EnsTren: if there's a winner and a loser he can't do that
EnsTren: but pillow fights... everyone wins and you go eat ice cream!
EnsTren: so it's something he can really have fun with and enjoy and be... a little not... the child that is all but dead
EnsTren: so he gets upset and wants his stuffed dragon

EnsTren: *points at hang gliding*
EnsTren: *points at Setotes*
Edmondia: *facepalm* They're going to kill themselves.
Edmondia: Yes, Seth, we know you're flying.
EnsTren: *watches them go whee on hangliders made to look like BEWD wings*
Edmondia: They're going to break something.
EnsTren: then Seth can baby his hikari
EnsTren: and take good good care of him and make him happy even if he can't go outside and play
Edmondia: sitting on the bed and playing Zelda
EnsTren: oh... and hand feed him
Edmondia: Seto playing Zelda, Seth cheering him on
Edmondia: and hand-feeding him from a gallon bucket of ice cream
EnsTren: or smash brothers together
EnsTren: and maybe get into a pillow fight
EnsTren: and then Seth can petpetpet his tired sweaty hikari, and maybe, if he's lucky have a kiss
EnsTren: but must resist ravaging and ravishing and molesting, no matter how yummy he looks
Edmondia: yes, that's going to be stressful
EnsTren: see Seto as slowly being willing to do more... adult things after simple fun. like a few kisses and light light petting
Edmondia: slowly though
EnsTren: mostly light smoochies and maybe touch each other's faces
Edmondia: snuggling and cuddling
EnsTren: and holding, which I think Seth will like because he'd be holding his lovely pretty ice hikari and his hikari wouldn't be crying
Edmondia: all wrapped up in blankies and happy
EnsTren: and quiet quiet and loving him
EnsTren: I can see Seto being uke, he was very egaer to top some of the time, but he just couldn't because he couldn't force himself to initiate painful contact
EnsTren: so he got into the uke groove and stayed in it
Edmondia: plus he's quite a bit shyer than Seth
EnsTren: and being taken care of is good and nice
Edmondia: and Seth likes taking care of him, so all is well
EnsTren: and really not sure what to do sometimes with his body or hands

Edmondia: Mokuba would definitely jump in the bed with them and snuggle
EnsTren: and Seto would laugh and be happy and snuggle back and be a happy and good big brother and a happy and good hikari
Edmondia: and they'd fall asleep in one big tangle of sleepiness and maybe Seto would let Mokuba take the next day off of school because let's face it, Mokuba's far too cute to resist
Edmondia: Seth does a lot of doting on him, I'd imagine
EnsTren: of course, way to hikari's happy is thought his otouto
EnsTren: and trying not to be worried that sometimes it seems Seto's sense of play is less developed than Mokuba's

EnsTren: ...Seth's reaction to sky diving?
Edmondia: "WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!"
EnsTren: obviously, but at first?
Edmondia: the idea or the actual doing it?
EnsTren: "Going up in one of hikari's flying things higher than his big building and jumping out?"
Edmondia: "How are we not going to go splat?"
EnsTren: "Parachutes... uhm, wel'll have back packs that have sheets in them... you know those dandelions Mokuba likes to blow?"
Edmondia: "We are going to be saved by sheets of dandelions."
EnsTren: "No. But you know the seeds? They have the fuzz on top to make them float? Think instead of fuzz a large sheet... we're seeds on a larger scale, and going more down than sideways."
Edmondia: "...by a bedsheet."
EnsTren: "No, a parachute."
Edmondia: "...if you're going to be suicidal, I'm going with you."
EnsTren: A sweet hikari smile. "You'll love it."
Edmondia: "...possibly."
EnsTren: "You will." Sweet smile and he takes him with him to the plane.
EnsTren: and then they jumped
EnsTren: and then the "WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"
EnsTren: and then when they are back home
EnsTren: "Atemu! Atemu! I jumped out of an airplane with my hikari and it was just like flying!"
EnsTren: also...*looks for the right spelling*
EnsTren: Seth coming for Atemu with a fifty dollar Krugerrand
EnsTren: "Atemu, Atemu! Look at what my hikari gave me! It's almost pure gold and it's worth 50,000 yen! I... I cut it in half so you can have some," and he handed over half of the coin.
Edmondia: *blinksu* *blinksu* "...and he let you?"
EnsTren: Seth shrugged, "Hikari said I could cut this one in half, and none of the old old ones. Cause they make these but don't make the old old ones."
Edmondia: "...it's SHINY~"
EnsTren: "Hikari said it is 22 out of 24 carets which is how pure it is."
Edmondia: "...it's SHINY!"
EnsTren: "...Hikari got me more."
Edmondia: "Lucky."
EnsTren: "My Hikari is like a self-made pharaoh, I think."
Edmondia: "Could be."
EnsTren: "Atemu?" Seth asked catiously, looking down.
Edmondia: He blinked, glancing away from the new toy. "Yes?"
EnsTren: "Does your hikari ever... not act his age? Or in his head?"
Edmondia: "What do you mean?"
EnsTren: "Hikaripretty acts funny sometimes, but it's when he's his brightest and happiest but I almost always mess up then and make him unhappy and crying and sad and angry."
Edmondia: "...how do you 'mess up?'"
EnsTren: "I make him unhappy and say or do the wrong thing. Hikari likes sex very much now that I know that... that I hurt him," his jaw tightened and he swollowed, blinking hard, just admitting it made him want to bawl like his hikari sometimes. "But... when he... when he's like that or when I take him out of that..."
EnsTren: "When he's happy he doesn't want sex, doesn't want kisses either, and when I upset him when he's happy he gets a little sulky and doesn't like kisses then either."
EnsTren: "In his head it's like he's saying that it's wrong wrong bad not right."
EnsTren: "Hikari wanted pillowfights and tired hugs and catching breath and then ice cream. But not hikari in ice cream with me eating it up. If I even suggested that when he wants to eat ice cream he'd get so upset and make me leave the room."
Edmondia: He put down the gold and leapt up on the counter, curling onto it like a big cat, glancing through lowered lashes at his cousin. "Seth... how much do you know about his childhood?"
EnsTren: "Hikari won't tell me but I think hikari is like... taffy, he's hummy like taffy but more like that silly putty stuff. I think... if he's missing something because we're not sure if he's missing or twisted or has something extra... well if it's missing it was pulled like silly putty and making a string for years and years, and then, yank!" He made a violent separating gesture, "It snaps and hikari went insane."
EnsTren: "But he won't tell me what hurt him, or how. Just who, and I can't kill them for him because hikari already did it for himself."
EnsTren: He looked up at Atemu, eyes suspiciously bright, "He killed them! My hikari... I should have been there for him and he barely lets me be there for him now! I should have been the one to kill them for him, to protect him from them so he wouldn't have been hurt or had to sully himself that way!"
Edmondia: He sat there in stillness for a moment, eyes faraway, before he gestured his cousin closer. Finally, he leaned his head on his arms and offered a quiet, "Do you want me to tell you what happened to him?"
EnsTren: "I-I," he dithered and looked very upset himself, unsure of which path to take, "I don't know! Hikari... he might be angry if I go behind his back... he gets sad now thinking about how I come here... because he thinks he's not enough so I have to come to you and your hikari."
Edmondia: "...is he right?"
EnsTren: "I... If... If hikari weren't hurt inside then he wouldn't be so sad and I wouldn't hurt him when I touched him. And then I wouldn't have to come down to you, cousin, for help and to make me feel better after I mess up. I'd still come because I love you, you're my cousin and we grew up together."
Edmondia: "I know... but he is, and you do."
EnsTren: "And... when I'm really good and I make him... not happy but I give him things and please him... Atemu he still offers to... to... let me! Even if it would hurt him!"
Edmondia: A tiny smile crossed his face. "That doesn't surprise me at all, cousin."
EnsTren: "You don't understand Atemu! He... I managed.. .He said I felt like ice and pain clawing into his nerves and heart and lungs... He said... he said... Ra, Atemu, I thought he had a stomach bug but it was because of me he was throwing up!"
EnsTren: "Even when I do my best to make it so he feels what I feel it's barely enough to make it pleasant for him! I thought it was but he was hiding some and... I made him scream Atemu! And not in a good way..." He sounded so distraught, trailing off. "But... he still clung to me."
Edmondia: He swung his legs off the counter and rested his hands on his shoulders. That same sad smile remained on his lips when he spoke. "Yes, cousin, I know he did, and I know why he did."
EnsTren: "He shouldn't! I hurt him! I make him sick! I make him unhappy! Your Hikari never had to really look at what he hates except for in you! You were first and so he doesn't fear you! But mine... Mine can put a name and a face and a handful of horrors to everything he sees in me."
Edmondia: Those soft fingers lifted to his cheek. "Seth... you're crying again, cousin."
EnsTren: He sniffled and hiccuped, "Oh... no I mustn't... He might cry more if he finds out I am and... and..." He rubbed futilely at the slowly falling tears.
Edmondia: He reached up and pulled the taller boy against his chest, letting a hand sift through his hair. "...it's all right to cry..."
EnsTren: "I..." A sniffle, "A-always t-tell my," wipes away his tears and holds in a small sob, "m-my hikari," a gasp of breath, "T-th-that."
Edmondia: "Then why won't you let yourself cry?"
EnsTren: "Because I have to take care of him! I fought so hard and everything to get him to let me take care of him as much as I do! And I can't... I can't do that if I'm crying!"
Edmondia: He stifled a sigh. "Seth... Seto's not ready to take care of you yet. Listen to me - don't complain, just listen. You can't forget what his place is - it's perfectly all right, you can take care of him and cry for him at the same time. He's supposed to be able to stop your tears, but he needs to heal himself before he can start healing you. Do you understand?"
EnsTren: "But I have to heal him," he wailed, tears unyeilding, "And I can't do that if I'm crying!"
Edmondia: "...then cry yourself out so you can get back to him more quickly."
EnsTren: He seized his cousin and clung to him tight, yielding to him and sobbing his heart out for his poor broken icy hikari. It was wrong, he knew that in his heart, because Atemu wasn't anything like Seto and he should be with Seto and not Atemu.
Edmondia: And his cousin just sat there and held him while he cried.
EnsTren: Seth managed to babble out a few things, like how his hikari had confronted him and asked, asked him if his soul was even human anymore. His hikari thought he might be an Asura in a human body, or worse, lower than an animal and Gaki or even tied to hell...
Edmondia: And all the while those soft hands slid through his hair, and his cousin squeezed him tight.
EnsTren: Told him about how his hikari cried and sometimes looked at him in horror, how he couldn't kiss his hikari better when he was hurt playing with him because it would just make it hurt more. Told him of all the small hells.
Edmondia: And he thought that maybe, maybe once his cousin might have held him a little too tight, and that maybe that soft gasp belonged to Yugi, but he couldn't concentrate enough to make sense of anything at all.
EnsTren: He was just crying and crying and couldn't stop. He thought he might have repeated himself, but there were so many painful things that how could he even need to?
Edmondia: And his cousin never said a word, just kept petting him, and he didn't know what to do.
EnsTren: He didn't know what to do for his Hikari.
Edmondia: He didn't know what to do for himself.
EnsTren: So he just cried.
Edmondia: He cried until he couldn't cry anymore.
EnsTren: And then he was quiet, like his hikari after he was all cried out and tired. But sometimes his hikari wanted to cry more but was too tired to, and that was when Seth made him feel better. Seth didn't know if he was too tired or just didn't have tears.
Edmondia: But he was warm here, and safe here, even if it wasn't right, even if he wasn't supposed to be here, even if he was supposed to be home.
EnsTren: He... just needed a little rest.
Edmondia: Yes, just a little rest, that was all, and then he'd go home and curl up with his hikari and Mokuba, and then they'd sleep and everything would be nice and warm and perfect.
EnsTren: And he'd be good for his hikari and keep him happy and not crying sadsad.
Edmondia: He just... needed to rest first.
EnsTren: So safe and warm... he slept.
EnsTren: (nainai)