were a tomboy as a young child?
EnsTren: Because I was a tomboy and continued to pass myself off as a boy
Edmondia: So say Gozaburo forced you.
Edmondia: A helpless girl-child, shoved into such a situation? They would marvel that you survived, my beloved.
EnsTren: They wouldn't believe me though.
Edmondia: How many old security tapes do you keep, my love?
EnsTren: I could easily fake them you know.
EnsTren: I know that, the lawyers know that.
Edmondia: And what of discrimination laws, sweet light?
EnsTren: What are you talking about, yami?
EnsTren: She was muttering and in a depressed mood, ill tempered but laying against him with her back to his chest.
Edmondia: Are there not laws to protect women of power? Ways to ensure their safety where men would drag them down?
EnsTren: Many men look down on me now, will more so if it comes out. Women will revile me as well. Laws, yes, but the courts make the decisions.
Edmondia: Why would women revile you? Jealousy?
EnsTren: Because, am..., a confusing dump of emotions, 'lied,' not feminine.
Edmondia: He squeezed her. I think, beloved, you underestimate your own kind.
EnsTren: Look at what Gozaburo did to me. I think I am overestimating them.
Edmondia: Look at what you did.
Edmondia: Look at Mai-chan and Anzu - you know them the best. Do they seem at all weak to you?
EnsTren: What do you mean by weak?
Edmondia: I don't know, exactly - what did Gozaburo think was weak about women?
EnsTren: He just wanted a male heir, as far as I know. he wouldn't talk to me about girls because... I think he wanted me to forget I was one.
Edmondia: Ah, but pretty light, then how do you know how girls would react?
EnsTren: "...Because I'm a girl."
EnsTren: She was crying again.
Edmondia: A very unusual one, my beloved, he whispered, and gently brushed her tears away. Mai-chan cares for you... do you really think a heart like Anzu's could turn you away?
EnsTren: She doubled over and sobbed, hugging her knees.
EnsTren: Mine can.
Edmondia: Oh, my sweet light, he sighed, and gently scooped her into his arms, How could you think that?
EnsTren: My heart can turn away from me.
Edmondia: He stroked a hand down her back, tangling the other in her hair. How? It is your own, and beautiful.
EnsTren: Hate myself.
Edmondia: Pure astonishment. Why?
EnsTren: She dumped it into him, the hell and the memories, what she was and what she wasn't, and what she used to be. Just look at me!
Edmondia: He drank it all in - and smiled blissfully.
Edmondia: Beautiful, he breathed, So beautiful, my light...
EnsTren: Her mind lingered over... what she had been, before cousin.
EnsTren: She showed that to him.
Edmondia: Hurt, he whispered sadly, Poor hurt hikari...
EnsTren: She was crying so much.
Edmondia: He rocked her gently, like a child, and ran his hands through her hair. Oh my sweet light - how could anyone not adore you?
EnsTren: She felt safe with that, curled into his chest and on his lap, crying and and crying and letting him take care of her.
EnsTren: Too much a child to want him as a woman should, too much an adult to think being held and rocked will make it all better.
Edmondia: ...tell me what to do to make it better? he implored gently, smoothing her hair down so it tumbled over her shoulders in a pretty wave.
EnsTren: She could only cry.
EnsTren: Sobs tumbled out of her like her pretty hair down her shoulders.
EnsTren: She believed there was no way to make it better.
Edmondia: I'll find a way. For you.
EnsTren: She hated Yugi and cousin, he saw that.
Edmondia: It made him sad.
EnsTren: Because, she had to fight so hard to win and still lost even though she won. While blessed Yugi and blessed cousin, would have won and won, and probably, in her mind, converted Gozaburo.
EnsTren: She saw Otogi, who tried so very hard and wasn't a genius like her, didn't have advantages like her. She saw him succeed--just like she did.
EnsTren: And fall to pure luck and talent with no paticular effort.
EnsTren: And become another fanboy.
Edmondia: You are a rival, not a fan, beloved.
EnsTren: Otogi. I could... he could have been my friend you know.
Edmondia: He still could be.
EnsTren: I HATE how he doesn't even have to try, either of them.
Edmondia: They can't help what they are.
EnsTren: I hate it, it's not fair.
Edmondia: No, it isn't.
EnsTren: It's not fair that even though the goddamned puzzle wasn't even put together yet, and I wasn't even competing against THEM I still lost?
Edmondia: ?
EnsTren: Gozaburo, you call what I became winning?
EnsTren: Heart of the cards, or whatever. All for Mokuba, not against THEM, and everything to gain and nothing to loose.
Edmondia: You survived, my love. Mokuba is happy.
EnsTren: Yet I still got a fucking puric victory.
EnsTren: She wasn't talking right, wasn't thinking right. Enraged.
Edmondia: ?
EnsTren: Winning the war but loosing half the army, including most of the the people of high rank, would be a puric victory.
EnsTren: Calm, mechanical spouting of fact--she didn't even have to think about it.
Edmondia: ...beloved...
EnsTren: What is it that those two say? If your heart is in it and you try hard enough you can never lose? Or some bullshit like that?
Edmondia: Beloved...
EnsTren: Wasn't my twisted excuse for a heart in it?
EnsTren: Wasn't I trying hard enough?!
EnsTren: Wasn't I NOT playing against them?
Edmondia: Beloved.
EnsTren: She was holding his arm too hard.
Edmondia: Beloved, you're hurting me.
EnsTren: I don't fucking care.
Edmondia: You're hurting yourself.
EnsTren: She released his arm though.
EnsTren: I don't fucking care.
Edmondia: He wrapped it around her waist. I do.
EnsTren: Heart of the cards, or whatever ensures victory, fucking doesn't exist, it's not a heart.
EnsTren: It's fucking luck that licks their feet.
Edmondia: ...Kisara loves you, you know.
EnsTren: So?
Edmondia: You're hurting her, beloved.
EnsTren: ?
Edmondia: The bond between you and she... she still exists, in some form, my light, and saying that you don't believe in her heart makes her sad.
EnsTren: I never said I didn't believe in her, Seto grumped defensively. I mean as a collective whole. Or does the Monster Revival spell have a heart too?
Edmondia: My father created that spell.
EnsTren: But does it have a heart?
Edmondia: It has his. Back before... he changed.
EnsTren: ...
EnsTren: It's luck--They can come to you but it's luck that licks their shoes.
Edmondia: ...if you like to think that way, you may.
EnsTren: Do dice have hearts too? Socks? Games where monsters have nothing to do with it?
EnsTren: If luck had a heart I wouldn't have lost mine.
Edmondia: Otogi put Mahaado in his game. He shouldn't have.
EnsTren: ...If being so great and wonderful has everything to do with winning, then why did I loose to that man?
Edmondia: Being so great and wonderful has everything to do with how you play, not whether you win or lose.
EnsTren: His hikari looked pointedly in the direction where the unmistakeable bright light and deep darkness of Yugi and cousin radiated from.
Edmondia: Cousin is insane.
EnsTren: HATE.
Edmondia: He quietly stroked her hair.
EnsTren: What would have happened if Yugi had been put in Seto's position?
Edmondia: He closed his eyes and swallowed down the instinctive terror that welled in his gut.
EnsTren: Would he have won as Hikari had? Won yet lost his soul?
Edmondia: It was possible - as all things were.
EnsTren: Hikari tried so very hard.
Edmondia: He wished he could soothe her.
EnsTren: She felt like she failed.
Edmondia: Mokuba's safe and happy.
EnsTren: She had hurt him though.
Edmondia: He's healed.
EnsTren: Had lost herself until little Yugi and his guardian love, other half, had come to bail her ass out.
Edmondia: And we all need aid at some point.
EnsTren: She had lost against Pegasus. And little Yugi and his beloved with their team of cheerleaders had come to bail her souless ass out again.
Edmondia: He had you at an unfair advantage.
Edmondia: He cheated.
EnsTren: They won though.
Edmondia: They had a fair fight.
EnsTren: Now she needed little Yugi and his perfect other to help her get better.
EnsTren: Over something she should be able to conquer herself.
Edmondia: ?
EnsTren: To take care of her.
Edmondia: Care for you.
EnsTren: To help her with something that should be so perfectly instinctual even she shouldn't be able to mess up.
EnsTren: Yami...
EnsTren: Her Yami.
EnsTren: And she needing fucking help with him.
EnsTren: Because she was stupid weak failure girl.
Edmondia: You're hurt, he whispered, He hurt you and you must heal - and none can heal without aid. Never weak - never a failure. But very hurt inside...
EnsTren: Why do I always lose when it really matters to me? Except in the things that will truly crush and break me?
Edmondia: I don't know.
EnsTren: Does their slave truly hate me that much, that she wants to see me strung out and tortured endlessly by my inability, instead of just giving me death or oblivion?
Edmondia: ?
EnsTren: Lady luck, yami.
EnsTren: Does she hate me that much?
EnsTren: Perhaps it is because I make my own luck and fight her sibling destiny at every turn.
Edmondia: You live where others would have died - and were it every turn, dear light, I would not exist.
EnsTren: Because I made my own luck, because of ME. Because of my will and strength and skill.
EnsTren: And I wasn't alive when you were born to fight Destiny. To fight fate.
Edmondia: He smiled at her. I love you.
EnsTren: I hate them.
Edmondia: I'm sorry.
EnsTren: ...Do you think it's luck? Or fate? Like Isis believed?
EnsTren: Or was it really me who did that, who won it for myself, no matter how puric?
EnsTren: She was doubting herself now.
Edmondia: I think, beloved, it was you.
EnsTren: She still doubted.
EnsTren: Is that why?
EnsTren: Why I have to fight so hard for everything?
Edmondia: I think you are human, my love - I think that is the way of humanity.
EnsTren: And them?!
Edmondia: ...I don't know what they are.
EnsTren: Hate them...
EnsTren: When my heart needs it I lose.
Edmondia: You have your brother - he is your heart.
EnsTren: She slipped out of his arms, tears dripping from her chin to the floor.
EnsTren: I lost. I lose.
Edmondia: Beloved... he reached for her again, but hesitated before touching his hands to her body. You have your brother, your health, your allies... all you have fought for you have won.
EnsTren: She growled one word, clearly enunciated before she left, "Yu-Gi."
Edmondia: ...beloved...
EnsTren: There was no answer.
Edmondia: So angry, his light, so sad and hurt inside...
EnsTren: And there was truth to her beliefs.
Edmondia: Truth... he could not shield her from that.
EnsTren: It was so hard for her to trust him, how hard was it for someone who fought and fought and suffered for all she had, to be so apprently easily saved by another?
Edmondia: Appearances were deceptive, and she never knew how they screamed in the night.
EnsTren: He wondered if she would take the torment that cousin and his aibou had in exchange for their "luck."
Edmondia: Would she be happier, then?
Edmondia: Did he dare ask her?
EnsTren: He had a feeling, even if it had to be piled up on top of what she had already, even if she knew what it was--she would say yes.
EnsTren: Becaus... only he could break her back, she had proved already, she was capable of bearing what would destroy and kill another ten times over--and retaining enough light to move cousin to sympathy--though she would name it pity and hate him more for it.
EnsTren: Though--he had a feeling that even if Cousin had crushed her soul to the greatest extent possible--she would have still put it together, though her body would have died long before she was finished.
Edmondia: But... he didn't know how to grant that wish.
EnsTren: He wondered if cousin and Yugi knew what hikari felt and why.
Edmondia: How could they?
Edmondia: ...how could they not?
Edmondia: Yugi saw everything...
EnsTren: ...Unless he was looking only at cousin.
Edmondia: He would ask him to look at hikari, someday, and tell him what he saw.
EnsTren: ...But it might hurt Yugi's feelings to see what Hikari couldn't help but feel.
Edmondia: ...but Yugi was strong and fragile all at once - it would make him sad, but not hurt him.
EnsTren: And since Yugi knew everything...maybe he would know something that would make hikari feel better?
EnsTren: Something... to be a balm to her fighting spirit and the wounds their presence inflicted.
Edmondia: ...Yugi would tell him to love her, wouldn't he?
EnsTren: He was afraid that her spirit would be broken by them though.
EnsTren: He had been brought up to know that he would never be able to best cousin--thouhh that never stopped him from trying.
Edmondia: He had lived to protect cousin.
EnsTren: Hikari... had that dumped upon her, and she fought much much harder than he ever did, simply because she had more to fight against, and didn't know any better.
EnsTren: They were like... a debilitating wound to an athlete or soldier.
Edmondia: He couldn't imagine living like that.
EnsTren: Because it didn't matter how much progress they made, everything turned to ash in their mouth.
EnsTren: Perhaps... it wouldn't have been as bad if it were only cousin and Yugi.
Edmondia: ...
EnsTren: But hikari... had also won and lost against Gozaburo.
Edmondia: She always won - and she always lost.
EnsTren: It hurt her so badly.
EnsTren: And still... she was so brave, so strong.
EnsTren: He knew Yugi and cousin were that strong, that brave--though cousin doubted sometimes.
Edmondia: But cousin had Yugi to soothe him.
EnsTren: They didn't have to fight as hard as hikari.
EnsTren: They had friends too, to share the load.
EnsTren: And... the heart of the cards--and lady luck.
Edmondia: ...hikari needed them, too.
EnsTren: Because... Hikari's will was very strong, and always stood alone and very tall--so the weight would never reach Mokuba.
EnsTren: It wasn't in hikari's nature to burden those weaker than her, if she could help it.
Edmondia: But he was just as strong as she - or nearly.
EnsTren: She was stronger than she should be, anyone who cared to look could see it.
Edmondia: ...Yugi knew.
EnsTren: Did cousin know? Or did he just see a rival?
Edmondia: ...no, cousin knew.
EnsTren: Then why did they not make hikari feel better?!
EnsTren: Why did she suffer alone with only Mokuba?
Edmondia: ...hikari didn't let them.
EnsTren: Why didn't either of them realize hikari's secret? Cousin shattered her soul! He should have known!
Edmondia: ...did he know?
EnsTren: ...Would have cousin left someone as bright and as suffering as hikari alone if he had?
Edmondia: ...Yugi was always very gentle with hikari.
EnsTren: Even though hikari was very mean, cruel. But then, hikari was trying to protect herself from the wound that cousin and Yugi were.
Edmondia: And how could Yugi heal her if he was the one who hurt her in the first place?
EnsTren: Yugi HAD to know something that would soothe her.
Edmondia: Gentleness? Love? What else could he give her but himself?
EnsTren: No... some knowledge perhaps?
EnsTren: If cousin and Yugi really weren't human, maybe hikari would feel better knowing that.
Edmondia: ...had hikari eaten yet?
EnsTren: He felt sorry for hikari.
Edmondia: He had to take care of her.
EnsTren: He... also needed to talk to cousin and Yugi about this. Maybe... maybe telling them would ease his own heart.
Edmondia: Yes. Yes, that he could do.
EnsTren: He went.
EnsTren: (*hugs seto*)
Edmondia: (aww. *hugs seto too*)
EnsTren: (I think...yami is going to get a bit antsy)
Edmondia: (?)
EnsTren: (playing yugi is fun I think, but also...I dunno)
EnsTren: (seto's the only "rival" you know?)
Edmondia: (mmhmm)
EnsTren: (who really comes at him with his all--and has talent and skill to back it up)
EnsTren: (and...he's not playing against yami anymore)
EnsTren: (and wouldn't want to give any thing to balm seto, because...he might stop playing with him completely)
Edmondia: (and that would make him sad)
EnsTren: (seth...is being a bit harsh in my head)
EnsTren: ("What does it matter, you'd win anyways.")
EnsTren: ("The outcome is no different, so why do you want to torture my hikari!?")
Edmondia: ("I don't want that! I never wanted that!")
EnsTren: ("So why do you want to play against her?")
EnsTren: ("Did you know about her?")
EnsTren: ("Did you know the secret she tried to keep from even me?")
Edmondia: ("She didn't want my help!")
EnsTren: ("That's a fine excuse.")
Edmondia: (Bitter. "Would you rather I forced her like you did?")
EnsTren: (He almost hit cousin, almost. "With all your know-how and stratagy, didn't you see you could have been her friend?")
EnsTren: ("You force her now to accept your presence and your friend's presence")
Edmondia: ((um, he's yelling at Yugi))
EnsTren: ((ah))
Edmondia: ("What else am I supposed to do? Leave her alone?!")
EnsTren: (strange and sudden thought!)
Edmondia: (?)
EnsTren: (what if... yami sees seto as a game?)
EnsTren: (a very highly prized one--because she's a puzzle he can't make out)
Edmondia: (very strange and unlikely, but interesting)
EnsTren: (almost as complex and bright as his hikari)
EnsTren: (but, he can see his hikari's soul down to the core)
EnsTren: (but even after crushing Seto's...he still can't make out all the parts)
EnsTren: (it's why he gets so aggravated with her sometimes)
Edmondia: (hmn)
EnsTren: (why he wants her to play against him again and again)
EnsTren: (and why he didn't jump upon the knowledge (if he had it) of her beingf female and using it to worm his way next to her, and gain her trust)
Edmondia: (aside from the blantant ooc-ness of that move XP)
EnsTren: (I mean like...*point at hikari no go*)
EnsTren: (hikaru)
Edmondia: (never read it, only know the basic outline)
EnsTren: (hikaru and akira are rivals and friends, they are about as close as yugis and seto)
EnsTren: (if not closer)
EnsTren: (but they still yell at each other and leave the room after a game in a huff)
Edmondia: (k)
EnsTren: (but the point is, they are friends, they eat together, they can be civil when they aren't arguing over stupid moves)
EnsTren: (and they can argue over stupid moves, "if you gone here it would have been a better move")
Edmondia: (mmhmm)
EnsTren: ("I went there to improve the shape you messed up!")
EnsTren: (because go...is a game you don't play against someone, it's one you play together--like building a universe together)
Edmondia: (so you've mentioned)
EnsTren: (yes)
EnsTren: (so yami could have used that card to get close to her like that, and with his silence and constant game play, and compairsons of moves etc etc become like that)
Edmondia: (the reason this would never work - both too antisocial)
EnsTren: (rivals)
Edmondia: (that too)
EnsTren: (it could have been contained with the game)
EnsTren: (only like that with the game and otherwise ignoring each other)
EnsTren: (casue as they are now "My first turn I had these cards, etc etc")
EnsTren: (that won't happen)
Edmondia: (mmhmm)
EnsTren: (both are anti social--but social in the game)
Edmondia: (yes, because it's fun to mercilessly taunt one's opponents)
EnsTren: (EXACTLY)
EnsTren: (because if they compare hands, and with how YGO duelists know their decks they would remember their hands)
EnsTren: ("Fool, you should have played THAT card")
EnsTren: ("What are you talkign about! I won, obviously I played the right card!")
Edmondia: (silly bois)
EnsTren: ("baka, if you had played that card you could have beaten me by threehundred more lifepoints!")
EnsTren: ("And if you had played that one the game would have been longer and more instrestign")
EnsTren: (and it can go on like that and they go "ARGH!" at each other and stomp off)
Edmondia: (...boys are stupid)
EnsTren: (yes)
EnsTren: (but they would have come back together, and doen it again and again)
Edmondia: (because they're stupid)
EnsTren: (and yugi might have made friends with seto)
EnsTren: (or closer than he is now)
Edmondia: (*shrugs*)
EnsTren: (Is that OOC?)
EnsTren: (or at least seto would be more trusting)
Edmondia: (rather, I think, but not... implausibly so)
Edmondia: (seto and trusting do not belong in a sentence that doesn't possess a negation)
EnsTren: (not going for friendship, but trust respect and that extra layer to the games?)
EnsTren: (trust in the...motive sence of the word, and honnor sence as well)
EnsTren: (can you see yami goign for that in seto?)
Edmondia: (...he's not really what you'd call an outgoing fellow)
EnsTren: (which?)
Edmondia: (yami)
EnsTren: (but!)
EnsTren: (I'm making seto a game to yami)
Edmondia: (even then, I'm not sure)
EnsTren: (and with how yami is with games...if I can see it so should he be)
EnsTren: (right?)
Edmondia: (I dunno)
EnsTren: (My thought is...that yami couldn't see that "move")
Edmondia: (mm)
EnsTren: (and why he doesn't want to help her like that)
EnsTren: (help her get mokuba back)
EnsTren: (help her with other things)
EnsTren: (but not make her feel betetr about losing)
EnsTren: (because then...)
EnsTren: (she'll stop playing against him)
EnsTren: (anyways, yami, using seth's hikari)
EnsTren: (quite dark of him)
Edmondia: (part of the reason I doubt it)
Edmondia: (he just doesn't get involved that much with others - and he's usually not out for long enough to do that kind of thing)
EnsTren: (not canon, but you version of him)
EnsTren: (he seems out and about all the time in your version of YGO)
EnsTren: (going to the arcade with yugi and yugi's friends because it makes his hikari happy)
Edmondia: (that doesn't happen very often)
EnsTren: (Seth can't be a rival, not like seto is, because seth knwos he can't win)
EnsTren: (I think the best parts of his past life was when seth challenged him)
EnsTren: (it was fun!)
EnsTren: (Seto does that.)
EnsTren: (but...anything that would make seto feel better.)
EnsTren: (she'll stop fighting)
EnsTren: (if she comes to terms that she can't beat them)
EnsTren: (She fights him less)
EnsTren: (If they make it not hurt, she'll stop fighting all together)
EnsTren: (they are a thron in her side that makes her lash out in beautiful anger, like her dragons in a rage)
EnsTren: (but if the thorn is gone, if it stops hurting her)
EnsTren: (why attack?)
EnsTren: (it makes seth mad)
EnsTren: (and with all the negitive spillover from seto)
EnsTren: (well... "You're only helping us so you can fight against hikari again and hurt her more!")
Edmondia: ("You actually think that?")
EnsTren: (And Seth quivered in rage, eyes bright with tears.)
EnsTren: ("You're hurting her! And you want her to hurt so she'll fight you!")
Edmondia: ("I don't!")
Edmondia: ((he's still screaming at Yugi, you realize?))
EnsTren: ((why?!))
EnsTren: ("And what of cousin?!")
EnsTren: ("You may not but what of cousin?!")
Edmondia: ("We might be bad but we're not like that!")
EnsTren: ("Cousin ordered me to play. Cousin had me dragged out by guards to play. Cousin used his shadows on me so I would play!")
EnsTren: ((switch))
Edmondia: ((Yugi's not letting me))
EnsTren: ((*makes face at yugi*))
EnsTren: ((but yugi not letting it?))
Edmondia: ((Yugi's... very upset right now))
EnsTren: ("Cousin has a goad that will never go dull and he's using it on my hikari because I'm not good enough!")
Edmondia: ("Shut up, Seth.")
EnsTren: ("No I won't!")
Edmondia: ("You're just upsetting yourself.")
Edmondia: ((this is yami, btw))
EnsTren: ("My hikari hurts because of you!")
Edmondia: ("I'm sorry.")
EnsTren: ("No you're not!")
Edmondia: ("Believe what you want.")
EnsTren: ("Fuck you Pharaoh," and Seth left, hikari cried in his arms, perhaps now she would allow him to cry in hers.)
Edmondia: (He knew cousin was crying in his hikari's arms already.)
EnsTren: (More tears were added to the ones that he was already holding back. But a part of him also cheered.)
Edmondia: (...oh gods, he felt sick.)
EnsTren: (...but Hikari...)
EnsTren: (They cried together.)
Edmondia: (...at least they were together.)
EnsTren: (He'd make hikari feel better even without cousin's, no, Pharaoh's and Yugi's help.)
Edmondia: (...so why did that thought make him cry harder?)
EnsTren: (He tried to cheer himself up, hikari would only play with him and it would just like hiding from Pharaoh again as punishment for being an asshole.)
EnsTren: (For the term fit cousin very well sometimes indeed when they were younger.)
Edmondia: (But they weren't younger.)
EnsTren: (C-Pharaoh was always slow to learn if it wasn't a game)
Edmondia: (But he had Yugi now - wasn't he supposed to be better?)
EnsTren: (Yugi was the one that knew everything though, was the trusting and nice and good one. And Yugi didn't tell him what would make hikari feel better.)
Edmondia: (...had he asked?)
EnsTren: (He had tried to.)
Edmondia: ((when?))
EnsTren: ((he tried to, btu got all...spilloevr backwashed angry))
EnsTren: ((or we skiped over it))
Edmondia: ((Yugi would have told him if he managed to spit it out))
EnsTren: ((cause face it, sometimes how we start conversatiosn between the boys isn't the start of conversations))
EnsTren: ((is there anything that could make her feel better?))
Edmondia: ((how the hell should I know?))
EnsTren: ((You're dia-sama))
Edmondia: ((Yugi was just gonna tell him to take care of her - in short, do exactly what he had been doing))
Edmondia: ((my answer to all problems is listen to both sides and try and get them both to see reason))
EnsTren: ((that won't take away the sting of their pressance))
Edmondia: ((I know, but what can they do about it? they can't help being the way they are))
EnsTren: ((stop wanting to play seto I think would help))
Edmondia: ((only honorable opponent they have))
Edmondia: ((they'd stop, but feel very lonely))
EnsTren: ((she's been loney her entire life, and to cure their lonely ness they hurt her))
EnsTren: ((oh they don't mean to, btu they hurt her.))
Edmondia: ((they're very unhappy at the mo'))
EnsTren: ((I think the only time seto wasn't hurt in a game with them was that two on two duel))
EnsTren: ((and only because yami said that lien what was it, solmething about if he demands it he would attack now for him, even if it lost them the duel))
EnsTren: ((but the key to winning was in his hand))
Edmondia: ((or something))
Edmondia: ((but I still very seriously doubt they think of seto that way))
EnsTren: ((but defiently as a rival they dont' want to lose))
Edmondia: ((yes))
EnsTren: ((Seto's too much of a fighter though, to be able to live with that))
EnsTren: ((with knowing you can never win))
Edmondia: ((mmm))
EnsTren: ((she's not like jou))
Edmondia: ((mmm))
EnsTren: ((Only mad men fight walls--and beat themselves to death upon them))
EnsTren: ((because the wall will always win.))
Edmondia: ((mmm))
EnsTren: ((Seto...can't do that.))
Edmondia: ((mmm))
EnsTren: ((She's goign to stop playing against them you know))
EnsTren: ((now that she knows))
EnsTren: ((now that they've cried together))
EnsTren: ((instead of fighting the sorce of the hurt to make it stop....she's going to try to move away from it))
EnsTren: ((she's going to loose anyways, so she might as well retreat))
EnsTren: ((seth is very sad to see that crack where before there was none.))
Edmondia: ((Yugi's not speaking to anyone))
EnsTren: ((..Seto...has gone out and bought a fluffy tiny kitten and is curled up petting it))
Edmondia: ((...the ooc-ness has just smashed through the ceiling))
EnsTren: ((hehee))
EnsTren: ((it's a very tiny kawaii kitten though))
EnsTren: ((...and I think she's having a moodswing))
EnsTren: ((coming off male horomones causes nasty nasty mood swings))
Edmondia: ((...shall we send roses to Seth's funeral?))
EnsTren: ((you can litterallty get mad enough to take off your shoe and throw it at someone, and I mean actually do it not like you want to do it))
Edmondia: ((*watches Seth ducking* Indeed.))
EnsTren: ((All the angst I think is keeping her mood swings less angry and more crying))
EnsTren: ((and occasionally buying of kittens))
Edmondia: ((mm))
Edmondia: ((...well, at least they've started to cuddle))
EnsTren: ((seto sees teh yugi angst))
EnsTren: ((and gave him the kitten))
Edmondia: ((O_o ?)
EnsTren: ((*blames it on mood swings*))
EnsTren: ((mild hikari bonding))
EnsTren: ((and seto's sence that yugi should never be nongenki unless it's a life threatening situation))
EnsTren: ((and even then))
Edmondia: ((someone doesn't know much about yugi))
EnsTren: ((never said seto did))
EnsTren: ((but she feels it's wrong for him to be wallowing in angst))
Edmondia: ((mmm))
EnsTren: ((hence, after her own snuggle fest, she hands over the fluffy kitten, and then runs away when she sees yami))
Edmondia: ((and yugi is very, very, very surprised))
EnsTren: ((I think it's a very cute orange kitty with tufts of fur everywhere))
EnsTren: ((and mildly hurt that seto is afraid of yami, and...even more hurt that there's a new crack in her soul, that endless determination))
Edmondia: ((yes))
EnsTren: (Yugi cuddled the kitten close, it was utterly adorable and purring in his hands. But Yugi was still sad.)
EnsTren: (He turned and looked at Yami, "She won't play with us anymore.")
Edmondia: ("I know.")
EnsTren: (He looked back at where she went, "We broke her.")
Edmondia: ("How?")
EnsTren: ("..And I don't think it was meant to be broken.")
EnsTren: ("Her determination.")
Edmondia: ("Why?")
EnsTren: ("What happens when you fight a wall, yami?")
EnsTren: ("Or a pyramid?")
Edmondia: (He blinked.)
EnsTren: (The small boy looked patiently up at the once-pharaoh, petting the kitten in his lap.)
Edmondia: ("...nothing?")
EnsTren: ("You hurt your hand.")
Edmondia: ("...?")
EnsTren: ("Fight a pyramid, punch it. You hurt your hand.")
EnsTren: ("Keep on punching it and your fists bleed.")
Edmondia: ("..." He looked away but curled against him, pillowing his head on his shoulder.)
EnsTren: ("The man sees his shadow against it and thinks the shadow is a man, so he fights it.")
EnsTren: ("And eventually breaks his hand.")
EnsTren: (Yugi hugged him gently.)
Edmondia: (He hid his face in his shoulder.)
EnsTren: ("Madmen would keep fighting, yami. But madmen would kill themselves against the stone.")
Edmondia: (And he slid his arms around his waist and bit his neck.)
EnsTren: ("We're...just a wall that walks and talks and seems like a person, and she has broken her fingers against us already, but healed them quickly to fight us again.")
EnsTren: (Yugi ran his hand though his other's hair.)
Edmondia: (His yami nuzzled his throat.)
EnsTren: ("But now she knows we're a wall, and it's better to run away than to break her hand pointlessly. I know... I know neither of us want her to go mad just so she'll keep fighting.")
Edmondia: (...don'twantobealoneagain...)
EnsTren: (/I'm here./)
EnsTren: (/Seth w s just very upset, he'll come around to. Just wait and see, he'll be your cousin again./)
Edmondia: (//...he hates me.//)
EnsTren: (/Angry, frustrated, hurt. Not hate. The only hate in him is.../)
EnsTren: ((her determination was never meant to be broken))
Edmondia: (//...?//)
EnsTren: (/She hates us./)
Edmondia: ((toldja this should never happen)
EnsTren: ((eh...I love angst, and even though she's stabbing herself in the throat even our doctors should be able to fix her up))
Edmondia: ((*rolls eyes*))
EnsTren: ((what?))
EnsTren: ((I'm your dark muse))
EnsTren: ((dis is me job))
Edmondia: ((there is such a thing as overkill))
EnsTren: ((So says the inventor of three fannonicities and she-who-possesses-enough-fans-to-take-over-the-world))
Edmondia: ((not my fault *looks away, whistling innocently*))
EnsTren: ((*admires the abuse she thoguht up for sheseto*))
EnsTren: ((I'm proud of those ideas))
Edmondia: ((*sweatdrops* o~verkill))
EnsTren: (nah, over kill would be letting goz/somefriend of his rape her)
Edmondia: (that too)
EnsTren: (or convince her it happened *points at fushigi yuugi*)
EnsTren: (the bad trip and the deal draged her up to a cliff edeg and shoved her off)
EnsTren: (I honestly believed she would have, slowly, healed her phobias with seth if it wasn't for the deal and trip)
EnsTren: (hell the trip probably wouldn't have been half as bad if it wasn't for the deal)
EnsTren: (and...I peeked in on the if seth had mroe will power timelien)
EnsTren: (Seto's...seto has a kitten look on her face--and smiled slightly at him)
EnsTren: (and it was quite smooth sailign from there)
Edmondia: (which one was that then, before we starting thinking of seto as a game?)
EnsTren: (...she was all "wow" in her head)
EnsTren: (and she gave him a hug about a week later)
EnsTren: (she was doign much better with magic withotu the nightly stress)
EnsTren: (if seth had turned down the deal, just given her lessons, for maybe a peck on the cheek)
EnsTren: (it was the deal and then the trip that fuck her into overkill)
EnsTren: (without the deal the trip wouldn't have been half as bad, less emotional bagage and angst against seth to tap into )
EnsTren: (without the damn deal I think seto could have recovered on her own with seth with no professional help)
Edmondia: (*kicks Seth* damn your libido!)
EnsTren: (...except for the vaginimus)
EnsTren: (which I'd give her just for embarassment's sake or something)
Edmondia: (...that might cause a bit of alarm the first time they fool around)
EnsTren: (first time he tries to put it in you mean)
EnsTren: (it happens when there's threat of entrance into the vagina)
Edmondia: (fingering, yo)
EnsTren: (ah)
EnsTren: (yeah shock when she "Ah! that hurt!")
Edmondia: (I imagine they'd not go straight to boinking)
EnsTren: (cause they are unlike most pairs)
Edmondia: (it took the others a while... why, the yugis took three whole days!)
EnsTren: (*snarks*)
Edmondia: (XD)
EnsTren: (but the treatment is rather straightforward)
EnsTren: (seto's a smart cookie, she'd figure out what was wrong with her)
EnsTren: (really more trust, and aclimation with object and fingers, culminating with partners penis)
EnsTren: (and that means lots of sex toys to buy)
Edmondia: (Seth's delighted)
EnsTren: (even if it means much slowlyness)
Edmondia: (...oh darn, he gets to play extensively with his omote and toys. darn darn darn.)
EnsTren: (heh)
EnsTren: (and there are...other sexual avenues open to them, which we discussed)
Edmondia: (and in our usual universe, how goes the omote-cuddling?)
EnsTren: (defien which usual one)
Edmondia: (no kitten)
EnsTren: (They are sleeping together, kinda)
Edmondia: (Same bed?)
EnsTren: (not spooning, but streached out in oppisit directions)
EnsTren: (on the floor, pillows)
Edmondia: (ten to one odds they wind up sprawled all over each other in the morning)
EnsTren: (heads close, hands entagled)
EnsTren: (no is like)
EnsTren: (======o o=======)
EnsTren: (the os are their heads)
Edmondia: (I figured)
EnsTren: (tehir lips will be brushing each other's however)
Edmondia: (aww! *squeal*)
EnsTren: (seto's dreaming of kittens, cause I have to keep the kittens)
EnsTren: (and doesn't react too badly at all)
Edmondia: (this is the night after they spent that whole long time cuddling?)
EnsTren: (yeah)
Edmondia: (...cuuuuuuute)
Edmondia: (so who's in whose bed?)
EnsTren: (...she still wants to kill herslef. but the utter cuteness is makign her reconsider)
EnsTren: (no bed, floor)
Edmondia: (ah - they fell asleep cuddling?)
EnsTren: (yeah)
Edmondia: (cute)
Edmondia: (and she's rather surprised to wake up with him)
EnsTren: (no, not so much, more startled, and blushy)
EnsTren: (...I still feel like it's wrong to crack her determination)
EnsTren: (very very bad and wrong)
Edmondia: (that's because it IS)
Edmondia: (that's a defining personality trait)
Edmondia: (you undermine the character in v. fundamental ways if you fooker around with it too much)
EnsTren: (it's not broken, just a bit chiped)
Edmondia: (yeah)
Edmondia: (...Seth's dreaming of babies)
EnsTren: (seto's dreaming of kittens)
EnsTren: (and the malikthings)
EnsTren: (she's looking into a mirror and seeing them--with cat ears)
EnsTren: (and blood)
EnsTren: (the mirror is cracked and getting more crack, the malik things have grown tails)
Edmondia: (...yeah, okay, that's weird)
EnsTren: (and gravity is gone)
Edmondia: (...what did she eat for dinner?)
EnsTren: (gotta run, and not much)
EnsTren signed off at 12:51:48 AM.