Edmondia: (and have had thoughts of our poor Setotes)
EnsTren: (speak!)
Edmondia: (mm, nothing concrete, just thinking that while Seto (AE version, we need a way to differentiate between them) can always go talking to his cousin about his problems, Seto has nobody. my next thought: ooo, jealousy.)
EnsTren: (Kai, and Seto, or kai and kaiba, or seth and seto)
EnsTren: (which one jealous?)
Edmondia: (Seto - his yami can always go curl up on Yugi's sofa with his head in Atemu's lap and babble about yamithings. What can Seto do?)
EnsTren: (talk to his yami... except for the problems he has with his yami)
Edmondia: (precisely. Seth can talk to Atemu about problems he has with Seto... he can be petted and fussed over by the Yugis. Seto can't.)
EnsTren: (and tries to convince himself he doesn't want it)
Edmondia: (Which, as we all know, is bullshit)
EnsTren: (and he tries to bottle it up)
Edmondia: (but you can only bottle things so far)
EnsTren: (ooh... disturbingness!)
EnsTren: (Seth catches Seto throwing up and having jitters after sex, but doesn't call him on it, runs back to bed and pretends to be asleep)
EnsTren: (goes to Yugi and promises he won't tell Atemu... but, tell him, please, does he... ever feel ill after being with Atemu?)
EnsTren: (tells Yugi, after he extracts a promise not to tell anyone, what he saw, how he's sure it happens all the time, and that's the reason Seto flinches when he kisses him, he thinks)
EnsTren: (Yugi is disturbed and consoling, but no it's not like that)
EnsTren: (perhaps Yugi catches Seto doing the same thing, puking and shivering)
EnsTren: issues issues
EnsTren: (Seto would demand that Yugi not tell anyone)
EnsTren: (but as Seto always get fucked over, Yugi of course, breaks his promise and talks to Yami, and even tells him what he weasled out of Seto)
EnsTren: (and then who knows who else finds out because of the Yugis)
EnsTren: (Seth admits he's upset because he's never seen Seto's soul room. Which I see as being kinda star shaped with most of the corners being closets with bad memories in them)
EnsTren: (Shrine to Mokuba, all alight. Shrine to the Blue eyes, again, light, A single large chess piece, gray color and light. Locked doors, darkness, one with a collar and instruments of his torture in them. One with a mannequin of Yami, but all in black except his eyes. Another with Pegasus. Another with Gozaburo. And the Last with chibi him)
EnsTren: (many pointed star, obviously)
Edmondia: (Seto has a sticky soul)
PM)-->: (maybe a simple cot in the middle of the chicasio)
EnsTren: (can't spell)
Edmondia: (me either. and his cot has fluffy pillows)
EnsTren: (maybe)
EnsTren: (fluffy pillows that look like they are trying to be stuffed animals)
Edmondia: (yes. definitely(
EnsTren: (Chiaroscuro)
EnsTren: (it's not the word I was exactly looking for, but it's close, fits yami/hikari relationship)
Edmondia: (poor bois)
EnsTren: (yesh)
Edmondia: (hm, where did we leave off?)
Edmondia: (Seth looking upside-down at Seto?)

EnsTren: Edmondia [2:11 PM]: He glanced out of the corner of his eye and caught the motion. Slowly, he twisted his torso, leaning down to prop himself across the other boy's side and peer, upside-down, into his eyes. "Little light...?"
EnsTren [2:13 PM]: /Maybe...gloves? That could work. And we used condoms.... Oh thank Ryujin, I don't think I'd be able to stand that feeling inside of me.../ He jerked, cursed himself, and slowly raised his eyes to look up at him.
Edmondia: He relaxed his arms, landing lightly on top of the paler boy, nudging him until he rolled onto his back. Satisfied that Seto was loosely pinned, he curled up against his chest and rested his ear over his heartbeat. "Little light... are you afraid of me?"
EnsTren: His light shivered under him, and his skin was cool to the touch. He could hear the heartbeat fluttering behind his ribs, quite fast. He could hear him swallow then say with a dry mouth, "Maybe."
Edmondia: He flinched, resisting the urge to curl closer, resisting the urge to drag him down and drown himself inside him. "...why?" he wondered aloud, "Why can't I make you happy...?"
EnsTren: "Maybe I'm just a sad person. I'm happier than I was before. Doesn't that count for something?"
Edmondia: This time, he couldn't resist the urge, and curled his fingers through his hair and pressed his lips to his pale skin. "I don't know... I want you to smile."
EnsTren: He shivered from the kiss, the hand in his hair, the increased contact. He felt the bile welling up in him as the darkness pierced him, no, sucked the warmth out of him, did something that made him feel awful.
EnsTren: He pretended like he enjoyed it.
Edmondia: //...there's something wrong here...// He pulled away sharply, shoving himself back to a sitting position, staring down at the sprawled form of his light. Seto was always pale, but... was he ill?
EnsTren: He looked a bit pasty, a bit gray. It made his half-lidded eyes seem feverishly bright. "Mmn?" He looked up at him curiously as if nothing was wrong. His stomach refused to unknot.
Edmondia: He reached out cautiously to stroke the messy bangs away from his eyes, starting when he flinched. "Seto...?"
EnsTren: "S-sorry," he put a small smile on his face, he was a good actor but he didn't think he could manage a real smile. "I'm... a bit sore, and I've... never..." Forget never doing anything like that before, he barely indulged in fantasies.
Edmondia: He bit his lip. "...I... I hurt you? I - I didn't mean to, little light, I've never... I mean, I'm not..." He hung his head, embarrassed. "...are you sure that's all it is?"
EnsTren: He shrugged, "i-I was under the impression that the first time always hurt, at least a little. Don't worry about it," don't think about it. "I'm fine," I'm lying. "I'll just go take a shower and clean up," throw up. "Okay?"
Edmondia: Seth stared at him uncertainly. "I - Are - can you... do you need my help? I'll help you - do you want me to?"
EnsTren: Another small smile, fake, but so uncommon in its lack of cruelty it seemed genuine. "I'll be fine." And he slipped away from him.
Edmondia: He darted forward and managed to catch his hand, stilling him in his tracks. He pressed his lips to the slim knuckles, staring up at him in adoration. "Seto... I love you..." he breathed, "I do love you..."
EnsTren: "I believe you," another little smile, gentle, not faked. "I love you too, need you." I just can't... Oh I'm going to throw up. He slipped away, keeping the pleasant expression on his face.
EnsTren: The door closed behind him, clicking into place, and the shower started up. Confident that the sound of water would cover him he fell to his knees and started dry heaving.
Edmondia: Seth hovered uncertainly behind the doorway, a deep frown on his face. Finally, he turned his attention back to the mess in the bedroom, and numbly started putting the room back in order.
Edmondia: It was cold.
EnsTren: The most that came up was a bit of bile, he then slipped into the shower, letting the falling water needles numb away the sickly feeling he had inside. He crouched down under the spray, knees hugged to his chest.
EnsTren: It was cold.
Edmondia: (...we're so mean to these two)
EnsTren: (setotes attracts angst)
Edmondia: (they're like angst-magnets. it's those cold, tortured eyes.)
EnsTren: (is it bad we're mean?)
Edmondia: (um... ask Puck)
EnsTren: (heh, by the way, what do you think of me having seto swear by the dragon king/god of the sea?)
Edmondia: (bit odd, as he's not the religious type, but if he were, I can see him going by that)
EnsTren: (I can see him as being minorly shinto)
EnsTren: (shintoism, even prominant rocks are gods)
EnsTren: (so maybe his blue eyes white dragons...)
Edmondia: (aha)
EnsTren: (esp as I see him coming upon those three cards oddly)
EnsTren: (namely he didn't spend a lot of money buying booster packs)
EnsTren: (like in willy wonka and that rich girl?)
EnsTren: (he just bought a booster pack and there it was)
EnsTren: (and it just kept happening that way)
Edmondia: (Kaiba's got the magic touch)
EnsTren: (egzactly, and he found them all within weeks of the release)
EnsTren: (hence some of the psychoness about the fourth one)
EnsTren: (go with shinto, the weird gravitation, he might feel that they had a spirit, alive, part of him, and then one of them "betrays" him)
Edmondia: (could be. or he could just be obsessed. but that's more fun.)
EnsTren: (his obsession was born out of the coincidence)
EnsTren: (and just to further make it weird, first card on all the booster packs he buys himself is always a dragon)
Edmondia: (ah, creepy! though probably not to him)
EnsTren: (and then the one card that seeks him out and stuff...)
EnsTren: (he had betrayal feelings going on with that fourth blue eyes)
Edmondia: (shouldn't have ripped it, though. bad Seto!)
EnsTren: (but now it can't be used against him)
Edmondia: (true. but nasty thing to do nonetheless!)
EnsTren: betrayal issues
EnsTren: I bet the blue eyes is Seto's legal trademark, too
EnsTren: (he bought it from industrial light and illusion)
Edmondia: (Industrial Illusions. You had a weird George Lucas crossover going there)
EnsTren: (sorry)
EnsTren: (going now)
EnsTren signed off at 4:18:35 PM.